"Eat, eat, eat. I didn't buy this for you, but you still dare to eat it!"
"Which thief doesn't start by stealing small things? He dares to steal family money at a young age, and he will do it again in the future? He must be beaten, and beaten hard."
"If you beat me so lightly, how can you teach me a lesson? Beat me hard!"
"He just can't stand me. I'm going to die. Isn't it okay if I go to death? He will be happy if I die."
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My ears were filled with all kinds of sharp curses. In the dream, the little boy was being beaten hard by his father. He was beaten with a clothes rack, a stick, kicked, and slapped hard. The woman next to him was still passing the stick, saying With encouraging words, he looked at him with strange and proud eyes, gloating about his misfortune.
The little boy resisted and was trampled under his father's feet. He did not know his youth.
Ji Huai frowned and suddenly opened his eyes, looking at the chandelier on the ceiling, feeling irritated and annoyed. He opened the quilt and sat up, looking out at the already dark sky. Occasionally, the sound of car horns could be heard.
"Ji Huai, let's go out to eat."
There was a knock on the door twice, and a young woman's voice came in.
Ji Huai stood up, put on slippers and walked out to open the door. Tian Shao was standing at the door in pajamas. Sitting at the dining table was her boyfriend, his good brother He Chenxiang, who was opening a beer and raised his glass to him, "Drink." .”
This is a small second-bedroom apartment with two rooms. Originally, only Ji Huai and He Chenxiang rented it. Later, they each got girlfriends, and then they also rented together.
"Ah? Ji Huai is here today." Tian Shao was playing video. When Ji Huai sat down, he turned his phone towards him and said with a smile, "We are going to eat. Today we ordered crab pot."
Ji Huai took He Chenxiang's beer and took a few sips without paying attention to what she said.
On the other end of the phone is Tian Shao's best friend, his ex-girlfriend. The two often video chat, and the other party occasionally asks him how he is doing, but he doesn't really care. For a person like him who was incompetent in love before, after they broke up, I deleted the other person from my memory, and I didn’t have any deep feelings.
I don't know what was said on the other end. Tian Shao laughed while chewing the chicken feet, "He is so slovenly all day long. He is far different from before, okay?"
"Song Xuan didn't come back?" He Chenxiang also took a sip of wine and asked casually.
"Work overtime." Ji Huai didn't say much.
Song Xuan is his current girlfriend, a nurse in a tertiary hospital. She often works overtime and night shifts, which are different from their working hours.
"Hey, you went to Zhangjiang some time ago, was it fun?" Tian Shao continued to talk to the phone, and then pursed his lips, "I asked He Chenxiang to take me there a long time ago, and he plays games during his breaks. "
"do not know."
"How has your company's performance been during this period?"
"I guess I'll have to work overtime for a while."
…
"About the same as last month."
“This takeaway is good.”
…
The three of them had been eating and drinking since seven o'clock, and ordered barbecue until nine o'clock. He Chenxiang and Ji Huai both drank four or five bottles of beer and smoked a pack of cigarettes.
Talking and talking.
At half past nine, the door "clicked" and opened from the outside. A figure walked in. He was slender and his fair face was tired. He closed the door gently and looked at several people. He didn't look as strong as before. Say hello with a smile, put the umbrella aside, and walk straight to the room.
With a "bang", he closed the door again and hung his bag on the door.
The living room was still the same as before. The sound of their laughter and various chatter came from the living room, which made her feel more and more sad. She was like an outsider inserted between them, a complete joke.
In fact, she is still an outsider. Ji Huai and He Chenxiang are good brothers, and Tian Shao and Yan Jingyi have been best friends for more than ten years. They used to live together as a couple, but now Ji Huai's girlfriend has become her.
However, before moving in, she didn't know that Ji Huai's girlfriend also lived here before. He didn't tell her. For this reason, they often quarreled. The thought of this matter was like a thorn in her throat, making her feel uncomfortable. Go crazy.
When ten o'clock arrived, the voices outside gradually became quieter, and Ji Huai opened the door and came in.
Song Xuan was about to pack her clothes and take a shower. When she saw him coming in, she didn't say anything, turned around and walked out.
They quarreled again last night. In fact, she didn't want to quarrel. Every time they quarreled, it was like showing others a joke. Tian Shao would definitely tell Yan Jingyi, but she was too depressed.
Annoying, really annoying. I can’t separate them.
Because before living together, it is the trial marriage stage, so you can't break up impulsively.
Ji Huai didn't say anything when she went to take a bath. When she was done, he took a bath too and then went to bed.
The bed was 1.5 meters tall. Song Xuan was sleeping on the side with her back to him, while he was playing on his phone on the other side and playing videos, without being affected at all.
She couldn't bear it anymore and sat up directly, "Can you sleep?"
Ji Huai turned off the sound and said without any response, "Go to sleep first."
Song Xuan was irritable and lay down again, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. She looked very anxious and uncomfortable. After a while, the sound of suppressed breathing came.
She is crying.
Ji Huai leaned on the bedside and looked at her back from the corner of his eye. Looking at her crying and depressed look, a strange feeling arose in his heart.
In the past, he would have been a bit hidden, automatically taking on the role of the person he resented, feeling a little happy that he had successfully retaliated against her, and even yelling at her very irritably for no reason. Now that his feelings for Song Xuan were entered into the system, he Still distressed.
But he will still be very irritable, don't want to communicate with her, and even find her a bit annoying.
He is a person with a mental disorder and has a deep shadow in his childhood. When he was nine years old, his father married a stepmother who was only thirteen years older than him. From then on, his life was in hell.
The other party would encourage Ji's father to beat him, kick him hard, whip him with a stick, brainwash Ji's father into believing that a stick will produce a filial son, frame him for stealing, and secretly deny him food...
In this case, he was cowardly and timid in front of his stepmother. He resisted once in junior high school and his leg was almost broken by Ji's father. Since then, he has become more timid. He talks outside and is fine with friends. However, he has a bad temper with his girlfriend and will even hit her. It is absolutely inappropriate to quarrel with her. He gave in, but in front of his stepmother, he didn't dare to say a word of nonsense when he was scolded, and now he was so angry that he couldn't say anything to refute.
At the same time, he was filled with hatred deep down in his heart. Hatred was mixed with his childhood fears. His psychology was very problematic. He could not vent his resentment, which resulted in his current sensitive, suspicious, and extremely weird temperament.
In his previous life, Song Xuan was tortured so much that he couldn't bear to die. Seeing her almost depressed, he felt relieved, especially her helpless look after becoming pregnant. She begged him to get married, but he refused hard and kicked her out. .
"Stop crying." Ji Huai took two pieces of paper from the bedside and gave them to her.
Song Xuan took it over, wiped her tears, turned to look at him with red eyes, "When can we move out? Who do you think I am?"
"As for this matter again, I said that when she came to live with me, I went out to work. I was there for two and a half months. When I came back, she had moved out. We had already divided and replaced everything. What are you talking about?" Ji Huai raised his forehead, really impatient, and kept bringing up this issue every time they quarreled.
"She's living here. How good is your relationship? The three of you are a family. Have you considered my feelings?" Song Xuan's words were somewhat incoherent, and the more she talked about this, the more aggrieved she became.
Probably no one can understand her mood. Tian Shao often video chats with Yan Jingyi. The three of them are always talking and laughing. She is too depressed here and there is never a moment of relaxation.
"I've signed a one-year contract. If I breach the contract, I won't be able to get my deposit back. Is it free to look for a house again? Isn't this causing trouble for myself?" Ji Huai looked very confused.
The two of them had just changed jobs a few years ago, and both had internship periods. The consumption in big cities was high, so they really didn’t have much money left.
"Then go live in a worse place." She just asked to move out.
"If I move out now, what will Chenxiang and the others think of me? I don't think it's necessary." Ji Huai didn't want to talk more about this topic, and he was very reluctant in his words.
"I just want to move."
"Do you want to sleep or quarrel?" Ji Huai was also angry. He couldn't suppress his temper and his voice became louder.
Immediately afterwards, there was another quarrel.
The bedroom next door.
He Chenxiang was playing games with headphones on, and Tian Shao was leaning on the bedside to watch the video, listening to the voice next door, "Jingyi, they are quarreling again, every few days. I think we should just break up."
Yan Jingyi thought for a moment, "Actually, Ji Huai's temper isn't that good, he's just weird."
"It's not just strange. Last time we had a quarrel, he kicked Song Xuan out and asked me to leave immediately. He apologized and Song Xuan came back. Isn't this asking for abuse? That's what he deserves." Tian Shao pursed his lips and said in a tone of voice. There is no sympathy at all, but I feel that I am bringing it upon myself.
Yan Jingyi didn’t agree either.
"Let me tell you, you and Ji Huai broke up well when you broke up, otherwise how miserable would your life be now? Although his family's conditions are good, having a stepmother means nothing, and it's not as good as the one you're looking for now. Where is my boyfriend?" Tian Shao continued.
Hearing this, Yan Jingyi twitched her lips. On the one hand, she left Ji Huai because she felt that his personality was not very good. On the other hand, because of family reasons, there was no need to accompany him to endure hardships.
Song Xuan's behavior seemed stupid to her. Ji Huai really didn't have much besides his figure and face. When she first fell in love with him, she didn't want to have a relationship with him because she was afraid of getting involved in the future.
"I'm telling you..."
Before Tian Shao finished speaking, there was another loud noise from the bedroom next door. He Chenxiang, who was playing games, stopped and took off his headphones.
"It's really annoying." Tian Shao looked unhappy.
But after this burst of noise, there was no movement over there. He Chenxiang thought something big had happened and wanted to go over and knock on the door, but when he went out he heard the sound of sobbing coming from inside again, so he didn't continue to care.
In the bedroom.
The ground in front of the cabinet was littered with dirt and ceramic shards, and the succulents planted inside also fell out.
Ji Huai clenched his hand tightly, with veins popping up on the back of his hand. He was very irritable, but he said no more.
Song Xuan cried even more sadly. He deliberately bought this succulent for her. She liked it very much at the time and kept it carefully. Because she liked this breed very much, she wanted to buy another one, but she couldn't find it.
He took another deep breath and said patiently, "When the contract expires and we move out, you can live wherever you want."
Song Xuan touched her tears and didn't want to speak.
He was always like this. When the quarrel was fierce, he was about to break up, or had already broken up, but he apologized very sincerely or admitted his mistake, or felt that he was giving in to make her soften.
Repeatedly, it made her suffer.
Song Xuan originally wanted to put the succulent thing in a bottle, as she had done in the past, but now she didn't think about it at all. She turned around and went to bed, covering herself with a quilt to sleep.
He didn't say a word to Ji Huai again.