Although Shang Shiyu was reluctant to leave Tang Wei, she wanted to stay with him every minute, but she also didn't want to cause any trouble to him or the doctor.
So, in the afternoon, when he began to receive chemotherapy drugs in his hospital bed, she left the hospital.
"Why don't you want your sister-in-law to be here with you?" Tang Song chatted with him as he personally pushed him to get an X-ray. "She's actually much stronger than you think. Besides, with her here, maybe you won't feel as bad as last time."
Tang Wei smiled bitterly, "She vomited a lot during the last chemotherapy, I don't want to scare her."
Tang Song said: "I will try to slow down the drip this time. If it hurts, tell me immediately."
"Okay." Tang Wei nodded.
In fact, the greatest pain of illness never comes from physical torture, but from the inner torment and the bleak despair of the future.
Also, the heartache of the loved ones around me.
He had kept it a secret from Shang Shang because he didn't want her to be affected by the despair and pain. But she eventually found out.
After Shang Shiyu left the hospital, he went to the TV station to hand in his resignation. After all, no company would agree to take too long a leave.
As she was packing up her things on the table, Ning Mu circled around her, "Shi Yu, what's wrong with you? Did something happen? Didn't you say you would be transferred to Mianyang City after the New Year? Why did you suddenly resign?"
"I won't be going back to Mian City for now." Shang Shiyu sighed, "I will stay in You City in the future and won't go anywhere else."
She would stay with him, no matter whether he was good or bad.
"Why did you suddenly change your mind?"
Shang Shiyu shook her head, not knowing where to start. But before she left, she promised Ning Mu that she would definitely return to CCAV and this column team in the future. If the higher-ups didn't want her anymore, she would go and pester Tang Wei. Tang Wei would always let her come back!
Thinking of him, she felt distressed and miserable. She sat in the taxi, holding a heavy storage box, looking out the window at the bleak winter scenery with a desolate look.
I really want to know if he is doing well now while he is undergoing chemotherapy.
It must be very painful! She had long ago discovered a black bruise on his arm, which was shocking. It should have been left from his previous treatment.
Thinking of all these, her nose felt sour. Once the heartache came out, she couldn't stop it. She didn't dare to cry in front of him, for fear of affecting his mood. As a result, now sitting in a taxi, in front of a strange driver, she couldn't hold back her tears.
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Shang Shiyu took a shower at home and casually packed some clothes.
She did not go to the hospital immediately, but went to a tattoo shop. When she came out of the shop, it was already several hours later, it was already late, and it was already 7 o'clock in the evening.
She rushed back to the hospital.
Many people from the Tang family were in the lounge of the ward. Shang Shiyu was led by Tang Song and the old man to greet them one by one. Every young man in the Tang family was so beautiful that it was dazzling. One of them looked almost the same as Tang Wei, but the two had completely different temperaments. Tang Wei was as gentle as jade, while he was as cold as ice; Tang Wei was introverted and humble, while he was unruly and wild. She knew that he was Tang Wei's brother, and whether Tang Wei could survive or not was entirely up to him.
"You have so many brothers and sisters in your family. I'm afraid I'll get them confused next time I see them." After everyone left, Shang Shiyu grumbled to Tang Song in the quiet lounge with some distress.
"I haven't recognized them all yet." Tang Song said: "There is also my eldest brother Tang Yu, our seventh child Youyou, and the youngest Feifei..."
"They didn't come?"
"Seventh Brother comes here often, but he didn't meet you. As for my eldest brother, he is abroad and rarely comes back. Feifei was also in Youcheng, but was recently taken in by my eldest brother."
Shang Shiyu nodded and laughed dryly, "It's a bit complicated."
She looked towards the ward, her mind already flying inside, "Can I go in and see your fourth brother?"
"He just finished chemotherapy. He is very tired now and may have fallen asleep."
Shang Shiyu pushed open the door, took a look through the crack, and asked, "… How is he doing today?"
"It's okay. Not as strong as before." At least I didn't vomit.
Tang Song tried to speak lightly, but Shang Shiyu still felt heavy when he listened.
Tang Song did not stay in the ward for long. He just told the nurse to always pay attention to Tang Wei's body temperature and then left.
Shang Shiyu sat beside his bed. He had just finished chemotherapy and every part of his body was in great pain. He would rather have fallen asleep, but the medicine contained stimulants. He was tired all over, but he had no desire to sleep.
"You're back?" He slowly opened his eyelids and spoke to her.
"Yeah." Shang Shiyu held his hand and spoke to him, his voice gentler than ever, "If you are too tired, just have a good rest. I'll be by your side."
"Take a shower? It smells so good." Tang Wei sighed with a faint smile, and while speaking, he closed his eyes and sniffed gently. The sweet fragrance was refreshing, making him feel that the pain in his body didn't seem so severe.
Shang Shiyu noticed that the moment he closed his eyes, his eyelashes fluttered, and a few eyelashes fell on his pale face.
Her chest ached, "Don't open your eyes yet."
"What's wrong?"
She leaned over and carefully picked up a few eyelashes from his face. She threw them into the trash can and shook her head, "It's okay."
Tang Wei opened his eyes, saw her red eyes, smiled, and comforted her, "The hair on your body will be damaged during chemotherapy. But it doesn't matter, it will recover in the future..."
"Yes. All." Shang Shiyu nodded heavily, smiled, took a deep breath, and swallowed the bitterness in his heart.
"I've lost a lot of hair too. Will it look ugly?"
"No!" She immediately shook her head and kissed his slender fingers. "You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen."
She continued, "In the future, when you are old, your hair is all white, and your teeth are all gone, you will still be the most beautiful."
She was clearly smiling, but her eyes were sparkling.
Tang Wei reluctantly twitched his lips. Will he ever get old? He himself didn't know if he could hold on.
Time passes by slowly.
The two of them talked quietly, and the nurses beside them never made a sound to disturb them. In the end, Tang Wei finally fell asleep slowly. However, his sleep was very uneasy, and the pain in his body did not ease. In the end, he just fell asleep slowly in the pain.
Shang Shiyu sat there, looking at him like this, feeling not only heartache but also full of frustration and self-blame.
She had never felt so useless before!
When he was in such unbearable pain, she could only watch helplessly, unable to do anything for him, let alone bear it for him, even a little bit! She would rather all this pain was inflicted on herself!