Everyone has his or her own life, and your life will not stop just because there is one less person by your side.
This is what her mother told her, but Lin Qingle didn't know how to digest it for a moment.
Although Xu Tingbai only spent half of her relatively short life, her not-so-much happiness was all filled with him.
It is true that you can still live and move without someone around you, but will you still be happy
She doesn't know.
But after that day, Xu Tingbai really disappeared from her world.
She could no longer wait at the alley intersection for him to come home from school, could no longer open the house where the key was hidden, and could not call him and chat with him secretly.
It was as if he didn't exist, and as if they had never met again in this year.
Lin Qingle felt that this sudden blankness was a little scary. Sometimes she even wondered if she was having some kind of hallucination.
Later, the only person who made her feel that Xu Tingbai's existence was real was Yan Dairong.
Yan Dairong came to the classroom angrily to question Xu Tingbai because she could not find her because she suddenly left. She was no longer the goddess she was in school. Just like that time in the restaurant, she was a completely different person and seemed to want to tear her apart.
After Yu Jiayou stopped her, she still looked at her angrily. She asked her where Xu Tingbai had gone and scolded her for not telling her.
But where does she get the answer? She also wants to know...
Perhaps because she really couldn't find the answer from her that day, Yan Dayong actually cried.
Lin Qingle looked at her like all the spectators in the class. But she knew in her heart that she actually felt a little grateful to her.
She was grateful for her abnormality, which made her feel that Xu Tingbai really existed. It wasn't like he was gone and no one remembered him. There were still people here who were like her, and were shaken by his departure.
Later, they were promoted to the second year of high school and were divided into classes.
Because she chose science, she was no longer in the same class as Yu Tingting and Jiang Shuyi. At first, they had planned to have dinner together, but high school was too busy, and since they were no longer in the same class, they could only slowly drift apart and return to their own little worlds.
Yu Jiayou was in the same class with her, but she didn't interact with him much. After all, she only started talking to him because of Jiang Shuyi in the first year of high school. Without the middleman, she didn't really know what to say.
At the end of the second semester of the second year of high school, Lin Qingle heard about an incident where the little bully Zhang Yikun from the third year of high school lost his admission ticket on the way to the exam. When he turned back to look for it, he was beaten with a sack.
He was hospitalized for two weeks and missed the college entrance examination. Many people in the school were secretly happy when they heard about this, because Zhang Yikun was a tyrant in the school and bullied people a lot, so everyone hated him.
Lin Qingle also thought she would be very happy, but after she heard others talk about this, she felt sad.
It’s not that she feels sad for that bastard Zhang Yikun, but her connection to Zhang Yikun is Xu Tingbai. When others talk about him, she will think of that person.
In fact, she was secretly looking forward to it at the beginning.
She would think that Xu Tingbai left without saying goodbye because he didn't want to implicate her anymore and didn't want her to pay for him anymore. After that, he had relatives and didn't need her to take care of him anymore. He would definitely contact her when he felt that he would not trouble her anymore.
He said he would tell her where he was, tell her if his eyes were healed, and tell her what he was doing recently...
But there is none.
After waiting for nothing for a whole year, she gradually lost hope.
This loss came from the anger hidden in her heart.
She was angry that he didn't keep his word and didn't take her seriously, so she just left without any news.
—
After that, the days passed one by one, and she studied and lived mechanically.
When she was in the middle of the first semester of her senior year, the factory where her mother worked closed down. Someone in the factory introduced her mother to another job, which was not bad and the salary was much higher than this one, but the factory was not in Xicheng, but in another city.
Lin Yufen initially hesitated whether to go or not, because her daughter was already a senior in high school and she didn't want her to change her environment again.
Later, Lin Qingle himself said that he could go to another city.
First, her family needed financial support, and second, her classes were all over and her grades were stable, so she just needed to review. Third, Xicheng didn't seem to have anything worth staying in.
After leaving Xicheng, she devoted herself to study because the college entrance examination was approaching and she had no time to think about anything else.
Looking back later, she didn't have any special memories of her second and third years of high school. The days in those two years were repetitive, going from one place to another, and studying was all she did.
Her hard work did bring her good results. She performed normally in the college entrance examination and was admitted to one of the best schools in the capital.
When she received the admission letter, her mother's eyes were red.
After she found out, her mother wiped her tears and said she was happy because she finally got into her ideal university and finally lived in her ideal city.
She smiled at the time and said nothing more.
Ideal university, ideal city... Lin Qingle suddenly felt a little confused, were these ideals hers or her mother's
But sometimes, life doesn't need to be thought through too clearly.
At the beginning of college, the school issued new phone cards and bank cards. It seemed that this was how my life started over again.
A University is full of talented people and masters, but during those years in college, Lin Qingle worked very hard for a scholarship, so he was able to stand out among that group of talents.
Her grades were excellent, and after she had gone through puberty and her baby face had faded, her looks had transitioned from the cuteness of a sixteen-year-old to the beauty of a twenty-year-old, so she was quite popular in the department.
Someone would deliver food to the dormitory every now and then, but the food would usually be returned the next day.
My roommate joked that she was really wasting resources.
But Lin Qingle didn't want to fall in love, nor did she deliberately avoid approaching boys who had a crush on her.
She just didn't have any feelings. She also felt that writing competition questions and volunteering were more interesting than falling in love.
Later, almost one single person would leave the dormitory every year. By the senior year, Lin Qingle was the only one left with a single sign.
But she didn't care. She was busy with internship in her senior year and had no time to think about these things...
After working for more than a year, Lin Qingle attended a college reunion.
The other three roommates in the dormitory all came to the reunion. Two of them are already married, but their partners are not their college boyfriends. The other one is not married yet, but she also said that she broke up with her then boyfriend when she graduated.
Lin Qingle saw how inseparable they used to be, but now when he heard them talking about the person they cared about the most in the past, he just laughed it off.
When talking about the person who was once engraved in my heart, can I really remain calm and unmoved
She didn't know and hadn't tried.
Because since she left Xicheng, no one in her life has ever mentioned Xu Tingbai to her.
—
Another year, autumn.
Winter arrived particularly early in the capital this year. It was clearly the month when people should wear two layers of clothing, but the weather suddenly became bitterly cold.
Around 11:00 am, people from nearby companies came out from their workstations to look for food. But when they came out, they found the temperature was unusually low, and they looked regretful.
The same goes for Xia Tan.
He works for a nearby company. His back was stiff after sitting in a meeting all morning, so he didn't order takeout for lunch and just went out for a walk.
But who would have thought that the temperature would suddenly drop at noon today.
He went to a roadside coffee shop he often went to, bought a cup of coffee, and prepared to go back home.
But when I was about to go back, I suddenly saw some people arguing at the bus stop not far away...
He was also bored, so he took a few more glances.
"It is a guide dog, not a pet dog, and it can be used on public transportation."
"That won't work. The dog is so big and there are so many people in the car. What if he bites someone?"
"It won't bite. It has been strictly trained. It..."
"No, no, don't get on and don't block the way. People behind you are still getting on the bus. Don't waste their time."
…
Xia Tan was just taking a quick look, but he heard the conversation between the woman wearing sunglasses and holding the dog and the driver.
He took two steps closer and looked at the Labrador beside the woman.
It's really a guide dog.
Xia Tan's eyes lit up, and just when he was about to walk over to say something to the driver, the girl had already backed out.
People outside rushed in, and after the bus door closed, they left.
Xia Tan paused and looked at the woman standing there with a frown.
"Xiaoyou, it's okay. Let's not get in the car and keep walking." The woman leaned over slightly and spoke to the guide dog. Her voice was very soft and gentle.
Then, she moved forward, led by the guide dog.
Xia Tan no longer had the intention to go back to the company and followed him.
He followed them not far behind, and he watched the guide dog lead her around obstacles, wait for red lights, and identify directions... It was very gentle and especially docile.
Xia Tan didn’t know how long he followed them. Later, when they encountered a red light, he saw that the woman and the guide dog both stopped.
He walked over and stood beside them.
He lowered his eyes to look at the dog... So cute.
Xia Tan reached out and wanted to touch it.
"Please don't touch it, sir."
Suddenly, the woman turned to him.
Xia Tan was stunned and looked at her in surprise.
"you… "
"Please do not touch or disturb guide dogs while they are working. Thank you."
"I'm sorry, I didn't know..." Xia Tan hurriedly apologized and couldn't help but glanced at her sunglasses, "Do you know what I was going to do just now?"
The woman nodded and took off her sunglasses. "I can see."
Xia Tan didn't expect that behind the sunglasses there was a pair of beautiful eyes, bright peach blossom eyes, coupled with her fair skin and delicate cheeks, she was stunning after the sunglasses were removed.
The woman smiled politely: "Sorry, I was just testing Xiaoyou, it's still in training."
Xia Tan coughed lightly and retracted his gaze: "Are you a guide dog trainer?"
"Not really." The woman explained, "My friend is, she is training another one. Since I have been a volunteer for a long time and have experience, I can help test it."
"I see. So this is just a dog from the Mingshi Guide Dog Training Base."
The woman was a little surprised: "You know?"
Xia Tan looked at her, unable to move his eyes away: "There is only this one training base in our city. My brother has applied for a guide dog before and is in the queue, but I heard it will be soon."
The woman understood: "Then I hope your brother can have it sooner."
"Yes, thank you."
The red light counted down, and the woman put on her sunglasses and closed her eyes: "Then I will continue, bye."
Xia Tan: "…Goodbye."
The woman left, and Xia Tan looked at her back for a long time without turning around.
Ding Ding—
The cell phone suddenly rang.
Xia Tan took it out and picked it up.
"Where is the person?" asked the person on the other end of the phone.
"I'm going out to have a meal."
"Don't you always have lunch delivered to your office?"
Xia Tan smiled: "Oh, I'm so tired after sitting all morning. Dear Mr. Xu, can I come out for a walk?"
"You went for a walk outside the Fifth Ring Road?"
"That's not the case. I just met someone on the road and wasted some time."
"who?"
"This... is a very beautiful woman."
The other end of the phone was silent for two seconds: "Nerd, come back."
The author has something to say: I finally breathed a sigh of relief after writing about growing up—
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