Xu Ran didn't move.
He Cheng frowned, and repeated in a deep voice, "Come down!"
"Xu Ran?" Dong Ziqi poked his head out and asked in confusion, "What's wrong?"
Xu Ran shook his head and waved his hand to signal him to go back to the house.
His throat was so dry that he couldn't speak.
Xu Ran took a deep breath, and said to Liu Ming in a hoarse voice, "Use the living room for a while."
Liu Ming, who was eating melons with arms folded, nodded and said yes.
Xu Ran went downstairs slowly, taking every step very carefully. He Cheng was a little impatient, but seeing him leaning on crutches, he didn't urge him.
He followed Xu Ran to the living room. Xu Ran turned his back to him for a long time before turning around as if he had made up his mind, and said with a faint smile, "Long time no see."
You also know it's been a while. He Cheng thought.
The corners of Xu Ran's mouth were stiff. He never knew it was such a painful thing to smile.
"Sit down," he said to He Cheng, "this is my student's home, forgive me for not being able to entertain you."
Liu Ming, acting head of the family, obviously had no intention of serving tea to He Cheng.
He Cheng looked around and asked, "Do you live here?"
Following the words, his eyes fell on Liu Ming, and a cold light flashed in his slightly narrowed eyes.
Xu Ran paused, and said, "It's just a temporary stay. I'll go back to my place when the parents of the students come back."
"Do you have another place to live here?"
He Cheng didn't expect that Xu Ran didn't live here for a long time. The private detective hired only found out that Xu Ran was here, and even the courier address was written in this house. He thought Xu Ran was staying at a rich relative's house.
After thinking about it, it was wrong, Xu Ran didn't have such relatives, even if he didn't care about him, he still knew this information.
So there are many things to say about why Xu Ran, who has no job, can live in this kind of place.
In fact, He Cheng didn't think about it that much at first. It took less than half a day from receiving the information from the detective to getting on the plane. By the time he realized it, he had already arrived in City C. He Chengyuan wanted to send a message to ask Xu Ran to come by himself, and he would show up if he didn't come, but when he thought that this person had such a good life in this city, he didn't want to come here, and simply ran to Dong's house.
He thought that Xu Ran had a hard life. No job, no savings, no relatives to help, how can a normal person survive.
Xu Ran lowered his head and unconsciously pinched the cushions on his crutches, and said, "Yes, it's a rented house."
"When will the lease last?"
"... why are you asking this?"
The voice of the last sentence was as soft as the sound of insects, Xu Ran was afraid that he would say something hurtful again, and instinctively weakened three points in his heart.
But as soon as the words came out of his mouth, he felt absurd. How long does it have to do with He Cheng? Haven't they already broken up? Since He Cheng drove him out of that city, why bother to appear here
Thinking of this, Xu Ran raised his eyes, met He Cheng's dark eyes, and asked, "What are you doing here?"
"..."
He Cheng hesitated for a moment.
Come and take you back
He was the one who swore never to look back, and now he needs a thick skin to say this. And go back... For some reason, what Bai Jinming said flashed in his mind.
—I can understand your desire to bring down Mai Xing, but as a human being... there must be a bottom line.
Xu Ran, who was crouching on the pillar, was thinner than in spring, with obvious unhealthy white under his skin, the color of his eyes had faded, and the faint black cyan under his eyes seemed to have merged with his complexion.
No matter how tough you are, anyone with a little conscience will find it unbearable.
He Cheng hesitated, this has never happened in the past ten years.
When Xu Ran was by his side, he never felt sorry for this person. It's the same on the bed and off the bed, sometimes it's fun to see Xu Ran holding on to his grievances and refusing to talk, and he will look carefully at Xu Ran's eyes and the undisguised love in his beautiful pupils. He felt that Xu Ran would not be defeated, otherwise he wouldn't be begging for nothing by his side for ten years.
But after a few months of separation, he found that he couldn't look directly into Xu Ran's bleak eyes, and looked away after only a short while.
What is this sudden timidity
He Cheng frowned tightly, and there was a little perplexed sharpness in his handsome brows, which made Xu Ran dumbfounded.
He used to like watching He Cheng frown the most. This man's unusual temperament was vividly reflected between his brows, and he had a kind of ascetic beauty.
It's been a long time since I saw He Cheng like this, at this moment Xu Ran even felt that he was back in the past, as if he and He Cheng had never been separated.
He Cheng is still that high-spirited young man, he is still that bookworm who loves He Cheng deeply.
He Cheng collected himself and said, "I'll take you back."
"what?"
Xu Ran couldn't believe his ears.
He wanted to laugh instinctively, but after the corner of his mouth opened an arc, he froze there, as if someone had tapped his acupoints, unable to move.
He Cheng repeated patiently, "I'll take you back."
Now Xu Ran was completely dumbfounded.
He stumbled to his feet, almost knocking over the vase on the table. Liu Ming wanted to step forward to help him, but Xu Ran waved his hand and stopped him.
He Cheng wants to take him back
After being funny, it was extremely absurd. He turned his head to look at the French windows in the living room. The sun was shining brightly outside the window, casting golden mottled shadows on the lawn that had just been sprayed with water.
Heart beats unnaturally. He tried to keep his voice from trembling and asked, "Why?"
He Cheng didn't answer.
Although he knew the answer a long time ago, Xu Ran's heart still cooled down.
What did he expect He Cheng to answer? because of love? Because of a change of heart? still…
Or is he missing a pillow person who can be ravaged wantonly without caring
Leaning on the crutches with both arms, he almost propped up his whole body with all his strength, and the crutches were visibly trembling. Xu Ran held his hand so hard that the veins on the back of his hand stood out.
"You...should be able to find a housekeeper you like."
He felt that He Cheng was angry, but he never looked over, but looked out the window for a long time.
The flowers in the yard are so beautiful, it makes his eyes sour.
He Cheng took a few deep breaths to calm his anger, and tried his best to be kind, "Don't be angry, come back with me."
"No." This time the refusal was brief and concise.
He Cheng frowned, "What did you say?"
Xu Ran pursed his lips, finally looked at him, and said word by word, "I won't go back with you."
After a few seconds of silence, He Cheng smiled.
"Xu Ran, don't lose your temper with me." He stretched out his hand to cover the back of Xu Ran's pale hand, "If you want to be a tutor, you can do it when you go back. I was wrong about some things before. I apologize to you. Let me go again, okay. ?"
There was a coldness under the warm palm, Xu Ran closed his eyes, listening to the man he loved so much softly saying words that were not suitable for him at all.
He Chengcai would not apologize. He Cheng is always superior, and will never humble himself with Xu Ran.
all fake.
When he opened his eyes again, the panic was gone, and Xu Ran's expression was cold and calm, as if he was telling a story that had nothing to do with him.
"He Cheng, have you ever loved me?"
He could ask questions even in front of Liu Ming. Because he knows the answer.
It was known as early as ten years ago.
He Cheng was made unable to answer easily by his attitude, he had a premonition that no matter how he answered it would be wrong.
Finally he said, "You want me to treat you well, come back with me, and I'll live with you."
Xu Ran was amused by him, "You want me to go back so much, is it because you are not used to living alone?"
"I'm not used to it." This sentence really didn't lie.
Xu Ran let out a sigh, and said, "Then don't get used to it, and I can't help it."
He Chengwu became angry, and said sharply, "Xu Ran, what's the matter with you, I want to take you back to live a good life but you don't want it? Didn't you want this the most before?"
Xu Ran looked at this ridiculously naive man and said softly, "If you go back, what do you plan to take me for? A decoration, or... a so-called lover?"
"..."
"You need me to make up for the missing piece in your life, but He Cheng, ever since I followed you, my life has been missing such a big piece, why don't I see you fill in even a little bit for me?"
He waited, endured, cried and hurt, what did he get in the end
It was that indifferent and brief gaze in Mai Xing's house, and even Mai Xing said, "I really sympathize with you."
To be sympathized by a person who almost killed him, and this really brought him a faint sense of belonging, every time I think back to this point, I find it extremely ridiculous.
How sad.
Xu Ran raised his crutches and said without turning his head, "I begged you to love me for ten years, but you never responded to me. If that's the case, why bother my life now?"
he is tired. Now I just want to eat a bowl of jelly from the West Street alley to cool down, and then watch Dong Ziqi bluffing and playing games.
What love is not love has nothing to do with him.
Behind him was He Cheng's stern call, Xu Ran's ears were buzzing, but he couldn't make out what he said. When passing by Liu Ming, he apologized in a low voice, but Liu Ming comforted him with his eyes.
Go upstairs, into the house, and shut everything out.
Not long after, there was a knock on the door outside. Liu Ming walked in.
"I'm sorry." Xu Ran buried his face in his palms and murmured, "I'm sorry."
"You don't need to apologize to me, and it has nothing to do with me." Liu Ming comforted, "He left and said he would come again."
Xu Ran groaned, the voice stuck in his throat, making him ache.
Liu Ming coughed helplessly, "What you said just now was very good, relieve your anger."
Just turn around and torture yourself again, the gain outweighs the loss.
Xu Ran stared blankly at his palm.
The tiny hand lines were intertwined, and he couldn't recognize which one represented the emotion. He only saw a few short lines, all of which forked and split halfway in a mess.
This was the first time that he said harsh words to He Cheng.
Really relieved, he had held back the anger for ten years, mixed it up in his stomach, and finally showed his head in front of He Cheng. But then what? Then what should he do
At the moment when He Cheng said "Follow me back", was he really not tempted
He thought he escaped, but he didn't. He is always a pawn in He Cheng's palm, and it only depends on He Cheng's thought to take it or discard it.
When He Cheng moved his fingers a little, he wanted to run over. This is the only reaction of his body in the past ten years, and it cannot be changed overnight.
But he will have to suffer for a few more years before he can be freed
Seeing that he couldn't be persuaded, Liu Ming gave up. He went out and bought ice powder and jelly cakes. Dong Ziqi just came out of the room and carefully observed Xu Ran's face.
Xu Ran smiled apologetically at him. The old things scare the children.
Brown sugar water and sweet-scented osmanthus sauce are drizzled on the ice-cold and transparent powder, decorated with cut fruits, exuding a sweetness that is not greasy. Xu Ran dug a piece with a spoon and put it in his mouth.
After a little bitterness, the mouth is full of fragrance.