It was already three o'clock in the middle of the night when Kang Zixian and I walked out of the McDonald's, the rain was still falling from time to time, and the cold wind blew on our face with the night's moisture, it was cool and we became more awake.
On the rainy night, there is a kind of tranquility different from the daytime, Kang Zixian suggested to take a walk, I nodded in agreement.
It just feels a little weird.
I was wearing his sports jacket, afraid of the cold, and put a hat on my head, with my hands in the fat pockets, while he stood beside me and walked slowly, holding an umbrella for me.
The shining stars, the cool night, and the umbrella above the head all make people feel warm.
We walked quietly in the empty pedestrian street, chatting.
"Why do you want to be a police officer?"
"Why?... Well, it's a long story."
"tell me the story."
"Well, it's quite complicated to say... When I was in high school, my mother was outside. Old Alan was my mother's mentor at that time. I guess he has already taken a fancy to my mother. He is weird to my mother all day long. Except for sleeping, he pushes her every day. Stay in the laboratory and do this and that. My mother is the kind of woman with a very hot temper, and she has a good face. She is afraid that she will lose face to the Chinese, and she can only bear it if she is punished by the old man. But she always finds a punching bag Yes, who do you think this unlucky guy is?"
"you?"
"Yes, it was me. At that time, I was in a third-rate high school, or a third-rate class in a third-rate high school. I can't look back on the past. The red lanterns hung high on the report card, illuminating the teacher's eyes... The grades are too bad, that, Ahem, as you know, Brother Fei and I have been particularly conscious of rights protection since we were young, so, uh, that means we often skip classes and walk around the streets to maintain fairness and justice... "
"Let's just talk about fighting. The so-called fairness and justice are just wearing the cloak of fairness and justice."
I smiled, feeling a little embarrassed, I could only pretend to glance at him in surprise, and said with a shy smile, "... I can't see it, you nerd can understand."
Kang Zixian turned his head and smiled at me, "What's so strange? I've been fair and just."
The rain is still falling, because there is a very quiet audience around me, I let my thoughts wander in my youth.
I was ashamed to share with Fu Chen the confusion and hesitation in those years, the rebellion after helplessness, but many years later, I told another man.
"My performance was terrible. Brother Fei and I are the same. We are the famous 'Black Sheep Duo' in the school. The teacher was so angry that he called my mother overseas and scolded me for an hour. This is good. My mother was already angry with old Alan, but when the teacher fanned the flames, my mother became angry. She slapped the table in front of old Alan and said no to reading, and went home to beat her daughter. She did what she said and rolled up. The luggage came back. Guess what happened to her? She slapped me when she got off the plane, or in front of my uncle and aunt. She didn’t give me any face. I was so angry."
"and after?"
"At that time, Brother Fei and I were already in the third year of high school, and Brother Fei's mother was planning to transfer Brother Fei to a sports school. I was slapped by my mother and ran away... How should I put it? I was already living at my uncle's house at that time For two years, the relationship with my aunt was not good, and she was always compared with her cousin. Every day, I felt that I was dependent on others, and I was very depressed. I hoped for my mother to come back every day, but when my mother came back, she didn’t give me a loving hug. It was just a slap when I came up, I couldn't stand it psychologically, so I ran to cry with Brother Fei, who was annoyed by my crying, and slapped his thigh, saying: This day can't be passed, Liangliang, we can run away from home, go to Mount Emei , Practice!"
Speaking of this, Kang Zixian looked at me with a faint smile, and I couldn't help blushing shyly, lowering my head and saying, "So the two of us took a hundred yuan each, climbed the train and ran away overnight."
"One hundred yuan?" Kang Zixian frowned and smiled playfully at me, "That's a lot of money."
I naturally heard his teasing, and I was extremely embarrassed, so I raised my chin and said proudly, "Hmph, Brother Fei and I stayed together for a week to find Uncle Police, okay?"
The corners of Kang Zixian's mouth curled up, and he looked at me with a slight smile, "You know how to call the police, you two can be rescued at last."
I crossed my hips and glared at him angrily, and his smile deepened.
"Brother Fei and I were sent back in a police car and became the laughing stock of the whole school. It happened that old Alan flew over to chase my mother. I was young and ignorant at that time. I felt that my mother was not worried about me and would argue with a foreigner all day long. , the fight with her became even more rigid, and I couldn't communicate at all. In order to anger her, I started to go out and fight more... As a result, I got into a group fight to save a brother, was called to the police, and was taken into the police station by a police car... "
After all, it was a disgraceful past, maybe to cover up the embarrassment, I left under the umbrella, braved the drizzle, spread my hands, spread my wings like a bird, and walked along the fountain, saying as I walked, "Our principal came to protect me that night. , surnamed Yang, he invited me to eat hot pot that night and told me a lot."
I squatted down, resting my chin, and Kang Zixian covered me with an umbrella, and I whispered to myself under the umbrella, "I don't know if you understand? He ran away, Brother Fei also has a great future, frankly speaking, I was a bit self-defeating... Now that I think about it, President Yang is my benefactor. I remember everything he said that night, and I will never plan to forget."
I was so absorbed in reminiscing that I even forgot that there was a man beside me as my audience. I just recalled the night that turned my life around.
"He said, Liangliang, you can't sit in the back of the police car all your life, you have to sit in the front, you can do it. The stubborn stone blinded everyone's eyes, Liangliang, brush off the dust on your body, and prove to everyone that you are A piece of gold…”
Speaking of this, I suddenly came back to my senses, raised my head and looked at Kang Zixian with a smile, and said happily, "My mother hated me being a policeman the most. In order to annoy her, I signed up to be a policeman. Lao Yang is very interesting." , Help me eliminate all the bad records on the file."
I cupped my face and asked Kang Zixian as if begging for a reward, "Hey, can you see if my body is emitting golden light?"
Kang Zixian looked at me inexplicably, and there was a sparkle in his eyes. After a while, I thought he was sleepy, and he suddenly patted my head, as if he regarded me as a child begging for candies , said in a very gentle voice, "I see... you are not a black sheep, you are a goldfish."
His voice drifted away with the wind, with sincere blessings, "I believe that one day you will meet a man who will keep you in the water well and let you swim freely."
I looked up stupidly at the gentle and friendly handsome face of the man in front of me. A gust of wind blew away all the knots in my heart. I heard the sound of a flower blooming in my heart, and listened to his faint blessings. My heart, which had blossomed for him, was suddenly a little sour.
Recalling the old things, he finally saw me clearly, and the attraction he had for me disappeared in the vast night as he wished, and passed away like a shooting star.
Maybe Feige is right and should keep everything from the past in dust, because men will care about women's ridiculous ignorance years as much as they care about women's bust size, and they are not generous.
My heart suddenly hurts a little, that is my past, all my treasures, I don't want to abandon it and forget it, because it is a part of me.
Without Fang Liangliang at that time, there would be no Fang Liangliang today. I am grateful to my past self.
The next day was the weekend and I didn't have to go to school. I slept until the sun was up. When I got up and stretched, Kang Zixian knocked on my door, "Are you awake? You're up for lunch."
Listening to the man's voice through the door, I suddenly remembered what he said last night. He had hinted that he was going to give up. My mood was not as excited as I imagined.
Quite gloomy.
I sighed, spring is here, my mood that has been desolate for a long time is growing chaotically, I really should buy a scythe and weed well.
I adjusted my mood while brushing my teeth. After washing my teeth, I regained my original optimistic mood. I jumped out and saw the light but delicious home-cooked dishes on the table. I couldn't help but whet my appetite.
My eyes were full of delicious dishes, and I moved my index finger, "Wow, it looks delicious, did you cook it?"
Kang Zixian set the table and chopsticks, and handed me a bowl of white rice, "No, just now I went to my grandmother's house for breakfast and asked Aunt Lian to cook it. She cooked the porridge you drank last time. Is there anything you don't like? I'll ask She pays attention to..."
"No, no," I mumbled twice, shaking my head and holding the bowl, impatient to pick up vegetables and grilled rice, "Don't talk to me, I don't have time to talk now." Then I gobbled it up.
Kang Zixian has been watching me eat slowly, with a smile in his eyes, and he seems to have a good appetite.
After eating, I washed the dishes as usual. Kang Zixian put down the chopsticks and ran away calmly.
He called Su Jinwei in the living room and ordered something, which sounded like it was about work.
After I cleaned up the kitchen, Kang Zixian had already turned on the computer, and I started calling.
I called Feige, and Feige's usual lively voice sounded exhausted.
"Hey, Liangliang, my uncle is dying, and he hasn't woken up yet. We didn't close our eyes last night. There is no sign of waking up at all. I'm so anxious."
Brother Fei was upset, and I didn't know how to persuade her, so I said eagerly, "Brother Fei, why are you so weak? Why don't I come and find you? you."
When I said this, Kang Zixian's gaze, which was originally focused on the computer screen, drifted over, and then continued the work in hand.
"No need, Liangliang, it's useless for you to come, this place is already messy enough, you can stay, by the way, where do you live?"
"Huh? Oh, well, I pried the door of the house, I'm fine, don't miss me."
"Well, I won't talk about it, I'll find a place to sleep for a while, I can fall asleep standing up now."
I hung up the phone dejectedly. I was just lying on the bed thinking about Brother Fei when my mother called me, and it was another long-winded call that was repeated a thousand and one times.
What did you eat? What time did you go to bed last night? Is the quilt warm? Did you go out with Feige? Blablabla…
When I hung up and dealt with the nonsense of my old mother's parents, my mouth was already parched, and Kang Zixian was sitting on the opposite side like Mount Tai. I rolled my eyes and quietly sent a text message to Dongzi: Are you still alive
Dongzi immediately replied: I am still here, Chrysanthemum is in good health, don't read it, senior sister.
I calmed down and replied to him: Only by hiding at home can we stay safe, do you know that
Dongzi replied: I shrink back.
In the afternoon, I continued to take a nap to catch up on sleep, and Kang Zixian was working in the study. In order not to repeat the mistakes of last night, the two of us went out for dinner in a tacit understanding.
After dinner, I thought it was boring to go back too early, so I dragged him to the video store, planning to find a few movies to pass the time.
I looked left and right, unable to make up my mind, "What do you think is better to watch? Love? Horror? Science fiction?"
I saw him staring at a war movie, so I quickly said, "Hey, I don't watch war movies."
He didn't look at me indifferently, moved his mouth, "I don't watch horror movies."
With a thought in my mind, I rubbed my hands for a moment of joy. It turned out that this tall man was as courageous as a mouse, and I finally took the opportunity to tease him.
I bought the famous Japanese horror film "The Grudge" and brought it home.
I heard this film mentioned by my colleagues, and the people who described it to me all showed horrified expressions. I dismissed it at the time, thinking that it was all fake. What is there to be afraid of, isn’t it because there are always ghosts in the house? ? I'm notoriously "Fang Bold".
I want to see this ghost movie, to show my unique courage, and by the way, to frighten this man Kang Zixian and dampen his spirit.
Kang Zixian didn't have any big objections to the CD in my hand, but just asked, "Are you sure you want to watch it? Are you not afraid?"
I smiled slyly, pointed at myself with pride, and said provocatively, "Am I afraid? Haha, what a joke, I, Fang Liangliang, are the famous Fang Bold, a hero among women!"
As a result, more than two hours later, the pitch-black night sky was full of thunder, and the room was even darker and more terrifying than the night sky. A hideous and pale female ghost crawled out from the screen of the home theater with high-definition effects, her whole body was covered with blood, and her eyes rolled Bai Huansan, as if he was about to crawl towards me, stretched out his withered arms towards me as if he was dying, I just felt that my whole body was stiff, my eyes were wide open and I felt suffocated, and I grabbed my side like a life-saving straw with a calm face Kang Zixian, and he completely ignored my frightened expression, pointed to the horrible scene, patted my shoulder and said, "This movie is too boring, just watch it. Good night."
As soon as he finished speaking, a silvery-white lightning flashed across the night sky, followed by a rumble of thunder that shook the ground.
I felt that the seven souls and six orifices were about to be frightened out. Kang Zixian stood up, and I grabbed him desperately, clinging to him, and squeezed a forced smile, "Hey, it's too early to go to bed now, look at the sky outside. It's very bright, it's too early, how about, how about we watch another series? Or, or play chess? Hey, let's play poker? It's fun."
The curse that was still playing at this time, my eyes flickered, and the close-up of the female ghost's face on the TV was slowly enlarged. With the horrifying news of death, there is also deep hatred.
In the living room with the lights turned off, I was so scared that I cried out with a "wow". I hugged Kang Zixian tightly like a koala, and buried my head in sobbing, "Ah, I was scared to death. Is your house Is there a problem? Why is it so dark?"
He spoke faintly in the dark, "You were the one who clamored to turn off the light."
"Oh, then go and drive."
"I'm going back to bed Miss."
"Oh, aren't you afraid?"
"Only cowards are afraid. What? Are you afraid?"
"Oh, I, I am 'Fang Bold'..."
"Okay, Fang Bold, good night, have a good dream."
There was another deafening thunder, and the sky seemed to be torn apart.
"Woo. Let's play chess."
"I don't have chess here."
"Then let's play cards..."
"No cards..."
"Oh, let's play a game..."
"I'm tired."
I clung to him and didn't let go, and finally surrendered to this man, "I was wrong, I was a coward, I was afraid, please spend more time with me."
Kang Zi looked at me first, and stopped talking. His eyes were surprisingly bright in the dark night. I suddenly felt that it was not a very wise decision to ask him to accompany me.