All this happened so fast that Su Pei was hit by He Yiming against the wall and his back hurt.
Before he could regain his senses, he heard He Yiming asking something in a hoarse voice.
His mind was buzzing, and he murmured, "… what?"
Then he reacted, what He Yiming meant.
He Yiming didn't wait for him to speak, he pressed his shoulders with one hand and his head with the other. He pressed his whole body up and kissed Su Pei hard.
Su Pei's eyes darkened, suffocation, and the air between them seemed to be swept away in an instant. He was top-heavy in a vacuum.
It's a rough kiss. The person who kisses is full of anger, and the person being kissed does not know how to bear it.
Su Pei struggled like drowning. He patted He Yiming's back hard, trying to break free from He Yiming's imprisonment.
He Yiming finally let go of his head, but still wrapped around his shoulders. He was half a head taller than Su Pei, and there was an ambiguous space between the wall and his body, and Su Pei had nowhere to turn.
Su Pei pushed He Yiming's chest, he just wanted to get more breaths.
But He Yiming has been exercising all year round, and his muscles are firm and powerful.
Su Pei could only push away some, "He Yiming, don't be like this!" He wanted to tell He Yiming to have something to say, but he was weak now, and it didn't sound like a deterrent.
"You haven't answered my question yet," He Yiming said, "would you rather have a try with that Li He than me?"
Su Pei said, "Before your birthday, I actually want to tell you. If you want, we can try together... "
He Yiming said, "Impossible. You clearly told me that..."
He stopped suddenly. Only then did he realize one thing. He didn't wait for Su Pei's "final judgment" that day. He didn't hear Su Pei really say the sentence "We can only be friends".
His face turned bloody.
Su Pei said, "But I also felt afterwards that it was too hasty and impulsive to make that decision at that time."
He Yiming was like petrified, he didn't move, didn't say anything.
Su Pei said, "I don't really mean that Li Yunsheng is better than you. It's just that there is no history between him and me, there is too much history between you and me... These are all assumptions, and they won't come true. …”
He was really uncomfortable, probably because of the drunken and violent kiss just now.
"Su Pei..." He Yiming finally spoke.
Su Pei raised his eyes to look at He Yiming. He Yiming's eyes were filled with dim fire, broken light, maybe tears, he wasn't sure, but it must be bitter.
They looked at each other, and He Yiming resolutely said "impossible."
Su Pei didn't want to say this, he knew that he would regret saying it. It may become He Yiming's laughing stock, but now He Yiming's performance faintly confirms his worries.
"Why is it impossible?" Su Pei said.
He Yiming said, "You only like women. You only like women like Shen Lan. This is your taste."
The sultry feeling of suffocation in Su Pei's chest came up again, his heart was pounding, and he whispered, "I'm not feeling well..."
Then his knees softened and he fell down.
He Yiming hugged him.
"Su Pei!"
He Yiming immediately carried Su Pei onto the bed and laid it on his back, unbuttoning his neckline. Su Pei was breathing rapidly, his lips were a little purple, He Yiming found his medicine and gave him a pill.
"I'll take you to the hospital right away," He Yiming said while stroking Su Pei's hair, "It's okay."
The hotel staff brought a wheelchair and helped He Yiming put Su Pei in the car. He Yiming's driver immediately drove to the hospital.
When he arrived at the hospital, the doctor gave Su Pei an drip, and Su Pei's condition quickly stabilized.
He Yiming sat beside Su Pei's hospital bed, held Su Pei's hand, put it to his lips and kissed again.
He is still suspicious of what Su Pei said before he fainted. Maybe he heard it wrong, maybe he understood it wrong, maybe it was his delusion, but no matter how he recalled the scene just now, Su Pei said it so clearly - "Before your birthday, I actually want to tell you. If you want, we can try it together..."
When he thought of what Su Pei wanted to tell him that day, and what he said to Su Pei, his heart trembled. After all these years, he thought he wouldn't shudder at anything anymore. But when he thought of the heavy rain that day, he inserted the tip of the knife into Su Pei's heart like this, and he couldn't help but want to slap himself.
Su Pei woke up in the morning, and He Yiming lay beside his bed.
"He Yiming." He pushed He Yiming's shoulder.
He Yiming raised his head, he looked haggard, and the stubble grew out.
Su Pei said, "You are more like a sick person than me."
He Yiming said, "Su Pei."
He wanted to say directly, Su Pei, let's be together. But he wanted to find a better time to say it.
Su Pei took the initiative to say, "You drank too much last night."
He Yiming's heart sank suddenly, he wondered if Su Pei thought he was drunk and crazy.
"I drank a lot, but I remember everything. But I want to wait until you feel better."
When the doctor came to round the room in the morning, He Yiming had already left. He couldn't stay in the hospital all the time, he made sure that Su Pei was settled and left in a hurry.
The doctor chatted with Su Pei for a while, saying that his recent insomnia had aggravated his symptoms, and suggested Su Pei for surgery.
Su Pei didn't expect to go to the stage of surgery, he said, "I want to take a look."
The doctor said, "You are young, do well in the morning."
That night, He Yiming came to see Su Pei again.
He saw some balloons and biscuit treats in the ward, apparently someone had come.
"Who's been here?" he asked.
Su Pei said, "It's from the crew. When I knew I was hospitalized, I stopped by."
He Yiming saw the balloons tied to the bed. They were brightly colored and cute in shape, like something a girl would give them. He thought that Su Pei still had a woman's predestined relationship wherever he went.
He glanced again, and immediately noticed that there was a blue balloon with two clouds drawn with a marker, and there was a small heart beside the clouds.
He Yiming knew immediately that Li Yunsheng had come.
Su Pei said that the crew did not lie to him, but it was not the whole truth.
He is now beginning to feel a sense of crisis towards Li Yunsheng. Because Su Pei once almost promised to be with him, it should be said that he almost offered to be with him.
He Yiming felt sour and bitter, and more regretful.
He quietly tore off the balloons and said, "Whoever sent this thing to a heart patient, it wouldn't be scary if it exploded. I'll take it out."
Su Pei said "hey", and before he had time to say anything, He Yiming had already untied the balloon and threw it out.
He felt that He Yiming's mood seemed to be much better, and he didn't know if this was a good sign.