Song Xuan was woken up by a knock on the door the next day.
He Chenxiang knocked on the door, "Song Xuan, are you there? Are you inside?"
She cried for a long time yesterday and finally fell asleep. When she opened her eyes, her eyes were heavy and her throat was extremely dry. She cleared her throat and asked, "What's the matter?"
"Ji Huai's call to you didn't go through. He is very worried about you. Please call him back." He Chenxiang said outside the door.
"OK, thanks."
After the other party left, she took the phone over. It was out of battery. She got up to find the data cable and then recharged it.
The charged mobile phone had not been turned on immediately. She sat blankly on the edge of the bed. Thinking of what happened yesterday, her eyes became moist. She wanted to cry and couldn't figure it out.
This child abruptly interrupted all her plans.
She is going to graduate school. She has already made plans for this year. She has registered for classes and bought all the books. The most troublesome thing is Ji Huai.
The phone was turned on and vibrating constantly with missed calls from Ji Huai. Before she was ready to call back, he called again. After a moment of hesitation, she picked up the call.
"Where did you go? Why didn't you answer the phone?" Ji Huai spoke in a hurry, but he didn't scold her.
"I was too tired from work yesterday and fell asleep when I came back." She made an excuse for herself and reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes.
Ji Huai noticed something was wrong in her words, "What's wrong? You don't seem happy. Did you not sleep enough?"
"I had a nightmare." She put her feet on the bed, rested her chin on her knees, hugged her legs, and made an excuse for herself, her voice choked up as she spoke.
"You've been working too hard recently? Do you want to take a few days off? I'll go back in the afternoon." Ji Huai comforted her on the other end, "Don't think too much. If you have anything to tell me when I get back, okay?"
Song Xuan was silent, crying silently, saying, "That dream was so scary, I was so scared that I cried."
In the past, Ji Huai would have laughed at her, but he was there to coax her, "It's all a dream. It doesn't matter. I'm here. I'll be there at about five o'clock in the afternoon. I'll pick you up from get off work."
"Yes." She responded softly and changed the subject, "Then did you buy me a gift? I want a gift."
She was afraid that what happened in her dream would come true and completely destroy the beauty of this period of time. She lacked a sense of security and was eager to get some comfort from him.
"What gift do you want?" Ji Huai asked in a good temper.
Song Xuan couldn't think of what gift she wanted, so she buried her head again and said in a nasal voice, "You didn't even think of bringing me a gift. You must have missed me. You don't love me anymore."
"You have wronged me. I love you very much." Ji Huai was very sure, and then said, "The flowers here are very fresh and bloom very beautifully. Can I buy you a bouquet of flowers and go back?"
"I don't want any flowers, I have to go to work." She walked to the dressing table, looked at her red and swollen eyes, but suddenly wanted to ask for leave, and her face looked very bad.
"The other day I saw jasmine flowers being sold here. They were very fragrant when I walked by. The flowers were blooming very well, and the petals were very small and white. They were as fragrant as you." He added there.
"You are so sweet." Song Xuan retorted to him.
Ji Huai smiled, "Honey, I'm not as good as you."
His tone was full of pampering. In the past, Song Xuan's heart skipped a beat when he heard the sweetness, and the corners of her mouth could not help but raise. Now, tears burst out of her eyes unconsciously. She waited for a while before lowering her voice, "I really want to go." Go to work, hang up."
Afraid that he might hear the same thing, she hung up the phone before he could answer.
Song Xuan didn't make it to class, so she asked for leave, but she wanted to go to the hospital for a detailed examination. If she was really pregnant, it would really be considered an unexpected pregnancy, and her chances of winning the lottery would be hers.
After thinking wildly all morning, she went to the hospital in the afternoon. What if it was a mistake
Before the results came out, she still prayed not to get pregnant. The child was coming, not now, and neither Ji Huai nor she was prepared for it.
The chance was so small that she thought she was probably not pregnant.
Unfortunately, God did not favor her too much, and something with a very small chance still happened to her.
She was sitting on the hospital bench, with the report sheets in her hands, her eyes dull, helpless and scared. He took out his cell phone, but didn't dare to call Ji Huai. He sent her a text message when he got on the plane, but she hasn't replied yet.
How to do it
He was very determined not to have children, and he was going to have surgery when he came back. Now that something like this happened, it was destined that one of them had to compromise.
She compromises, the child is aborted, and they continue to live together; he compromises, the child is born, the two go against his wishes, and then live an uncertain future.
Of course, there is a third type, she insists on having children, the two get divorced, and she lives with the children.
No matter which one it is, it is a very difficult choice for her. It is the first time that Song Xuan feels so helpless. Why does something that makes others happy become a "bad thing" when it happens to her
What should she do
evening.
Ji Huai got off the plane, collected his luggage and pushed him out. Just as he was about to walk out of the subway station, a female voice came, soft and soft, "Ji Huai."
He turned his head, and Song Xuan's figure appeared in front of him. She was wearing a pink dress and a pair of white cloth shoes. She was gentle and beautiful.
This was a big surprise. He quickly walked over with a smile, stretched out his hands to hold her in his arms, lowered his head and kissed her, with a lingering voice, "I miss you these days."
After he finished speaking, he looked at her face, his smile gradually faded away, and he frowned, "Honey, you're not feeling well. Are you sick?"
"I haven't been sleeping well recently and I keep having nightmares." Song Xuan didn't know how to tell him, so she had to make excuses for herself.
"Then go to bed early today, and I won't have nightmares if I hold you." He handed the flower in his hand to her, "I bought it for you, and it looks as beautiful as you."
"Thank you." She reached out and took it. The pink roses were blooming very beautifully, with small white flowers blooming luxuriantly in the middle. You could smell the fresh fragrance without getting too close. It was the jasmine he was talking about.
This was the first time Song Xuan saw jasmine. She stretched out her hand and touched it. The petals were not as soft as roses, but a little hard.
Ji Huai held her luggage, held her waist with one hand, and led her out.
The two of them didn't take the subway. There were a lot of people on the subway at this point, and they still had luggage, so it was inconvenient, so they took a taxi back. Originally, they wanted to go to the supermarket, but the food she bought last time was not cooked and was all in the refrigerator, so she didn't go. .
After returning home, Song Xuan was not in the mood to cook today. She suggested ordering takeout, but Ji Huai was in a good mood and went to cook for himself.
When he went to cook, she took out the vase and was absentmindedly cutting flowers and placing them in the vase. From time to time she looked up at him who was busy in the kitchen, her eyes swollen.
How was she supposed to tell him she was pregnant
How could he accept it
"Wife." Ji Huai called out from the kitchen and stuck his head out.
Song Xuan stood up and walked over. He picked up a piece of freshly fried beans, blew on it a few times and then handed it to her mouth, "Try it."
She took a bite, tasted it, and said softly, "It's a bit bland."
"Then I'll put some more salt." He turned around and went to get the salt again and put it in.
Song Xuan looked at him for a long time. Ji Huai didn't bother to observe her while he was cooking. When the beans were fried, he turned around to go to the refrigerator to get eggs. When they faced each other, he didn't say anything, and she reached out and hugged her. She hugged his waist and buried her head in his arms.
"It seems you really miss me." His hands were oily and it was inconvenient to hold her, so he rubbed the top of her head with his chin and kissed her sideways, "There's a lot of fumes here, why don't you wait for me outside? "
Song Xuan held him without moving or speaking.
There was a "bang", the sound of the door closing. Before Song Xuan could let go of him, Tian Shao who came back from outside had already seen it. Song Xuan was in a low mood today and ignored the embarrassment. She raised her head and said to Ji Huai, "Put the green onion on." Let’s make some fried eggs, there are chopped green onions in the refrigerator.”
"Okay." Ji Huai saw that He Chenxiang was back and invited him, "Have you eaten? Do you want to eat together?"
"Okay." He Chenxiang agreed readily, but Tian Shao did not reply.
After entering the room, Tian Shao sneered at He Chenxiang angrily, "If you want to eat, just go by yourself. I don't want to eat."
During this period, the two had frequent quarrels. He Chenxiang was so exhausted from working overtime that he finally got off work early. His girlfriend's words made her uncomfortable, so he didn't bother to go into details, "Then I'll go eat. You can order whatever you want." Bar."
Tian Shao is so angry.
She took out her mobile phone and called Yan Jingyi again. When He Chenxiang went out, she cursed, full of energy and disgust in her tone.
Yan Jingyi was helpless there and could only give perfunctory comfort.
However, while the two were chatting, something seemed wrong next door. Song Xuan seemed to be crying. She quickly said to Yan Jingyi, "Wait a minute, I'll go out and take a look."
When he went out, He Chenxiang also sat awkwardly at the dining table, with the food on the table untouched. Tian Shao pointed to the closed door on the other side and asked, "What happened to them?"
He Chenxiang shook his head. He didn't know. Ji Huai went in to ask Song Xuan to eat, and then something went wrong inside. Why were he still crying
Tian Shao deliberately walked to the door to listen, but heard nothing except crying.
At this time, in the room.
Song Xuan was sitting on the bed crying. Ji Huai held the report in his hand and was looking at it, obviously in disbelief, something he had never thought about at all.
She didn't plan to tell her, but as soon as she took out the physical examination report, Ji Huai suddenly came in. She was a little panicked and wanted to hide it, but he became suspicious, and finally he found out.
Ji Huai looked at the report and then looked at her, "Don't cry yet. When did you know about it?"
"Last night." She cried a little hard, "I took the test at home and went to the hospital today."
Ji Huai took out a few pieces of paper, sat on the bedside and wiped her tears. Instead of saying anything else, he changed the subject, "Let's go eat first? Are you hungry?"
Song Xuan shook her head, she couldn't eat in the past few days.
"You need to eat something even if you're not hungry. I'll bring it in for you." He walked out and came back after a while, carrying a bowl of rice with some vegetables on it and placing it on the table, "Let's eat first. "
Song Xuanhong looked at him with glowing eyes, but she couldn't say anything. She didn't know how to ask. This matter was too complicated. She couldn't bear to let go of her child. It was a life, but she also couldn't bear to divorce him.
But if we force ourselves to be together, our relationship will eventually disappear, and we will end up being nothing but feathers.
Ji Huai felt uncomfortable with her and could only speak truthfully, "I'm in a mess right now. You can't ask me anything. In fact, I don't know what to do."
Song Xuan didn't want to force him, because she didn't know what to do, so she could only lower her head and eat silently, crying while eating.
Ji Huai sat next to him for a long time without saying anything. He lowered his head and wondered what he was thinking, with various emotions on his face.
When Song Xuan went to take a shower after eating, she found that Ji Huai was drinking with He Chenxiang in the living room. They had already drank several bottles. When she walked in, he followed her in, asked her to go to bed and covered herself with quilt, and then went out again.
He didn't say anything, he didn't ask her to abort her, and he didn't talk about divorce.
The voices outside were intermittent. Song Xuan curled up and lay on the bed. Tian Shao was very curious and opened the door a little to eavesdrop.
She was very surprised when she overheard something. She quickly called Yan Jingyi on WeChat, but the other party didn't answer. She called directly and said in an excited tone, "Oh my God, Ji Huai is a DINK, but Song Xuan is pregnant."
Yan Jingyi was also confused and thought for a while, "He seemed to have told me before that he really didn't want to have children. I thought he was joking. What should I do now?"
"Ji Huai was drinking with my boyfriend in the living room. He didn't seem to want it very much." Tian Shao seemed to have found some balance, "No wonder Song Xuan's name was added to the house. He must have reached an agreement and made a sacrifice by not having a child. "
"If you don't have children, why get married?"
"If I definitely don't get married, what's the use of a house? It would be really funny to abort it after getting married and pregnant."
…
Tian Shao kept complaining, and He Chenxiang opened the door and walked in. She looked at him very curiously, "Is Song Xuan pregnant? What is Ji Huai doing?"
He Chenxiang put his mobile phone on the table to charge, "He was originally unmarried and a DINK, but later he got married and became a DINK. Now it will definitely be troublesome to get pregnant. He is drinking to relieve his worries."
"Then you won't drink with him?" Tian Shao asked again.
She didn't hang up the phone, Yan Jingyi could hear it, and only heard He Chenxiang's voice, "What else are you drinking? I went to coax my wife and kids."
"Isn't it Dink?" Tian Shao raised his eyebrows, "Are you going to abort it?"
He Chenxiang didn't agree with what she asked, "I'm sure I won't abort if I'm married. Ji Huai is just depressed. How could he possibly pull his wife to abort the child?"
"It must be born. Isn't it a sin to abort it? It is a life."
Hearing this, Tian Shao was a little disappointed, "Just because Ji Huai compromised for Song Xuan and forced a Dink to have a child, I don't know what his life will be like in the future."
"Can you hope that others will be kinder? Song Xuan did not conceive the child alone. Ji Huai himself said that he was responsible. Why are you speaking so unpleasantly?" He Chenxiang was a little unhappy when she said this, and felt uncomfortable.
"I asked them, why are you angry with me?" Tian Shao hung up the call with Yan Jingyi and started to argue with He Chenxiang again, but the other party was too lazy to argue with her and took his pajamas and went out to take a shower.
Tian Shao's face turned dark with anger.
The other end.
Ji Huai walked to the bedside and saw the sound of crying coming from under the quilt. He was helpless and sat on the edge of the bed and lifted the quilt. He looked at her eyes which were red and swollen from crying and took out a tissue to wipe her tears.
Song Xuan closed her eyes and buried her head in the pillow.
"Excessive mood swings will be bad for the baby." Ji Huai looked down at her and said slowly, "Stop crying."
"Have you thought it through?" Song Xuan tried her best to calm down her emotions, but she couldn't. Tears kept flowing. She was waiting for Ji Huai to make a choice, and then make her own decision based on his choice. choose.
Three paths, let's see which one they choose.
Ji Huai didn't reply immediately. Song Xuan's heart sank slowly, as if he had expected that the result would not be good. He sighed, took her hand that was aside, kneaded it gently, and suddenly said, " Do you believe in fate?"
Song Xuan didn't know what he meant, nor how to answer.
"I didn't believe it before, but now I believe it. There are some things that you can't escape. What you owe must be paid back." Ji Huai looked at her and said seriously.
He still smelled of alcohol and she couldn't understand what he was talking about, she just thought he was drunk.
"You have to pay it back, I owe it." He went to bed and hugged her, holding her in his arms, and put his big hand on the back of her head, "This matter is not your responsibility, it is mine."
"I only paid off the overdraft on my honeymoon credit card this month. It was really sudden. I was not prepared for anything."
"I'm sorry that I couldn't give you the most basic financial security. I will continue to work hard and keep the child, right?"
…
Song Xuan's tears flowed down again, her voice trembling, "I'm sorry, I didn't force you to compromise. I know you have never thought about having children, I..."
Ji Huai put his head on her head and said softly, "I just don't want my children to repeat the dark days I had before, but life is still a little bit beautiful, especially when I met you. Now I feel that life is still worth a visit. Everything is always better. If there is an accident, this is not a compromise, but more like an acceptance. I feel that even if I don’t like children, I can still love my child.”
His sins in this life were not only against Song Xuan, but also against that child, so no matter how hard he tried to prevent it, that child would still appear.
Whatever he sows, there must be consequences, and he will bear them all.
Song Xuan actually felt uncomfortable hearing what he said. Ji Huai held her face and coaxed her gently, "Stop crying. It's not like you cheated on me. Why do you look so regretful? I'm so lucky to be pregnant." You are the one who suffers, and I cannot bear it for you."
"I have decided whether to divorce you or abort the child." Song Xuan cried again as she spoke, feeling extremely sad and heartbroken when she said it.
"I have never thought about divorcing you, nor have I thought about aborting the child. The thought has never occurred in my mind. If I am pregnant, I am pregnant, and I will definitely give birth. I am just thinking about how to adapt to a new role." He It was natural and not against my will at all.
Song Xuan buried her head in his arms. She had been on tenterhooks for the past few days, but her heart felt relieved. She reached out and hugged him, "I'm afraid of breaking your plan. This is not your original wish."
"The plan couldn't keep up with the change. It's my own fault." Ji Huai didn't react much. He hugged her and put his hand on her back, comforting her every now and then, "You think and do so much for me. What? You haven’t told me yet, hiding alone and being suspicious, staying up in the middle of the night and crying secretly."
When Song Xuan was right, she whispered, "I had a nightmare. I dreamed that you didn't want us. You told me to either abort the child or break up. You wanted me to get out. You were very, very cruel to me."
"How fierce is it?" He did not seriously discuss this topic with her. Instead, he said it half-jokingly. After that, he went to kiss her lips again. Thinking that he was drinking, he changed his direction and kissed her eyes, " Well? Wife, how cruel can you be? How cruel can I be to you? "
If she was so scared that her legs were weak and helpless in the dream, her heart dropped when Ji Huai looked like this. She was so soft, her slender hands lazily went to his neck, and she lay on him, moving towards him. She hid in his arms. During this time, she was a little spoiled by him, so she unconsciously said in a long voice, "She is very fierce and wants to hit people."
Ji Huai smiled helplessly, "I have no temper with you now."
Song Xuan believed this now, and she didn't know if it was a woman's sixth sense. Although she cried very hard in the past few days, she had a vague feeling that the child would stay in the end.
She didn't know why.
However, she soon knew it. Ji Huai moved his thin lips to her ear, bit her ear gently, and said in a friendly tone, "Actually, what are you worried about? I love you so much, and no matter what, I won't let it go. You make such a difficult decision."
"If there is a compromise, the one who compromises must be me."
Now that I think about it, the sense of security in my heart is his unreserved love for her.
Song Xuan was originally afraid of what Ji Huai would say against his will, but he was reluctant to let her abort the child and their marriage. After that night, he was no different from before.
If you want to really dig into the difference, you can also tell some. In the past, he could cook, and the two of them would go out to eat some. Now he feels that the food outside is a bit dirty and not good to eat, so he cooks it for her at home. .
She seemed to have turned into a fragile porcelain doll. Ji Huai took care of her more seriously than before, but it was a pity that she couldn't take the postgraduate entrance examination. She also wanted to sell the books and classes at half price, which also cost a lot of money.
"Keep it. If you don't take the exam this year, you will take the exam next year." Ji Huai said.
"How can I take the exam if I have a child?" Song Xuan touched her belly, "Forget it."
It would be nice to have time to take care of the kids.
Ji Huai: "Why can't you take the exam? It's not like your child is depriving you of the right to choose. You can go to early childhood education and then a day care class in a few months. You don't need to take the exam full-time. You can just go to class on weekends. You just want to avoid many problems. Children are not question."
Song Xuan thought about it and took the textbook back silently. No matter if she takes the exam next year, she will have another year to review. Let's review first. We will talk about it when the exam comes.
Because she was pregnant, she was originally going to move to a new house this month. Ji Huai postponed the plan and continued to rent for half a year. Because the place had just been renovated not long ago and everything was new, he did not dare to let her move in for fear of being disrespectful. The child is not good.
It is indeed inconvenient to live in a shared apartment, but Song Xuan doesn't care about that much now. Taking good care of the children is the first thing. As for other things, she now feels that her husband can handle them.