One sentence stunned He Cheng, "What do you mean?"
Xu Ran played with the tie clip and said flatly, "That's right, literally."
He Cheng stood up, took a step back and looked at him with a frown.
"What's the point of asking this now?"
Xu Ran smiled, "I just want to know."
The soft and soft tone lingered in his ears, and it seemed like he was acting like a baby.
He Cheng was silent.
Think, inhumane. I don't want to, it's not realistic.
In fact, he has almost forgotten that there are still parents who need to settle this matter.
Xu Ran quietly waited for his answer. In fact, it doesn't matter what the answer is, he just wants to see He Cheng shaken.
The silent man beside the hospital bed had an inexplicably depressed atmosphere, which couldn't cover up the inherent radiance of his body, but made Xu Ran feel very novel.
This is not the He Cheng he is familiar with. Similarly, he is no longer the Xu Ran that He Cheng is familiar with.
"I need to be here for a long time," he said.
He Cheng suddenly thought of something, his face turned livid, "Did you do it on purpose?!"
You would rather be killed by a car than go back with me
Xu Ran's expression was very strange, as if he wanted to be happy, but he was holding back his injuries for fear of being involved, and stagnated on a smile that was not a smile, "If I say no, will you believe it?"
The distance from the corner to the place where the accident happened was only more than ten meters away. Normal people could dodge it if they wanted to, but Xu Ran was on crutches.
He didn't know whether he could avoid it, but at that moment, he suddenly wanted to see He Cheng's face. So he turned his head at the last moment and saw panic in He Cheng's eyes as he wished.
Fortunately, you are not really hard-hearted.
Now it is meaningless to ask whether it was intentional or not. A long time ago, Xu Ran also thought that he was a person who would not give up his life easily no matter what happened, but it was only at that moment that he realized that he had already died subconsciously. He lived countless times, and came back to life countless times, over and over again, ups and downs in He Cheng's lies and torture.
Death is not what he pursues, but if this option is in front of him, it is not difficult to choose it.
It turned out that my heart had been dead for a long time.
I wish you well. Xu Ran looked at He Chengying's tired face and thought quietly, I hope you are happy, it's true.
It's true that I don't want to wait any longer.
"You go."
Xu Ran said.
Go back to the city where you feel like a fish in water, go back to your He family, and go back to the He Cheng who called the wind and rain.
He Cheng stood there, as if he couldn't believe that he could say these three words.
Xu Ran motioned for him to reach out and hold her hand.
He touched He Cheng's palm prints, and said softly, "You have your fault, I have mine, if this entanglement continues, it will be incomprehensible for a lifetime. Why don't we start over."
Ten years ago, on the small road behind the school, bookworm Xu Ran took He Cheng's hand and said, I like you, and I want to be with you.
Ten years later, Xu Ran lay on the hospital bed and said to He Cheng, let's start over.
Hello, my name is Xu Ran.
Shake hands, turn around, don't pass.
Sorry, I don't want to like you anymore.
He Cheng was pushed away from the ward by an invisible hand. He had to go, if he didn't go, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to hold back the expression on his face.
The only person he could find was Bai Jinming.
"Help me once." He Cheng said this to Bai Jinming for the first time, so scared that Bai Jinming almost lost the phone.
He Cheng looked at the moonlight in the sky and murmured, "Just this time, do me a favor."
Xu Ran, who lost He Cheng again, lived a very comfortable life, except for sleeping every day, he was in a daze, chatting with the nursing sister Wang. Sister Wang was not fired, and Xu Ran didn't mention her employer anymore.
The glucose infusion made his stomach queasy, and Xu Ran wanted to get out of bed, but his legs couldn't move.
The doctor said that his lower limbs were seriously injured and he needed to rest.
The Dong family's parents brought Dong Ziqi to visit him, and Dong Ziqi rarely calmed down, looking like a well-behaved boy. Xu Ran was afraid that his wounded appearance would scare him, so he urged him to leave quickly, but Dong Ziqi grabbed the edge of the bed and refused to leave.
Dong's mother looked at Xu Ran with some embarrassment, Xu Ran understood, and said to Dong Ziqi, "Bring me a cup of hot water."
This trick of distracting people has tried all kinds of tricks.
Dong's mother said to him, "Qiqi changed to a science class in her third year of high school, and she was surrounded by new classmates, so she didn't quite get used to it."
"It's normal." Xu Ran smiled, "He's very smart and won't be depressed because of this kind of thing."
Dong's mother sighed, "The child doesn't want to wear a prosthesis."
As he gets older, Dong Ziqi cannot always sit in a wheelchair. The Dong family can afford the most expensive prosthetics, but Dong Ziqi himself does not appreciate it.
Xu Ran nodded clearly.
When Dong Ziqi came back, Xu Ran smiled and said to him, "When you are discharged from the hospital, I will accompany you in the wheelchair."
Dong Ziqi's eyes were red, biting his lower lip, staring at him.
Xu Ran patted his head, "Don't think too much, whether you can stand up or not, you are still you and have nothing to do with others."
Say this to yourself too.
On weekends, his mother occasionally flew over from his hometown to see him. Xu Ran put his arms around her waist—he can move his arms in a wide range now—and said softly, “I’m sorry.”
Mother Xu hugged him tightly and kissed his forehead.
Father didn't come. He was angry, Xu Ran knew that he had long been aware of his relationship with He Cheng.
I haven't said it all the time, just because nothing happened. Now that the person has somehow come back to life, Xu's father can't face the self who was unstoppable.
Father is angry with himself.
Xu Ran asked her mother to send a video request to her father.
On the other side of the screen, the father had a serious face, but he was looking at him with the most extreme tenderness of a man towards his child.
Xu Ran's throat was a little blocked and he choked up.
"Dad, I want to go home."
Father Xu paused, and said, "It's good to go home."
Xu Ran finally couldn't hold back anymore and burst into tears.
The things he gave up for He Cheng were scattered on the road of life, now he has to turn around and pick them up one by one.
Going home is scheduled after discharge from the hospital. He couldn't let Dong Ziqi go, and he hasn't said hello to his aunt yet.
If He Cheng didn't come, Bai Jinming would come more often. The guy ate cold cakes from the small refrigerator very unceremoniously, and said, "You don't think I'm annoying, do you?"
Xu Ran shook his head with a smile. Who sent him, both of them knew it well.
It's fine when Bai Jinming comes, sometimes he just sits around for the whole afternoon and plays games with his tablet when he's bored. Xu Ran laughed that he was exactly like Dong Ziqi, and Bai Jinming stared at him for a long time.
"Xu Ran, you've changed." Bai Jinming said.
Xu Ran used to laugh too, but it was very bitter.
Xu Ran touched his face and said, "Really?"
Change is a good thing, it proves that he is abandoning the past step by step and welcoming a better self.
Bai Jinming poured the last bite of cold cake and brown sugar water into his mouth, wiped his mouth, "My family is developing a market here, and now there is a project that is expected to be completed in the next year. I will also be a permanent resident. When you are discharged from the hospital, arrive I'll go there, and it's convenient for friends to take care of them."
How blunt and blunt this topic can be.
It was difficult for Xu Ran to connect the current master who was worried about everything with the leisurely idler in the past, so he couldn't help laughing and said, "I'm going home."
"... what?" Bai Jinming shook his hand, and the empty bowl fell to the ground.
Seeing him hurriedly pulling the toilet paper and bending over to wipe it, Xu Ran said unhurriedly, "Yeah, I'm going home."
"What about here? You..."
Bai Jinming wanted to talk about work, felt wrong and wanted to talk about life, but he still couldn't open his mouth. In the end, he could only say, "The house you rented will not arrive for a long time..."
"It was only rented for three months."
"... Then you rented it for three months, where did you plan to go after it expired?"
Xu Ran was taken aback by this question.
Where did you want to go at that time
He only remembered that when the landlord asked how long the rent would be, the first thing he thought of was He Cheng, feeling that if the rent was too long, he and He Cheng would never see each other again. He was reluctant at the time.
Now it's worth it.
Bai Jinming got an unexpected answer, turned around and told He Cheng.
That night, Xu Ran received a text message.
The last one still stuck with him asking "What is your definition of 'good'", and the new one He Cheng wrote: After going home, will you come back
Xu Ran really wanted to ask him what "come back" refers to.
He typed: No.
After a long time, He Cheng replied: Good.
No more audio.
Xu Ran took the initiative to call He Cheng, "What exactly do you want?"
There was no response for a long time.
Xu Ran laughed. He knew that He Cheng couldn't answer.
"You're just scared." Xu Ran said softly, "You don't really want me to go back."
Declarative sentences, affirmative and natural tone.
"He Cheng, have you ever loved me?"
He Cheng had a severe headache. Xu Ran asked questions that he couldn't answer now.
Xu Ran babbled over there, murmuring to himself, "You are obsessed with love, you always want to completely possess a person, let him be dominated by you, and regard you as the only one. I know you have never loved me, but, It's all about possessiveness."
"Actually, I can accompany you until you are seventy or eighty. But He Cheng, if your awakening needs me to go through the gate of hell a few times before you can achieve it, then how many times do you want to come again? I have to figure out whether I can survive it. past."
"Loving you is so tiring, I want to rest."
He Cheng crushed the last cigarette in his hand, the hot cigarette butt burned his palm.
The moment Xu Ran was about to hang up the phone, He Cheng finally called him, "Xu Ran."
His voice was hoarse, like weeping blood.
Xu Ran hummed lightly.
"I'm here." Xu Ran said softly, "But I won't be here all the time."
"In the past, your greatest wish was to make me disappear, and now I can finally help you realize this wish."
"By the way," he said suddenly, "I like lilies very much, and watching movies on a tablet is also very handy. If it was before, I would be so happy that I could not sleep when I received these."
"But not now."
"He Cheng, what did you do long ago?"
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