When exactly did you find out that Cheng Ying was gay? Jiang Si didn't know either, probably because he found out that the friends around him were all men, that he gradually felt that something was wrong.
Her good sister listened and laughed at her confusion, "Your husband doesn't play with men, but with women. That's what you need to worry about, okay?"
Jiang Si smiled reluctantly, "That's right."
But she could clearly feel that Cheng Yian's eyes were different when she looked at the male colleagues in the unit, but she couldn't tell what was different. There was no concept of homosexuality at that time, for no reason, of course not. Think in that direction.
Another thing to dilute her thoughts was the child. In the third year of marriage, they finally had a child.
This is the crystallization that the couple finally obtained after countless failed attempts. Jiang Si was of course very happy. Cheng Ying rushed out to the street and bought her a bag of sesame cakes - it was her favorite food, Cheng Ying The contented smile on her face made her feel at home for the first time, and those thoughts in her heart dissipated with her husband's smile.
But Cheng Ying's happiness didn't last long. It seemed that after a week, he turned back to that dull and boring man. Fortunately, he was always gentle and caring towards her.
Cheng Ying had the habit of waking up at night. Jiang Si knew that since he became pregnant, he had been waking up more and more frequently. Jiang Si didn't care too much. That night, she suddenly felt sick to her stomach. After frowning, she stretched out her hand and found that the quilt beside her was empty.
"Cheng Ying... ? Cheng Ying?"
An indescribable feeling came to Jiang Si's heart. She got up from the bed lightly and searched for her husband at home. When passing by the kitchen, she found a black shadow squatting in the corner of the sink.
What's up with him? Is he uncomfortable
Jiang Si was about to step forward when suddenly he heard a faint whining sound resembling the wailing of a small animal in the air. Looking closely, Cheng Yan's body shrank in the corner could not stop trembling. Although he did not speak, he even There is no expression at all, just a back view, which can make people feel strongly - an inexplicable depression and despair enveloped him.
Are you so afraid of this child... so afraid of me
Pregnant women's emotions are always sensitive and excited. Jiang Si looked at Cheng Ying who was shrunk into a ball, his chest kept rising and falling. The grievances and worries during the pregnancy had now turned into a burning anger in his chest, and there was even a trace of it. Seemingly no hatred.
She took two steps forward, just as she was about to question him, when the wailing in the air suddenly changed its tone, Cheng Ying laughed with a weeping voice, it was an extremely reluctant laughter. To be honest, it was a strange thing to hear her husband cry and laugh in the kitchen in the middle of the night, but Jiang Si was, she could sense from the laughter that Cheng Ying was trying her best to convince herself to cheer herself up, even though she failed. .
The laughter didn't last long, and instead of the whining sound, a sadder cry spread to the cramped and cramped kitchen. Cheng Yan buried her head in her knees, and the palm of her arms was very hard. Even in the dark, the blue veins were very conspicuous. , that painful emotion suddenly defeated Jiang Si. Looking at such a fragile Cheng Ying, she suddenly felt extremely tasteless.
She backed out silently.
Cheng Ying became more and more indifferent to her, and she gradually became numb. She knew that no one did it on purpose, but the atmosphere of nothing to say was getting stronger and stronger between the two.
Alas, that's not how marriage is. Time passes, and love slowly turns into family. Even if Cheng Ying no longer loves her, at least it's good for her and her children.
But she never expected to find the love letters he wrote in high school in her husband's closet.
A love letter to that male classmate named Cai Baiwen.
Turns out he was gay.
"I'm going home! You damned liars! I'm going to ask my father to sue you for cheating on the marriage!" Jiang Si ignored Cheng's mother's pull and dragged the box to go out.
"No, little Jiang, even if you don't think about yourself, you have to think about your children!" Mother Cheng was in tears and kept talking about her little grandson.
"Don't say it, I only think about the children, so I will endure you until today!" Jiang Si was angry, angry, the muscles on his face trembled slightly with the vigorous movements, and a surge of anger burned her internal organs hot. It hurts again, as if the grievances accumulated in the past few years have all erupted at once.
"We're sorry for you, but in the past few years, why has our Cheng family treated you badly? Old Cheng and I both treat you like our own daughter... Cheng Ying! Besides disliking women, Cheng Ying has done something wrong. Did he beat you, or scolded you, or cheated? This is a disease, this is a disease, little Jiang!"
Hearing the word "illness", Cheng Ying's lips moved, but in the end she didn't say anything.
Jiang Si's movements stagnated for a moment.
Cheng's father immediately pushed Cheng Ying, who was shrinking behind everyone, "I still don't apologize to your daughter-in-law!"
At this time, Jiang Sicai saw Cheng Ying behind the crowd, his face was pale, his lips were slightly pursed, his eyes stared at the small ball of paper in Jiang Si's hand, a humiliating look appeared on his face, "Why... turn me over thing?"
Jiang Si froze in his heart and said loudly, "I'm your wife, I can't see such shameful things?"
Cheng's father said angrily: "What nonsense Cheng Ying said, don't you admit it?!"
Cheng Ying didn't say anything, but her face was even paler than before. A pair of eyes swept over everyone present with complex expressions, as if accusing, but also with a kind of silent grievance. Anyone saw his expression. Can't be hard-hearted.
Li Yan was stunned.
To be honest, after seeing Jiang Si and Cheng Ying looking at each other in the script, she changed her mind and did not get divorced. She has never been able to understand why just one glance can make Jiang Si willing to be trapped in this nominal marriage cage for the rest of her life. .
Now she knows.
Zhou Yuhe's eyes.
Those eyes really carried too much, the shaking behind the dullness, the hesitation on the verge of eruption, and the compromise to reality in the end, without saying a word.
Such a look of compromise and humiliation also hit Jiang Si who was hesitating.
Under the circumstances at that time, if a woman got divorced, she would suffer a lot of pressure in society, and her old Jiang family couldn't afford to lose this person. What's more, Cheng's family is really okay with her, except that she and Cheng Ying have been very depressed all these years, Cheng Ying is really not bad for her. Whether a divorced woman can find an honest man like Cheng Ying aside, what will happen to the child...
She stared at Cheng Ying intently, trying to find more strength in her eyes to support her decision-making.
But Cheng Ying only looked at her for a second, then looked away, and no longer had the courage to face her.
Jiang Si widened his eyes angrily, and suddenly loosened his shoulders, a bleak meaning spread from her.
Forget it, it's been like this in this life. According to his useless behavior, as long as he doesn't get divorced, he won't do anything wrong to her. These days, it's not easy to eat well and wear warm clothes. How can there be so many pursuits...
That being said, Cheng Ying's eyes remained in her mind that night.
Although it was only for a moment, the momentary determination in those eyes always made people feel uneasy.
It seems that a seed was planted for the rainy night.
After seven or eight years of married life, Jiang Si was like a frog soaked in warm water. Her originally lively and bright personality was rubbed clean by the dull and boring life and Cheng Ying, and she could no longer see the girlishness on her face. Smart, only the chicken feathers after the hurricane of life swept away.
Even so, that's fine.
Because she is not the only one who is being challenged by life, but also Cheng Ying.
Cheng Ying and her became more and more speechless. When they returned home every day, they washed their hands and ate in silence. Later, because eating at the same table was too depressing, Cheng Ying had to go to the kitchen to finish eating before coming out.
Jiang Si thought they would spend their lives like this, but unexpectedly one afternoon, Cheng Ying returned home with a smile, carrying a plastic bag full of ordinary daily necessities.
That smile was very eye-catching.
It was different from the way Cheng Yian had laughed in the past ten years. It was a transparent, brisk smile that looked like it had been basked in the sun.
Such a smile shocked Jiang Si, but it also gave people a sense of unease.
As if something appeared.
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The scenes of Li Yan and Zhou Yuhe took more than half a month to shoot, and many of the material may not be cut into the feature film when editing, but the two did not slack off their work because of this, and they still made all the scenes arranged by the director. Completed on schedule.
Meng Chuan watched the finished film and couldn't help but complimented the acting skills of the two actors. Maybe there were only two or three sentences about Li Yan in the ten sentences, but Li Yan couldn't even feel jealous.
To be reasonable, Jiang Si's character in the film is extroverted, while Cheng Ying is introverted and dull. With such a natural advantage, Li Yan should be in control of the rhythm, but inside and outside the scene, Li Yan has a kind of rhythm. The feeling of being pulled by the other party, it seems that she plays Jiang Si's every move, and all her thoughts and thoughts are naturally expressed under the influence of Cheng Ying. With such a powerful drama control, she can only meet some veterans in the entertainment industry. I only felt this way when I was a senior.
Li Yan's role did not end until all the youth dramas were completed, as well as the youth dramas of Xie Yifeng and Zhou Yuhe.
In order to better understand Jiang Si's emotions in the film, Jiang Si didn't know what happened between Cheng Ying and Cai Baiwen. Naturally, the director did not let Li Yan watch Xie Tuesday's youth scene until she even "Cai Baiwen" was finished. ' didn't even see a single hair.
There's no chance until it's finished.
"Aren't you finished Li Yan? Why did you come to the set today?" Meng Chuan said unexpectedly.
"Hey, it's alright if I don't go back, I'll take a look today." Li Yan patted the unnecessary dust on her skirt.
"Eh, okay, it's just today that they are filming a juvenile drama, you sit here." Meng Chuan pointed to the position beside the assistant director with the rolled up script.
Li Yan nodded, picked up a bench and sat down beside the assistant director.
In the center of the set, it was Zhou Yuhe and Xie Yifeng who filmed the first scene.
The shooting location was a middle school classroom, and the camera was facing a long corridor. Xie Yifeng in a white T-shirt walked through the crowd and walked from the camera.
I have to say that Xie Yifeng is worthy of being an actor who is good at integrating himself into the scene. Although he has never seen young Cai Baiwen, Cai Baiwen in his teenage years just saw the character's feeling of being the best of the heavens from his bones, without deliberately. It comes out naturally.
The surrounding staff kept exclaiming, they must have been shocked by the role of Xie Yifeng. After all, they had just come back from their youth. Cai Baiwen and Cheng Ying in that period had completely changed. Under the tempering of society, Cai Baiwen has become a pragmatic and taciturn commissary owner, which is not too different from the current feeling of "white-faced niche".
But Li Yan felt nothing. Because she didn't play against Cai Baiwen, she naturally couldn't appreciate how good Xie Yifeng's acting was. It was just a face-to-face meeting at the moment, and she couldn't see anything.
She is more interested in Zhou Yuhe.
Li Yan tugged at the sleeve of the assistant director next to her and whispered, "Hey, what about Director Luo and Zhou Zhouren?"
Luo Dao's eyes were completely glued to Xie Yifeng's body, and he pointed forward without caring about Li Yan, "Well, isn't it there?"
The author has something to say: I have waited for everyone for a long time, and then it is also more otz.