"Maybe you will find it abrupt when I say this. But the fact is that before you showed up, Ye Xiao and I were very good. Miss Bai, you are the third person between Ye Xiao and me, this is an indisputable fact. Maybe you want to say that you have been together ten years ago, but you ended it ten years ago. Why do you still want to pester him ten years later?"
Nalan was really in pain, and as he spoke, a thin layer of moisture appeared in his eyes.
Cried.
She cried so pitifully that I felt even more sorry for her.
Bai Suye's red lips moved, but she only said coldly: "You misunderstood, I didn't bother him."
Nalan seemed to have not heard her words at all, and just kept talking to himself: "I love him, I really love him. So, even though I knew that you two had sex, I didn't question you. I just endured it silently, pretending that I didn't see it. I still insisted on loving him. I can love him to the point of being humble, to the point of giving up my temper, my self-esteem, everything I have... But what about you? Miss Bai, you don't dare. There are too many things you can't let go of!"
Bai Suye listened quietly to her accusations and confessions, and seeing the girl's sad face, he suddenly didn't know whether he should be happy that there was a girl who treated him sincerely, didn't deceive him, and didn't use him by his side...
She had hoped so much that he could find his own happiness, but when she suddenly realized that this happiness had nothing to do with her, her heart still ached...
It hurts...
Nalan is still very different from his former self.
No matter how much she loves a man, Bai Suye still has her own pride. Moreover, she can't express her feelings as openly as Nalan...
The love she wanted carried too many heavy burdens...
Moreover, as Nalan said, there are many things she cannot let go of.
And the one that I can't let go of the most is the Night Owl...
The more you can't let go, the more you have to let go; even if it means pulling out your tendons and peeling off your skin...
because…
"What Night Owl cannot tolerate the most is not being betrayed, but him betraying others. I believe that you, Miss Bai, know this better than I do."
Nalan's words immediately hit the point that Bai Suye was most reluctant to think about and touch.
She picked up the water cup and took a sip of water, but her fingers were still shaking. The pain in her chest did not subside at all. Nalan continued, "If Ye Xiao really falls in love with you again, it will be his biggest disaster. For a man as loyal as him, betraying others will be more unbearable and painful than being betrayed by others. Miss Bai, you have already let Ye Xiao down ten years ago. Ten years later, I beg you... give him a way out..."
In the last few words, Nalan almost begged.
Bai Suye's breathing became heavier. She knew the consequences much better than Nalan.
The intestinal tract was ruptured ten years ago.
If they were still together ten years later, wouldn't that be more than just a tragedy
He will die...
She didn't want him to die.
Bai Suye was silent for a long time, trying her best to suppress the emotions surging in her chest. She held the cup tightly, until her fingertips turned pale. After a long time, she seemed to finally calm down. She raised her eyes and glanced at Nalan in front of her, "You don't need to say these words, I know them very well. Since you want Ye Xiao so much, then fight for him. There is no need to cry and show your determination or confide your grievances in front of me. Your feelings have nothing to do with me, and I don't care at all. As for Ye Xiao... I have my own plans."
She tried her best to maintain her composure. Every word she spoke was sharp and rational.
After hearing what she said, Nalan's face turned red with embarrassment and he felt ashamed.
Bai Suye was silent. He put down the money and stood up. "I have something else to do. I can't talk to you any more. I'll leave first."
He left his words and got up, not wanting to stay any longer.
Nalan stood up and looked at her.
"Have you ever loved him?" Nalan asked suddenly.
Bai Suye's body was shocked and her steps stopped. She clenched her hands holding the bag tightly, so tightly that her injured fingers were rubbed a little painfully, and then she said, "This is my private matter, Miss Nalan, it's better not to explore it. I am not interested in understanding other people's feelings, and I am also not interested in sharing feelings with others."
"You are so rational, it's hard to imagine that you really loved Night Owl. I just feel a little sorry for him."
reason
She, Nalan, will probably never understand that the more rational a person is, the more scars he or she has in his or her heart.
Bai Suye leaned against the taxi window, her eyes fixed on the outside. In her eyes, all the colorful lights and neon lights were nothing but a gray haze.
She and Night Owl were already standing at a dead end full of knife edges...
If they go forward, they will only be hurt. If they take a step back, the world will be wider. She believes that he understands this as well.
… … … … …
When Bai Suye took the key and opened the door, the lights were on in the house. Ye Xiao was sitting on the sofa, watching TV with a gloomy look on his face.
His feet were still bare at this late hour, without slippers. Bai Suye tried to find his slippers from the entrance, but couldn't find them after searching for a long time. When he turned around, he saw the slippers were twisted into a ball and thrown into the trash can.
"Why did you throw away your shoes?"
Ye Xiao's eyes moved away from the TV and turned to her, "Are you still keeping these worn-out shoes for me to wear?"
“…” These words are so harsh no matter how you listen to them.
Bai Suye took a deep breath. "In the last ten days, I don't want to quarrel with you. If you don't want to wear it, that's fine, but these shoes are mine, you can't throw them away."
She pulled the shoes out of the trash can and rearranged them carefully.
Ye Xiao had been holding back his anger for the entire afternoon and evening, and now that he saw her so calm, he couldn't help but explode. He threw the remote control heavily onto the coffee table, and there was a loud bang, which sounded particularly shocking at night.
He took a few big steps to the entrance and kicked away the slippers she had just placed.
When he kicked her hand, her fingers tensed up a little. She squatted there for a long time without saying anything. But the next moment, Night Owl had already picked her up from the ground.
"Yexiao, if you are going to question me about Yunchuan and I, I will think you are jealous."
The night owl was shocked.
He never expected that before he could even open his mouth to say anything, Bai Suye took the initiative and spoke first!
Jealous
"Do you know what you are talking about?!" His eyes were cold.
Jealous? What a joke!
"What about you? Do you know what you are doing now?" Bai Suye looked at him calmly. "Yunchuan and I have never kissed, let alone done anything further, but you care about him so much, you are afraid of him, and you get angry every time you see him. You can't even stand the shoes he wears. Yexiao, ask yourself, are you jealous? Are you... actually, do you still like me?"