Xu Ran felt that he was too fragile, but just seeing Mai Xing, he collapsed, his stomach was overwhelmed, and his heart throbbed inexplicably from time to time. He Yuxuan was worried about him. After dinner, he helped to pack up all the things, packed the leftovers carefully and put them in the refrigerator, and told some trivial things. Before leaving, he said, "If you are still not feeling well tomorrow, you must give me Send a message and I will ask for leave for you."
He Yuxuan rarely frowned when he said this, with a serious expression on his face. Xu Ran couldn't bear the child to worry about him anymore, so he could only say yes, but He Yuxuan stared at his face and added, "Definitely!"
Xu Ran smiled silently and nodded in agreement.
After He Yuxuan left, the room was completely quiet. At that moment, Xu Ran even had the illusion that everything before was an illusion. He sat on the sofa for a long time, until the light in the living room was completely dark, and then slowly got up, wanting to clean up the room, but found that the surroundings were empty, there was nothing to clean up except for a pair of tables and chairs, so he couldn't help but froze in place.
After a while, he came back to his senses and walked slowly towards the bedroom.
This house has used up all his savings since he started working, but it only has one bedroom and one living room, second-hand decoration, the previous owner still loves to keep it clean, after dealing with everything, Xu Ran just scraped it again. Except for the bed, the other furniture is left over from the previous term. It is usually fine, but when Xu Ran's thoughts are confused, there is always a sense of strangeness, as if someone he doesn't know is peeping at everything about him in the living room, which makes Xu Ran feel uncomfortable. Xu Ran felt very uncomfortable.
He went back to the bedroom, locked the door, and lay down on the bed.
The only thing in the room that could be called his property was this bed. Although there is a faint smell of laundry detergent, it is warm anyway. He shrank into the blanket, wrapped himself into a ball with difficulty, took two deep breaths, and gradually felt his joints warm up.
For no reason, he thought of the air conditioner in He Cheng's bedroom that he always forgot to repair. I don't know if He Cheng will be cold when he sleeps at night. Then he remembered that He Cheng didn't only have that house, he wasn't there, of course He Cheng would choose to go to a more comfortable place.
How long have they been doing it
It seems that since Joan came back, they seldom slept together. He Cheng would drive him out when he was angry, and let him come back after a period of time when he calmed down. This scene has been repeated countless times since they lived together. Xu Ran is used to this kind of life, but this time, he did not Know if you have a chance to go back.
He Cheng ignored him, which has never happened in the past ten years.
Even if he gets angry again, He Cheng will eventually reply to the news. But now when Xu Ran turned on the phone, he could only see a lonely screen of "I'm sorry" in the dialog box. It was all sent by him, and He Cheng never replied.
Heart hurts. Xu Ran turned off the phone screen, held it tightly on his chest, and frowned in pain.
He doesn't want it to end like this, everything is wrong. The incident that Mai Xing provoked became the culprit, Xu Ran didn't want to just let it go, if he broke up with He Cheng, then Mai Xing would win.
That kind of person is impossible to become a winner, and Xu Ran never wants him to be a winner.
If he goes to explain, will He Cheng believe it
Looking back, at first he thought He Cheng was behind the scenes because he saw him chatting with Mai Xing in a corner of the campus, but now that he thinks about it, maybe that doesn't mean anything. Mai Xing is always making trouble for Qiao An, maybe He Cheng is just venting his anger for Qiao An.
Why did my first reaction at that time think of myself? Xu Ran was also confused. Compared with Qiao An, his existence is like a grain of sand to He Cheng, it is insignificant, and it is impossible for him to stand out for him. Why would he think he is the center of events? Just like what He Cheng said, overestimate one's abilities.
Excessive hormone secretion in adolescence is the root cause. He wanted He Cheng so much that he messed up his mind.
If, if he revealed Mai Xing's plan to He Cheng, would He Cheng continue to be with him in order to prevent Mai Xing from succeeding
This is a way, but Xu Ran doesn't want to do it.
Not at all.
He rolled over on the bed and turned on the bedside lamp. The dim orange lights sprinkled all over the floor, Xu Ran stared at the small light bulb, his eyes were dazzled.
He still wanted to be with He Cheng, but he didn't want to use that roundabout way.
He wanted to hear He Cheng say I love you.
In the past ten years, he had never heard the three words, but he had repeatedly described them to himself countless times in his heart, so that they took root and germinated before withering, becoming a dry flower in his heart.
He Cheng.
I love you.
Although he only slept for five hours intermittently last night, Xu Ran went to work the next day and met He Yuxuan who had just finished breakfast in the tea room. He Yuxuan was still taken aback when he saw him, immediately looked at his watch, and said in surprise, "Brother Xu, it's only seven o'clock!"
"I know." Xu Ran smiled, "Didn't you come earlier than me?"
"That's because my dormitory is in the next building, and there's breakfast in the cafeteria." He Yuxuan frowned, "Why don't you take more rest, anyway, there's no work right now."
"There's nothing to do at home."
Xu Ran poured hot water into the cup filled with instant coffee powder, and a strong aroma immediately came out. He couldn't help holding the glass away from himself, in fact he didn't like anything too strong, but in order to last the whole day, he had to force himself to drink it.
He Yuxuan looked at him silently. After a while, he went out and came back after a while with a box of milk in his hand.
He handed the milk to Xu Ran, "Drink this, it's warm."
Xu Ran took it and found that the milk was warm, probably because He Yuxuan put it on the hot water machine before. There was no reason to return it, so he could only thank him softly and put the coffee aside.
There were only the two of them in the small tea room, and He Yuxuan leaned against the bar beside him without speaking, as if he was thinking about something. Xu Ran drank the milk slowly, letting the aroma of warm milk fill his throat and appetite.
After an unknown amount of time, He Yuxuan said, "Brother Xu..."
The usual cheerfulness was gone in the voice, but a little uneasy. Xu Ran looked at him in surprise, and found that he was looking at the ground with a troubled face.
"I… "
Xu Ran was waiting for his question, for some reason, he suddenly became a little uneasy.
After struggling for a long time, He Yuxuan closed his eyes, "... are you okay?"
"I'm fine." Xu Ran smiled and breathed a sigh of relief.
"Did that person trouble you again yesterday?" He Yuxuan asked, "I don't think he is a good person."
Mai Xing's face and the ruffian air all over his body are really hard to let go of. Xu Ran sighed and said, "He is indeed not a good person, but I don't know him very well, he is just a high school classmate."
"High school?" He Yuxuan was surprised, "So long?"
It is true that high school was a long, long time ago. For ordinary people, being involved with high school classmates is considered a strange fate. Xu Ran is not sure if this is normal, but as far as He Cheng's circle is concerned, he has more contact with people he knew in high school.
Xu Ran hesitated for two seconds on how to explain his grievances with Mai Xing, and then he found that there was nothing to explain. He and Mai Xing had no grievances at all, and everything only originated from that troubled sports meeting. However, he also found a problem - if it wasn't He Cheng's instruction, why did Mai Xing come to break his leg
Xu Ran fell into deep thought, ignoring that He Yuxuan was waiting for his answer. But He Yuxuan didn't say anything, the number of silences increased, and he also mastered the rhythm of the conversation with Xu Ran.
The two of them stayed silently in the tea room until 7:40, and as more people came to work one after another, they gave up their seats.
"Brother Xu, let's have dinner together tonight." He Yuxuan said suddenly after returning to his seat.
Xu Ran was stunned for a moment, then smiled, "It's only early in the morning, so you're thinking about dinner?"
"Let's make an appointment first," He Yuxuan said, "At least I have a chance."
The boring work really needs a little motivation, Xu Ran agreed to treat him today, after all, He Yuxuan has been troubled a lot during this time, so I have to thank him. Let He Yuxuan decide the location of the restaurant.
Unexpectedly, the place He Yuxuan chose in the end turned out to be Xu Ran's home.
"Eating at home is more comfortable." He Yuxuan said.
Xu Ran was helpless, "Then I have to go shopping first, I don't have any stock."
He Yuxuan looked at him as if he wanted to dissect him. Xu Ran knew what he wanted to ask, so he could only walk with his head down, avoiding the topic of "what do you eat on weekdays".
Not only the dishes, but even the condiments must be bought new. The two big men always had something to think about, and when they got home and started to do it, Xu Ran realized that he had bought a bottle of fuel.
"Or forget it," Xu Ran looked at the kitchen with some embarrassment, "just change the taste."
"That's impossible!" He Yuxuan immediately got up and put on his coat, "I'll go to the supermarket to buy it, wait for me."
"Get out of the community, the supermarket is across the road." Xu Ran instructed, "Be careful."
He Yuxuan looked back at him, smiled and said, "Brother Xu, you look like my mother."
Xu Ran picked up the spatula as if to hit him, but He Yuxuan ran out the door while pleading for mercy.
When the footsteps in the corridor gradually faded away, Xu Ran put down the spatula and gradually restrained his smile.
He was always happy when he was with He Yuxuan, but when he left, silence enveloped him instantly, and Xu Ran could no longer laugh easily. He didn't know which situation was good for him, whether he was happy with his friends, pretending nothing sad happened, or immersed in boundless pain.
He likes to be quiet, to be alone, to have a wild day, but he also likes friends. Once in a while getting along is like a life adjustment, which can temporarily bring him out of the vortex, so that he won't sink forever.
I wonder what He Cheng is doing now? Are you preparing dinner too? Is it with Bai Jinming, or... Qiao An
Xu Ran took out his mobile phone, looked at the list of messages that had no movement, and lowered his eyes in silence.
Sure enough, he was still angry with him.
Maybe I should ask Bai Jinming for help this weekend, at least meet up so that he can apologize in person.
At least, give him a chance to redeem.
Xu Ran shook his head, temporarily put those depressing thoughts behind him, and started to wash vegetables and rice. The experience of cooking for He Cheng for so many years is enough to give him enough confidence to receive guests. This may be more grateful to He Yuxuan than going to a restaurant.
He picked the vegetables, soaked mushrooms and fungus, blanched the pork ribs twice, and cooked rice in the rice cooker, but He Yuxuan didn't come back for a long time. Xu Ran went to the window to look around, only to see a black car parked downstairs, but no sign of He Yuxuan.
Should I get lost? Xu Ran thought, probably not, even if he couldn't find it, he should call him.
Thinking, he picked up his phone and called He Yuxuan.
The phone rang for a few seconds and was connected by He Yuxuan. Before he could speak, there was a knock on the door.
"Brother Xu...!"
He Yuxuan called him, which sounded a bit strange, but Xu Ran didn't think about it, and walked over to open the door while answering.
"Why so slow, are you lost?" He asked.
Suddenly, he was stunned, and his blood froze when he saw who was outside the door.
He Yuxuan's voice on the phone was extremely anxious, "Brother Xu, I was stopped by someone. They said it was someone you knew. Did someone come looking for you? Are you okay?!"
Outside the door, He Cheng looked at him with a gloomy expression, as if looking at a shameless trash.
"Hang up." He Cheng ordered coldly.
The author has something to say: It seems that it is not good to be stuck here for the Chinese New Year. At the beginning, I only thought about the biweekly list when I posted this article. I forgot that this article is not suitable for Chinese New Year.
After this article is over, I will write some light and easy cookies.
happy new year everyone