Whether a person's life is good or not, no matter how much the relationship lingers, Xu Ran still spent a week in loneliness.
He didn't go to He Cheng's company again, nor did he see Bai Jinming. Sometimes I wanted to make more hot food to send to He Cheng, but I hesitated and gave up immediately. He Cheng's company's canteen is much better than his, and it's even more rare than the sky falling for He Cheng to go to the company with a thermos.
No one is born with cooking skills, let alone a man, Xu Ran learned all the housework skills after living with He Cheng. He was also a child who stretched out his clothes, but with He Cheng, he had to shoulder the burden of the Lord.
Sometimes Xu Ran felt that he didn't live like a man, but he looked down at his legs and thought, he was lucky to be alive.
When I was alone, I only used vegetable leaves and noodles for dinner. On weekends, I was urged to go to the hospital to check my knee by three phone calls from the doctor. After waiting, the doctor looked at his bony legs and frowned, "Have you lost weight again?"
"No." Xu Ran smiled, he didn't lie, and indeed he didn't lose the scale.
The doctor moved a bench and sat down opposite him, reaching out to touch his leg. Before meeting Xu Ran, he instinctively backed away. The doctor stopped and looked at him meaningfully.
"What's wrong?" Xu Ran felt guilty for no reason.
"It's swollen." The doctor said helplessly, "I told you to pay attention to it on weekdays, but you want to get an infection?"
Xu Ran couldn't argue.
He himself was already too careful, but he couldn't stop He Cheng from tossing about on the bed. It has been nearly two weeks since I was tied to the end of the bed last time, but the redness, swelling and bruises on my knees have not completely disappeared, and the doctor shivered with pain when he pressed it. Cold sweat oozes from Xu Ran's back, his blood is surging upwards, and the hot air coming out of nowhere makes his face flush.
"Are the three meals regular?" the doctor asked.
Xu Ran naturally wants to talk about the rules. He just wanted to finish and leave here quickly, but the experienced doctor was determined to stay with him longer after not seeing him for more than half a year.
"what do you think."
The doctor took off his mask and looked at him calmly.
"I..." Xu Ran was stunned for a moment, then whispered, "I don't know."
When he was first injured, he immediately had a plaster cast and had an operation, but he didn't know whether it was because of his poor health or some other reason, and he never recovered well. In addition, He Cheng's torture became more severe after living together, and there was no sign of recovery on this leg at all. .
The doctor sighed, "I've known you for a long time to say this, you can't go on like this for the rest of your life. Surgery is not recommended for the time being, it will put too much burden on your knee, but if you get injured again, it's hard for me to guarantee light A cast will keep you walking. You have to be mentally prepared."
Xu Ran nodded. He was very grateful that the doctor didn't ask him about the cause of his injury in detail. Whether he guessed that he was pretending not to care or was simply not interested, he didn't reveal Xu Ran's last fig leaf.
"Okay," the doctor stood up. "The follow-up visit is to observe the patient's recovery. I can't see anything if you do this. You should pay more attention to yourself."
"Ok, thank you."
Xu Ran respectfully nodded to the doctor, maybe it's been a long time since he saw such a polite adult, the doctor's serious face that has never changed for thousands of years also wore a smile. He went to open the door for Xu Ran, told him the precautions for exercising on weekdays, and then went to call the next patient.
Xu Ran walked in the corridor of the hospital, the faint smell of disinfectant stimulated his nasal cavity. There was an uncomfortable smell in the air, Xu Ran held his breath, and walked out slowly step by step.
He has walked through this corridor of the Second City Hospital countless times since he moved to this city, each time alone, and he has become used to walking through the wards like pacing. The people around me always pass by in a hurry, the absurd farce like a fast-forward movie, or laughter or sadness, constitute a pale picture. The hospital wall was as pure as snow, Xu Ran looked at it, and it also looked back at Xu Ran, one person stood opposite the wall, solemn and funny.
This doctor was introduced to him by a colleague a long time ago. He is in his forties. Although he is not authoritative, he has rich clinical experience and is kind. Although Xu Ran is not very good at getting along with him, he knows everything he says It's all for your own good. Because of this, Xu Ran felt more and more painful when concealing the truth about his injury.
He doesn't want to lie. He didn't want to live his whole life as a cripple. Although ten years have passed step by step, he does not want to spend the next ten years like this anyway. He knew he couldn't hold on.
Surgery may not make him better. Xu Ran doesn't believe in his luck. He just hopes that everything will get better gradually, even if he only improves a little every day. In a week, a month, half a year, the good things will gradually accumulate. In this way, even if you are alone, you can spend the long days and nights.
Optimism is not something he is good at, but without it, he wouldn't last ten years.
If He Cheng said he was going to work overtime, let's assume that he was really going to work overtime. He just happened to take care of this crippled leg. I don't know if He Cheng will still be interested in him in the future, maybe he will, maybe he won't. There was no disturbance in Xu Ran's heart. He even thought that maybe it's normal for the two of them to break up like this.
Of course he doesn't want to break up, no one can let go of the love he loves, but the facts are in front of him, some things can't be changed by crying or making trouble.
If He Cheng could change his mind and make him cry and make trouble, Xu Ran would do it. He didn't think what he had done in the past few years could be much better than crying, but he was afraid that it would be useless. The most helpless thing in the world is to give up self-esteem and work hard, but it is still in vain.
He Cheng lied to him. Of course He Cheng would lie to him, between Qiao An and him, no one would choose him. Xu Ran knew that he could accept it.
He Cheng's tenderness that night was like a dream, even if he knew it was fake, he still benefited from it. It doesn't matter if it's fake, he said to himself, even if it's fake, it's a blessing that they can sit down and have a good talk, and He Cheng still cares about him.
At least He Cheng will still lie instead of breaking up directly, which allows him to live in deception.
Everyone passing by the hospital looked back at him. A man stared at the wall in a daze, strange and weird. Xu Ran stared blankly at a certain point, and when he regained consciousness, he found that he was counting the bubbles of the mortar on the wall.
He shook his head and walked away.
When passing by the emergency room, there was a lot of noise around, many people came in and out, it seemed that they were picking up serious patients. Xu Ran stood on the side to make way for the nurse, and had already hid against the wall, when a rampant man bumped into his shoulder hard.
"Go away! You're blind!"
Roaring full of anger, the man's saliva splashed, Xu Ran stared at the terrifying biceps for a moment, and said sorry softly.
The man gouged him out with murderous eyes, turned and left. The little nurse on the side rolled her eyes silently, and was elbowed by the head nurse.
Emergency nurses encountered such yelling people almost every day, Xu Ran felt a little sympathetic to them, but after thinking about it, he felt that he had seen that man somewhere before, but no matter how he thought about it, he couldn't remember any more details.
Illusion, he thought, and left the hospital while the crowd was thinning.
He didn't know that behind him, the fierce man looked at his limping back and showed a strange smile.
On the sofa in the office, Bai Jinming put down the last stack of documents, stretched his waist, took out his phone and swiped twice, his expression became rich immediately.
"... Have you read the text message?" He asked He Cheng.
He Cheng frowned, took out his phone and looked through it, but found no unread messages, "What's wrong?"
"Next weekend, high school alumni are going to get together," Bai Jinming said, "This time it's not a class, it's a grade."
"That means I wasn't invited." He Cheng didn't take it seriously, "Have fun."
Bai Jinming laughed dryly, "I'm not going."
"Why don't you go?" He Cheng flipped through a report, "Afraid of meeting someone from the past?"
"What nonsense, did you eat explosives?" Bai Jinming narrowed his eyes and looked at him.
He Cheng snorted and stopped talking.
In the past two days, he was really upset, but he couldn't tell the specific reason. Joan began to avoid him, which he expected, and he didn't feel very sad, but he was uncomfortable all over, and as time went by, this feeling became more and more obvious, which made him very angry.
Bai Jinming didn't care about his occasional mess, "I just feel embarrassed that there are so many people I don't know in my grade. I don't know who organized it."
He Cheng agrees with this. Class gatherings are already the limit, they don't have the time to meet a motley crew and listen to hours of business bragging. With this time, it would be more practical to do more work.
Bai Jinming flipped through the news again, and said seemingly unintentionally, "Qiao An seems to be going, I don't know if Xu Ran will go or not."
He Cheng frowned forcefully, he found that he was particularly impatient to hear Xu Ran's name, especially when he and Qiao An were mentioned together, he always had the urge to smash things.
"Don't always mention him." He Cheng said coldly.
Bai Jinming curled his lips, "My fault, I won't mention him."
But the dissatisfaction in his heart did not subside, He Cheng angrily picked up a new document, and flipped the pages loudly.
Bai Jinming replied a bunch of messages to someone in a crackling manner, his hands flew up, and after a while he raised his head and said to He Cheng, "I won't be coming next week, I have something to go out."
He Cheng waved his hand, signaling him to be casual.
Being bored at leisure, Bai Jinming clicked on the party list that Qiao An sent him to find familiar names. After looking at it, he suddenly hummed, straightened up and looked at He Cheng with a complicated expression.
He Cheng was irritated by his stare, "What's wrong?"
"Do you still remember that there were a few gangsters who loved to pick on Qiao An?"
"Remember." He Cheng put down the documents in his hand and frowned slightly.
"I saw their names." Bai Jinming shook his phone with a serious expression, "The leader, Mai Xing, just 'came out', and those in his group are going to the party."
"Mai Xing?" He Cheng stood up, "That worthless bastard from Old Mai's family?"
"It's him." Bai Jinming gritted his teeth, "Sangmen ruined my cousin and was sentenced to three years in prison. After she came out, she was still harming the world. Qiao An just saw his name and couldn't say anything."
He Cheng snorted in extreme disgust. Of course he remembered Mai Xing. In the three years of high school, Qiao An was often harassed by him and that group of trash.
They seemed to have troubled Xu Ran, but He Cheng couldn't remember why. That group of people is extremely annoying, no matter if it is an ordinary child or someone from a better family, as long as they are "fancy" by them, they will not live a day in peace.
It is inevitable for people like Mai Xing to get into trouble, but it is a pity that the Mai family is well-off, and it is only a matter of minutes to get him out, but the cousin's incident touched the ethics of the people, and the Mai family can't bear it, so they just let him squat three years.
It was a great shame for He Cheng and Bai Jinming to know that kind of person, which provided them with a more reasonable excuse for not going to that inexplicable grade party.
It was rare for Bai Jinming to show such an extreme expression, as if he saw something dirty, he quickly deleted the list. Just as he clicked OK, he suddenly hissed and looked at He Cheng, "He won't come to you, will he?"
The Mai family and the He family used to have a lot of friendship in their father's generation, but after Mai Xing became more and more muddled, Father He was afraid that they would have ideas about He Cheng, so he found an excuse to distance himself. He Cheng still remembered that Mai Xing tried to get close to him once in high school, but he ignored him. Just for being shameless at that guy, it's really possible to come here and get a share of the project in the name of reforming evil.
He Cheng sneered, "He dares."
Although the family property is still there, the property of the Mai family has long been inferior to what it used to be. Now that He Cheng's business is getting bigger and bigger, there is no need to care about a scum who eats human blood.
If Mai Xing dared to come, He Cheng would dare to talk to him about all the troubles he caused Qiao An in the past. Anyway, everyone knew that he had a deep affection for Joan, and it would not be a shame to take the opportunity to dig up old accounts.
However, he felt that the Mai family could no longer hold their head up in the circle, and probably wouldn't let this bastard come out again to embarrass himself.
Bai Jinming was deeply skeptical about this, and He Cheng felt that he was thinking too much, but it was only when he received a text message from a stranger two days later that he realized that there really are such shameless things in this world.