"What?" Zhong Simo almost thought that those three short words were his own auditory hallucinations. He opened his eyes wide and turned his head to look at Shen Yu in disbelief.
"I said," Shen Yu just said that sentence impulsively. Although he didn't regret it, he couldn't stand the red face. He bit his lower lip, and finally closed his eyes and said, "I said you still have me." .”
"Do you know what you're talking about?" Zhong Simo suppressed the turbulent emotions in his heart, and didn't dare to confirm with the slightest thought, for fear that he might get the wrong idea if he was not careful.
"En." Shen Yu nodded.
"You really confirm what you mean, absolutely sure." Zhong Simo felt a little hard to breathe. When happiness really knocked on the window door, he began to doubt it. Have fun.
"Are you annoying?" Shen Yu's nervousness was no less than that of Zhong Simo. He held his breath after making up his mind, but when he saw Zhong Simo insisting on asking, he became even more anxious and shy, so he simply gritted his teeth and rushed over He closed his eyes and quickly touched Zhong Simo's lips, then backed away immediately. His heartbeat almost overflowed his eardrums, and he barely felt any touch for a short moment, his body shaking uncontrollably due to the ups and downs of emotions.
"What do you mean, do you want to ask again?" Shen Yu took a few breaths, pretending to be relaxed, but his voice trembled hastily.
The cheeks of the person close at hand were slightly flushed, and he looked at him nervously but firmly, his lips were tightly pressed, and there was a bit of water in his bright eyes. Zhong Simo was stunned for a few seconds, and finally realized what happened just now. Laughed.
"Okay, I won't ask any more." He smiled and sighed, and actually felt that his eye sockets were moist for a long time. Logically, he gently stretched out his hand to wrap around Shen Yu's back, propped his other hand on the bed, and leaned forward to continue the short and tense kiss just now.
Zhong Simo's lips were a bit cool, thin and soft, just like himself, when they were lightly pressed, they completely occupied all the attention. Shen Yu's heart trembled more and more, he didn't know how to respond, tentatively stretched out his trembling arms to wrap around Zhong Simo's neck, so that the other party could deepen the kiss. From the initial contact with each other to the gradual obsession with love, Shen Yu had already forgotten the tension and embarrassment, and felt the tenderness of the person in his arms little by little. At the end of the kiss, both of them panted slightly, and Shen Yu had already pressed his back against the bed at some point.
"What are you laughing at?" Zhong Simo looked at the person close at hand and suddenly raised the corner of his mouth, couldn't help but kissed his cheek again, and asked gently.
"It just feels amazing, like a dream." Shen Yu said softly, the corners of his eyes and brows were full of smiles from the bottom of his heart.
"Shouldn't it be me who feels like a dream?" Zhong Simo was amused by him, and reached out to rub his soft black hair.
"I'm also dreaming," Shen Yu put away his expression and looked at Zhong Simo fixedly, his eyes reflected Zhong Simo's face, as if there were stars, "Zhong Simo, tell me, how far can we go?" Far"
"I don't have the ability to predict, I just want to say," Zhong Simo pulled Shen Yu's left hand with a smile and interlocked his fingers, "As long as you are still willing to stay by my side, I will never let go."
Shen Yu looked at a pair of hands clasped in mid-air, and after an unknown amount of time, he also smiled, "What I want to say is the same as you."
"But did the wound on your hand open?" Shen Yu recovered after making up his mind, and suddenly found that the gauze on Zhong Simo's right hand seemed to be blush.
"It doesn't matter"
"It doesn't matter, don't you know it hurts?" Shen Yu pushed the person on him helplessly and got up, "Is there any medicine box at home? I'll pack it for you. Can you be nice to yourself?"
"Isn't there you now?" Zhong Simo was pushed away by Shen Yu, and simply got up and sat cross-legged on the bed, looking at him with a smile and said.
"What if I'm not here?" Shen Yu said angrily, and found a basic medicine box from the cabinet. Injured, and not careful at all."
"I know I was wrong, so I must pay attention next time." Faced with Shen Yu's scolding, Zhong Simo repeatedly nodded to express that he actively admitted his mistake, causing Shen Yu to stare at him helplessly.
"Give me your hand." Shen Yu found gauze and iodophor cotton swabs for disinfection from the medicine box, squatted down in front of the bed and pulled Zhong Simo's injured wrist. As the gauze was removed bit by bit, Shen Yu finally saw the wound on Zhong Simo's wrist clearly, and subconsciously let out a low cry. This wound is about an inch above the wrist, and it is a full six to seven centimeters long. In the deepest part, you can even see the flesh. Because the series of movements just now were a bit big, the blood that had been stopped leaked out again, and it looked very serious. , It's not what Zhong Simo said lightly.
"Isn't it just a swipe?" Shen Yu was halfway through the sentence, realizing that Zhong Simo hadn't told him the truth again, and couldn't help raising his head and glaring left and right at someone who had averted his gaze.
"What else are you hiding from me?"
"No more, I promise this is the last time." Seeing that Shen Yu was really angry, Zhong Simo quickly raised his hand to coax him, "This injury is really nothing to me, it just looks scary, I I was afraid that you would be worried, so I spoke lightly."
"Do you often fight?" Shen Yu sullenly grabbed Zhong Simo's restless wrist, and asked while reapplying the medicine.
"It used to be." Zhong Simo looked at Shen Yu who was gently helping him apply the medicine with drooping eyebrows in front of him, falling into memories, "I told you before that my parents divorced very early, and my mother and I There is also my grandfather who lives in Jingshi, and my grandfather passed away suddenly when I was about ten years old, and my mother also left in less than two years, and I have been living alone since then."
"There was a time when I was quite miserable. I was quite self-defeating. I didn't want to study, and I didn't want to get along well with people. I often got into fights with punks for many reasons." The silver-gray bed curtain in the guest room was drawn tightly, The ceiling lamp emits a soft warm light, and the person you love the most is close to each other within reach. In this quiet and warm atmosphere, Zhong Simo whispers about the past that has been suppressed in his heart for decades.
"Then you can still be admitted to Beijing Film Academy." Shen Yu gently held Zhong Simo's hand, supporting him to continue speaking.
"It was only a year or two, and then I figured it out." Zhong Simo squeezed Shen Yu's fingertips and continued, "My grandfather is an old man of Chinese studies, and he and my grandmother are very affectionate, because my grandmother I was not in good health, so my mother gave birth to a daughter when she was 40 years old. Later, my mother gave birth to me. My grandfather has always been very concerned about teaching me. Since I was a child, I have taught me many principles of life, the Analects of the Mean, benevolence, righteousness, propriety, wisdom and trustworthiness. If I really fall, how can I be worthy of his spirit in heaven."
"Grandpa will definitely be proud of you now." Shen Yu said softly. Before the age of thirty, he had become an internationally renowned director with countless masterpieces. Today's Zhong Simo has enough proud capital.
"He is really an upright old gentleman. He taught me to have kind thoughts and make different contributions to society since I was a child. Maybe I can do it now." Zhong Simo shook his head with a wry smile when he heard the words , "But I didn't even know why my mother, who had repeatedly told me to protect him before his death, died, until recently."
"What?" Shen Yu was taken aback for a moment, realizing that Zhong Simo would tell the secret hidden in his heart next, and couldn't help but hold his breath.
"Do you still remember the rainy night when we met more than a month ago? I was drunk and almost had an accident. Fortunately, I met you and sent me back."
"I remember." Shen Yu nodded when he heard the words, everything that happened that night is still vivid in his memory, who would have thought that he would be with the person who he helped at the beginning after more than a month
"I've never lost my composure before, maybe this is God's arrangement." Zhong Simo thought that at least he met Shen Yu that night, and he felt a little better.
"My biological father was an ambitious speculator. In his eyes, marriage, family, and affection may all be priced goods with one standard." Zhong Simo smiled sarcastically, "He has a total of three The child, my elder brother, Yinyin and I, the three of us have different biological mothers. My mother is his second wife. When a young girl who didn’t know much about the world met him in his thirties when he was the most attractive man, it was very difficult. I ignored my grandfather's disapproval and married. After marriage, with the help of my grandfather's contacts, my biological father quickly started a big business, and later chose to go to Beijing for further development a few months after my grandfather passed away."
"My mother is a very sentimental and kind-hearted Jiangnan girl. Because her grandparents got a daughter when they were old, they protected her so well that it was inevitable for her to have idealized and beautiful imaginations about life and the people around her." Zhong Si Mo lowered his voice when talking about his mother, recalling the happiness he once had is always a cruel thing, "So, in the long-term relationship after marriage, she and my biological father inevitably had many conflicts that were difficult to reconcile. With the death of my grandfather, it became more acute. Time passed too long, I was still young at that time, and I couldn’t judge whether their relationship was right or wrong. I just remembered that when he went to Beijing, the two were already irreconcilable, and my biological father took my eldest brother away. , I stayed in Jingshi with my mother.”
Shen Yu noticed that when Zhong Simo mentioned his father, he always used the blunt term "biological father", and seemed unwilling to admit that they had any relationship other than the unchangeable blood relationship, which shows how the conflict between the two parties has intensified. How long has Zhong Simo been suppressed until the quality has changed so that he can tell everything in such a straightforward tone? Shen Yu frowned in distress, wrapped up the gauze, and gently closed Zhong Simo's right hand .
"After my grandfather passed away and my biological father left, I could clearly feel that my mother was getting more and more depressed, and I didn't know how to comfort her." Zhong Simo's voice was full of remorse and trembling, "Looking back now, she May have had depression but kept it from me. About a year or so later, she divorced my biological father, and later, she signed an organ donation agreement and drank a whole bottle of sleeping pills on a rainy night."
"Aunt committed suicide." Shen Yu opened his eyes wide in shock, at a loss for what to do.
"Yes, suicide. Before I knew it, she chose to end her own life. Her suicide note was very short, and it was written only to me, saying that every day of her life was extremely tormented, and let me forgive her , let me be happy." Zhong Simo couldn't go on talking anymore, he raised his hand to cover his eyes, and his voice became softer and softer. Suddenly, he felt a warm embrace gently encircling him like never before, patting his back.
"You will be very happy in the future." Shen Yu's nose was a little sore, he kissed the top of the hair of the person in his arms, and promised, "You have me."
"I know, I have you." Zhong Simo smiled, hugged Shen Yu's waist back, calmed down and continued, "I originally thought that my mother's depression was not controlled and treated in time, so that In the end, I chose to commit suicide. I always felt guilty in my heart for not doing anything at the beginning, and it was difficult to agree with my biological father who left her. Until that night, my stepmother, the mother of Yinyin, my biological father’s third wife, asked me out. Go to the coffee shop and tell me something, and I know the truth of the year."
"It turns out that my mother has never let go of her feelings for that man. She has been looking forward to the day when my biological father will reconcile with her, but the other party is already having an affair with the daughter of a high-ranking official in Beijing, who is my stepmother. Shen Yu clearly felt the repressed anger in Zhong Simo's voice, "In order to marry her, my biological father wanted to divorce my mother, but my mother still held a glimmer of hope and refused to agree. So the woman personally I had a phone call with my mother and told all the evidence of his cheating that my biological father had concealed, completely crushing my mother's world."
"Shortly after signing the divorce agreement, she chose to leave this world. The woman told me that she never thought that my mother would be so weak that she would end her life like this, but a woman like my mother is not suitable to be a woman at all. The wife of a rich businessman." Zhong Simo said word by word, "She said that even if my mother is the best tea, for those who don't like bland taste at all, it is not as important as a cup of convenience store coffee."
"That's why you bought coffee at the convenience store that night." Shen Yu asked softly thinking of that rainy night.
"I was drunk and suddenly wanted to go home. I bought a plane ticket back to Jingshi, but after so many years, where is it still there? It happened to be raining again that day, so I don't know what I did." Zhong Simo said blankly. He murmured that these things had been fermenting in his heart for too long, but no one talked about them.
Shen Yu unconsciously tightened his arms and hugged the person in his arms tightly. His eyes were sore, he opened his mouth a few times, and finally said, "Aside from these things, you can still think of my mother on rainy days in the future. I must love you very much, that's why I met you that night."
Zhong Simo was silent for a long time after hearing the words, just like a static statue, just when Shen Yu was almost wondering if he was stupid, he suddenly felt the strength of the arms around his waist, Zhong Simo put his head on Shen Yu He bumped his shoulder twice, and actually laughed, "Is there anyone who is so rambunctious? Use my own words to comfort me instead."
"I'm just being playful, what can you do?" Shen Yu smiled lightly, and slid down to lean on his shoulder.
"Then punish you, you will always be the first person I think of."
"It's an honor." Shen Yu smiled and raised his head to touch the corner of the lips of the person leaning against him.