It was a half-hour drive home from the hotel. The car ride aggravated the dizziness. When he got home, some drunk Yu Shulin was already pale and his limbs were weak. He fell on the sofa in the living room, tore off his bow tie, unbuttoned a few shirt buttons, clutched the trash can, wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit.
This was too torturous. He didn't expect his drink volume to be so bad, but he just drank a few sips when the couple was toasting, and there was no one cup, so it would be uncomfortable.
Seeing him uncomfortable, Liang Zhou frowned, a little anxious.
"Quickly, drink some sober soup, Master Shulin, how much do you drink? Master, don't look at it." Aunt Liu put the sober soup on the coffee table, worried too much.
Yu Shulin waved his hand, brought the hangover soup, drank it in one breath, poured it softly on the sofa, and explained: "It's nothing to do with brother, because I drink too little, so I took a sip of the wine."
"I was negligent, I should have replaced it with juice." Liang Zhou accepted the mistake very quickly. After sending Aunt Liu to the kitchen, he simply picked up Yu Shulin and walked upstairs.
The sudden sense of weightlessness made Yu Shulin a little bit more energetic. He widened his eyes, and was very uncomfortable with the princess holding this weird posture. He grabbed Liang Zhou's clothes and squatted: "Brother, what are you doing and what are you doing? , I can go by myself and let me down."
"Don't move." Liang Zhou hugged him tightly, sullenly, and sent him back to the room. Despite his opposition, he forced him to change into his pajamas, stuffed it into the quilt, and said, "Go to sleep."
It's only five o'clock in the afternoon... Yu Shulin was helpless, so she had to find an excuse: "I haven't taken a shower yet, and I smell alcohol..."
"Sleep first, wait until your head stops dizzy, and then wash." Liang Zhou sat down by the bed and touched his hair: "I watched you sleep, or do you want to eat something to sleep?"
In this state, he must eat and vomit... It seems that he has no choice but to resist. He reluctantly adjusted his posture, closed his eyes, and said vaguely, "Brother, you don't need to guard, I sleep by myself."
Liang Zhou touched his hair and didn't reply.
At eight o'clock in the evening, Liang Zhou, who was sitting on the bedside flipping through the documents, heard the murmurs, frowned, put the documents down, bent over to get close to the sleeping person on the bed, and touched his hair: "Sparse forest, what's wrong with you?"
Yu Shulin's eyes were closed tightly, his forehead was full of sweat, his lips were opened and closed and he didn't know what he was talking about, his hands and feet stomped wildly, and he fell asleep very restlessly.
"Sparse forest?" Liang Zhou hurriedly restrained him, touching his forehead with his hand, hot.
Actually got a fever.
He wiped off the sweat from Yu Shulin's forehead and gently soothed those who were sleeping very restlessly. After a little calmer, he went downstairs and asked Aunt Liu to find out the anti-fever medicine and thermometer, and he quickly returned to Yu Shulin. The room was heated with warm water, wiped off his sweat, and changed his pajamas and bedding sheets.
His actions to help people change clothes were much gentler than Yu Shulin, and when everything was done, Yu Shulin was still asleep.
Aunt Liu panicked, she hurriedly found out the anti-fever medicine and thermometer and took them, and took the changed bedding sheets to the laundry room. She just put the things in the washing machine and remembered where it was when she was washing clothes. Run upstairs again.
"Why is this fever? Master Shulin is usually in good health, and I have never caught a cold." She muttered, even more nervous than when Liang Zhou had a fever last time: "Could it be because of drinking? Is it an alcohol allergy, let's go to the hospital."
Liang Zhou took out the thermometer and took a look, and said in a low voice, "Thirty-eight degrees and seven degrees. It's a normal fever. Don't think too much about it, Aunt Liu. I'll just feed Shulin with anti-fever medicine and sweat."
"It's really not an alcohol allergy? Master Shulin is in good health, why suddenly he has a fever." Aunt Liu was still worried.
"In the afternoon, he fell asleep in the lounge. He didn't cover anything and wore less clothes. He caught a cold." Liang Zhou dropped his head to remove the anti-fever medicine, and felt a little self-blaming in his heart because he was negligent.
Dismissed the nagging Aunt Liu, and gave Yu Shulin a fever-reducing medicine for a long time. After everything was set up, he thought for a while, lay down on the bed, and took Yu Shulin with the quilt into his arms. Inside, patting his back and soothing.
The person in his arms blushed, and his frowning brows gradually relaxed with the strokes. He watched intently, anxious and contented in his heart.
In the middle of the night, Khan finally broke out. He helped Yu Shulin change his pajamas again. He didn't bother to change the sheets and bedding, so he went to his room with someone in his arms. After sweating, Yu Shulin slept more peacefully. He breathed a sigh of relief, rinsed quickly, changed into pajamas, and hugged the boy to sleep.
Yu Shulin sweated again in the early morning, and when the temperature was measured again, the heat had returned to normal. He was finally relieved, not afraid of trouble, and wiped Yu Shulin again, put on a clean sheet, and looked at him for a long time.
I've never tried to worry about a person so much, but it's good that this person is always by my side.
Early in the morning, Liang Zhou woke up very early. Seeing Yu Shulin breathing smoothly, his face was normal, and his heart was slightly loose, he couldn't help but lower his head and drop a kiss on his lips. My sweetheart was in my arms, and it was the most exciting morning. I couldn’t stop after this kiss. My arms gradually tightened, gently licked, my tongue stuck in, entangled, my hands rubbed the other’s soft hair, my heart was full of Satisfaction with warmth.
The body was imprisoned, his lips were sealed, and his nose was a little unventilated because of the fever. Yu Shulin was just awake. When I first woke up, I still didn't understand what was going on, my head was dizzy, my head was struggling with reflexes, and my head wobbled.
Liang Zhou also found out that he was wrong, and hurriedly backed away. He was stunned for two seconds. Various thoughts flew through his mind, but his hands gently helped him follow the breath, speaking softly, his voice low and hoarse. Wake up? Is there anything uncomfortable?"
As oxygen entered the lungs, Yu Shulin finally came back to life, and finally realized what had just happened, and said dumbly: "Brother, why are you kissing me..." After finishing speaking, he couldn't help coughing because his throat hurts too much.
Liang Zhou patted him on the back, took the heat-preserving pot from the bedside table, and brought it to his mouth: "Take a sip, it's used to moisturize the throat, keep it warm."
Yu Shulin drank it with his hand, completely awake, looking at Liang Zhou, the doubts and surprises in his eyes almost overflowed: "Brother, you admit the wrong person again? It's not a good habit to mess with relatives."
Actually wanted to be like this again... Liang Zhou looked away, looked at his messy hair, reached out and touched it, remembering the implicit confession he had failed countless times during this period, and suddenly he didn't want to cover it up anymore. He put down the thermos, bowed his head, stretched his arms to pull the person with messy hair into his arms, and kissed him again without refusal.
This time the kiss is no longer implicit, the tip of the tongue is very eager, and the entanglement is also very strong and passionate, and cannot be refused.
Yu Shulin only felt that his eyes were dark, his body was tight, his lips were hot... Then his brain became a mass of paste. After half a minute, he couldn't breathe again, his lips were finally released, and his back was patted comfortably.
"I didn't kiss the wrong person." Liang Zhou looked at him directly, no longer concealing his feelings: "My kiss has always been you, Shulin, I like you." Finally, I can't help it, from discovering my feelings to Now, for more than a year... After having endured it for so long, because of an early morning impulse, all the covers were torn apart... He just wanted to own this person.
"I know, I like my brother too..." Yu Shulin was already stupid by the kiss. Halfway through the conversation, he realized that he liked it or he liked it, his brain became more confused, his eyes widened, and his mouth was covered: "Brother, what you said like... you, why did you kiss me just now..."
Liang Zhou hooked his lips and suddenly felt that Yu Shulin at the moment was very cute. He pulled down his hand, lowered his head and kissed his lips again, looked at his eyes and said seriously: "Yes, it's this kind of love. Lin, I like you, and no good morning kiss between brothers kisses the lips, so this is not a good morning kiss."
Yu Shulin's mouth turned into an "o" shape, pointing to Liang Zhou and pointing to himself, stammering, "How, how come, but we, we are brothers... I, I haven't brushed my teeth... No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no , It doesn’t matter whether I brush my teeth or not... It’s not right, in short, how could you like me... I..." His mind became more and more confused, his inspiration flashed, and suddenly he shouted, "Brother, I'm not an adult, so Zhang Brother said you molested a minor because of this?!"
"..."
Liang Zhou darkened his face, holding his face in both hands, leaning close, breathing in, and earnestly said: "I can wait for you to grow up. We are indeed brothers, but we are not related by blood. Shulin, I am serious, I like you."
No, no blood relationship? what's the situation!
Liang Zhou has always been handsome, and at such a close look, it seems that he has become more handsome. When Yu Shulin was watched by him, he suddenly felt that the oxygen was not enough... It was just a night's sleep, why the world has changed!
Yu Shulin took sick leave, Liang Zhou also skipped work, and the two stayed at home for a day. Yu Shulin wanted to escape, Liang Zhou followed him for a day, without giving him any excuses to twist the early morning confession into a chance for brothers to "close relationship".
At breakfast, Yu Shulin was full of entanglement, trying to forget everything that happened in the morning as an illusion.
"Sulin, I really confessed to you." Liang Zhou pushed the milk in front of him, calmly.
"But brother..."
"I am indeed your brother." He interrupted him, took a bun and put it on his plate, looked at his eyes, and said seriously: "But we have no blood relationship. I will wait for you to calm down before talking to you. explain in detail."
Yu Shulin choked, ate the buns.
At ten o’clock in the morning, Yu Shulin was tapping on the computer. Liang Zhou came in with Tang, put him on his shoulders, and circled him from behind, looking at the computer screen with him: "No need to search, I like you not Illness is not an illusion. It's just a normal liking for someone, Shulin, you are fine, I am not sick, and I have liked you for a long time, well, probably since the eleventh of the previous year."
Yu Shulin stiffened, turned off the webpage with a shake of his hand, frowned, and recalled the eleventh of the previous year, and then was horrified: "Since that time I went to the hot spring, just..."
"That's right." Liang Zhou kissed him on the cheek, warmly said: "After that, I was confused for a while, until you and Xiaohe entered the police station because of a fight, and I calmed down again. During that time, I hid. I'm sorry to care about you."
Yu Shulin also remembered the two months of being aggrieved and at a loss, feeling a little complicated in his heart for a while, and finally had a vague concept of Liang Zhou's liking for himself, and stupidly said: "It was so early, but why are you..."
"Because I dare not, because I am afraid." He said in a low voice, "You are too young and you are my brother again. I dare not tell you this, for fear that you will hate me and hate me. It was not until last fall that I made up my mind. I want to confess my feelings to you, but you have never been open to it. No matter what I do to you, you think it is the intimacy between brothers."
"Difficult, isn't it?"
"Of course not." Liang Zhou showed some helplessness in his eyes, rubbing his hair: "No brothers are so old and walk hand in hand. Goodnight kisses will not kiss their lips, nor will they get tired of being together all day in their free time. Brothers will embrace and share when they are happy, but they will not be as close as we are, Shulin, don’t you understand? These are only done by couples."
Yu Shulin's Three Views were swept by a sudden gust of wind, faltering and about to collapse.
When Yu Shulin didn't come down during lunch, Liang Zhou stopped Aunt Liu who was about to go upstairs and shouted. He took the food and went upstairs. After being sent to the room, he walked out.
At dinner, Yu Shulin was still not down. Liang Zhou frowned and called Ling Chun. After talking for a while, he sighed, adjusted his expression, and sent the dinner over.
Before going to bed, he pushed open the door of Yu Shulin's room and said to the teenager who was asleep with his back facing him: "Sulin, you can't accept my feelings for a while, I can understand, but I hope you don't hide from me, I don't Forcing you, if you can’t accept it, I..."
He stopped, his voice lowered: "If you can't accept it, I can continue to be your brother and grow up with you."
Yu Shulin didn't move, as if already asleep.
Liang Zhou stepped back, holding the doorknob, and after a long silence, he said, "Sulin, I have picked up a new film, and need to go out to shoot for a while, you... hello."
The door closed, and the room returned to quietness. Yu Shulin moved, turned and opened his eyes, looking straight at the ceiling, for a long time, he raised his hand to cover his face, and buried his head in the quilt.
what to do…
Liang Zhou went to make a movie. He didn't say where to shoot or how long it would take to shoot. He quietly carried his luggage and went out, and then never returned home.
Yu Shulin didn’t ask. He went to school as usual every day, but studied harder. He bought a bunch of exercise books and did it as soon as he had free time. When finished, he searched for things in front of the computer. The search was not enough. Going down to the bookstore, and staying for a whole day.
Aunt Liu only thought that he was under a lot of pressure to study, and she cooked something for him in various ways, but as Liang Zhou left for a long time, Yu Shulin's appetite became worse.
"What's the matter, what's the matter? The young master, too, is on business trips, why turn off the phone and don't call back to report safety, it makes people worry." Aunt Liu looked sad, looking at Yu Shulin with her eyes hanging down. With dark circles under her eyes, she persuaded, “Master Shulin, don’t worry, Master is so big, and he’s fine on a business trip. Maybe he’s shooting in a closed film like last time? You don’t have to study so hard. You have good grades. Yes, ah."
"I'm fine." Yu Shulin smiled, put the bowls and chopsticks aside, lifted the schoolbag on the sofa, and floated back to the room.
Aunt Liu looked at the food that didn't move much on the table and sighed: "Where is it all right, one or two, and I don't know what's wrong..."
Li Tao had long noticed that something was wrong with Yu Shulin. He looked at the watch on his wrist, thought about it, and stretched out his hand directly in front of him: "Does it look good?"
"Huh?" Yu Shulin, who was doing the exercises, recovered from the sea of questions, stared at his wrist for a long time, and nodded: "It looks good..."
Sure enough, there is a problem.
Li Tao frowned, pushed his left hand on the page, and put it together with his wrist: "Didn't you find anything?"
Wrists side by side, one thicker, one finer, one healthy wheat color, one abnormally white, both wear watches on their wrists, one black silver with bright yellow, and one black silver with dark red. The twins have the same style and the same material.
"Hey, your family also gave you a watch? Red matches you very well." Yu Shulin smiled and praised.
Li Tao retracted his wrist and said lightly: "I have been wearing this watch for a month. When school started, you were still joking, saying that we are wearing a couple watch."
The words "love" stirred Yu Shulin's sensitive nerves. He retracted his hand, immersed himself in the exercises, and said vaguely: "Yes, don't you? I don't remember it. I haven't sleep well recently, and my memory is a little bad..."
"Not bad." Li Tao shook his head and looked straight at him: "You have only completed two ancient essays in the early self-study. The speed is much faster than usual. If you work so hard, you will definitely be the first in this monthly exam."
"Everyone worked hard, not necessarily the first place." Yu Shulin did not finish speaking, the monitor entered the classroom with the ranking list, and after being assigned to the group leader, he walked over with a smile and said, "Yu Shulin, you Congratulations on the first place again."
"… thanks."
The two of them sat in the front position, and the ranking table was quickly sent to them. Li Tao took it up and looked at him, "The first place, missed the second place by 20 points."
The second place was Li Tao, and Yu Shulin squeezed the ranking chart and laughed.
"What are you afraid of?" Li Tao frowned slightly, his eyes filled with doubts: "You have been wrong for a long time, probably since you took sick leave when school started. You always get lost in a daze, why?"
Why is this person so sharp... Yu Shulin's smile disappeared, he collapsed, and he sighed: "I'm just a little troubled... Because of some things at home."
"... Then I can't help you." Li Tao leaned back on the table, lowering his eyes. He can find a way to help with other things, but housework... He has no experience in handling.
"It's very rare for you to have this kind of intention, thank you." Yu Shulin smiled, looked at the opened exercise book again, and sighed: "The matter will always be resolved... sooner or later."
Li Tao turned the book over for a long time: "... Hmm."
Another half month passed after the frantic data-checking days. On Saturday, Yu Shulin stepped on the sunset to return home, hurriedly finished dinner, went back to the room and lay on the desk. The computer screen was black, and he didn't want to open it. Anyway, searching around was nothing more than the content that was read and watched.
How long has my brother been away? More than a month... Actually, I miss him very much... But...
The memory of being kissed that day resurfaced, as if there was still the touch of the tenderness on his lips... Ah, can't think... He tangled his hair and buried his face in his arms.
But... Brother was sad when he left that day...
The clock was ticking, upset, he got up, packed out his pajamas, and rushed into the bathroom.
The next day, he skipped class to find a seemingly tall counseling room, spent money, chose the best counselor, and talked in a mess. As he talked, it was about the two people's usual getting along, half an hour later, his voice gradually lowered and his eyes were full of confusion.
Why is this happening? Is it bad to be like family? The brother is so good, he... He even considered accepting it, but if he accepts it, he can't guarantee that he will have feelings for his brother beyond family affection. Isn't the brother very pitiful, and he may be delayed by himself... But if not Accept, my brother will be sad and sad, and then he will suppress his feelings and continue to take care of himself... He doesn't want this result, his brother is his family, he doesn't want his family to feel uncomfortable, but what he wants is himself... He can't promise, what should he do...
"Then do you hate his contact?" The consultant asked softly, smiling in a relaxing arc: "You guys get along well, why not try?"
"Try... But if I don't like him in the future..." This is what Yu Shulin is most afraid of. He hasn't liked people, but he thinks he should like girls. He has never thought about being with men. . He was worried, worried that he would not be able to repay Liang Zhou's feelings, worried that he would like others in the end, he was worried about many things, he...
"But aren't you already thinking about accepting it?" The counselor's eyes became gentle, "If you are not together, then your current concerns are meaningless." It was the first time she touched her as a counselor for so many years. To such a gentle person, all the anxiety in this child's heart comes from "unrequited". He is afraid that the person he cares about will be bumpy and sad, but at the beginning, he forgot to do it for him. Thinking about it for himself, he was only worried about hurting the other party, but he never thought about how much he would change in his future life if he gave everything for one person, changed his mind and even his sexuality.
She was almost jealous of that man.
"What should I do?" Yu Shulin was blank.
"Do what you want to do the most, decide what you won’t regret, hold on to what you don’t want to regret. You are still young, and your life is long. I can tell from your narrative that that person loves you very much. I think he I will accompany you to find the answer."
Yu Shulin dropped his head and fell silent.
No regrets, no regrets, what I want to do the most... What do I want to do most? Take college entrance exams.
No, not this... What I want to do most... Suddenly, various details about getting along with Liang Zhou appeared in his mind. He pursed his lips and closed his eyes. For a long time, he looked up, exhaled, smiled at the consultant who had been waiting for him quietly, and said embarrassedly: "Thank you today, that... can my registration information be destroyed? He is a public figure, so... "
The consultant showed a gentle smile, closed the information in his hand, put it in the shredder, and blinked at him: "Now we are not the identity of the customer and the consultant, so the age you fill in this information... is true Huh?"
Yu Shulin saw that the information was completely broken, and he was relieved. Seeing that the counselor who had been gentle and steady suddenly became lively, he was stunned and laughed: "Guess."
The consultant shook his head helplessly: "Well, I will treat you as an adult, but what should and should not be done, you know, huh?"
"Ah, I understand." Yu Shulin blushed. In fact, his mental age is twenty-seven and eighteen... Why did he think so, suddenly felt so ashamed.
Really, the more I live, the more I go back...