Su Pei scolded anxiously, making both sides quiet for a while.
Su Pei immediately regretted it.
He has been so fierce He Yiming only a handful of times, only when two people really quarreled and got angry. But today He Yiming came to take care of him, but he lost his temper.
He braced himself, and said slowly again, "It's not a big deal. Let it go."
He Yiming asked, "Have you been drinking?"
Su Pei said, "No."
He didn't know how to deal with He Yiming now.
"What happened?" He Yiming asked. His voice was not angry, on the contrary it had a steady calm. It's that kind of calm, reassuring peace.
But Su Pei could already feel the waves behind the calm.
He also controlled his emotions and said, "It's nothing. It's just a little uncomfortable. I want to rest early."
He Yiming said, "I'll see you."
What Su Pei can't bear now is He Yiming's kindness to him.
He originally wanted to tell He Yiming not to come, but when the words came to his mouth, he said, "Okay, I'll wait for you."
He Yiming is here, and he can talk to He Yiming just in time.
After forty minutes, He Yiming rushed over.
His feet haven't fully recovered, but he can walk and just needs to avoid strenuous exercise.
Su Pei opened the door for him. He was wrapped in a blanket and was really uncomfortable. As soon as He Yiming came in, Su Pei said weakly, "Sit by yourself, I want to lie down for a while."
He didn't know if he was shocked too much today, or if he was infected in a crowded place on the subway in the hospital. After coming back, he was not very comfortable, and now he has a fever.
He Yiming saw a bowl of noodles on the table, but he didn't seem to move much. There are also hospital bags with bottles of medicine in them.
"Did you go to the hospital for a follow-up visit today?" He Yiming asked.
He tidied up the table and poured a cup of hot water.
Su Pei was lying on the sofa with his eyes closed. He Yiming could see it under the light, Su Pei's cheekbones were a little flushed, and his breathing was a little short, looking like he had a fever.
"Su Pei, is your heart uncomfortable?" He Yiming really started to worry. Su Pei has heart problems. If the high fever persists, it will be difficult to deal with, and he has to go to the hospital immediately.
Su Pei closed his eyes and said in a low voice, "I just came back from the hospital in the afternoon... I might have caught a cold."
He Yiming put his hand on his forehead and tested the temperature. Su Pei suddenly opened his eyes and met He Yiming.
"It should be a low-grade fever." He Yiming said calmly.
Su Pei said, "The thermometer is in the drawer under the TV cabinet."
He Yiming found the thermometer and said, "I'll accompany you tonight, wait until your fever subsides before leaving."
Su Pei knew that tonight was destined to be a long night. He never thought that it would be so difficult to spend the night with He Yiming in the same room. It would be too difficult to go through without tobacco and alcohol.
Although he had a fever, his mind was clear. He even had an illusion that his spirit became lighter when his body was heavy, and he could even break free from this body.
He Yiming stung Su Pei's ear with an ear thermometer.
"37 degrees 8."
"You're always like this," Su Pei'an said quietly, "too take care of me."
Although He Yiming and Su Pei have not been a couple for a day, their tacit understanding is not comparable to that of ordinary couples. He knew that Su Pei today was abnormal. Although he is not sure why, Su Pei must be hiding something today.
He Yiming responded lightly, "Because you have the ability to do nothing wrong, and you can make a mess of yourself. If you let it go, who knows how much you can ruin yourself. Don't thank me."
Su Pei smiled and coughed. He said, "You mean to say that you took so much care of me. I used to be rude at all. How can I be grateful today?"
He Yiming said, "I didn't mean it that way."
He rolled up his shirt sleeves, opened the refrigerator, and said, "Look at your dinner, you barely moved. I'll make you a lighter soup, and you'll be more comfortable."
Su Pei thought that this was He Yiming's contribution to him, and it was also a "cannibalization" of him. In the past ten years, he has become accustomed to He Yiming's presence. No matter how noisy they are or what conflicts arise, he is sure that He Yiming will always be there and will always be his friend.
He Yiming invaded his life little by little, and slowly swallowed his sense of boundaries.
At what point does it seem weird that two good friends are so close? What words should not be said even between good friends? Is it possible to rely on good friends without any restrictions
These problems gradually disappeared between him and He Yiming. It seems that everything can be explained with the words "He Yiming". Because he is He Yiming, everything is taken for granted.
Now Su Pei knows that this is wrong.
"Don't be busy, I can't eat." Su Pei said.
He Yiming didn't listen to him, so he made a call with his mobile phone and ordered fresh food to be delivered to the door.
Su Pei sat up slowly and said, "Xiao He, don't be busy. Let's talk."
He was serious.
He Yiming has a wild animal-like intuition. He feels that what Su Pei wants to say now will not be what he is happy to hear. But he still sat in front of Su Pei. He has the confidence to take control of the situation.
Facing He Yiming's gaze, Su Pei couldn't directly ask, "Do you like me?"
Because he couldn't imagine that he and He Yiming could continue after this problem was clarified.
But He Yiming is so smart, maybe he doesn't need to be explicit.
At this moment of hesitation, He Yiming had already made a preemptive strike.
"What are you going to do about the turmoil on the Internet? Is it so slandering? Throwing the cauldron of the broken script on your head?"
He knows how to take control of the conversation.
Su Pei knew that he had missed the opportunity, but this was indeed the problem he had to face.
He said, "I have thought about it, I will write an article to defend myself, and then let Xiaoyan send it out. She wants to be a marketing account, and just needs a topic. It just happens to be a series of articles on the theme of screenwriting, so that the public can pay attention to it. The problem of screenwriters. It's not about who is to blame, but about the current industry phenomenon."
Fuck his master's industry phenomenon. He Yiming doesn't care about the status quo of the industry at all, he only cares about Su Pei. He quickly thought about Su Pei's abnormality in his heart, what exactly Su Pei wanted to say.
Su Pei went on to say, "What do you think? This can occupy a high point and distract the audience. Moreover, I think they have something to do with someone to scold them. After a few days, there is other news in the entertainment circle. Or after the show is over, no one will mention it again."
He Yiming rubbed his fingers and said, "That's fine, deal with it in your own way. But why let Xiaoyanfa? Wouldn't it be better to find a big v with more traffic?"
Su Pei said, "It's not easy for her to start. And she has potential. I won't see it wrong."
He Yiming said sourly, "Yes, your eyes are very accurate. Then I'm looking forward to her outburst."
Su Pei couldn't help smiling, and then he stopped smiling immediately.
He shouldn't enjoy every moment with He Yiming too much. Originally, such a small chat was the most comfortable time for them, like it used to be. But it's different now.
He should not stumble on He Yiming anymore. He himself should be freed from this abnormal dependence.
He Yiming had already dragged over the computer and said, "Anyway, you have to rest now. Well, you can dictate, and I will write this article for you, don't waste your time."
Su Pei was brought to the rhythm by him again, so he couldn't help but nodded and said, "Okay."
He still wasn't determined to cut to the chase.
He still craved this moment of tranquility.
The two of them cooperated tacitly. When they were in the drama club, they used to write scripts together. After so many years, it was still effortless to write an article together.
He Yiming just finished polishing the article, and the fresh food delivery arrived. He put down the computer, sorted out the ingredients, and prepared to make soup for Su Pei.
"Don't say you don't want to eat, in fact, I came directly from the company, and I haven't had dinner yet. You don't want to eat, but can't stop me from wanting to eat?" He Yiming said.
Su Pei was speechless now. He Yiming thickened broccoli, mushrooms, longli fish, and eggs to make a pot of soup. He chopped the broccoli, sliced the mushrooms, and served with the fish.
He Yiming served Su Pei a bowl of soup with some rice. Su Pei didn't eat, but finished the soup.
After eating, Su Pei took her temperature again. The temperature is lower than before.
"It should be fine in a while," Su Pei said, "I feel much better."
He Yiming was still sitting next to him, "Don't be careless. If your temperature is high, I have to take you to the hospital immediately."
Su Pei said, "Actually, in addition to seeing my heart, I also went to see a psychiatrist recently."
He Yiming frowned and asked, "How is it?"
Su Pei relaxed a little and said, "My doctor is not bad, he is a good person, and he has helped me a lot. He helped me sort out a lot of things."
He was finally able to speak.
He Yiming looked at him, "I don't think I would like to hear what you are going to say next."
He seemed very candid.
Su Pei thought, if He Yiming was really frank, what would they be like? Will they be friends for so many years
"The psychiatrist advised me to let go of the failed relationship and not to be entangled. In fact, I have already let go of my relationship with Shen Lan... There is really nothing to worry about." Su Pei's voice was calm.
He Yiming listened, "What else?"
He knew the point was down there.
Su Pei said, "Then I can also make new emotional connections..."
He Yiming immediately understood what this sentence meant.
"Building a new emotional connection" is equivalent to "making a new girlfriend."
"Is this the doctor's advice?" He Yiming asked, "What doctor did you find?"
He couldn't control the sarcasm in his tone.
Su Pei avoided his question, and he continued, "I trust this doctor very much. I have talked to him a lot. Career, family, friends, everything. Of course, including you."
If He Yiming had thorns on his back, they would all stand up at this moment.
Su Pei thought, he really shouldn't drink that bowl of soup, and now he's already vomiting.
"The doctor said that my dependence on you is not healthy. The relationship between friends cannot replace love. I know that I have always regarded you as a good friend, but I divorced Shen Lan because my career was not going well, so I held on to friendship even more tightly. , so it puts you too much psychologically. But this is wrong and unhealthy, because we all need our own space, and only when we develop in our own independent space can we be truly healthy. Friendship cannot replace love , love cannot replace friendship.”
He finished in one breath.
He Yiming's first reaction was that he knew. No matter how Su Pei knew, he already knew.
But He Yiming immediately denied this lightning-like thought in his heart.
He thought that Su Pei had just been lonely for a long time and wanted to fall in love again, so he used a psychiatrist as a guise.
It must be so, it must be so.
Because if Su Pei knew about it and said this, then his biggest nightmare in the past ten years has become a reality.
He Yiming was still able to remain calm, he said, "Then who are you looking for? Xiaoyan?"
Seeing his reaction, Su Pei didn't want to talk anymore.
He wasn't sure if his words would cause more trauma.
He Yiming slowly revealed a smile, "If you want to sleep, go to sleep. Am I hindering you? Didn't give you enough space? I told you before that you don't believe my judgment on Shen Lan. Now you don't either. Trust my judgment on Xiaoyan. That's up to you. Anyway, it won't be me who gets hurt in the end."
Su Pei couldn't speak any more. He knew that He Yiming pointed the contradiction to Xiaoyan, but he was unwilling to face the problem - "their friendship is not healthy".
He didn't know if it was loss, sadness, or escape.
They didn't talk about it for the rest of the night.
In the middle of the night, Su Pei lay on the bed and fell asleep. His fever subsided. He Yiming put on his coat and was about to leave. He went to the bedroom to look at Su Pei again.
Su Pei breathed evenly, but still frowned slightly in his sleep.
He Yiming stared at his face, he couldn't see enough.
Su Pei suddenly said vaguely, "I'm sorry..."
He is talking in his sleep.
He Yiming leaned over and heard more clearly.
"Xiao He... I'm sorry..." Su Pei muttered a few sorry, tears leaking from the corner of his eyes.
He Yiming was shocked, he slowly stretched out his hand and gently stroked the corner of Su Pei's eyes.