When he thought of this possibility, his eyes were filled with dark tides and a gloomy look, which looked particularly terrifying. "In order not to be with me, you don't even want your life?"
Every word was bitten out from the teeth, as cold and hard as stone.
"no… "
Song Zhixing shook his head with difficulty. He didn't know whether he was afraid of Tang Yu or because he was in too much pain, but the cold sweat on his forehead became even more.
"Then what are you doing?" Tang Yu took a step closer and grabbed her hand. The veins on his face were bulging, and he held her hand even harder, as if he wanted to crush her. "Tell me, if you are not committing suicide, what are you doing?"
Every word he said was filled with icy cold, and his eyes almost tortured her to death. After asking the question, he snatched the medicine bottle away. Because he was too forceful, the remaining pills were shaken out and bounced onto their faces. He didn't even try to dodge, and stared at her with his fiery eyes. It seemed that if she said one wrong word, he would tear her into pieces.
Song Zhixing panted hard, almost unable to stand. She licked her lips weakly, and under his aggressive gaze, she closed her eyes and said, "These... are not asthma medicine."
"What is this?" Tang Yu held the bottle tightly.
Song Zhixing's fingers almost dug into the wall, and she turned away, not daring to meet his gaze. Tang Yu grabbed her and asked her to turn her face around, "I'm asking you, what is this?"
"Birth control pills!" Song Zhixing growled. If she didn't say it out loud, she would lose her courage. She closed her eyes and didn't dare to look at him. "This is a birth control pill!"
Tang Yu took a deep breath, as if he couldn't believe it, or as if he was too badly injured, and stared at her for a long time. The breath spraying on her face was trembling.
"... You... really don't want to give birth to a child for me?" His breathing was unstable, and he even paused twice before he could finish his sentence.
Song Zhixing's eyes were covered with a thin layer of mist. She glanced at him and quickly turned away. Tang Yu grabbed her chin, almost roughly, "Song Zhixing, didn't you say you loved me? This is what you call 'love'. You love me so much that you don't even want to give birth to a child for me, right?"
"Yes, I don't want to, I don't want a child, and I can't convince myself to give birth to a grandson for my father's murderer..." Song Zhixing held his hand. Facing his questioning, the pain in her chest was much more severe than before, "Didn't you also say you loved me? Your love also forced me to have a child even though you knew I didn't want to. Isn't it?"
Tang Yu was speechless after hearing her question.
There is no doubt that they love each other. However, they both love each other too much and cannot learn to give each other enough space.
"Okay, you don't want to have a baby... You don't want to have a baby..." Tang Yu muttered, his hands shaking. The medicine bottle was crushed in his hands with a "snap" sound. Song Zhixing trembled, and the next moment, his hand loosened. She lost her support, her legs weakened, and she fell to the ground along the wall. The pain in her chest made her curl up.
She raised her eyelids uncomfortably, only to see Tang Yu slamming the door and walking out, leaving her with a cold and stiff back.
She felt more and more pain and wanted to ask him for help, but before she could say a word, he disappeared.
Tang Yu...
I'm in so much pain...
Song Zhixing's face was pressed against the cold wall, his lips became paler and paler, until gradually all the blood disappeared.
She lay on the ground in pain, and gradually, even her eyelids became heavier and heavier. Everything in front of her became blurry, as if it had turned into a hazy shadow.
She will die...
Maybe, I will die in a foreign country today...
With Tang Yu's disgust and anger towards him, he left the world.
"Where's your medicine?!"
Just as she was lost in thought, Tang Yu's voice suddenly rang out. He strode over and lifted her up from the floor. As he walked into the room, he asked, "Song Zhixing, where are your medicines? Where did you put your asthma medicine?"
He didn't really leave, didn't really ignore her, but was looking for medicine in the room.
The room was turned upside down, with no place to stay. However, her medicine was nowhere to be found.
Song Zhixing was in a daze and could not hear clearly. Tang Yu held her face up and asked again, "Tell me, where did you put the medicine!"
His emotions were already quite unstable, especially when he saw her almost losing her breath in his arms.
"No..." Song Zhixing's lips trembled, and only two words came out.
"What do you mean by no?" He had already used up 120,000 points of patience to talk to her.
“… I didn’t bring any medicine.”
Tang Yu's eyebrows jumped, and he immediately had the urge to strangle her to death.
At that time, he watched her put the medicine in the box. In addition, the medicine he usually carried with him was rarely used and had expired, so...
He was too careless!
"Why didn't you bring medicine?" Tang Yu asked through gritted teeth.
Song Zhixing spoke frankly, "You are such a smart person... If... If I bring two bottles of medicine, you will definitely find out..."
I originally thought that he would be furious when I said this.
But…
After listening to her, Tang Yu was stunned for a while, and then he laughed.
That smile was both desolate and full of irony.
"Song Zhixing, you're awesome!" He was laughing, but his smile made her hair stand on end. "In order not to give birth to a child for me... you gambled with your life! Huh?"
"You don't care about your own life. Tell me..." Tang Yu's fingers hooked her sweaty hair. His movements were extremely gentle, but it was frightening. "Tell me, why do I cherish your life so much? I should... I should watch you die, right?"
By the end of this sentence, his voice was hoarse and his tone changed.
This kind of Tang Yu made her feel quite unfamiliar. Her vision became blurry, and gradually, she couldn't even see Tang Yu's face clearly.
Finally, he heard Tang Yu's voice, "Song Zhixing, you win!"
Song Zhixing's eyelashes trembled and a tear rolled down from her eyes.
She won...
Did she win
But why is she more heartbroken at this moment than at any other time
He said she won, but what did he win
His mind was in a mess, and Song Zhixing finally closed his eyes heavily, unable to think of anything. However, even though he fell asleep, the pain in his chest was still so clear.
Torturing her, slowing her down.
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[There will be more updates later, and I am still writing them. Those who can't wait can go to sleep. I was editing the manuscript for publication during the day, which delayed writing today's update. ]