Tian Jing's suppressed emotions burst out at that moment, her eyes were red, she bit her lip and choked, turned her head to the corner, and her shoulders began to tremble.
She was not willing to let go. The pressure in the big city was too great and she had been alone for too long. The flesh that fell from her body was her deepest concern and longing.
Ji Huai put his hand on her shoulder and comforted her, "I'm going to support one, and I'm going to support both of them. Since they're here, it's their fate, so just work harder."
He is a person who goes with the flow and is somewhat resigned to his fate.
"What will happen to your parents? Are they willing to stay? We are still living in this house, so it is impossible not to be affected. My sister-in-law has already given birth to two children and aborted two. They will have to give birth to more children in the future. It seems that We won't stop until we have a boy." She became slightly agitated and expressed her dissatisfaction, suppressing the tears in her eyes, helpless and angry, "Is it a fertility machine? Do I want to be like this too?"
She originally didn't want to say these words out loud because they were obvious things, so she could only secretly plan them in her heart. But since Ji Huai said he would stay and never come back, she had to make it clear.
The fact that she has been able to reach this point step by step means that she is not someone who can be manipulated by others. She is more like a hedgehog, sensitive and suspicious, and will put up armor to protect herself and the people she wants to protect.
Ji Huai was also silenced by what she said. After thinking for a while, he explained, "I don't know about the elder brother and sister-in-law, but the elder sister-in-law should also want to have a boy. I don't care. If this one stays, we will definitely not be together in the future." After giving birth, I can’t afford to raise her. I just want to stay, but I don’t know what you think.”
Tian Jing didn't think much before she heard him continue, "We gave birth to the child and we raised it. The parents will definitely make trouble, but if they make trouble, they can only let them make trouble. In order to resolve the conflict, we can only stop living together." , we have to go out to live, but in this case, the money we invested... is equivalent to being lost."
When they built the house, they paid 200,000 yuan, and the miscellaneous items added up were more than that. Although they were in the same company, her salary was slightly higher than his by half. He spent too much money and smoked, so she saved most of the money. After building the house, she bought furniture and added things. After Ji Tianqi was born, she lost her job. Her child was often sick, and she had to pay social security, and they hadn't even paid off their credit cards.
Life has been tight these past few years, and this year I am planning to save some money to send my children to a better kindergarten.
Tian Jing calmed down a bit, exhaled vigorously, and began to think seriously.
If they go out, mountains will come down on them, making them breathless just thinking about it.
If you want to get something, you must exchange it for something else. She has always understood this truth. She looked at him, "Although we don't get along very happily at home, mom can help us. When cooking Shanshan and Miao Miao's rice, she can also cook Qiqi's. We don't have to pay rent or water and electricity bills. Just pay 1,000 yuan a month for food. Qiqi needs to buy insurance and prepare money for her to go to kindergarten. I also need to pay social security and pay back my credit card. I can save thousands of yuan on rent at home. Your salary It’s only less than 10,000 yuan after tax. Have you ever thought about these issues?”
These are very real problems. Their life will be much more difficult than it is now. Ji Huai's idea is very simple. He has never suffered much. Although he is two years older than her, his mind is far less mature and rational than hers.
No matter how hard it is, she can overcome it, but he may not be able to. She is afraid that he will not be able to withstand the pressure, because he is a person who grew up smoothly, unlike her.
In her sight, Ji Huai's eyes darkened, and he obviously didn't expect to be so thin. He moved his lips, but did not answer immediately, and his brows were furrowed. The hope rising in Tian Jing's eyes slowly dimmed again.
Ji Huai said: "Don't think so much at once."
"How can you not want to? You have to live a life when you move out. I'm still pregnant with the child and can't help you." Tian Jing saw that he was not worried at all, but she felt powerless and her words were a bit tired, "No You can survive just by saying something, and you can move out if you say you want to move out. Don't think about things so simply, okay? Don't be emotional."
Without Ji's father and Ji's mother, it would be difficult for this child to be born, not to mention there are so many obstacles now. Raising children now is not as easy and casual as it was a few decades ago.
Ji Huai held her hand and explained in a slow voice, "I'm not emotional, don't be too anxious, think about arranging everything at once, the credit card will be paid off in half a year, and Qiqi's insurance is still there It only takes a few months to pay, and kindergarten is due next year. If I don’t have money then I will pay with a credit card and pay it back in installments. I also owed a few credit cards in the past, but I have paid off some in the past two years. In the worst case, I will be back to square one.”
"We only need to ensure that we have income, a source of living, and are not in embarrassment before we can move out. We have no vicious debts and no squandering. We have the ability to make money. If we get through it, life will get better and better."
She has always been alone, running around without anyone to rely on. She feels insecure and feels that no one can help her. She thinks things through and arranges many things, so she becomes very anxious. She is working very hard in her career, her life is also on a tight string, and her mood is relatively unstable. He has always been her mood stabilizer.
The restlessness in Tian Jing's heart was gradually relieved. When she looked at him, a sour feeling came to the tip of her nose, and there were tears in her eyes, as if her armor was suddenly removed, revealing her fragile and soft heart.
Ji Huai stretched out his hand to hold her in his arms, put his hand on her back, patted and comforted her again and again, and said warmly in her ear, "Except for your social security of about 2,400 yuan, and for rent of about 3,000 yuan, We won't starve to death if we pay back the credit card. We don't have to pay back the credit card immediately. It's okay to apply for one or two more emergency aids. If we can't afford to go to a bilingual kindergarten for the time being, we won't go there. Your English is not bad, you can teach it at home. If she can’t afford to sign up for interest classes and early childhood education, we won’t sign up for it. If she has the money, we’ll let her go. Don’t arrange everything at once. You can live as much money as you want.”
"Don't think too much and put too much pressure on yourself. If you are stressed and anxious and can't sleep, it will be bad for you and the child. We only need to save a sum of money every month for your prenatal check-up and hospitalization. This won't save you money." Drop it, nothing else is urgent."
"...Yes." Tian Jing nodded gently in his arms, and reminded him with a cry in her tone, "Don't you still have some provident fund? It can be used to pay for the rent. I did the math, it should be enough for half a year, right?"
The company was very stingy, so they only paid 5%. They had almost used it before renting a house. Ji Huai had saved a little more over the past year, which could probably last half a year.
"Wouldn't the situation be better in this case?" He looked down at her with a smile. In fact, he thought that just showing the worst outcome would raise her expectations.
Tian Jing was embarrassed and buried her head in his arms again. I can't say that the situation is better, I can only say that I don't need to apply for a credit card anymore, but life is definitely difficult, and I can't escape the hard work, and I still have to spend a lot of money and a lot of money, but I still haven't calculated it carefully.
"When I receive this month's salary, we will go find a house. Don't tell your parents yet, I will go and solve it." Ji Huai said his plan.
"Okay." She listened to him this time.
"Go to sleep." Ji Huai lifted the quilt and lay in it.
Tian Jing's resentment and annoyance in the past few days disappeared without a trace, and her depression was mostly relieved. She fell asleep with him and moved towards him.
She had given birth to another child and was pregnant with another, and now she had to rent a house. Ji Huai was not highly educated and did not earn much. In the past, the conditions were really terrible, but she did not think he was bad at all, and even felt that She has pretty good taste herself.
Conditions are nothing in front of these things.
Ji Huaigang stretched out his hand to turn off the light, and when he noticed her leaning over, he reached out to hug her, and then pulled the quilt up.
Although it felt like hard times were coming, Tian Jing felt relaxed and happy. She fell asleep after holding him for a while, still sleeping soundly.
Ji Huai, who used to be big-hearted, hugged her and sorted out the thoughts in his mind. What he said just now sounded calm and gentle, he was just transferring the pressure from Tian Jing to himself.
At the end of his previous life, he quit his job in the company and found an easy job earning a few thousand yuan a month. He thought he had no pressure and lived leisurely. Now he is about to support a family, and the child is born with even more money. Machine, if life is too hard and both of them are depressed, Tian Jing will be very anxious. For him, it will directly activate the difficult mode.
He didn't want her to endure hardships with him, so he had to quickly raise a family.
Ji Huai did not take her to the hospital because he was busy with work. Tian Jing relaxed and continued to take care of the child at home, taking good care of herself and figuring out when to leave here and what she could take with her.
He said not to let her get involved in this matter, just leave it to him.
Since Sister-in-law Ji has been in confinement, Tian Jing has to help take care of her two daughters, or she has to alternate cooking and housework with Ji's mother.
Shanshan and Miao Miao are eight years old and five years old. When they are officially naughty, Ji Tianqi is less than two years old. The three children get together. When they are having fun, they are fine, but when they cry, one is more cruel than the other. Who is it? Don't let anyone.
Tian Jing had a headache from the noise, and Sister-in-law Ji also came downstairs. She was wearing long clothes and long sleeves, and slippers on her feet. She was still looking at her mobile phone in her hand. When she heard the crying, she looked at her two daughters and scolded her. He said, "Shanshan, give the toys to your sister, you are not acting like a sister!"
Of course Ji Shanshan didn't want to, and she held her hand tighter, while Ji Miaomiao was still fighting for it.
"Why don't you listen?" Sister-in-law Ji was so angry that she rushed down and carried Ji Shanshan over. Tian Jing wanted to stop her, but she had already been slapped twice on the buttocks and started crying at the top of her lungs.
Ji Miaomiao didn't hide away either, and cried together after being lectured.
"You damn girl, why are you so disobedient? Do you want to make me mad?" Sister-in-law Ji was sitting on the sofa. Seeing that the two children were still crying, her voice rose again and she suppressed it with brute force, "Try crying again?! I Let you cry enough!"
The two daughters were really afraid of her. They choked and stopped crying, and their faces turned red.
Sister-in-law Ji was exhausted in the house. She crossed her legs on the sofa, took out a tissue, pulled Ji Miaomiao over, casually wiped her tears, and continued watching the drama on her phone.
Tian Jing swallowed back what she was about to say. Sister-in-law Ji was more relaxed in this house than she was. She also left the children to Mother Ji and didn't do much housework. The second floor where they lived was really messy, but no one thought it. If there was anything, she just pretended not to see it.
Sister-in-law Ji is also a local. She lives in the same village as Ji's mother. She came to Ji's house with her brother Ji right after she graduated from junior high school. They have been here for more than ten years now. They usually speak local dialect at home, which she cannot understand, so they are closer. , besides Ji Huai, I only have my daughter in this family.
I heard that Sister-in-law Ji was not pregnant for the first seven or eight years. Later, Ji's mother took her everywhere to take medicine, and then she gave birth to two daughters. It was not easy, but she didn't seem to care much. It was normal to curse.
"I heard that you found out that you are a daughter?" The drama on the mobile phone was playing advertisements, and Sister-in-law Ji rarely raised her head and asked Tian Jing.
Tian Jing was braiding her daughter's beautiful hair and nodded when she heard her words.
"Why are you a daughter too? It would be much easier to have a boy." Sister-in-law Ji said this in her words, but her gloating was not well hidden, so she was quite happy to see it.
Of course she doesn't want Tian Jing to give birth to a boy. Ji's mother doesn't speak Mandarin very well, so she doesn't communicate well with Tian Jing. Sin, of course I don’t want Tian Jing to feel comfortable.
We have to suffer together.
Tian Jing calmed down and continued to braid her daughter's hair, "Whatever happens when you're pregnant is what it is. You can't control it."
"Then you want to have the baby aborted, right?" Sister-in-law Ji said after she finished speaking, "I think it would be easier to have the baby aborted and more laborious to give birth to the baby. In fact, abortation is just that. If you are pregnant with a boy, you will have another baby."
In that tone, it seemed that she still regretted giving birth to a second child.
Tian Jing didn't reply to her, and didn't know how to reply.
Ji Huai is right. Sister-in-law Ji also wants to have a boy and thinks it must be given birth. She and Ji's mother and the others are on the same front. There is no pressure on her to stay in this house. Someone will help her take care of the child for free, and she only You will feel unlucky and think about how to give birth to a boy.
Although she was in confinement, Sister-in-law Ji didn't take it seriously, and sometimes she didn't have taboos. The last time she was in confinement, she just wore a miniskirt and walked around.
The TV series started, and Sister-in-law Ji didn't care whether she responded or not, and continued to watch her show.
Tian Jing put the hairpin on her daughter. Ji Tianqi was still very narcissistic and wanted to look at herself in the mirror. Tian Jing turned on the front camera of her phone to show her, and even pulled her pigtails twice, making the other party giggle.
Looking at her daughter's smile, she smiled softly.
"Come here for dinner." Ji's mother shouted in local dialect at the top of her lungs. This sentence is the only local dialect that Tian Jing has learned, but Ji Tianqi has learned it better than her.
That night, Ji Tianqi still imitated what Ji's mother said.
"Teach her mother, she doesn't know how." Ji Huai smiled at his daughter and asked her to teach Tian Jing.
When Tian Jing married in, Grandpa Ji was still there. The old man could not understand Mandarin. When Tian Jing went to deliver food to him, she stumbled and spoke non-standard local dialect.
"Mom, can you say, 'Let's eat?'" When Ji Tianqi heard that there was something her mother didn't understand, she hurried over and swayed her two pigtails.
"Mom can't." Tian Jing knew that what she said was not standard and had no intention of embarrassing her daughter.
"I'll teach you." Ji Tianqi pouted, as if she wanted to be a little teacher.
Tian Jing saw Ji Huai staring here, waiting for a good show. She said to her daughter, "Dad doesn't know how to do it either. You go and teach dad first."
"Dad can." Ji Tianqi said, nodding her little head, forcing, "Mom can't."
Ji Huai leaned on the bed, his eyebrows raised. Tian Jing, who couldn't resist her daughter, could only imitate her daughter. She tried her best to imitate, but she still had an accent. Ji Tianqi kept saying something wrong, like a serious little teacher, pulling her back and saying, Said over and over again.
Tian Jing was embarrassed, but she didn't lose her temper. She followed her daughter's studies seriously and interacted with her.
He looked at the mother and daughter, keeping his eyes on them.
The meaning of life is nothing more than having hope and hope, not a pool of stagnant water. There is a big difference between loving someone and not loving her. A person who doesn't love her can make people irritated just by saying a word, but a person who loves her is quite patient with whatever she does. Marriage is inherently trivial and tiring. Only those with the right person will find the sweetness in the bitterness.
Since Sister-in-law Ji gave birth to her confinement, Tian Jing's work has decreased a lot. It's not that the other party has helped with much work, but that she takes her two daughters shopping every now and then. Ji's mother doesn't have to help her take care of them. As a child, you can naturally do many things with your hands free.
She lives a more leisurely life than them. Brother Ji gives her three thousand yuan every month. She has never paid for the food at home. If Ji's mother asks, she will say that the money is with Brother Ji. It is because Brother Ji does not give it. It's not that she didn't give it, but Ji's mother turned a blind eye to her son. Both children were in school, and the old couple had to give money to help them raise their children.
Tian Jing gets a headache every time she looks at the snacks she bought. Children are greedy and Ji Tianqi wants to eat them every time. However, she has a weak stomach and she doesn't dare to let her eat them. She can only try not to let her daughter see them. If possible, read a storybook to her in the room to keep her attention.
Sister-in-law Ji observed Tian Jing for a few days and found that Tian Jing had no intention of having an abortion, so she asked Ji Huai's mother in a roundabout way, "Mom, are Ji Huai and the others going to give birth to this baby?"
In fact, she heard Ji's mother say that she wanted to abort her.
"If you don't have children, they will definitely be aborted. How can you afford to raise them?" Ji's mother replied casually while cracking melon seeds.
"She's a month old. She needs to be vaccinated as soon as possible, right? She still has to sit in confinement, which is also a suffering. She has to sit properly during confinement. After all, her body is also weak. Didn't she blush when she was pregnant?" Sister-in-law Ji mentioned deliberately , the tone was still very concerned.
She gave birth very quickly and spanked the baby without any discomfort. Moreover, she certainly didn't want Tian Jing to give birth. Ji's mother had already had a hard time raising her two daughters. If she gave birth to her two daughters, she would definitely have to take them. Tian Jing would have to go to work, and her resources would be taken away from her. Of course she wouldn't be happy with that. .
After Tian Jing was aborted, she had to quickly get pregnant with a boy, so that she could ensure her status and let her father and mother help her raise him.
"Ji Huai said he has been busy recently and will wait for a while." Ji's mother grabbed another handful of melon seeds and said, "Who knows how they will discuss it? I took the photo twice and it was a girl, so I can't be wrong."
There is no need to give birth to a girl, which saves trouble.
"Then you have to make an appointment with the doctor first. If he is available, the doctor may not be available." Sister-in-law Ji said, remembering that when she asked Tian Jing about spanking the child, the other party did not reply, and continued, "I think Tian Jing seems It’s like you don’t know anything, why are you still putting this off?”
Hearing this, Ji's mother ate melon seeds at a slower pace. When she thought that the other party didn't ask them for money, she had a bad guess and her face didn't look good.
In the evening of that day, the family was having dinner. Ji Huai's mother asked Ji Huai directly at the dinner table, "When are you going to beat the child? I ordered some old hens and will replenish her body by then. I will take care of the child." Take it, let her rest well and have a good confinement period."
"You can't delay this matter. If you delay for one day, the child will absorb one more day of nutrients. You don't know how your wife is doing?"
She spoke in the local dialect, speaking very quickly, and Tian Jing could roughly understand it. She lowered her head, and Ji Tianqi was sitting on her lap, silently feeding her daughter.
"Yeah, if you don't want it, don't delay. The doctor who performed the surgery on me is an acquaintance of ours. Would you like to help you contact me? She did it both times." Sister-in-law Ji also answered, her tone was like Discussing what to eat today is very casual.
How could Tian Jing not see clearly the faces of these people? The usually harmonious relationship seemed to be torn apart abruptly. Are they considered bad people? It seems that there is no heinous crime. Are they good people? But so evil.
"No, let's go to a regular hospital." Ji Huai refused. There was still half a month until the salary was paid, and he wanted to delay it.
Sister-in-law Ji gnawed on the chicken wings and said slowly, "Regular hospitals also require reservations, so you should pay attention to this matter."
Ji's mother looked at Tian Jing and then at Ji Huai. She still understood her own son. She didn't ask them for money or ask her for precautions. She had listened to everything before, so she couldn't be so quiet. Ever since I married this out-of-town daughter-in-law, I couldn't listen to the gossip. I always felt that she was right about everything. How many times have I argued with her about raising children
She looked at Tian Jing, pretended to be pleasant and said, "We can't delay this matter. Mom will go to get the money tomorrow. If he doesn't go with you, mom will go with you."
They also paid for Sister Ji's two abortions. This year, a piece of land in her hometown was expropriated and they lost tens of thousands of yuan, but they still have some money.
Tian Jing held her daughter's hand tightly and subconsciously looked at Ji Huai.
"Mom, please stay out of our business." Ji Huai put down the bowl and frowned, a little displeased.
"Are you going to give birth?" Ji's mother still didn't understand something, so she immediately raised her voice and scolded her back. The two of them regretted it and were reluctant to abort it.
The family couldn't afford to raise so many children. How could she have the energy to take care of four dead girls after she was born? When will I have a grandson
One more means more pressure!
"Don't be angry. How stressed are your eldest brother and I now? Your wife can't even go out to work. Then you will know how hard it will be." Sister-in-law Ji also fanned the flames.
Ji Huai's salary is similar to Brother Ji's. The difference is that one works as a coolie and does not have five insurances and one fund, while the other works in an office and has five insurances and one fund. But in her opinion, there is no difference.
"If you can't give birth to a child, will mom still harm you?" Ji's mother had a very tough attitude, staring at Tian Jing with a commanding tone, "This child can't be born, I can't take care of that much."
Just abort it, why are there so many things
Tian Jing didn't look up. She was not stupid enough to openly confront Ji's mother, so she just pretended to be mute.
Ji's father also looked down, but his temper was not as anxious as Ji's mother. He looked at Ji Huai and asked calmly, "What do you think? Tell me clearly."
Ji Huai has a kind-hearted nature, he does whatever he promises, and he doesn't think too much about it. How could he suddenly change his mind
Seeing that he couldn't escape, Ji Huai simply said, "I can't bear it. I don't want her to fight. Let's keep her alive."
When he said it, Ji's father and mother were mad. They didn't believe it at all. It must have been what the foreigner's daughter-in-law taught Ji Huai.
"What do you need to support you? Do you expect us to help you support you? Don't you know how much money you make?" Ji's father scowled with a sullen face.
Tian Jing, a foreigner, has many tricks. Unlike Sister-in-law Ji, the two daughters were raised at a low price. They were thrown out of the nearby Puhui Kindergarten. They were weaned early and did not drink milk every day. However, Tian Jing always buys high-end milk, which costs four to five hundred yuan. One can, everything is good, why buy insurance, buy this or that, money is flowing like water.
If there is another child, Ji Huai's salary is enough? Tian Jing Education has its own way of doing things, and there are a lot of bullshit.
"We will raise them ourselves." Ji Huai did not flinch, but was very determined, "I will raise one, and I will raise two, and I won't let you raise them."
"Did Tian Jing say she was born?" Ji's mother pressed. In her heart, it must be this outsider, and she must be the one blowing the pillow.
"She doesn't want to give birth. I want her to give birth. It doesn't matter whether it's a boy or a girl. It doesn't matter to me. It doesn't matter what the birth is." Ji Huai took the daughter in Tian Jing's arms over.
"Why is it the same?" Ji's mother was furious, with veins appearing on her forehead.
"I think it's just the same. I'm going to give birth anyway." Ji Huai refused to give in.
Ji's mother felt that her authority had been violated. She slapped the table and stood up, pointing at him and giving instructions one by one, "I tell you, this child cannot be born. Don't think that I don't know who is causing trouble behind the scenes."
This clearly refers to Sang scolding Huai.
Ji Huai really hates her look like this, which reminds him of her past life where she forced him to get married and have children, just like a fertility tool, constantly kidnapping him.
They were scolding each other in their native dialect, and Tian Jing couldn't hear it. Ji Huai stood up with her hands, as if she had a rebellious mentality, pursed her lips and said with a stern face, "I can't decide yet about my child." Will she give birth or not? It’s useless for anyone to say, I want to give birth and I want to raise her, so what does it have to do with me if you don’t agree?”
He was very angry and wanted to pull Tian Jing away as he spoke. Ji's mother and Ji's father were also very excited. She originally wanted him to calm down, but Ji Huai yelled at her, "I don't agree with you, don't do it." I want to fight! Don’t talk so much, I just won’t fight.”
Tian Jing was startled by him and froze in place. It was the first time she saw him get so angry.
Ji Huai "vigorously" pulled her aside and said, "Go upstairs!"