Lin Qing never wronged her son.
She bought Xiao Sensen a small box of chocolates and a small cake. He chose the cake himself and kept it in his hand when he came back.
"Baby, you have to watch the road." Lin Qing followed him, looking at his happy look, her face became much softer.
"Hmm." He fiddled with his little head and walked forward on his short legs. He watched a group of old ladies dancing in the community and stared at them with curious eyes.
It was time to eat anyway, so Lin Qing walked with him around the community, watching the older children playing with the scraper, and some of them roughhousing.
He has a gentle and shy temperament. Every time he watches quietly, he comes over to hold Lin Qing's hand from time to time, looks up at her, and says softly, "Mom, Sister Guoguo, let's play."
"Sensen is still young and can't play with it. You can play with it when you grow up." She knelt down, opened a bottle of yogurt and handed it to him.
He took a sip, licked the corner of his mouth with his little tongue, stood up on tiptoes, raised his hands and jumped, "I want to grow so tall."
Lin Qing was amused by him and gestured with her hand, "Yes, it's that tall. Sensen can grow this tall if he has to work hard to eat."
"It's time for us to go home, take a shower and go to bed."
After she finished speaking, she knelt down to carry him away. Xiao Sensen shook his head and wanted to help her carry things.
"You can't carry it." Lin Qing was helpless.
"Okay." His childish voice was stubborn, "I can."
It was all filled with milk and some vegetables and meat. She felt heavy when she carried it, so she could only take out a bag of yogurt and said, "You carry this."
Xiao Sensen took the small bag of yogurt and started walking forward.
They rent a house in a community, a newly built elevator room, one bedroom and one living room, for 3,200 yuan a month. In a second-tier city, such rent is not cheap. Fortunately, water, electricity and property are all included.
For her in the past, these were all affordable. After leaving Ji Huai, she could still give her children a good life, but what happened today made her have to think about many issues.
"Mom, I want to take a bath." Xiao Sensen said to her after entering the door.
"Then you go get your pajamas. Mommy will put the things away first." As soon as she finished speaking, Xiao Sensen ran to the bedroom, muttering, "I want to wear Pikachu."
The small room was filled with his voice, and a smile appeared on Lin Qing's lips unconsciously.
After taking a bath, she cut half an apple and half a dragon fruit for Xiao Sensen and let him sit and watch cartoons while she went into the kitchen to cook.
After cooking, she has to pack it up so she can take it away tomorrow.
When eating alone, everything is relatively simple. Just buy some beef, buy some potatoes, stew beef with potatoes, and then stir-fry some vegetables.
Xiao Sensen was sitting on the sofa, watching TV obediently, when Lin Qing's cell phone in her bag rang.
"Buzz buzz."
It kept ringing.
"Mom, the phone is ringing," he said toward the kitchen.
Lin Qing was cooking and said softly, "Can you help mom pick it up?"
"Okay." Xiao Sensen climbed to the other side, opened her bag, took out her mobile phone, looked at the notes on it, clicked to answer it, and put the mobile phone to her ear.
"I'm back from a business trip, which building in the community do you live in?" Ji Huai's voice came from over there.
Xiao Sensen held the phone with both hands and called out in a low voice, "Dad."
He didn't yell loudly, but it caused quite a stir in Ji Huai's heart. Lin Qing later raised the child very well. The mother and son suffered some hardships, but Ji Sen was excellent and sensible in the end, but she didn't like to see him.
"Sensen." He said softly, "Dad is outside the community gate. Where do you and your mother live?"
He has never paid attention to this, nor has he been here. In fact, he is very cruel. He used the excuse of a business trip to make Lin Qing feel cold and not come to him again.
Xiao Sensen thought for a while, "In building 35, 3502."
His mother told him many times and he could remember it.
"Dad, go over now. Dad hangs up the phone first."
"… good."
Xiao Sensen hung up the phone and held his mobile phone. He was originally watching cartoons, but now he ran outside and stood on tiptoes to look downstairs.
It was too dark outside and he was too short to see anything, but he didn't give up and kept watching.
"Baby, whose phone number is it?" Lin Qing turned down the heat a little, stuck her head out and asked him.
Hearing this, Xiao Sensen turned around and said with expectation, "It's dad."
The smile on his face hurt Lin Qing's heart. The child couldn't understand that they were divorced. Ji Huai had been on business trips before and often didn't come back. He thought he just moved with his mother and lived in a different place.
As for why he moved to another place, he didn't know. Maybe his parents had a quarrel, so he wanted to move to another place.
"Dad is coming." He added, pointing downstairs, "Dad said it was downstairs, and Sensen told Dad it was at 3502."
Lin Qing calmed down and said, "It will take a while. You can't see it anywhere. Come in first."
Xiao Sensen walked in again, walked to the door, looked at her, "Mom, open the door for Dad."
"Yeah." Lin Qing walked over and opened the door.
As soon as he opened it, he stuck his head out. There was an elevator outside. He wanted to go out, but Lin Qing didn't let him go out. She pulled him, "Dad will come up. Don't go out, Sensen."
"Mom is still cooking, come in first."
Xiao Sensen walked back reluctantly.
Lin Qing finished frying the vegetables, but there was still no movement outside the door. She turned off the fire, and Xiao Sensen couldn't sit still anymore. He took her hand and wanted to go out and wait for his father.
He was not a child who would make a fuss, but he was very anxious at this moment. She had no choice but to obey her son.
There was an elevator right outside the door. The two mother and son stood in front of the elevator, watching the elevator go up but not stop at their floor. Time and time again, Xiao Sensen felt very disappointed. He lowered his eyelids and clutched his little hand.
Lin Qing didn't know if what Ji Huai said was true. She was a little angry when he missed every appointment and wanted to call him to scold him, but she was afraid of hurting her son.
After waiting for a while, the elevator began to rise again. Xiao Sensen stared at the elevator with a glimmer of hope.
The elevator stopped at the floor below them. When it continued to rise, it did not stop at their floor. Xiao Sensen looked up at his mother, "Did Dad forget?"
Feeling lost and sad, Lin Qing knelt down and hugged him, "Let's go back first. Mommy will call and ask if daddy is okay?"
Xiao Sensen walked to her arms and put his arms around her mother's neck.
He was so sad that his father didn't come.
Lin Qing picked up her son and patted his back gently. She was still very angry when she saw him lying lonely on her body. She felt that she was indestructible and had already accumulated enough disappointment, but she forgot that her son was still a child.
He doesn’t understand anything yet, what should he do in the future
She sighed in her heart, turned around and walked back with her son in her arms. He suddenly raised his head in her arms and shouted in surprise, "Dad!"
Lin Qing turned around suddenly, and Ji Huai walked out of the freight elevator on the other side, carrying a briefcase and a large cardboard box.
He quickly walked up to her and said, "I walked around in a circle and walked to the front. I almost didn't find it. I couldn't see clearly at night."
Lin Qing couldn't explain the feeling in her heart at that moment. She actually didn't want to see him, but it was undeniable that she was a little happy to see her son so happy. Especially when she saw the toy in his hand, her anger dissipated. "You can call me. It's really hard to find here."
"It's okay, I'll find out next time." Ji Huai handed the cardboard box in his hand to Xiao Sensen and said with a smile, "Dad bought the plane for you."
"Thank you, Dad." Xiao Sensen's eyes lit up as he struggled to get off Lin Qing, holding the big cardboard box in his arms. He was extremely happy.
The boy’s favorite toy is a remote-controlled airplane. He can’t wait to take out the big airplane and play with it.
Lin Qing followed him back. Ji Huai was always a busy person. She thought he was going back, but he followed him. She also asked casually, "Did you just come back?"
"Yeah, let's get off the plane at seven o'clock." He nodded.
I got off the plane at seven o'clock, came back from the airport, and then bought toys to deliver. Calculating the time, it was really just enough.
"Would you like to come in for a glass of water? Or should you go back and rest?" She didn't expect him to come in, which would save her trouble.
"Yeah." He walked into the room.
Seeing that he refused to leave, Lin Qing had no choice but to pour him water. She pointed to the sofa and said without much enthusiasm, "You can sit down first."
Ji Huai sat down and Xiao Sensen put the carton on the table and started to open it. How could he have the strength? He looked at his father for help.
Seeing this, Ji Huai reached over, opened the carton in a few clicks, took out the remote control, and then studied the switch.
Xiao Sensen stood next to his father and watched carefully.
Lin Qing came out with water and saw this scene. Both father and son were looking at the plane seriously.
She put the cup on the table, "There are no disposable water cups at home, so you can use a Sensen cup."
Xiao Sensen's water glass is light blue with a cute dolphin on it.
"Yeah." Ji Huai didn't pay much attention and continued to study.
The plane didn't know what was going on and couldn't fly. Ji Huai looked at it and then continued to read the instructions.
Xiao Sensen squatted down and looked at his big plane. When he saw that it was not moving, he picked it up and placed it in another place.
After studying for more than half an hour, the plane was able to fly, but Xiao Sensen couldn't control it. When he saw that it was out of control, he dropped the remote control and ran with the plane, shouting, "Dad, Daddy."
Ji Huai pulled him over and called him hand in hand. Xiao Sensen leaned in his arms, holding his small hand with his big hand, and whispered.
Lin Qing sat aside. In fact, she didn't like Ji Huai being too close to her son after the divorce. Firstly, he was too cruel and could not get any good results. Secondly, she wanted to take him out of the city. Completely break away from him.
Without seeing each other and cutting off contact, she could still lie to the child that his father was a good father, instead of making the son feel cold and feel that his father no longer wanted him.
But now she is reluctant to interrupt the few companionships, and she also knows very well that no matter how responsible she is, she cannot replace her father's role.
"Slowly." Ji Huai continued to teach him, "Let it fly over there."
Xiao Sensen carried the plane to the center of the living room again, and then went to play by himself. Ji Huai picked up his son's water glass and drank half the glass of water in one breath.
After her son left, the atmosphere was a little awkward. She asked politely, "Have you eaten?"
"No." Ji Huai shook his head, "I came over as soon as I got off the plane."
He had said so, and Lin Qing thought that there was beef she had just fried on the table, and vegetables she had fried in the pot, but she didn't want to give it to him.
But her son betrayed her, "Dad, mom bought beef, you can eat beef, it smells good."
Ji Huai looked at her, Lin Qing was silent, and her dissatisfaction was directly on her face.
Don't want to give it.
"Are you worried?" Ji Huai was helpless, "When did you become so stingy?"
"Ever since you and I lowered the price of alimony." Lin Qing said with a cold face, stood up and walked to the kitchen, "You have been so clear about every penny with me. If you eat my food, you'd better follow suit." I figure it out!"
Ji Huai followed her, touching his nose guiltily, and looked at Xiao Sensen. Lin Qing glanced at him and said lightly, "That's your son too. It has nothing to do with me if you buy him things. If you think it's considered a gift, If I buy it, it will be my own son."
"I didn't say that." He denied quickly.
Although she said this, she still served him food. Her food was small and she didn't fry much meat or vegetables.
Ji Huai really gave her face and ate everything without any leftover. Lin Qing's face turned dark again. She should have given him a bowl of soy sauce bibimbap if she had known it. There was still plenty of rice anyway, so what kind of meat could she give him
Lin Qing walked to the living room, looked at her son who was having fun, and then looked at the clock on the wall, "Baby, it's time for you to go to bed. You have to get up and go to kindergarten tomorrow."
"Didn't the teacher say that you should go early tomorrow and greet other children?"
"Yes." Xiao Sensen reluctantly put down his big plane and turned to look at Ji Huai, "Will Dad sleep with us?"
Before Ji Huai could speak, Lin Qing had already answered for him, "Dad is going back to work overtime and has to go on a business trip."
"Oh." Xiao Sensen was led to the room by his mother. He just turned his head and glanced at his father a few times without any suspicion.
Ji Huai looked at this scene and felt aggrieved.
He is digging a hole for himself. He used to go on a business trip for more than half a month, and even if he didn't go on a business trip, he would go on a business trip. His son was used to it and thought it was normal.
Lin Qing covered her son with a quilt, then walked out, looked at him, and reminded, "It's time for you to go back."
After eating her meal, she had to fry it again and had to work for another hour.
Ji Huai ignored her displeasure and said, "I will have a rest tomorrow and I will pick him up from school."
Just as Lin Qing was about to refuse, she suddenly remembered that Fang He and Li Xia wanted to ask her to have a good night tomorrow. She swallowed her words and said, "Then go pick it up. Do you know which kindergarten?"
What she said was very excessive, but Ji Huai had never been there a few times. He nodded, "I know."
Lin Qing didn't say anything.
Ji Huai pointed to the door, "I'm leaving."
She had no intention of sending him away, so she turned around and walked to the kitchen, "Just close the door when you leave."
Ji Huai looked at her back with an unspeakable feeling. After a while, he lowered his head and walked to the door. When he closed the door, he was a little frustrated.
In fact, being single after getting out of marriage is not that exciting. When he reached his thirties, he wanted to find someone to get married to, but found that there was no suitable person after looking around. When he was in his forties, his children were all gone. In high school.
He said he was his child, but he actually didn't recognize him.
In this life, he grew up pampered by his parents and had a smooth life. It can be said that he did not want to pay for anyone and had a cold temper.
How cool and cold-blooded he was before, now he is so hot and persistent. When he walked downstairs and looked at the empty streets, he felt lonely.
Ji's father and mother were both ordinary workers. They had saved money all their lives and helped him pay for a house with three bedrooms and one living room. They gritted their teeth and got it done in one step.
He returned home and reached out to turn on the light. The house was empty, but he could still see traces of Lin Qing's mother and son's life, the green plants on the table, the paintings on the wall, the placement of furniture, and even the shoe rack at the door. She also chose it.
She didn't take away the wedding photos in the bedroom. A pair of beautiful people were cuddling together. He had liked Lin Qing and pursued her actively. Otherwise, he wouldn't have gotten married and had children at that time. They were in a good relationship before giving birth to children. After giving birth to children, she Take care of the family, take care of the kids, and he's still that big boy.
It's a pity that she stepped into the role, but he didn't, and he didn't shoulder the responsibilities and obligations that he should have.
Next to the bedroom was the children's room. He walked over and turned on the light. It was quite empty and there was nothing in it. She had taken away all of Xiao Sensen's things. There was also a picture frame that fell under the bed. He walked over and picked it up.
It was a parent-child photo. There were only two of her and her son. They were wearing parent-child clothes. The son was sitting obediently in her arms. He must have been only one year old at the time, smiling cutely with his open mouth.
Oh, he also agreed to take the photo at that time, but later he broke the appointment.
Since they moved away, he has never entered this room and rarely comes back to live there. He reached out and wiped the photo frame and placed it on the bedside.
Looking at the two of them, I sighed in my heart.
early morning.
Lin Qing sent Xiao Sensen to kindergarten and rushed to the company.
When Luo Yantong saw her coming, she greeted her warmly, while Xu Rui breathed a sigh of relief, fearing that she would leave her job.
Lin Qing's class has begun to be assigned to other teachers, and she doesn't mind. Teachers are the busiest, so she can just be idle.
Luo Yantong doesn't know what job to arrange for her now, including Chen Na, who was suddenly named as the substitute. She doesn't know what to do except adding a parent.
Chen Na was secretly playing with her mobile phone and ignored other things. She even told Lin Qing, "I don't care about her. If I can survive for a day, I will. If I can't do it, I will resign."
Lin Qing nodded. In fact, she was secretly submitting her resume.
She is not a fool. She cannot sit still and wait for death. The salary of 3,600 yuan is not enough for her to live.
In one morning, she sent out more than 20 resumes, and there were many interested ones. After all, her academic qualifications were there.
However, she is faced with new problems. She has a child and must take care of her child. She cannot be too far away from the kindergarten or home, and her working hours are also required.
This is very difficult to handle. Most companies must be eliminated, and the basic salary offered by suitable companies is too low. In the first few months, the new teacher was given 2,300 yuan plus commission, but in the end, he was only willing to give her 3,000 yuan. Thousand plus commissions, this commission is unknown, no one is willing to teach a new teacher many students.
The other party didn't know what her abilities were and needed time to verify them. Generally speaking, there was a three-month trial period, which was the same wherever she went, but she couldn't wait at all. She needed to make money quickly.
She even thought about changing her job, but what could she do
On the first day when she changed positions, she did nothing except submit her resume and sat in a daze, feeling a little heavy.
Once she changes her job and faces all the unknowns, she can't afford to gamble, but she definitely can't continue doing this job.
evening.
Ji Huai called her and said that he had picked up Xiao Sensen, and Chen Na was dragging Lin Qing to meet Fang He and the others.
"I have something else to do today, why don't you take him to dinner first?" Lin Qing said to the other end of the phone.
"Okay, I'll take him to the mall." Ji Huai didn't refuse.
After hanging up the phone, Lin Qing and Chen Na went to a nearby hot pot restaurant, where Fang He and Li Xia were already there.
Li Xia has found a job as a substitute teacher in a school. The salary is not high, but it is easier than ever, while Fang He is preparing to take the junior high school art teacher exam.
This caught Lin Qing's attention, and she asked a few questions.
Fang He explained, "There are more teachers recruited today than last year, and I don't want to be angry anymore. I'm going to take the examination for the establishment. If I don't pass, I will take the exam for public institutions. Public institutions also recruit people, and you can take the exam for multiple majors."
Lin Qing ate her meal absentmindedly. There was an exam in half a year, and she actually wanted to take it.
Although the salary is not more than ten thousand, the benefits are good. She can support her son and have plenty of time to spend with him.
The current situation is that if she changes her job, the short-term fluctuations will be relatively large, and she is afraid that she will not be able to guarantee his life.
To change the status quo, she had to make a very difficult decision, that is: send Xiao Sensen back to Ji's house.
The rent was too high. If she were alone, she could rent a house in a village in the city for a few hundred yuan, or she could just find a job worth more than three thousand yuan, and then work hard to pass the establishment examination, but she couldn't do it with him.
She took him with her because she hoped to give him a better life and try to give him a good family environment, instead of suffering with her. If the child was not with her, she would work hard without distraction, pass the exam or get a salary increase. , take him back.
He won't suffer in the Ji family, but he will by following her in this situation.
Lin Qing didn't go back until nearly ten o'clock. Ji Huai had already called her twice. When she rushed back, he was standing outside the gate holding his son.
Little Sensen had fallen asleep on his shoulder, holding a bag of toys in his hand.
"Sorry." She walked over quickly, took out the key, opened the door, and quickly let him in.
"It's okay." Ji Huai carried his son into the bedroom and put him on the bed. He was sleeping soundly and did not wake up even if he moved.
Lin Qing gently covered her son with a quilt, and Ji Huai also walked out.
Xu was thinking about sending the child back. She followed him, walked out with him, and took the initiative to ask, "Are you going to work tomorrow?"
Ji Huai: "Well, I'm going on a business trip tomorrow."
"Did he have fun today?" Lin Qing asked again. She had taken care of her son and she would definitely be reluctant to leave him, but she knew what was important and what was serious. There was no need to suffer with her. Only when she lived well could she give her a better life. life.
The Ji family will not treat him badly.
"I'm very happy. I'm sleepy before I get back." Ji Huai put one hand in his pocket and smiled.
Lin Qing wanted to talk to him about her son several times, but when she thought of his insistence on not having children, she swallowed her words back.
He often travels on business and can't take her with him at all. The person she is looking for is not him, but Ji's mother.
"Go back, I'm going down." Ji Huai pressed the elevator button. The elevator quickly rose from the first floor and opened the door.
"Yeah." Lin Qing walked back.