The new cover design of "Inverse Love" is bold and eye-catching. Pure vermilion is the base, and the two characters of inverse love are upright and down.
He Yiming looked at the new book on the shelf.
Su Pei is generally a simple person. He has never conspiracy, no resentment, and seldom jealousy. But a simple person does not mean that his emotions and his thoughts are easy to grasp.
Children are the purest, but actions are the most unexpected.
So is Su Pei. He Yiming couldn't help but wonder if Su Pei was alienating him and why.
Carrying a secret that is too important is like walking on a single-plank bridge with a boulder on its back, and a slight tremor can be clearly perceived. He needs to be able to distinguish what is a false alarm and what is the omen that the single-plank bridge is about to break.
But they haven't had a fight recently and everything is normal. He thought maybe he was thinking too much.
He Yiming's current plan is to cut off all relationships with women around Su Pei. Now that Su Pei is single, he has no scruples about those women who covet Su Pei. Now he wants to nibble and eventually occupy all Su Pei's private time, and Su Pei's closest personal relationship can only be left to him.
On his birthday, he will definitely go out to play with Su Pei. He has already thought about the name, his birthday, add nostalgia for the graduation season, relive their youth, and revisit their old places.
He Yiming thought that he would invite Su Pei again in June to settle the trip.
Su Pei's old book "Reverse Love" was republished after a few years, and finally there was some discussion. Su Pei has followed some reading websites, and the comments on "Inverse Love" are all very good.
This is somewhat comforting.
And it is a positive influence for his new book that has not yet been published, and more and more people are looking forward to his new novel. Although there are not many, some people still ask on the Internet, "When will Mr. Su's new novel come out?" "Mr. Su only writes scripts now, and it's a pity that there are not many novels."
The publishing house has also accelerated the launch of the new book "The Days To Be Done". Li Yan told Su Pei that the publishing house wanted to increase the promotion of the new book. At the Shanghai Book Fair at the end of August, they wanted to arrange for Su Pei to participate in some live broadcast events.
Su Pei would have liked this kind of activity very much when he was in college - the stage, the camera, the eyes and the gaze of everyone, he enjoyed it very much. It's a pity that when they were in college, live broadcasting was not as simple and developed as it is now.
Now he has kept a low profile, perhaps because he felt that if everyone's eyes were on him, it would be easy to see through his scars. Now all information is too transparent.
But he had no way to refuse the activities arranged by the publishing house.
"Okay, I will go to participate, but the process must be done well, I have not done live broadcasts." Su Pei said.
Li Yan promised him, "I will communicate well with the propaganda side. It's not easy to sell books these days, please be considerate." He is an old editor and has personally experienced various changes in physical publishing under the impact of the Internet.
Su Pei is now in the new crew, and the writing of the new script is going smoothly, and the progress has not been delayed at present. They'll have it all written in mid-September, with the first draft of the script set.
However, if he wants to go to Shanghai to participate in the book fair, it will take two days. During the summer vacation, he wants to take the little cookie to play, and it will take a few days. In other words, between July and August, he would spend a lot of time on personal matters.
And He Yiming told him before that he wanted him to travel together...
Su Pei really couldn't think about it, and he still dragged on and didn't let go.
He could easily refuse Xiaoyan, but he couldn't refuse He Yiming like that.
"I know I shouldn't travel alone with him." Su Pei confided to the psychiatrist.
There was no expression on the psychiatrist's face, he said "Why?"
Su Pei said, "Because this is condoning him. If I knew he had this kind of feeling at the beginning, I would immediately reject him and let him not have such thoughts. Let him find his own happiness. The more I drag him, The more he can't start a real relationship. I feel a sense of guilt when I think about how much he has spent over the past ten years..."
The psychiatrist said, "It's not your fault. It's his own choice."
Su Pei said, "But I know now. If I drag him like this, I'll be so sorry for him."
"Then are you ready to confess to him and reject him?" the doctor asked softly.
Su Pei shook his head blankly, "No."
The doctor paused and asked, "Why?"
Su Pei only said, "He is not an ordinary person."
He Yiming is not an ordinary person, not an ordinary friend. It is no exaggeration to say that he has integrated into his life.
The doctor said, "As you said just now, if you found out about this when you first met him, you would immediately reject it. But for more than ten years, it was a subtle influence, and you had a very strong empathy for him. . Or even a certain degree of symbiosis. This kind of renunciation can be very painful. So you don't have to worry too much, you can prepare yourself mentally for a while. It's just that I suggest you think more about yourself instead of assuming the other person's feelings- After all, you are not him, and he may not really suffer as much as you presume. So you don't have to bind yourself with those assumptions."
Su Pei heard the meaning of the doctor's words. He is the doctor's patient, and the doctor is only responsible to him.
At the end of this conversation, Dr. Xu said to Su Pei, "Mr. Su, there is something I want to explain to you. I want to transfer you to my senior sister. She is a very professional doctor who is more suitable than me. you."
Su Pei was a little surprised. He was only mildly depressed and emotionally troubled, so it shouldn't be a complicated case.
Dr. Xu took the initiative to explain, "Because of my own emotional experience, I am worried that my treatment for you will be subjectively affected. I thought I could do it before, but maybe... Your entanglement has gradually spread to me, and I feel a little powerless. already."
Su Pei understood, he said, "I didn't expect..."
Dr. Xu seemed to be relieved and said, "Do you want to say that you can't see it?"
Su Pei thought, now he can no longer decide who is not gay. He smiled and said, "But when you say that, I feel as if I have a bit of a foreboding."
Dr. Xu turned off the computer and said, "I'm no longer your psychiatrist. So I can tell you something as an ordinary person, someone with emotional entanglements in this area."
Su Pei was inexplicably nervous, as if he was about to spy on a world he had never seen before.
"what?"
Dr. Xu said, "You said that your friend has a very successful career, right?"
Su Pei said, "It's not that successful... It just guarantees a good quality of life." He didn't want to reveal too much information about He Yiming, and it was known that this friend was He Yiming.
Dr. Xu nodded and said, "A man who has a successful career and pays attention to the quality of life, if he has this desire, it is difficult for him to suppress. Maybe he has always had a crush on you, and regards you as a spiritual partner, the most important thing in the spiritual world. Man, but that doesn't prevent him from having some fluid relationships to satisfy the body. It's almost inevitable."
Su Pei's face slowly turned pale.
Dr. Xu went on to say, "Mr. Su, you are too gentle. So I hope you think more about yourself and not feel sorry for the other party. Because you don't know how many secrets the other party has. You won't know if he is with others during his lunch break at work. There was a relief in the office. For him, it was just a 20-minute vent, and it didn't prevent you from being his unattainable male god and Bai Yueguang."
Su Pei was stunned by the imaginary picture that revealed a corner.
He said slowly "he's not that kind of person..."
Dr. Xu smiled and said, "Yes. Maybe he is not. So I said, I have been subjectively influenced by myself. But you can check the data in this regard. I just hope that you will consider many aspects. Considering the probability, this It’s also… a kind of mental preparation.”
Su Pei was speechless for a long time. He couldn't imagine that He Yiming had a relationship with a strange man in a corner that no one saw for so many years.
"Doctor Xu," Su Pei asked before leaving, "As Bai Yueguang, how did you deal with it later?"
Dr. Xu said, "I don't need to deal with it...because I'm just the one to vent in my spare time."
When Su Pei came back from the hospital, sitting on the subway, he felt lonely as never before. He thought of He Yiming's appearance and figure, He Yiming's muscular lines.
Unlike him, who has been frail, sickly and exhausted in recent years, He Yiming is so healthy, strong and energetic. Will his body full of strength and beauty of men remain abstinent
Dr. Xu's sincere advice was still in his ears. Su Pei thought, if it was like what Dr. Xu said, then he should have made it clear to He Yiming earlier, so that his spirit and flesh would no longer be separated.
Su Pei didn't want to talk along the way, he even shut down the voice in his heart. He just went home silently and cooked some noodles for dinner.
He immersed himself in the script, to write other people's stories and sorrows and joys, only to temporarily divert attention.
At eight o'clock in the evening, his cell phone rang several times.
He thought it was a good night chat from Little Cookie, but when he picked it up, it was from Xiaoyan.
"Mr. Su, look at Weibo."
"I'm going to be pissed off."
She sent such mindless words, as if they were sent on impulse.
Su Pei now felt that nothing could shock him anymore, but he still opened Weibo.
I saw that a hot search on Weibo was "Rongcheng's confidential plot collapsed". It turns out that "Rongcheng Confidential" had good ratings before, many people watched it, and there was a lot of discussion about the plot, but recently, there are many holes in the plot that have not been filled, or the details before and after do not match, and several characters have different degrees of inconsistency or personality. collapse.
Today's audience's dissatisfaction finally erupted after the death of an important supporting role.
"It was too sudden to die!"
"I felt that the plot couldn't be explained, so I killed people!"
"No, isn't it easier for the heroine to be exposed by killing him now?"
There are many fans of male and female leading actors, and immediately threw the cauldron of the collapse of the plot to the screenwriter. The audience followed suit.
At this time, Su Pei was very fortunate that he only had a personal account on Weibo. So he doesn't have to accept crazy private messages and abuse. Moreover, the collapse of the Rongcheng plot was completely in his expectation.
He originally wanted to see how the screenwriter who took over would be successful, but after watching a few episodes, he found out that the screenwriter didn't make it at all. The pit is just a pit, just jump over and write hard. There is only suspense, no decryption, and the plot is full of pits, and it is strange that it does not collapse.
If it was the usual Su Pei, he might feel sorry for this drama. But today he was disheartened, and seeing the anger of the audience master, he even had a hint of destructive pleasure.
Su Pei thought that he was not all good people.
The phone rang, it was He Yiming, it was his exclusive ringtone. Su Pei just watched quietly and didn't answer the phone.
He Yiming called again. Su Pei finally picked it up.
"I was in the bathroom just now." Su Pei said with a guilty conscience.
He Yiming asked, "Don't care about things on the Internet. I will arrange some public relations for you. Tomorrow there will be no such criticism. This script is not your fault."
Su Pei took a deep breath and said, "Don't worry about it..."
He Yiming said, "It's a very simple matter, you don't have to worry about it."
Su Pei suddenly raised his voice, "I said don't worry about it!"