The next day.
Ji Huai got up early in the morning and took Su Jing to the hospital and registered. While waiting outside, he held the child and she stood beside him.
"Still eating." Ji Huai looked down at his daughter, then looked at her again with a smile.
Su Jing also looked at her daughter, but her face was expressionless and even her eyes were distracted. She didn't concentrate on looking at them at all.
"@#￥..." The daughter in her arms made a sound, moving her hands and feet wildly, as if to attract her mother's attention.
Su Jing stretched out her hand to hold her hand, but her emotions didn't change.
Ji Huai thinks that there is still half a month left and Su Jing hasn't found out about him and Zhang Dandan yet, so his condition will be alleviated.
As everyone knows, it turned out to be severe depression.
The doctor recommended drug treatment and psychological counseling at the same time, so it could not be delayed any longer.
Ji Huai looked solemnly, looked at Su Jing and said softly, "We are going to wean Yuanyuan. You are sick and need to take medicine."
Su Jing was a little numb. She seemed to feel the seriousness, but she looked at the result like an outsider.
When she went out, her face showed fear again, her neck shrank, and powerlessness seemed to sweep through every pore of her, imprisoning her in a dark body.
She was struggling, but couldn't break free.
I got sick.
Then what
"It's okay, just take the medicine and you'll be fine. I'm here." Ji Huai held his daughter with one hand and held her with the other, pretending to be relaxed. "Many people suffer from postpartum depression, but it's not a serious illness."
"Just take your medicine on time."
"But I don't want to take medicine." She resisted.
"How can I get better if I don't take medicine? My daughter still needs her mother." Ji Huai put the medicine in the car and waited for her to get in the back seat before handing it to her daughter. "Are you right?"
Su Jing was slow to react and was thinking.
Ji Huai went to the driver's seat and drove back, with the doctor's words ringing in his mind, his thin lips tightened, and the fingers holding the steering wheel were a little white.
She has serious suicidal tendencies, is pessimistic and world-weary, and looks like a cocoon, watching their performance without sadness or joy.
Moreover, there is also a problem with the logic.
"Who asked you to come? We don't want nannies here!"
"Mr. Ji asked me to come."
"You're looking in the wrong place, you don't need it here."
…
Seeing Ji Huai's car approaching, Qin Qiuhua became even more anxious and quickly reached out to chase the woman away, "Get out of here, get out of here!"
The woman didn't leave and said directly, "I'll wait for Mr. Ji to come back. I've confirmed that this is where he is."
Qin Qiuhua was about to curse when she saw Ji Huai's car stopped. Before he could ask, she hurriedly said, "I don't know where someone comes from and she wants to sell some messy stuff again. I'll drive her away right away!" "
Ji Huai ignored her at all and looked at the woman, "Are you the nanny arranged by Lanxi Housekeeping?"
"Yes, my name is Li Holland, and this is my health certificate." The woman said and handed over some certificates.
"Come in." Ji Huai took it and took a look, then drove the car inside.
Li Holland bypassed Qin Qiuhua and walked in directly.
Qin Qiuhua panicked now and trotted in, following Ji Huai, and kept saying, "I can do all the work at home, why do I need to find a nanny?"
"How can outsiders work with the same intentions as our own family members?"
"Isn't this a waste of money?"
…
Ji Huai stopped, his eyes were cold, and his voice was cold and stern, "From now on, you are not needed here. Pack your things immediately and leave from here."
His tone was not a discussion, but a notification that could not be refused.
"Where can we go without us? We are all a family. Jihang Ji'an is still in school. Your brother hasn't come back since last night. I'll call him now and ask him to come back and talk." Qin Qiuhua said and quickly took out his mobile phone. , I need to call Brother Ji for help.
They all live here, and she considers this place to be her home, so why would she want to go out
A house costs several million, and they can't afford to rent it.
"It's useless for my brother to come. Sister-in-law Li, help them pack their things." Ji Huai looked at the new nanny and pointed to the two rooms upstairs. "Pack up all the things and leave them alone."
"Your task today is to clean up, especially these two rooms. Clean them up and throw away all the unnecessary things."
"Okay Mr. Ji." Mrs. Li nodded.
Qin Qiuhua shouted, she must be dissatisfied, but who is Mrs. Li
I have been working as a nanny for nearly twenty years, what kind of employer have I not seen? As long as her employer speaks, she will show no mercy.
Not allowed to clean up
Then throw them all away and pick them up in the trash later!
Qin Qiuhua was alone and would definitely not be able to resist. By the time Brother Ji came back, his things were almost packed.
It was useless for Brother Ji to beg. Ji Huai said directly, "As a brother, I think I have done a good enough job. Brother, please don't embarrass me."
"Your sister-in-law knows she's wrong. That's how she is! If I beat her up, she won't dare to do it next time. Where can we go now? Your nephew is still in school. You can't ignore it." Brother Ji said and left. Qin Qiuhua pulled him over to beat him.
"I don't care how eldest brother handles family affairs. As for the nephew, he is eldest brother's son, not mine. I have no obligation to take responsibility. What eldest brother said is wrong." Ji Huai's face became ugly again, and he looked at Brother Ji, "I thought my eldest brother's family lived here, and the family was happy and lively. It was a waste of money to hire a nanny, so I used my own family. I gave my eldest brother a lot of money during the Chinese New Year, right? I also gave my nephew a lot of toys and red envelopes." Right? My sister-in-law also gave me a bonus."
As he spoke, he changed the subject, his tone was cold, and he raised his voice and asked, "Why is my sister-in-law so greedy? What did she give Xiaojing to eat? Did she make food that she could eat? She made soup, but she hid it and ate it by herself. , are you doing personnel matters?"
Brother Ji also has a good reputation. He was so embarrassed when he was told that he moved his lips and couldn't say a word to refute.
When Qin Qiuhua saw that her husband had compromised and wanted to drag her away, he became angry, "What's wrong with the things I made? Why can't we eat big fish and meat? She's just pretentious and sick!"
"Su Jing is sick. She has a brain problem and is mentally ill!"
Ji Huai's expression suddenly changed, he glanced at her, and looked away in disgust, "Sister-in-law Li, there's no need to deal with it."
"They come here to buy everything. Except for old clothes, they are not allowed to take away anything!"
"Okay, Mr. Ji." Sister-in-law Li responded.
In the end, Qin Qiuhua and his wife were kicked out, leaving only a few pitiful old clothes. Sister-in-law Li closed the iron door and looked at their embarrassment.
Mr. Ji said that from now on, these two people cannot take a step forward.
Qin Qiuhua was still indignant, but Brother Ji became angry and pulled her hair, gritting his teeth, "It's all you unlucky bitch who embarrasses me every time!"
"Is this good? It makes me angry just looking at it."
"See if I don't beat you to death!"
…
The two struggled again.
When Ji Huai walked upstairs, Su Jing was on the balcony, holding her daughter in her arms, and the motion machine was gently patting her back to coax her to sleep.
Looking at the scene outside the door, it was like watching a play.
She looked down at the balcony again. They lived on the second floor. The floor was not high. It shouldn't hurt if they fell, but she didn't care whether it hurt or not.
"It's time to seal the balcony. When my daughter grows up, it will be a safety hazard. I'll have someone seal it tomorrow." Ji Huai appeared behind her, put his arm around her waist, and said.
Su Jing also looked at him, her eyes distracted. She was thinking, what would happen to Ji Huai if she jumped
She was fighting with herself, feeling guilty for the thoughts she had, and hating the bad version of herself. She felt extremely sick, as if she was stuck in a swamp, trying to climb out with all her strength, but she was powerless but unwilling to do so.
I was so anxious that I began to suffer from angina, breathlessness, dizziness, and the hands holding my daughter began to become weak.
Like a balloon slowly deflating.
Even standing in front of her, Ji Huai couldn't detect her inner struggle. He only saw her wandering expression and pale face. He quickly stepped forward to support her, "Are you sleepy?"
She didn't reply.
Ji Huai helped her go to bed and covered her with a quilt, "Maybe I got up early today, so let's take a nap. I won't go to work today and will take care of my daughter."
Su Jing was lying on the bed and moving. She was like a fish out of water. She wanted to take a big breath, but she could only breathe weakly. A huge stone was pressing on her body, pressing her tightly, leaving no gap.
So tired.
Her eyelids began to feel heavy, and she felt like she had exhausted all her strength even when she closed her eyes to sleep. She could only look at the scarred self on the other side.
Ji Huai took his daughter to another room. The little girl was crying so much.
She doesn't want to drink milk, so she needs breast milk.
If you don’t drink, you don’t drink.
Ji Huai cried at the top of his lungs and cried heartbreakingly. Ji Huai was so anxious that he held her and patted her until his hands went soft, but the little guy still refused to drink.
"Mom is sick. You can only drink milk powder. Stop crying!" Ji Huai said through gritted teeth as he became impatient.
"Ah! Wuwuwu..."
"ah!"
"woo woo woo woo… "
…
He looked at his daughter who was crying and her face was red, feeling distressed and helpless.
In the end, Sister-in-law Li came up to coax her.
Originally, she could get off work after cooking. Because of Su Jing, Ji Huai didn't want her to stay here all day. She could go back after cooking and just clean the house twice a week.
After she stayed, she naturally worked overtime.
When Su Jing woke up, it was already evening. Ji Huai was really exhausted both physically and mentally. He carefully handed his daughter to her, "I just drank milk powder and I'm about to fall asleep."
Su Jing slept lightly, but after resting for an afternoon, her mental state improved a lot. She took her daughter and stared at her.
Ji Huai added, "Sister-in-law Li has cooked and made your favorite braised pork ribs and braised rice. Let's go eat first."
"Yeah." She nodded and stood up holding her daughter.
When we arrived at the restaurant, the four dishes and one soup were all very light. It was based on Su Jing's taste. She would also be a little interested in the food she liked.
"My hair is a mess." Ji Huai stood up, walked behind her, fiddled with her hair, took out the leather rope from her hand, and said with a smile, "My daughter follows you, her hair is smooth and of good quality. very."
She has been denying herself, and the first thing he has to do is to build her self-confidence.
"My hair has always been of good quality, and it will be smoother after washing." Su Jing let him play with it, and added, "That's why I haven't permed or dyed it."
"It's naturally black and straight. Why do you perm and dye it?" Ji Huai helped her tie it up and warned, "Don't perm or dye it. It's not good for your health."
"...Hmm." She responded quickly.
Su Jing had a good appetite today. She ate a bowl of stewed rice and gave Ji Huai a piece of ribs.
While drinking the soup, she looked at her daughter in her arms and said softly, "You are still too young to eat."
Ji Huai looked at her like this and breathed a sigh of relief in his heart. If he takes the medicine again, he should be much better.
But the most difficult thing to control about depression is the erratic mood.
late at night.
Ji Huai was also on the verge of collapse.
He looked at his daughter who was crying on the bed, and then at his wife who was holding him in the corner and crying heartbrokenly.
Su Jing seemed to have formed a world by herself, not allowing anyone to enter, and she could not get out.
She tried her best to vent her emotions and shouted at the top of her lungs.
Ji Huai wanted to go up and hug her, but she put her hands and feet on top of him, kicking and carrying her, not allowing him to come close to her, curling up in the corner, looking at him timidly and helplessly.
That scene turned into sharp swords and pierced Ji Huai's heart. He closed his eyes, opened them again, walked over and picked up his daughter who was crying so hard that her voice was hoarse, "I won't go, I'll coax her." Daughter, let me put her to sleep before we go to sleep."
"Stop crying. If you cry, your daughter will cry too. It's time for her to go to bed. Going to bed late will affect her development and is not good for her."
…
He said to her while coaxing his daughter, and slowly approached her. Su Jing looked at the daughter in his arms, shedding tears but not yelling anymore. She buried her head in her knees, her shoulders shaking.
"I'm sweating all over from crying. I'm going to catch a cold soon." Ji Huai tried it out, reached out to touch her head, and said something to distract her, "What should I do if I catch a cold? I'm worried that my daughter is still young and will be infected. You I’m worried too.”
Su Jing took a breath, not knowing whether she heard it or not.
After she calmed down for a while, Ji Huai slowly put his daughter in front of her, "You hold her while I make milk powder. My daughter is hungry."
Su Jing looked at him with an aggrieved face, but did not reach out for a long time.
Ji Huai didn't know how long this process took him. When his hands became soft, Su Jing slowly reached out and took it.
She looked at her daughter's little nose that was red from crying, and her eyes showed distress. She reached out and gently touched her head, and then she shed tears again.
Ji Huai had to coax the older one and the younger one, and he felt deeply powerless. When his daughter fell asleep peacefully and Su Jing's mood stabilized, it was already midnight.
He was so tired that he could fall asleep with his eyes closed, but seeing Su Jing looking at the ceiling, completely sleepless, he didn't dare to sleep.
"Aren't you sleepy?" He looked sideways at her, Su Jing also looked at him, and the next second she was held in his arms. Ji Huai looked tired, "Honey, can you turn off the lights and go to bed? I'm sleepy. "
Su Jing reached out and pressed the switch on the bedside, and everything suddenly became dark.
She was kissed on the forehead, "Good night."
"...Good night." She said softly, with a thick nasal voice, and slowly closed her eyes. Although she did not fall asleep instantly, she also entered a state of light sleep.
Half awake, half asleep.
For her, sleeping was a nightmare, one after another. As soon as she fell asleep, her heartbeat began to accelerate again, and she felt powerless all over her body.
Every time, she would stretch her hands to the side, trying to save herself, longing for someone to hold her up so she didn't want to fall or die.
And her hands seemed to be filled with lead, weighing a thousand pounds, making it extremely difficult to move.
She moved her fingers slightly and moved a little to the side. She began to sweat, her muscles were tense, and a cold breeze hit her.
Just when she was about to give up, a pair of big hands held hers and intertwined their fingers with hers. The hand on her waist tightened and hugged her a little tighter.
At that moment, she seemed to suddenly have a point of support, preventing her from falling into the abyss.
A ray of sunlight appeared, and she reached out and caught it.
The feeling of suffocation suddenly disappeared, and she came to life, breathing freely, moving her hands, and holding him tighter.