"Why not?" She said like a child asking for candy, "I want you to be happy, too."
“… I’m fine the way I am.” That was a lie. He was not fine at all.
"But I'm not okay." Shang Shiyu's body pressed tightly against him.
He held her hips with both hands, looking at her cute and bold appearance painfully, wishing he could drag her into the dark abyss with him. If he was a little more selfish, he could just want a short period of love and happiness, and not worry about whether she would be fine after he died, and whether she could live strong.
But she is a business woman~
His favorite child.
"Shang Shang, I can't have you." Tang Wei's voice was hoarse, "This is the most important first time in your life. You should give her to your future husband, not me. I can't be responsible for you, do you understand?"
After saying this, my heart felt like it was being cut into pieces by a thousand knives.
In the past few years, he couldn't help but think about what kind of life she would live after he died, and what kind of man she would marry. Every time he thought about this, he ended it halfway because it was too painful. When he said it out loud today, he realized how deeply this topic hurt him.
"I don't hold you responsible! I'm not a child. I can give to whoever I want. I don't hold anyone responsible." Shang Shiyu burst into tears again because of his words.
Tang Wei took a deep breath and said, "I think we should all calm down."
Shang Shiyu hugged him and put his chin on his shoulder, "I won't hold you responsible... Tang Wei, this is not the first time!"
As soon as these words fell, Tang Wei's body shook violently.
It still hurts.
Heart-wrenching pain.
Who did she give it to
She continued to lie: "It's true that I love you, but I also have desires. Besides, when I'm drunk, I always mess around..."
He was very angry, his whole body tensed up, and every word came out of his lips, "Drunk and promiscuous? One-night stand?"
"yes."
"You shouldn't treat yourself like this!" His eyes were red, filled with extreme pain and hatred. He hated himself.
His Shang Shang, her first time which was so important to her, shouldn't be ruined like this.
Huge pain and frustration came flooding in, and Tang Wei had nowhere to vent, so he could only bite her lips.
He didn't know whether he was avenging himself or her, as he used his long fingers to take possession of her more deeply and forcefully. No matter how much she begged for mercy, he would not let her go.
Tang Wei didn't really want her in the end. He couldn't take responsibility for her. It had nothing to do with whether it was her first time or not, it had everything to do with his impending death.
Shang Shiyu climaxed again and again at his fingertips, but the more she did so, the more empty she felt. He refused to take her, even though he had reached the point where he could no longer bear it, even though she said he didn't need to take responsibility, even though Yu Sheng had already prepared condoms for him, he still didn't want her.
Is he keeping his chastity for Yun Ling
This possibility almost tore her strong soul apart.
"Have you done it with Yunling?" she asked unwillingly, "Did you give your first time to her?"
Tang Wei was in a state of disarray at the moment, and did not answer her question. He just said, "I'll carry you to take a shower."
"why do not you answer me?"
Tang Wei carried her out of the room and into the bathtub in the public bathroom, then said to her, "Shang Shang, there won't be a second time for what happened today. And..."
At this point, he paused and looked into her eyes. "My first time will be given to anyone, but not you. Do you understand?"
Shang Shiyu shrank back in pain. She didn't ask any more questions. She just huddled in the bathtub, hugged herself, turned around, and faced him with her back.
He could clearly see her body twitching.
Tang Wei stood there, frozen for a while, and finally turned around, closed the bathroom door and walked out. Every step was as heavy as if it was filled with lead.
His coat was casually placed on the sofa. The box of condoms that Yu Sheng gave him fell on the carpet. He laughed bitterly at himself, picked it up and threw it into the trash can. He went back to his room and took a cold shower despite his poor physical condition.
Otherwise, he would not have died of cancer here tonight, but would have been burned to death in fire.
———
He came out of the cold shower and took another pill, but she hadn't come out of the bathroom yet.
Tang Wei was afraid that something might have happened to her, so he rushed into the bathroom anxiously. However, when he saw her sleeping in the jacuzzi, his tense heart suddenly heaved a sigh of relief.
Fortunately, the water in the bathtub was kept at a constant temperature so she wouldn't get cold.
He took a large bath towel, spread it on his legs, carried her out of the bathtub, and wrapped her in the towel. His fingers accidentally touched her silky and delicate skin, and his fingertips were still trembling. His whole body was burning.
When I thought about how she was so willful to confess her first time, my heart ached. I felt so angry that I wanted to teach her a lesson.
———
This night.
Shang Shiyu was sleeping soundly.
The next day.
When she woke up, it was already daybreak outside. She felt a splitting headache. When she pressed her forehead and opened her eyes, she was a little dazed. For a moment, she didn't know where she was.
But soon, the passionate scenes of last night kept popping into her mind like a movie.
She remembered what she and Tang Wei had done. She also remembered that she had asked him for sex. However, what she remembered even more was that not only did he not want her, he also ruthlessly told her that his first time would never belong to her.
Sadness, aching heart.
She barely managed to prop herself up and half sit up, only to find that she was sleeping in his bedroom. However, the seat next to her was empty, and there was no sign that anyone had been lying there.
He didn't sleep next to him last night.
Did Yunling sleep on this bed before? Or did they sleep on it together
Thinking of this, Shang Shiyu's face turned pale. Even if he felt uncomfortable, he couldn't lie down for a moment. He opened the quilt and jumped out of bed impatiently.
When Tang Wei pushed the door open and came in, he saw her running away in a hurry, as if there was some bacteria on the bed sheets.
He asked, "Why, are there bed bugs?"
"No." Shang Shiyu glanced at him, lowered his eyes, and muttered, "But it's dirty."
Her voice was very soft, but he still heard it. He was not unhappy at all, but patiently explained to her: "These are the new disinfected sheets that the hourly worker replaced this week. You are the first one to sleep on them, so they should not be dirty."
After all, he had been in the hospital this week.
He was still so gentle and calm, as if nothing had happened between them last night, and as if he had never said those cruel words to her last night.
In terms of calmness, composure, and ruthlessness, she was no match for him.
The one who always thinks about her is her.