A crush is when the person you like doesn't stay where you are, and you have to work hard to walk to him across thousands of mountains and rivers.
The ending is nothing more than "sadly ending" or "getting together". And no matter what the ending is, you should understand at the beginning of deciding to have a "secret love" - it will not be completely sweet, and it will not be completely bitter; the love is yours, and the thousands of rivers and mountains are also yours.
After the end of the "Rain Stopping Festival", the days returned to the surface calm. Said "surface" because I was more restless inside. But don't blame me either.
Can someone be indifferent because Yankongshan is yellow to himself
nonexistent.
In this restless mood, I discovered something that made me even more anxious—Yankongshan was preparing to recruit new employees.
He asked Wen Ying to print out the recruitment information as a sign and put it in front of the store, requesting that those who could arrive immediately would be better off. Other than that, there were no special restrictions, nor did he inform me.
Although I was just a small working man who came to help temporarily, and I couldn't change anything whether I told me or not, when I suddenly saw the recruitment information, I still felt an indescribable loss in my heart.
A "turns out I'm not very special" loss.
In addition to Wen Ying, the Weather Bookstore originally had another clerk, but another person resigned in early July. The store was short of staff, and Yankongshan was too busy to take care of the children.
Because of this, I later said that I wanted to help in the store, and Yankongshan agreed so easily. My appearance could be said to relieve their urgent needs.
Although it is impossible for me to help in the store all the time, although I will start school in September, there is still a month left for the summer vacation. Is it a bit early to recruit people now
Besides, new recruits have been recruited, should I take the initiative to abdicate and make way for the sages
Why do you think that the newcomers are all here to replace me, does Yankongshan think I'm lazy enough
I don't even dare to ask directly. The anxiety of being replaced, the hesitation of losing my goal, and holding one thing in my heart for a long time will become a heart disease, and I start to lose my mind at every turn.
"Mianmian, you lost again."
I came back to my senses, the two-person racing competition on the TV screen was over, and the villain I controlled was behind Yan Wanqiu and reached the finish line. Compared to the cheers of the villain on her side, she waved her hand to the audience reservedly.
Playing Mario Kart with Yan Wanqiu tonight, I have never won, and the repeated losses will cast a shadow on this game.
"I'm not in good shape today." I put down the handle, trying to honor myself, "I don't feel good."
Yan Wanqiu glanced at the wall clock on the wall and said, "Then let's continue tomorrow. I'm going to bed first today, and you should go to bed earlier. Good night Mianmian."
Since the "Stopping Rain Festival", she somehow started calling me "Mian Mian" instead of "Big Brother". Although it felt weird to be called by a loli by a nickname, but after thinking about it, Yan Kongshan and I are of the same generation, which is not bad, so I didn't correct her.
"Ashan, I'm going to sleep!" Yan Wanqiu didn't wear a prosthesis and couldn't stand up, so she knelt on the ground and opened her arms towards Yankong Mountain.
Yankongshan is sorting out expired food in the refrigerator. I don't know if it's a single man with a baby. His refrigerator is full of all kinds of frozen food that can be eaten simply by heating, dumplings, dumplings, custard buns, chicken, beef, and cod fillets. Can't finish.
It might be that he couldn't hold it any more, and he felt bad. He suddenly packed the freezer today.
"It's already nine o'clock?" Hearing Yan Wanqiu's call, Yan Kongshan wiped his hands and strode toward here, with a trace of the chill from the freezer still remaining on his body.
"It's nine-fifteen." Yan Wanqiu was hugged to her arm, covering her mouth and yawning, "Mianmian always loses. I wanted him to win two more rounds, but he still didn't win."
I:"…"
Little boy, you are a bit unkind in throwing the pot.
"Actually, if you don't play, he won't lose." Yan Kongshan was well-mannered, and the little girl was stunned for a long time.
"Uh...Failure can sometimes make people learn a lot, and if you don't lose, you can't grow!" I suspect that Yan Wanqiu doesn't know what she's talking about, "so sometimes it's good to 'lose'."
The two gradually walked away, and I couldn't hear how Yankongshan answered her afterward.
I drank the Coke before I knew it during the game. I was a little thirsty, so I wanted to get up and go to the kitchen to pour some water.
Stepping over the expired frozen food littered on the ground, I opened the cabinets and cupboards to find a cup, but I couldn't find it.
The kitchen is some distance from the living room, the air-conditioning can't reach, and there is no window, it looks a bit stuffy.
Straighten your waist, pinch the fabric in front of your chest with your fingers and lift it up and down quickly, allowing the air to form a weak airflow across your body to offset the accumulated sweat.
"Don't they have a cup at home?"
Shouldn't be.
Just as he was about to open another drawer, Yankongshan's voice came from the kitchen door.
"Looking for what?"
I was startled, I covered my chest and looked over.
"Look, look for a cup."
Yan Kongshan was leaning against the door with his arms around his chest. Hearing this, he walked towards me, opened the drawer that I had pulled halfway through, and took out a glass for me.
"Give."
I took it, thanked him, turned to the table and poured cold water.
Yankongshan swept the expired food on the ground into the trash can, then bent over and dragged the water stains on the ground.
He rolled up his shirt sleeves, his arms were bulging, his collarbone was exposed, his waist looked tough and strong, and he even looked sexy when he was doing housework.
I peeked at him, accidentally choked on the water, and suddenly coughed violently.
The cold water slid down the neck into the vest. I was wearing a white and green basketball jersey today. The advantage is that it is loose and comfortable, but the disadvantage is that the fabric is thin and transparent. Once soaked in water, it is easy to reveal the flesh color underneath.
"Wipe." I coughed so that my whole face became hot, and suddenly a hand appeared in front of me, holding a tissue and handing it over.
I grabbed it one after another and coughed for a while, wiped the water off my neck, and then wiped the water off my chest and clothes.
When it was almost finished, I looked up to thank Yankong Shan, only to find that he looked down at me, and the top of his head turned yellow.
Comrade, what's the matter with you? Every time I get yellow, I am so caught off guard.
But almost the next second I looked at him, he looked away and walked towards the living room, his head slowly fading yellow.
The goal is still restraint, but it's not necessarily a bad thing for me, at least this time I don't have womenswear.
I used to come at eight o'clock, play games with Yan Wanqiu for an hour and read books for an hour, and then leave at ten o'clock. Now it's half past nine, and I still have extra time.
"Do you want to play games?" I picked up one of the gamepads on the ground and shook it towards Yankong Mountain.
Yankongshan was about to turn off the game console, but after hearing this, he stopped, thought for a while, and then sat cross-legged on the ground.
"bring it on."
Unexpectedly, he really agreed, so I hurriedly sat down and began to choose characters.
"Two wins out of three, the winner can ask the loser a question."
"Are you still taking a gamble?" He chose characters like me, his voice dragged a little slow, and he said so, but did not refuse.
After the characters of both sides are selected, the game begins.
As soon as the countdown ended, I rushed out of the starting line in full force.
In fact, I didn't think about what questions to ask, but as long as I thought that I could get closer to him and get to know him better, I couldn't help but be as excited as a chicken blood.
In the first game, Yankongshan might be a little unfamiliar after not playing for a long time, and I was left far behind.
I won, and won completely. When the rankings came out, I happily raised my arms and cheered. Thinking that Yan Wanqiu was sleeping, I hurriedly covered my mouth and swallowed the remaining shouts.
"It's alright, Qiuqiu slept soundly, and the sound insulation here is very good, so she can't hear it." He put his arms behind him, and he didn't seem to care about winning or losing, "You can call..."
Halfway through speaking, he suddenly paused, frowned indiscernibly, and his mood value dropped a little.
But soon, he added casually: "You can call it out."
Sometimes I think that people who are very curious must not have a problem like me, otherwise there will be so many question marks in my heart that people can't sleep.
Fortunately, I am not such a person, and I have learned to ignore some problems properly, so that I can "turn a blind eye" when necessary.
In the second game, Yankongshan may have regained his feeling and overtook me and won the final victory.
I was not reconciled. In the third game, I became more and more cautious. I was so nervous that my palms were sweating during the operation.
But sometimes, the more nervous it is, the worse it is. The characters I control repeatedly eat the traps thrown by Yankong Mountain, roll over and skid, and in the end, even if they chase after them, they still regret losing the game.
Holding the handle, I stared blankly at the screen, a bleak feeling rose in my heart.
This kind of rush from heaven to hell in an instant, this kind of unwillingness from prosperity to decline, it is difficult for those who have not experienced it to understand.
However, Yankongshan still has to set fire to the side and say, "Concession."
I held on to the gamepad tightly, and I endured and endured, but I had no choice but to admit that my skills were inferior to others.
"Okay, what do you want to know?" I asked in despair.
In fact, Yankongshan didn't want to know anything, and the questions he asked were very inattentive and full of perfunctory meanings.
"What major did you apply for in college?"
This game only makes sense for me to win! What are you doing at such a time when the desire to win is so strong? I've lost all night, so what if I win again
I murmured silently in my heart, but I still answered honestly: "Diplomacy."
At that time, I didn't have a very clear goal. I was average in everything, and I wasn't interested in anything. I thought that if I had a job that could give full play to my strengths, I applied for the School of International Relations at Hongshi University. This is the only university in Hong Kong with a Department of Diplomacy.
Yankongshan's relaxed expression suddenly changed, and he said in surprise, "Hongda?"
Seeing his subtle expression, I didn't know what was going on, so I nodded hesitantly and said, "...Yes."
I admit that I didn't do anything to make people laugh, but Yankongshan chuckled lightly.
"What's the matter?" I was a little stunned by his smile, very confused.
Yankongshan smiled even more, leaned back slightly, and greeted me happily: "Hello, little brother."
"…"
The corners of my lips froze: "…Huh?"
Fate, sometimes it's so elusive.
Who would have thought that Yankongshan was actually a senior in my school and major