Lin Qing stayed up all night, her mind was in chaos. She had the urge to take her children away from the city. After all, Ji Huai had hurt and disappointed him too much before, but she also had reasons to stay. Should she choose to trust him once
She felt like a small boat rolling under the huge waves. In fact, she didn't even know what she should do.
She was confused and anxious about her child's future life security and, more importantly, her child's education.
As a first-time mother, she always wanted to give her child the best, so that he could grow up healthily, but she was always powerless. She was afraid that getting together with Ji Huai again would cause greater harm to the child and make him Childhood leaves a shadow.
When the alarm clock rang, Lin Qing, with tired eyes, went to wash up first, then came back and picked up her son, "Baby, get up and go to school."
Little Sensen fell asleep in a daze, lying on his mother's shoulder, unable to open his eyes. He was a little more willful than before. He rubbed his eyes and wanted to fall asleep again.
"He's going to be late." Lin Qing put him on the stool, took the towel and started washing his face.
"Mom." Xiao Sensen's sleepiness disappeared a lot and he called her.
Lin Qing lowered her head and kissed him, then gave him a small toothbrush and a glass of warm water.
After a while of busy work, she took him out again, helped him get dressed, put on socks and shoes, and put on his schoolbag...
"Mom, take the phone." Lin Qing said and hurried into the room, put the phone in her bag, and walked out.
Xiao Sensen was standing in the living room wearing shoes and carrying a small schoolbag. He also wore a red hat on his head, which made his face white and tender.
Lin Qing walked out and saw that he had been looking at the cardboard box on the table, which was left by Ji Huai yesterday. Inside was a white remote-controlled racing car.
Xiao Sensen stood there, looking at the carton but not moving.
She walked over and brought the carton over, "Dad came to see Sensen yesterday. He also brought the racing car he promised to buy for Sensen. Do you want to see it?"
"No." Xiao Sensen took a step back, shook his head, and said firmly, "No, dad, no."
It is said that children forget things quickly, especially those who are a little over two years old. In the eyes of adults, what do they know? Maybe I’ll forget about it later.
Lin Qing did not dare to ignore it. She squatted down and opened the carton while saying, "Why doesn't Sensen want dad? Dad already said that he would pick Sensen up from school tonight and take Sensen to the shopping mall."
"I will also buy toys for Sensen."
After all, little Sensen was a child. He looked at the racing car taken out by his mother and stared at it intently. He still trusted what his mother said. He thought for a moment and whispered, "Daddy is a bad dad, don't let Sensen go."
"Sensen doesn't want dad."
He may have said something angrily, pouting, and his little hands were still holding the corner of his clothes while he was talking.
Lin Qing felt more and more that her emotional excitement last night had a big impact on him. She looked at him with a smile and pretended to deny it in a relaxed tone, "Dad is not a bad dad, and he will not let Sensen off. Sensen is so well-behaved and sensible. Dad will never let go of Sensen."
"Then dad is a big idiot."
She said this as if what happened yesterday was a misunderstanding, her joking tone was serious and very convincing.
"Dad is a big idiot." Xiao Sensen bit his lower lip and smiled, showing a few small teeth.
"When dad comes to pick up Sensen in the afternoon, Sensen can ask dad. If dad says he doesn't want Sensen, then buying such a beautiful racing car won't make us happy." Lin Qing said and turned on the switch of the racing car and tried to move it. "Hey, why can't I drive the racing car my dad bought?"
Xiao Sensen nodded, squatted down and waved his hand, "Mom, that's not it. You have to press, press this."
He stretched out his little finger and clicked the red switch, then clicked forward again, and the car moved forward in an instant.
"Wow." Lin Qing exclaimed.
"If you want to go back, press this, Mom, I'll do it." His fleshy little hand stretched out and took the remote control, his childish voice echoed in the hall, "This way, it will keep going, this way..."
Xiao Sensen was addicted to the racing car his father bought. He temporarily believed his mother's words, and his father did not abandon him. He came back to pick him up from school in the afternoon.
It was actually too late, but Lin Qing did not rush him. Instead, she waited for him to play for a while before she said, "Baby, we have to go to school. Can we play again when we come back tonight?"
"Okay." He reluctantly picked up the car from the ground, turned off the switch, put it on the table, and walked over to hold Lin Qing's hand.
Lin Qing rubbed his head and led him out.
When he arrived at the kindergarten, other children were already doing morning exercises. Xiao Sensen let go of Lin Qing's hand and walked in. After taking two steps, he turned to look at her and said, "Mom, dad will really come to pick her up." Me?"
"Yes." Lin Qing nodded heavily and promised, "Dad will come to pick up Sensen."
Hearing this, he smiled again, full of expectation, "Then Mom wants to tell Dad that I have to go to class after school, with other children, and I won't be able to go home until later, when the sun goes down."
Lin Qing smiled and nodded, "Okay, mom will tell dad."
After hearing his mother's assurance, Xiao Sensen nodded and was led by the teacher as he walked in. He was in a good mood and shook his little hand, "Bye, mother."
"Bye-Bye."
Lin Qing waited until he reached the stairs before turning around and walking out. The first thing she did was to call Ji Huai.
After the call was connected, she said in a serious tone, "You have to pick him up in the afternoon. You can't be late. Don't let him down again."
"Xiao Qing, I know." Ji Huai said helplessly but seriously, "I will go back to pick him up in the afternoon. I won't be late."
Lin Qing's expression softened a little, "It doesn't have to be too early, just arrive around six o'clock."
"I made a note. I have nothing to do today. I will be there in time."
"Yeah." Lin Qing didn't say much to him, and was about to hang up when Ji Huai's voice came from the other side, "I went back and thought about it yesterday..."
"What?" Lin Qing walked to the bus stop. She was destined to be late today, so she didn't hurry.
"As I said yesterday, I will try my best to take care of him so that you have the energy to prepare for the exam. I will give you three and a half thousand a month for child support. I know it is not enough, but I can't pay any more. I came back yesterday to give you I estimated the price of the car and found that it would be too much of a loss to sell it, and the loan would have to be paid off before it could be sold, so it would be better to rent it.”
"But the car dealership can't rent it out every day. It's the off-season now, so there probably won't be much money. If I can rent it better in the second half of the year, I will try my best to give you more."
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He was talking on the other end, his words were somewhat sincere, and Lin Qing naturally would not embarrass him, "Look at it, the money is not for me, it is for your son, I will not keep it secretly."
To be honest, it was indeed a bit beyond her expectation that Ji Huai could do this, but as he said, if her work was not good, her life was not good, and her son suffered along with him, she would also do something. The thought of sending his son back.
Maybe Ji Huai doesn't want to be implicated
No matter what the purpose is, as long as he agrees, then her path will be easier.
"You go to work, I'll pick him up in the afternoon." Ji Huai said this without disturbing her.
Lin Qing agreed and hung up the phone.
When she arrived at the company, she was twenty minutes late and had already finished her morning meeting.
When she walked to the front desk to check in, Luo Yantong looked at her with a bad expression, "Come earlier next time."
Lin Qing didn't say anything, just took her bag and walked inside.
Her current job is all about trivial matters. The company has not yet decided what kind of work to arrange for her. Luo Yantong doesn't want her to be idle, and sometimes she wants to find trouble.
Now that she has decided to resign, Lin Qing will naturally not follow her lead.
Luo Yantong asked her to find a school today and then go publicize the exams, but she rejected it directly, "Aren't these things you should contact? Where should I find a school?"
"You are in charge of the examination now." Luo Yantong reminded her.
"Then you have to send two people to me, right? Should I go alone for publicity? I am the only one in the whole department, who will cooperate with me?" Lin Qing asked.
"You can find a part-time job yourself. This is something you have to learn to deal with." Luo Yantong lowered her face.
"I know, then I'll ask." Lin Qing was perfunctory.
Promotion or something, there's no commission at all, so what is she going to do
Luo Yantong was very angry, but she didn't say anything and turned around and left.
Lin Qing didn't take her words seriously at all. Even Luo Yantong probably didn't know how to publicize it. He just couldn't see her relaxed and felt uncomfortable, so he had to find something for her to do.
After Luo Yantong left, Xu Rui came over again and comforted her, "Don't take her words at face value. She is just as sick. How can we promote it now?"
"I'm not worried." Lin Qing replied politely. She knew Luo Yantong fairly well. He was just like that. He always looked for trouble, especially when he felt uncomfortable. In the past, he didn't want to make newcomers feel comfortable, but now he probably wants to make the entire company uncomfortable too.
Xu Rui: "The company hasn't arranged any work for the examination administrator yet, so don't be anxious and just wait and see. Anyway, I haven't been busy recently."
Lin Qing nodded.
The other party's intention was to let her dawdle, and she originally had the same idea. Anyway, she would get a day's work for one day's work, but now she had a lot of free time, so she could just use it up.
However, she doesn't want to do this now. In the afternoon, she will go to the companies she has chosen for interviews. If she can get the interview, she will resign immediately. Originally, she thought that she would be free for this month, and she could make some money. Now she feels that it is simply... waste time.
Xu Rui is still happy that she didn't leave, "I think there won't be much work, it won't be very hard, and I can continue to promote and be lazy."
"Who knows if you don't come back?"
Lin Qing saw him trying hard to find a topic and smiled at her. She was not an innocent girl, and she could vaguely feel the meaning. She half-jokingly agreed, "That's the case."
After that, the topic was not raised again.
In fact, after divorcing Ji Huai, she had no time to think about relationships. With a divorce and a child, she really didn't have time to think about it.
Seeing her working, Xu Rui didn't say anything, made an excuse and went out again.
Chen Na walked in and complained to her a few more times, "Now I am always given some messy work."
"If you keep doing this, I won't do it anymore!"
"Okay, calm down." Lin Qing said with a smile.
Chen Na is the kind of person who works hard without complaining. She only dares to complain a few times every time she is bullied. In the year since she joined, she has often said she is leaving, but she knows that she will not leave.
The other party should be someone who has no pressure in life and has a good temper. I am afraid that he will stick to it until the end.
afternoon.
Lin Qing found an excuse to take leave and secretly went to interview with several companies. They were not far away and very convenient.
However, jobs are hard to find.
After she went there, she discovered that many things were very inconsistent with the recruitment. The salary was simply false and she was deceived.
Some have a basic salary of 2,000 yuan, and the one she values most will have to become a full-time employee in a year. The conditions are too harsh and the room for development is not high.
Even if she shows off her academic qualifications, these companies are very smart now. They hope that she will come back to negotiate salary when she shows her ability, and promise to give her a raise.
Anyway, I just kept drawing cakes.
When I was feeling lonely, my cell phone rang.
Lin Qing took it out and glanced at it. It was from Ji Huai. She pressed answer and put it to her ear. She said on the other end, "I've received the call from Sensen."
"That's good." She replied.
"Talk to mom." Ji Huai's voice came from over there, followed by Xiao Sensen's soft voice, "Mom, dad said we were going to eat something delicious."
When Lin Qing heard his voice, she felt much less depressed, "What's something delicious to eat?"
This question stopped Xiao Sensen. He turned to look at his father, "Dad, what is something delicious to eat?"
"You can eat whatever you want." Ji Huai hugged him and carried his small schoolbag on his shoulders.
"Mom, you can eat whatever you want." Xiao Sensen relayed his father's words and asked again, "Mom, when will you come?"
Lin Qing felt that she was quite embarrassed now and didn't want to go. She said softly, "Baby, just go and eat with your dad. Mom has something else to do and can't come over."
Xiao Sensen was a little disappointed and his voice was much softer, "But, I want mom to come over."
"Give the phone to dad. Dad tells mom." Ji Huai reached out to him, and Xiao Sensen gave him the phone and kept it in his dad's arms.
Ji Huai held him with one hand and walked out, while talking to the phone and saying, "Let's go to Heyang Square, which is also close to your place. Can you come over and have dinner together?"
"I don't want to go." She was not as patient with him as she was with her children.
"The interview didn't go well today?" He knew her somewhat, so he spoke tentatively.
It was okay if I didn't say it, but Lin Qing got very angry when I mentioned it, "You know everything, you are so awesome."
Why don't you go to heaven if you are so powerful
Ji Huai was not annoyed either. He looked at his son who was carefully observing him and raised the corner of his mouth, "You still have to eat no matter what happens, right? You can't find a job with a salary of tens of thousands. Are you afraid that you can't find a job with a salary of several thousand? In the worst case, just change it." One serving.”
When Xiao Sensen saw her father smiling, her face relaxed again. She stretched out her hand to hook her father's neck, enjoying this time very much.
Being held so high by my father makes other children look so short.
Lin Qing thinks that's right. What kind of job can't earn 3,000 yuan? It's nothing more than a mismatch of expertise and little room for improvement.
"We're on the bus. Call me at the square and we'll have hot pot." Ji Huai made the decision for her and added, "I'll treat you."
Lin Qing blurted out, "Aren't you desperately poor?"
It's glamorous on the outside, but in fact, you don't have a penny, you can't even get your son's support, and you have to use your credit card to pay for the divorce, how can you be so embarrassed
"This has nothing to do with my treat." Ji Huai replied.
Lin Qing's mood recovered well, and she could save a meal.
Half an hour later.
She arrived at the square, took out her mobile phone and was about to call Ji Huai, when a voice suddenly rang, "Mom!"
Hearing the sound, Xiao Sensen was sitting on the merry-go-round, calling her excitedly. Ji Huai was leaning against the pillar, waiting for him.
Lin Qing walked over. Not long after walking there, the carousel also stopped, and Ji Huai went in to hug his son.
To be precise, it wasn't a hug. Xiao Sensen wanted to ride on his shoulders and grab his hair. He put his hand on Lin Qing's head with a happy expression, squinting and smiling, "Mom is short, and I am tall."
He's so tall now.
"How tall are you?" Lin Qing was amused by him and took the small schoolbag from Ji Huai's hand. He was not easy to hold it.
"So tall, taller than dad." Xiao Sensen put his head on top of his dad again, "Dad said, he is not a big idiot."
"Dad is a big fool, Sensen is a little fool, mom will be a big fool, and I am not a little fool."
Only a big idiot will give birth to a little idiot, and the father did not want him.
Lin Qing looked at Ji Huai, who reached out to support his son and said with a smile, "Then what are you?"
"It's Ultraman." He looked serious.
Ji Huai laughed out loud, "Is it Little Ultraman?"
"It's Ultraman Tiga." He corrected his father, gestured, and then said to himself, "It's still small, but it will become bigger, so tall."
"Let's go eat, and we'll get taller when we eat. Let's go, Ultraman Tiga." Ji Huai glanced at her and motioned for her to go inside.
Lin Qing breathed a sigh of relief when she saw the figure of the father and son. She specially sent a message to Ji Huai in the afternoon to tell him about this matter, just to let him communicate with his son properly and not let the child leave a shadow.
Children don't think that much seriously. She has already explained that as long as Ji Huai talks to him properly, the other party will believe it.
When Lin Qing followed the two of them, she could still hear Xiao Sensen's voice, "Dad, can you pick me up every day?"
"Dad has to go to work and go on a business trip." After Ji Huai finished speaking, seeing that the other party was silent, he added, "Dad has to make money to support you, but he can pick you up when he is not at work. You will have to be with your father more often in the future. "
"Why? What about mom?" Xiao Sensen was still a little sensitive, "I want to be with mom."
If dad and mom could only choose one, he would choose mom.
"Mom." Ji Huai looked at Lin Qing and said softly, "Mom has to study recently. We can't interrupt her study. Mom has to take an exam."
"Why do we need to take the exam?" Xiao Sensen asked, with confusion in his little eyes.
"You can go to work right after the exam, and I will have more time to spend with you in the future." Ji Huai answered for Lin Qing, "So you have to stay with dad and let mom have time to study."
Xiao Sensen seemed to understand, "I won't disturb my mother's study, I will be very good."
"Then you're great." Ji Huai praised him, and when he got to the restaurant, he put him down from his shoulders. "After dinner, we can buy the little train from last time and take it back to build it."
Xiao Sensen's eyes suddenly lit up, "I want a small train!"
Boys are not generally interested in this kind of toys. Little Sensen eats faster than usual and is very well-behaved.
Lin Qing and Xiao Sensen sat on one side, and Ji Huai sat across from them. He was a neglectful father, but he still did what he should do when he was with them.
For example, now, when I cook beef slices, I put them in the bowls for two people. When I see that there is no more food, I add them.
Lin Qing temporarily put aside her depression and took care of Xiao Sensen while eating.
After dinner, Xiao Sensen pestered Ji Huai to buy a small train. After buying the small train, he also bought a Lego car.
These genuine copies are really expensive. One box of such a small one costs several hundred, and two boxes costs thousands.
What concept do children have about money? Xiao Sensen hugged Xiao Sensen tightly. Lin Qing was about to squat down and persuade her son to buy only one because Ji Huai was also very poor, but the other party stopped her and said, "He can buy it if he likes it."
After saying that, he went to check out. When checking out, he still used his credit card.
She didn't know what to say, so she complained, "You're not afraid of developing his bad habits."
Ji Huai didn't care, "He doesn't understand anything now, it's rare to like him."
"It's hard for you to know what he likes. I've never seen you care about him much before." Lin Qing couldn't help but stab him with words.
Ji Huai's face was slightly stiff, and he put his hand to his mouth to signal her not to talk about this matter. He looked nervously at his son in front of him, for fear that the other party would hear him.
Lin Qing was more careful than him. Xiao Sensen was walking in front, but she lowered her volume and was not heard at all.
"He asked me today if I don't want him anymore." Ji Huai looked at his son while slowing down and looking at her, his expression softening. "He told me that my mother told him that my father would be a fool if he didn't want him." .”
If you ask it this way, it won't be so serious, but rather a bit coquettish and accusatory, and the atmosphere will not be tense.
"Then what?" Lin Qing asked.
"I told him that dad is not a big fool. If dad is a big fool, he is a little fool. Big fools will not abandon little fools." After Ji Huai finished speaking, he concluded, "He was stunned."
"Then I made sure to tell him that I would never let him go. He is my parents' favorite baby."
When he said this, he looked at her with dark eyes, and Lin Qing's heartbeat actually accelerated for a moment.
Damn it.
She looked away in panic and walked forward quickly, "Baby, walk slowly, don't fall."
Ji Huai looked at the backs of one big and one small, his smile widening.
At nine o'clock in the evening, the three of them returned to Lin Qing's rented residence.
After she opened the door, Ji Huai walked in naturally. Xiao Sensen couldn't wait to take out the car and fight with his father. He sat on the ground on one side and clapped his little hands on the other side, "Dad, sit here."
"Dad, are you sitting?" Ji Huai repeated his words and walked to the other side.
"Well, sit here." He fiddled with his little head and handed the carton to Ji Huai, "Dad, open it."
Ji Huai reached out to take it, then opened the carton, took out the contents, and placed the drawings on the ground.
Lin Qing looked at the father and son and walked to the kitchen to wash the fruits.
Now I have to prepare portions for two people, pour yogurt on them, come out with a small plate and place it in front of them, "Baby, eat some fruit."
Although Xiao Sensen responded, he was obsessed with fighting for cars and did not take action.
Lin Qing looked at Ji Huai, "You let him eat something, I'm going to take a shower first."
"Yeah." Ji Huai nodded.
"Dad, this, this." Xiao Sensen picked up the front of the car and patted it on the rear of the assembled car. He couldn't hold it down and he was very anxious.
Ji Huai taught him step by step.
Lin Qing looked at it for a while, then walked to the bathroom, took a shower, washed her hair, dried her hair and walked out. It was okay to be looked at by someone. In the past, she could only wait until Xiao Sensen fell asleep before taking a shower. She really didn't trust him. one person.
When she came out, Xiao Sensen was asleep, and Ji Huai was packing up the drawings and putting them in a cardboard box.
Lin Qing was confused, "Are you asleep?"
"After eating the fruit, I went to bed before playing for a while after playing hard. I changed him into pajamas." He stood up, "It's getting late, so you should go to bed early. I'll go back first."
"Okay." Lin Qing's face looked better than before, and she walked him to the door this time.
When Ji Huai went out, he said again, "Look for a job slowly. Don't be in a hurry. Don't put too much pressure on yourself."
Lin Qing was just about to refute him, but he was not the one who had no money. It hurt to stand and talk. Before he could speak, he said again, "If it doesn't work out, I can also give you the alimony in one lump sum like you said."
"Where are you going to get the money?" she couldn't help but ask.
Three thousand and five months is more than 300,000.
"My parents' house can be mortgaged or sold, and they can come and live with me after they retire." He didn't seem to think it was inappropriate. "It's easier for me to spend the money than it is for you. I won't watch Sensen suffer, nor will I." I won’t watch you suffer.”
Lin Qing also felt that there was no need to worry about him. His house in the school district in the city center was worth nearly three million, but she had nothing.
"If you really want to go back to your hometown, you can use this money to buy a smaller house, and your parents can help you take care of Sensen." Ji Huai added.
Hearing what he said, the pressure in Lin Qing's heart really eased a lot. This was because her mother had already applied for internal withdrawal in advance due to physical reasons, so he could help her.
"Don't think too much, just let nature take its course." Seeing that she was really thinking about it, Ji Huai interrupted her train of thought.
Why waste brain cells on something that can't possibly come true
Lin Qing was pleased with him again and said, "Be careful on the road."
It's so late, I still have to take the bus or subway back, and the car is rented, so it's not too bad.
"Well, I'll send you a message when I get back." He nodded and continued walking out.
"goodbye."
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When he entered the elevator, Lin Qing closed the door mercilessly. When he walked back, he saw the toys on the table and his sleeping son. He had to admit that it was too hard to take care of the child alone.
Some suffering can be avoided.
If Ji Huai is good to his child, she won't show him any shame, let alone go against him. After all, the child also needs a father.