This night in the wilderness of the barren mountains is actually very dangerous when you think about it carefully. The two were injured, it was raining heavily outside, there were many poisonous insects and beasts in the mountains, and there was also the risk of collapse and landslides at any time. But every time Fu Shen thinks of that night, the most profound memory is falling on his back, gently soothing people to sleep.
So many years later, when he falls into the same person's arms again, he will still feel familiar.
The rain stopped in the early morning of the second day, and the birds in the mountains were chirping. Fu Shen and Yan Xiaohan left the cave and walked out along the canyon. After the rain, the air is fresh and humid, and many mushrooms grow in the forest. Fu Shen was hungry all night, and eagerly glanced into the woods, the word "want to eat" was about to fall out of his eyes.
Yan Xiaohan had no choice but to drag him to the right path, coaxing and persuading, "It's poisonous, you can't eat it."
"Grass mushrooms and mushrooms growing under pine trees are not poisonous and can be eaten," Fu Shen insisted, "I have picked white mushrooms on the grassland before, trust me."
Yan Xiaohan was almost moved by his firmness, but when he thought of the situation the two of them were in, he ruthlessly refused: "Escape is the most important thing. If you want to eat mushrooms, I'll send you a box when you return to Beijing, okay?"
Fu Shen lowered his head and thought for a while, and also felt that he was a little unreasonable just now. He was usually able to pretend to be a mature and stable adult, but it was probably because Yan Xiaohan took care of him gently and considerately all night, which made him one of the few mischievous people in his nature start to flutter.
"But I'm hungry," he emphasized, looking at Yan Xiaohan eagerly, "I can't walk if I'm hungry."
In fact, the temptation of mushrooms is not that great. Fu Shen does not have to eat this meal. He just misses the warm embrace and obedience last night, and wins more attention from his peers in a world with only two people. Lighten up the fears of hunger, fatigue and the unknown.
To put it bluntly, it's just coquettish,
Yan Xiaohan glanced down at him, unexpectedly not impatient or piercing him. His eyes are very soft, like a handful of melting snow, cold and clear, but there is a warm feeling of recovery inside.
He turned around abruptly, knelt down on one knee, and turned his back to Fu Shen: "Come up, I'll carry you away."
You also need to be measured. Fu Shen couldn't do such a slap in the face.
"I'm not kidding," Yan Xiaohan turned his head sideways, with a smile on his lips, "Just think I'll pay you a mushroom. It's okay, come."
Fu Shen's face was hesitant. That was not generous, but his extremely tall and straight back seemed to have an extraordinary attraction. He took a step forward and stretched out his hand unexpectedly, wrapping his arms around Yan Xiaohan's neck.
Yan Xiaohan steadily carried him on his back.
There was a dull pain under the ribs. The weight of a large living person should not be underestimated. Yan Xiaohan was not in the mood to care about it. He focused all of his attention on the person under his feet and on his back. At first, Fu Shen was stiff like a coffin board, trying his best to keep the distance between his front chest and back.
To put it in a less appropriate way, it was like a small animal timidly approached, and then fell into his palm with a snap.
After a while, his shoulder was heavy, and it was Fu Shen who put his chin on his shoulder.
Yan Xiaohan was forced to relive the heart-wrenching itch when he was held hostage by Fu Shen, and heard him say in his ear, "Brother Yan, I did help you twice, but that's not a kind of kindness. That's it. You... don't be too accommodating to me in order to repay my kindness."
Yan Xiaohan gently rubbed him on his back, and said casually, "I want to make you happy, how can this be called accommodating?"
Fu Shen: "What's that called?"
Yan Xiaohan thought about it seriously, and said uncertainly, "Father's love is like a mountain?"
Fu Shen: "..."
He knocked Yan Xiaohan's head on the back of Yan Xiaohan's head with his forehead, his overlapping arms could feel a slight vibration in his lower chest, Yan Xiaohan's voice had a smile: "Aren't you dizzy? Be careful, don't knock stupidly. already."
Of course, he was kind to Fu Shen for repayment, but it was not just for repayment.
In the relationship between people, it is easy to become acquaintances, but it takes fate to become friends, and Fu Shen seems to be interested in him, and there are surprises from time to time.
In the cave last night, the two of them cuddled up to keep warm. Yan Xiaohan said, "I don't have a father." That was nothing but a word in his head. Tiredness and cold made one's reason lax. Spilled out along the gap.
It was his lack of determination, but Yan Xiaohan did not intend to reveal his secret to anyone, nor did he need the comfort and sympathy of false politeness.
Fu Shen's way of thinking is very mature, his words and deeds have always been restrained and polite, Yan Xiaohan had already expected what he would say, and was thinking about how to get over this topic, but he heard Fu Shen nonchalantly say, "No, I don't either. mother."
His attitude has always been that - you want to say it, I listen, you don't want to say it, I don't ask.
Candid.
Yan Xiaohan breathed a sigh of relief, and at that moment, he truly regarded this "child" as a "friend".
The two trekked in the valley for nearly a day. Fu Shen asked Yan Xiaohan to back down for a while, then jumped down and walked on his own. The scenery in the valley was beautiful, with flowing water, lush vegetation, and a hillside full of wild orchids. If you ignore their current abject situation, this scene can be regarded as pleasing to the eye.
The two rested here for a while, Fu Shen wanted to break a branch to play with, but was stopped by Yan Xiaohan again, he was not angry, and asked with a smile, "I won't let you pick that one, and I won't let you break it, what's the matter this time? Reasons to stop me, are orchids poisonous too?"
Yan Xiaohan gave him the wild fruit that he hadn't eaten, and sat down slightly pressing his ribs, heaving a sigh of relief, "No. I just think that people grow up well in the valley. If they didn't meet us, they would be able to live unharmed for several times. Winter and summer, if you broke a branch, I'm afraid it will wither tomorrow, why bother?"
Fu Shen laughed and said, "The ancients said, 'If you don't wear it, Yu Lan will be hurt'[1], how come it came to you, but instead it's 'It is picked, and Yu Lan is hurt'?"
Yan Xiaohan said: "'The grass and trees have their own hearts, why do you ask for the beauty of the beauties'."[2]
Fu Shen smiled and fell on top of him. Yan Xiaohan said in his heart that this young master is simple enough, and the two of them have been through hardships together, yet they are so close to him.
But it could also be that there are only the two of them in the mountains, and he was a little scared after all, so he always leaned towards him unconsciously.
Yan Xiaohan stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around him, the two of them leaned back and lay side by side on the grassy slope.
Fu Shen looked at the clear blue sky, and suddenly said with a serious face: "Brother Yan is a person who cherishes flowers, and a wild orchid can still win your mercy, why should there be wind and rain on the ground?"
Yan Xiaohan said, "You're talking nonsense again. Thunder, rain and dew are falling from the sky. 'Time is also fate, and it's beyond my ability.'[3]"
Fu Shen sat up straight: "Then I'd better go and pinch that flower. No one dies in life since ancient times, and now there is wine and now is drunk..."
Yan Xiaohan pulled him back, dumbfounded, and hugged him tightly: "Come back to me! You... do you have to go into this muddy water? Whether the Jin family is dead or alive, what does it have to do with you!"
Fu Shen: "Have you guessed it?"
"Is this still a guess?" Yan Xiaohan sneered softly, "A group of people blocked in the middle of the road inappropriately, with the words 'guilty guilty of being a thief' written on their faces. That is, I can't provoke you, otherwise I will arrest Feilong Weishen sooner. You don’t need to fight when the criminal division is over, you can recruit when you’re scared.”
Fu Shen laughed dryly: "Hahahaha..."
Yan Xiaohan: "Before I came, I heard that there are many adults in the court interceding for Jin Yunfeng, including General Fu. You saved those two for this, right?"
Before Fu Shen nodded, he listened to him and continued: "Listen to my advice, don't take everything on your body and ignore your loyalty. The Duke Ying's mansion is at the cusp of the storm, I really thought the emperor didn't know about General Fu and His Royal Highness Su. thing?"
Fu Shen: "Then my second uncle still..."
"He can plead for mercy, because he is half a student of Jin Yunfeng. Heaven and Earth are both parents and teachers, there is nothing wrong with that. And you don't need real feelings, just walk through the scene. But you are different." Yan Xiaohan placed it on the back of his neck. With a pinch, "You have nothing to do with Jin Yunfeng. You are the direct son of the prince. If you cover up the remnants of the Jin family, it will involve the whole position of the Duke Ying's government. Do you understand?"
Silence, like the sunset, slowly descended on this grassy slope.
Yan Xiaohan lowered his eyes to see his contemplative face, and felt that what he said seemed to be too serious, but then he thought about it, if this allowed him to see the benefits clearly, it wouldn't matter if he was harsh.
In fact, he shouldn't have said a word, whether others live or die, whether they are wronged or deserved, has nothing to do with him. Feilongwei is a knife in the hands of the emperor, a knife does not need to "judgment" who deserves to die.
But Fu Shen is different after all—
"Brother Yan," Fu Shen said suddenly, "you are doing it for my own good, I understand."
Yan Xiaohan didn't feel relieved at all, because it was obvious that he would definitely say "but" later.
"But you're wrong about one thing," Fu Shen said. "My second uncle came to the watch because he really wanted to intercede for Jin Yunfeng, not by formality. If Jin Yunfeng was really guilty, he wouldn't have traveled all the way back from the border, and His Royal Highness King Su would also I won't entrust this kind of thing to him, and I will hide and be lazy by myself.
"Jin Yunfeng was wronged. Since that's the case, I can't do nothing if the two beg me."
Yan Xiaohan was about to die of anger at him.
"In the matter of the court, who dares to say that he is innocent? Privately communicated with Han Yuan, passed news to Prince An's mansion, found several letters and gold and silver property in his home, disrespectful words, and a lot of criticism about the cutting of the vassal... The emperor himself gave it to him. Convicted, what is wrong with him?!"
Fu Shen sighed: "I heard that Fei Longwei presided over the investigation of this case. Are these 'evidences' real or concocted, shouldn't you know better than me?"
He was also courageous enough to lie in someone's arms while insinuating that others were "acting for the tiger" and "helping the emperor to abuse". Yan Xiaohan could strangle him to death with just a single touch, but Fu Shen seemed not to care. I don't know much, but I know that the vassal king is the emperor's confidant."
"I know you still..."
"I also know that my second uncle won't run around to plead for the two ministers who have rebelled." Fu Shen's eyes fell on the slender orchid, "'Orchid is like a gentleman, Hui is like a scholar-officer, maybe ten orchid in the mountains and forests are equal to one orchid. '[4].
"Manchu civil and military, he is the only one who dares to stand up and speak for King An."
Yan Xiao said coldly, "After all that, I'm still obsessed with it."
Fu Shen said, "It's not that I don't understand. It's that someone insists on going astray."
Yan Xiaohan: "Be careful."
"What can't be said? What can't be said!" Fu Shen stared at him, "Luo Zhi was accused of concocting an unjust prison, looting his family, exterminating his family, framed and framed. The emperor was wrong! Wrong is wrong!"
Yan Xiaohan abruptly turned over and covered his mouth, his chest heaving up and down with anger, and his breath was rapid.
"Today's words, let it rot in your stomach. Let me hear it again, without anyone else, I will personally send you to the prison, remember."
Fu Shen frowned, making two "uuuuuu" in his palm, and pushed him with his knees.
Yan Xiaohan moved his hand away.
Fu Shen's screams shot straight into the sky: "Go down to me! The wound on my back! It hurts!"
Yan Xiaohan realized that he actually had nothing to do with Fu Shen: saying he was smart, he was always inappropriate, and saying he was mature, and sometimes it was naive and ridiculous.
- This temper is too tough.
However, even if he was so rebellious, Yan Xiaohan only hoped that he could hide it well, not forcing changes, and not wanting to do anything to him.
After such a reflection, he suddenly understood Fu Shen's mood to help the descendants of the Jin family.
No one helped him, Fu Shen slowly got up from the grassy slope, the passion on his blood passed away, he calmed down and realized that he was a little too reckless.
He is not an extreme person in essence, but his "Tao" is different from others, and he is young and naive, so he always has some arrogance and arrogance, and he has not learned to hide his edge.
Yan Xiaohan stood up first, without looking back, "Let's go."
Before taking the first step, his wrist suddenly tightened. He looked down and found that Fu Shen was grabbing his sleeve, but he didn't dare to look up at him. He lowered his head, looking a little pitiful.
Oh. This is finally waking up from the madness.
Yan Xiaohan narrowed his eyes, secretly laughing in his heart, his face still pretending not to move, and asked calmly, "What?"
Fu Shen: "I... I just made an inappropriate speech and made you angry. I'm sorry."
Yan Xiaohan didn't speak, his face was cold.
Fu Shen said honestly: "I admit my mistake, it's my fault. If you want to beat, scold or punish you, please listen and respect."
"Come on," Yan Xiao said coldly and coolly, "Yan eats the guts of a bear's heart and a leopard, and dares to beat and scold Master Fu? You're right, it's the traitorous people I've been wrong."
Fu Shen's head drooped lower and lower, he really regretted it, and it was the first time he had put down his posture to apologize to someone. Who would have guessed that the other party wouldn't take this kind of thing.
"I never regarded you as a traitor, just..."
just what
It's just that Taoism is different and they don't conspire, but I firmly believe that Jin Yunfeng has been wronged. [5]
He couldn't speak any longer, and let go of Yan Xiaohan's sleeves. Dejectedly, "I'm sorry."
The hand that slid down was suddenly caught and fell into the dry and cool palm.
Yan Xiaohan squatted down in front of him, "Who said just now that you can accept the beating, the scolding, and the punishment? You make me angry, and I can't stand it if I say a few words to you? Is your apology so insincere, eh? ?"
Fu Shen's ears were inexplicably hot, and his heart was full of mixed feelings, and he didn't dare to look up at him.
Yan Xiaohan thought about it himself and felt that it was a sin. He was such a noble and noble son. He was injured and fell off a cliff, and he had suffered so much that he did not suffer. In the end, being bullied by him like this is too immoral.
Fu Shen didn't know what to say, so he could only repeat, "I'm sorry."
Yan Xiaohan clicked his tongue and said, "How about sincerity?"
He raised Fu Shen's chin with his free hand, causing him to look at himself: "Look up. You don't even have a name, who are you saying sorry to? The first one doesn't count, come again, what should you call me?"
His original intention was to let Fu Shen call "Brother Yan" and apologize, so that he wouldn't be embarrassed anymore. Unexpectedly, Fu Shen understood the wrong meaning. After being silent for a long time, he tentatively timidly said, "...Brother?"
Yan Xiaohan was called out by him, and his heart froze in an instant. He held Fu Shen's hand loosely and unconsciously retracted it.
The breeze was blowing, and the fragrance of orchids spread out with full sleeves and sleeves.
"You and I… "
Yan Xiaohan actually stumbled. He leaned over to pick him up from the ground, patted the grass and dirt on his body, and said in words, "...Let's go."
Fu Shen hasn't turned the corner: "Is this... all right?"
"Okay, my eldest young master," Yan Xiaohan looked down at him, sighed silently in his heart, and pursed his lips slightly, "If you shout again, I will give up on you."
The author has something to say: Quote:
[1] Han Yu's "Yi Lan Cao"
[2] Zhang Jiuling's "Feelings (Part 1)"
【3】Use "Lü Mengzheng's Motto"
[4] Huang Tingjian's "Book of You Fang Pavilion"
[5] "Confucius' Family Language: Zai"