Su Pei came down from the second floor and walked slowly to the stairs. He stood at the entrance of the stairs and could see He Yiming's back.
It was only a few steps away, but he didn't seem to know how to get there.
He Yiming seemed to have heard his footsteps and turned to look at him, "Didn't find it?"
Su Pei immediately squeezed out a smile, "I found it. It's not the drawer on the right you said, but the drawer on the left."
He walked over and handed it to He Yiming.
Su Pei gave him the certificate and continued to sit down and type his script. He was so shocked for a moment that he could only pretend that nothing happened. The lines that were typed out on the computer don't match the horse's mouth.
After a while, He Yiming received a call from a secretary, who was explaining his work to the secretary. Su Pei gestured for him a few times and whispered, "I won't bother you anymore, go see Little Cookie. Good night."
He Yiming nodded at him and said silently, "Good night."
Su Pei almost ran away with his notebook in his hand.
Little Cookie is already asleep, and Su Pei sleeps in the room next to her. As soon as he entered the room, he threw the notebook on the bed, and when he lay on the bed, his mind was full of what Zou Yongmei had just said.
"He said the watch was given to him by the girl he used to like..."
"I gave him a gift, I didn't stay with him, I married someone else..."
He Yiming never made a mistake, remembering that the watch was given by another person. He wouldn't admit his mistake, it was indeed the one he chose in the shopping mall for a long time, and finally bought it for He Yiming.
Su Pei was a little remorseful.
He should have asked when he came downstairs, "When I was looking for something, I saw the watch I gave you before. Hahaha, you still have it."
He Yiming would probably say, "You gave it, of course keep it."
Then he can jokingly say, "Then how did your mother say it was given by the girl you like?"
What will He Yiming say
Maybe "My mom remembered it wrong."
Possibly "I'm joking."
Or "Really? Impossible, right? Her mind is full of marriage urges, and she makes up things."
But the key is not what He Yiming said, but what he would believe.
Now there is only one thought in Su Pei's mind, and this thought seems to expand into the entire universe. The idea is - He Yiming likes him. He Yiming likes him.
but why? how come? For so many years, he and He Yiming have been good friends.
The more Su Pei asked in his heart, more and more images appeared in his mind—
He Yiming suddenly appeared in his crew after not seeing each other for a year. The look in his eyes when we met again was cold and deep, and there was unpredictable pain.
He Yiming urged his new novel again and again, and after trying it out at his home, he said, "I don't like this heroine, and it was written based on Shen Lan."
Explained over and over again, "I have nothing to do with Chen Xing."
When they returned to the drama club during the school celebration, He Yiming said, "You remember it wrong, we met for the first time more than ten years ago."
And when the ambulance came that night, in a daze, he could hear He Yiming's almost choked voice, "Su Pei, Su Pei, hold on."
Memories from earlier times are still clear.
When he graduated, he partyed with He Yiming all night, and then told He Yiming on the road of self-driving tour that he was getting married.
He Yiming didn't say anything, just looked at him and said, "This is your life."
When he read a novel to He Yiming for the first time, He Yiming said, "No problem, this is absolutely fine."
They stayed in the activity room of the drama club, the students around were snoring, and they were the only ones talking at night.
They climbed to the roof together, sometimes chatting all night.
These pictures are intertwined. In all his youth memories, He Yiming occupies the most special position, but he has always been his good friend.
Su Pei still remembers that when He Yiming came to the drama club for the first time, he stood on the stage and read his lines. He Yiming sat by the back window with his head bowed and didn't seem to look at him, but after a while , He Yiming looked at the stage and made eye contact with him.
At that time, he thought, this boy is too handsome, too special. Such a person should be the protagonist in the story, this is the temperament and face that the protagonist should have, and there should be an unforgettable story to be worthy of him.
Now, Su Pei finally seemed to have removed that veil and saw all the truth clearly.
He Yiming likes him. No doubt, at least I liked him.
Su Pei turned over, he didn't know why he had the urge to cry. He was neither sad nor panicked, but the truth was too shocking, like the shock of suddenly seeing colorful colors after being blind for more than ten years.
All real things have the greatest power. The truth can change everything.
For a moment, Su Pei wanted to rush downstairs and ask He Yiming.
Why never say it? Why don't you tell him
But he understood immediately. This is He Yiming's crush on him. It is because he has always regarded He Yiming as a good friend, even a younger brother who is closer than blood relationship.
So He Yiming would rather keep this secret hidden.
He broke this secret inadvertently and got a glimpse of He Yiming's privacy, which was not what He Yiming wanted.
Su Pei turned two more noises on the bed. He couldn't help covering his chest, which was still beating steadily, just a little restless.
How can he be safe knowing this secret
Su Pei suddenly thought of Shen Lan, Shen Lan's neurotic attitude towards He Yiming, as well as his hostility and groundless accusations towards He Yiming. There seems to be an explanation now.
He actually knew it later than Shen Lan!
Just because He Yiming is a man. Because I'm a man, I don't think much about it. If He Yiming was a woman, Su Pei would have noticed it long ago.
If He Yiming is a woman, maybe they are already married...
Su Pei couldn't help but smile, now he really wants to smoke a cigarette.
It was not until midnight that Su Pei gradually calmed down from the stormy waves. He forced himself to sleep, and by two in the morning he was drowsy asleep. But still uneasy in his sleep, He Yiming's shadow is always in front of him.
When I woke up, the sky was bright.
Su Pei grabbed his phone and saw that it was past nine o'clock. He hurriedly got up to take medicine and take a shower.
Little Cookie woke up much earlier than him, had breakfast, and was playing with cats and rabbits in the yard.
He Yiming was sitting in the dining room staring at the computer. When he saw him come down, he immediately said, "I've got breakfast for you. Eat it quickly."
Su Pei gave a stiff "um" and asked He Yiming, "Has Aunt Zou gone out?"
He didn't expect that he would fall asleep all of a sudden, and he didn't say hello to He Yiming's mother in the morning.
He Yiming said, "Don't worry about it. She is old and wakes up at four or five in the morning. She has nothing to do in the morning to play in the nearby village."
Su Pei stopped talking.
The breakfast consisted of multigrain porridge, eggs, small buns, and a few side dishes. He ate breakfast silently.
It is one thing to find out the truth yesterday, but it is another thing to confront He Yiming today.
What Su Pei temporarily decided yesterday was not to mention He Yiming. How can I get along with He Yiming calmly
It is difficult to be friends if a man and a woman cannot be a couple. It will only be more awkward between men and women. He thought that He Yiming might have the same idea, so he didn't tell him. He knew very well how proud He Yiming was.
And after a sleep, Su Pei was a little suspicious, maybe this thing is really wrong
At night, people's brains are not always awake. Random thoughts and random shopping tend to happen in the middle of the night. Last night he was so sure that He Yiming liked him, but in the daytime, the idea became less firm.
Maybe He Yiming really liked him at first, but after so many years, maybe this secret love has become a thing of the past. Doesn't this happen often
Moreover, He Yiming personally said homophobic words to him, and asked him to throw away the rainbow flag, don't let people misunderstand. Maybe it's because they think it's a juvenile absurdity to like a man, so they definitely won't go any further.
He Yiming must feel that maintaining the current relationship is enough, and a more intimate relationship is not needed.
When Su Pei thought of intimacy in his mind, he couldn't help but get distracted, and suddenly choked on the porridge, he hurriedly took out a piece of toilet paper and coughed violently.
He Yiming was startled by him, and immediately stroked his back, "You can still choke if you eat so slowly, I've got you covered."
"It's okay, it's okay..." Su Pei calmed down, he turned slightly, and turned away from He Yiming's hand as if unintentionally.
He Yiming naturally put down his hand.
Su Pei now seems to see He Yiming from a whole new angle. He Yiming is still the same He Yiming, but he looks more handsome than ever.
Today, He Yiming wore a camel-colored work shirt, casually. The dissenting voice in Su Pei's heart was saying again, "Look, how could He Yiming be gay? He must be a straight man. How many women would fall for him!"
Thinking of this, Su Pei asked He Yiming, "After you broke up with Chen Xing... haven't you dated anyone else?"
He Yiming glanced at Su Pei, "No, what's wrong."
Su Pei said as naturally as possible, "It's nothing. I just remembered, you said that Xiaoyan might just use me as a spare tire... "
"I didn't say spare tire." He Yiming said.
"I mean, I have no hope here for the time being, how are you? Haven't you liked it recently?" Su Pei wanted to be concerned as usual.
He Yiming felt that Su Pei seemed to be a little unhappy with Xiaoyan's affairs, and looked a little awkward.
He said, "If you care about my comments on Xiaoyan, I apologize to you."
Su Pei immediately said "No..."
Now this matter of Xiaoyan is completely irrelevant.
He Yiming changed his words, "Let me make it up to you. When you finish writing this script, let's go out and play. It's my birthday in July, you should have time. Where do you want to go?"
Su Pei thought, how come it was Xiaoyan who asked him to accompany him to Thailand on his birthday, and now he has become He Yiming
If he denies it again, is he deceiving himself too much
"It's hard to say what will happen when, the crew... Anything can happen," Su Pei said vaguely, "Besides, July is also the summer vacation for Little Cookies. Let's see the situation at that time."
He Yiming didn't force it, there was still some time before his birthday.
Su Pei didn't say anything.
Su Pei's mood became sad again, but fortunately, Little Cookie ran back from the yard at this time. Su Pei immediately asked her if she had done her homework and wanted to help her with her homework. Cookie temporarily rescued him.
After returning from the farm, as soon as Su Pei and Xiaoyan met, they told her that he had no time and could not accompany her to play abroad.
Xiaoyan said, "It doesn't matter, we can also play in China. As long as the two of us are together... "
Su Pei said politely, "If there is a vacation, I want to spend more time with Little Cookie."
Xiao Yan's face turned red, and she didn't say any more.
Su Pei thought, okay. Why should he play love games with young girls. No matter what she likes about him, she doesn't like him having a difficult ex-wife, a daughter who needs to be brought up by him, and all the burdens of life.
Then what does He Yiming like about him
When they were young, he was certainly likable. what about now? His various cares are the residual warmth of a secret love, or is it really such a long-lasting affection
Su Pei found some time and went to Dr. Zeng again.
He made a follow-up visit, and then asked Dr. Zeng to recommend a psychiatrist.
Dr. Zeng asked, "Is it because of illness that has a heavy psychological burden?"
Su Pei said, "There is a little bit of this factor..."
Dr. Zeng said, "Alright. Talking to a psychiatrist will help ease your mental stress and be good for your body."
He referred an experienced psychiatrist.
Su Pei didn't know how He Yiming kept the secret for more than ten years. He only knew that for a week, he already felt that he was about to become ill.