"Left, right, left, forward, backward."
"Wave your hands and push your hips."
"One, two, two, three."
…
In the dance room, along with the music, the teacher's voice of guidance could be heard faintly.
The little girl looked at the time, made some scented tea, and first made a cup for the people sitting in the lounge, then brought it over and put it on the table: "Drink some tea."
"Thank you." Ji Huai was looking down at his phone. He instinctively said thank you, then raised his head and smiled.
The little girl looked at his clear face, and her heart skipped a beat.
The little beauty really didn't lie to her. Her boyfriend has thick eyebrows, big eyes, and a high nose. He is really tall and handsome. His voice is as nice as on the phone. He is so handsome.
"You're welcome." The little girl smiled and added, "Your girlfriend comes to class every morning. She is very active in making appointments and dances very well. She dances much better than others."
Ji Huai put down his cell phone and chatted with her, looking serious, like a parent who was listening to a work report, with a bit of relief and joy in his expression.
Luo Yushu came out of class and saw Ji Huai talking to the girl at the front desk, so she walked over.
"It's raining lightly outside. Let's change our clothes first." Ji Huai took a bag of clothes from the backpack next to him and handed it to her.
"Yeah." She sweated a lot, felt sticky and uncomfortable, took it and walked to the dressing room.
When she came out, Ji Huai was holding her backpack and standing in front of the door waiting for her.
"Bye." Luo Yushu and the little girl waved their hands.
"Drink some water before we go." The little girl said as she was going to pour water, but Luo Yushu stopped her, "I brought some water and made some chrysanthemum tea."
"That's good, drink more water."
"See you tomorrow."
…
The elevator door opened, and the handsome man led the little beauty into the elevator. The little girl sat at the front desk, supporting her chin with her hands, and sighed quietly.
The nth day of envying other people’s love.
Ji Huai held an umbrella, stretched out his arms to hold Luo Yushu in his arms, and led her across the road to the school gate.
"Do we really have to graduate before looking for a job? By then, all the jobs will be available." She raised her head and asked him, with some worry in her words, and then said, "My thesis has been finalized, how about we find a job early?" ?”
"Why are you so anxious?" Ji Huai put his hand on her shoulder with a little force and led her into the campus through the side door. "I even got a commission when I resigned. It will take me a long time on campus."
After doing the math, plus the basic salary, he got tens of thousands of dollars.
"This won't work." Luo Yushu still insisted on finding a job. "I will defend my defense next month and graduate in the blink of an eye. Time flies."
Ji Huai slowed down and looked sideways at her.
"You also said, how can it be easy to make a living? This store is making things difficult for you, so we will go to the next one. If the last company doesn't want me, I will go to the next one. I will always find the right one. The worst is, the rent will be cheaper. You can always survive and get better slowly." She also tried to persuade him, fearing that he would become decadent because of this.
Ji Huai suddenly chuckled softly.
"Right?" She thought he agreed.
He raised his hand and pinched her fleshy and smooth cheek: "There are still many days left in the dance studio's monthly pass. You can dance well during this time, and I will accompany you to the interview next month."
"What about you? When will you have an interview?" she asked.
"Me." Ji Huai took back his hand and continued walking forward, speaking slowly, "I signed a contract with another store and will go to work at the beginning of the month."
She paused, a little surprised.
He looked back at her again: "So, you don't have to worry. I will accompany you to the interview when I settle down. If you look slowly, you can always find something you are satisfied with."
"That's what I said, but if you decide on a job, I will be even more anxious." She told him truthfully about her inner feelings.
Ji Huai looked at her and said slowly: "I don't know how the new job will be. If you can settle down, you can find a job nearby and have someone to take care of you. Your life is so long, why care about who can run faster?" ? If you have this mentality, it will put a lot of burden on yourself."
Luo Yushu was silent and unable to refute.
He didn't say any more. He moved his hand around her waist downwards, changed the hand holding hers to interlocking fingers, and continued walking forward: "Do you know why I want you to learn dancing or go running?"
She replied: "Diversion of attention."
Ji Huai nodded: "Yeah. You are in your own thinking circle. All your frameworks come from the outside world instead of yourself. A lot of your feelings come from me. I am busy after work and don't have extra time to take care of your emotions. Your life is just like this. It’s a mess.”
Although she has a sunny and cheerful temperament, her confidence in herself comes entirely from the affirmation of others. After that, she puts all her hopes on him. Once he withdraws, she will face the collapse of her frame and be destroyed in all aspects.
Luo Yushu lowered his head and did not deny it.
Ji Huai's voice slowly guided him: "I was shocked last time, so I won't let you take on the work pressure too early. Since you rely on me so much, you can completely rely on me this time and wait until I settle down. As for I will slowly help you adjust your emotions."
He could notice that Luo Yushu's mood was much more stable, his views on things were gradually changing, and his ability to withstand psychological stress was also increasing, but he didn't dare to gamble.
Luo Yushu looked up at him again, holding his arm with her other hand, "How to adjust it?"
It's not that she doesn't know she has some problems. She hasn't received attention since she was a child, and she grew up in a bad environment that has been suppressive for a long time. She blames herself excessively and is overly sensitive. She sees Ji Huai as her salvation and wants to save herself. Maybe, as he said, she His thinking framework gradually came from him.
Once he leaves, she will die. She also tried to change herself, but it was difficult.
The two of them walked downstairs in the library. He put away his umbrella and said to her: "Your frame must come from yourself, that is, be nice to yourself."
"I'm good to myself." She retorted, "I will also buy myself some delicious food, buy good-looking things, and give myself..."
Ji Huai smiled, pulled her upstairs, and corrected her: "Being good to yourself is not about temporarily satisfying yourself with material things, but not letting yourself be wronged. Be brave and accept it reasonably."
Luo Yushu seemed to understand but not quite understand.
When he arrived at the door of the library, Ji Huai said: "Accept yourself from the bottom of your heart and be calm and confident."
She didn't reply for a long time.
This sentence seemed to hit the softest part of her heart. She was the child who received the least attention in the family. She used to make troubles when she was a child and also made troubles when she grew up. She felt unbalanced.
She didn't quarrel with Roland the last time she went back. In fact, she had quarreled a lot before, tit for tat, and the quarrel had no results. Luo Hong escaped, and Luo's parents and Luo's mother were in trouble. Later, she stopped quarreling.
In fact, she has never accepted herself, nor can she accept growing up in this family. Not calm enough, not confident enough, so I never talked about family matters, hiding them and escaping.
In the reading room, Ji Huai borrowed a book on sales techniques and sat down to read it. Luo Yushu was revising her resume, but her mind wandered, and her words kept echoing in her mind.
Meal.
The two went to eat and bought one portion of sizzling tofu, one portion of boiled fish, two portions of rice and two bowls of soup. The price is very cheap, only twenty-four yuan in total.
Luo Yushu paid the bill first because Ji Huai paid for the two meals yesterday.
She drank the soup, took a small bite of rice, and pretended to be casual and whispered to him: "My family may not provide us with any help, do you mind?"
When she was in school, all her classmates were only children, and two of them were unusual, but she had three children.
Luo's father and Luo's mother had to think about their young son, and Roland didn't have to worry about it. The family's rent collection and small restaurant profits were not much, so life was tight.
Ji Huai is an only child, and as a local native, she is really pitiful. She also clearly felt that the boys around her cared a lot about the girl's family conditions, and her sixth sense told her countless times that he cared more.
In order to maintain this relationship, she never said anything. Now that everyone has to go out into society, it is more realistic. This is also her concern. She feels that he will abandon her at any time, just because she can no longer provide him with help. Not a marriage person.
Ji Huai raised his eyebrows, looked at her with dark eyes, and asked, "Do you think my family can provide a lot of help?"
"No." Luo Yushu lowered his head and said softly, "I don't care."
She knew that he was from outside the province, his family was renting an apartment, and most of his parents did not have serious jobs. Everyone was forced to make a living, and it was normal to have nothing.
"Then rent a house and get married?" Ji Huai half-joked.
"Yeah." She nodded and continued eating, "Save slowly. If you can afford it, buy it. If you can't afford it, forget it."
She didn't have anything anyway.
"Where's the bride price?" He teased her, "How much is your bride price?"
She spoke very seriously, and her words were a little unbalanced: "My sister didn't ask for anything, and she also spent a lot of money on my parents. I probably don't have a dowry, so of course I can't let you give me a bride price. If my family insists on it, , I’m going to make a fuss.”
No betrothal gift is required, she can guarantee it herself.
Ji Huai's eyes were full of smiles and he gave her a piece of fish: "So you have such far-reaching thoughts. I have to plan carefully. It's time to get married in two years."
"I'm not putting pressure on you." She said quickly.
"I know, you have to have a plan."
…
evening.
Luo Yushu came down to go for a run, and Ji Huai joined her.
She was exhausted after running two laps, but he didn't blush and pulled her forward: "One more lap?"
"No." She held his hand tightly and held still.
"Your physique is not good." Ji Huai stopped, slowed down and pulled her forward, "Don't sit down right away, take it slow."
She changed to circling his hand, almost leaning on his shoulder, almost dragging her steps, relying on him extremely, and said: "You said before that you would come back to school and stay with me until graduation. I am actually very happy. I feel unhappy when I think about the beginning of the month."
He is going to work at the beginning of the month.
"Don't I want to go out quickly to make money and marry you?" Ji Huai replied to her.
Luo Yushu: "..."
He used to say this often, but I don't know why, but now it sounds quite reassuring.
I was confused after graduation, but luckily I still had him by my side.
The two walked around the playground, chatting and talking. Ji Huai will also talk about his plans. He is not insisting that she must graduate before looking for a job. He will settle down first, then accompany her for the interview, compromise on the location where they work, and rent a house.
She likes to be thoughtful and sensitive, which makes her less anxious.
Luo Yushu listened to his plan, remembered what he said again, rested her head on his shoulder, and walked with him silently.
In the next period of time, Luo Yushu got up early and went to the dance studio. When she came back, she went to the library with him. He read papers and she was busy with her own things.
There were two more people on the playground at night, and she was also a girl with someone to accompany her.
End of month.
The two of them didn't stay in the dormitory, so Ji Huai booked a hotel opposite the school.
She took a shower and went to bed. While he was taking a shower, he vaguely heard voices outside. When he came out, Luo Yushu looked uncomfortable and buried herself in the bed.
Ji Huai walked over: "What's wrong?"
"It's okay." She didn't say much.
He didn't ask any questions, got on the bed, held her in his arms, leaned over and kissed her.
The two of them didn't have sex last time when he came back. This time he went back to school for a few days, which was the first time. Counting vacation and work, it was a little over half a year.
Ji Huai was on fire and noticed her lack of interest. She started crying before he even started.
"You continue." She sobbed and said this with a cry.
“…”
The young man was full of energy, and he had coveted her for a long time, but he was not so beastly. He stretched out his hand to wipe her tears, then hugged her and lay down, without making any other moves or asking any questions.
Luo Yushu waited for a while, and when he saw that he didn't move, she buried her head in his arms, reached out to hug him, and was wrapped in his arms.
"Don't you have anything to ask?" she said.
Ji Huai's expression did not change, and he stopped holding her hand: "If you want to say something, you will tell me."
"What if I don't want to say it?"
"Then go to sleep."
…
Luo Yushu calmed down and reached out to unbutton his pajamas.
"What?" Ji Huai held her hand.
"Hotels are expensive on weekends, so you can't sleep with them open. This happened last time." He would not open a hotel just to chat with her in the past. It might have been because she was in a really bad mood last time.
He would calculate many things very clearly, and she would try not to offend him. How could anyone sacrifice for another person without any regrets? She also doesn't want to drag others down.
"Go to sleep." Ji Huai pulled her hand away and asked her to lie down.
"Are you angry?" She moved forward, crawled over and lay on top of him. "My sister called me and asked me if I had found a job. If not, I had to go home to help."
Ji Huai looked at her: "What then?"
"When I go home every week, she can relax for several days. She knows that I haven't found a job and haven't come home, so it's hard to speak..." She said intermittently.
It wasn't Roland who called her first, it was Luo's father who called her first. The other party may have cared about her, but maybe he was also afraid that she would be embarrassed if she couldn't find a job? Roland also mentioned that when you find a job, you have to give money to your family. College students among your relatives do this. If you don't give money, you may be laughed at by your relatives and neighbors.
No matter how hard it is for a college student to find a job, it costs tens of thousands a month. What’s wrong with being given a few thousand? Otherwise, how can parents have face? You raised her in vain.
She exchanged words with the other person, and she became extremely angry. She became anxious and frustrated again, and her mood swings were severe.
"Whether you can find a job or go home, what does it have to do with her?" Ji Huai put his hand on her back and twirled her hair, "You just followed her too much and kicked your nose in your face. "
"She ran away with a gangster before, was abandoned and came back later. She is very nervous. Arguing with her is like being crazy. I will let her go, otherwise the family will be in chaos." Luo Yushu said in a dull tone.
Ji Huai: "What now? Isn't she fine? You are the one who is wronged."
She feels the same way: "My parents are used to following her and making peace with each other to make money."
He said: "Are you willing to sacrifice you to bring harmony to the family?"
The man in his arms shook his head.
She was probably helpless and angry. According to her previous temperament, she would have exploded a long time ago, but recently she was under great pressure and didn't want to talk, so she just let her do whatever she wanted, but the other party became more and more excessive.
Ji Huai played with her hair and pointedly said, "Why don't you go back and help, food and accommodation are included, five thousand a month, which is better than working in a company, and it is better than a job with a monthly salary of eight thousand."
"I went to college..."
Before she could finish speaking, he interrupted: "You see, you yourself also have ideological baggage. You want to gain a reputation so that everyone can think highly of you, and you want to prove that you are worthy of their attention and that you should not be ignored, so you I will endure my sacrifices, and this is the most tiring way of life."
Luo Yushu choked on his words, he was right.
Ask for whatever you lack.
"Wanting to be loved and noticed is what you ask for, and your grievances are the bargaining chips you hand over. One thing for another, as long as your need is there, your grievances and sacrifices will not disappear." Ji Huai His tone was clear and he spoke every word, "But this kind of sacrifice will not get you what you want."
These words are too cruel. She has no love from her family and is a dispensable person.
The tip of Luo Yushu's nose was sore, and her eyes were stained with tears. She hugged his neck hard, buried her head deeply, and said nothing.
"Being kind to yourself means not letting yourself be wronged. You have to be strong inside and have your own framework so that you won't be influenced by others and be happier." He touched her head, his thin lips covering her ears, and his voice was gentle. Lingnuan said, "Baby, can you get rid of this obsession? You don't have to please others. I love you more. If we work together, we will have a family soon."
Before he finished speaking, tears burst out of her eyes, her vision became blurred, and her shoulders shook slightly.
"There are so many college students. No one dictates how they should live, so don't worry." He took her into his arms again and gave her advice, "Next time you go back, you will fight her to death. That's it. , when you are done venting your anger, please reason with me and give me a piece of candy..."
She listened quietly, taking a breath from time to time.
"Why are you crying? Your eyes are all red." Ji Huai looked at her pretty face, "You look so beautiful even when you cry. Is she jealous of your good looks?"
"I'm not good-looking." She denied.
"Confidence means calmly accepting compliments from others, have you forgotten?" he reminded.
Luo Yushu raised her hand to wipe her tears and said with a nasal voice: "I'm good-looking, I'm the best-looking."
The corners of his mouth couldn't help but turn up: "Do I look like a pillow godwife? I can't take advantage of others. I have to plant trees and enjoy the shade."
She looked into his bright and deep eyes, pursed her lips, and moved over to kiss him.
"Sleep, I have to report to work tomorrow." He said.
Luo Yushu said playfully: "No."
Ji Huai didn't move and closed his eyes: "If you are in a bad mood, I won't bully you."
"I'm in a better mood." She continued to hug him and told him, "I've lost weight, really."
"It's good to lose weight, so you don't have to think too much. Just be healthy." Someone didn't open his eyes.
"Ji Huai" she reached out to untie his clothes.
He went to work and probably didn't have time to come back to find her.
Luo Yushu's deliberately coy voice made him open his eyes, and his eyes changed.
"I miss you."
Before she could finish her sentence, she was hugged and turned around, and then her mouth was gagged. He kissed her very aggressively, like an explosion of long-suppressed emotions, impatient and urgent.
The sound in the room gradually changed, and the breathing lasted for a long time.