In the noisy game hall, Lin Shen stood on tiptoe and easily threw the last basketball into the moving basket.
Looking at the word "WIN" that popped up on the game console, he let out a long breath, wiped the sweat from his forehead, and gave a V to Xu Ran who was holding his clothes beside him, "Are you amazing?"
Xu Ran looked at the corners of his mouth that could not be controlled, and smiled lightly.
Lin Shen has the temperament that makes girls scream. He looks good, has a good figure, and has a gentle personality. Except for occasional nervousness, he is the best candidate for a good boyfriend most of the time.
Now the "good boyfriend" is smiling heartily at a man in a wheelchair.
Xu Ran lowered her eyes and hugged the coats of the two of them tightly. There are so many people here, he feels a little uncomfortable.
Lin Shen knelt down in front of him and said worriedly, "Is it too boring? Shall we go out?"
Xu Ran shook his head, "There's still one game left, you've already put in coins."
Lin Shen looked back at the countdown to the game that was about to start, and waved to the young couple waiting aside to let them go up and play.
"Where is someone like you?" Xu Ran was helpless.
"Are you uncomfortable?" Lin Shen smiled indifferently, got up and pushed him, "Let's go, let's go to a place with fewer people."
The back door of the game hall is a spacious small square, surrounded by several claw machines, and many children pester their parents to catch the dolls.
Xu Ran's eyes stayed on a doll of a wolf dog for a while, Lin Shen weighed the game coins in his hand, and said to him, "Just wait for me, it will be ready soon."
Xu Ran was surprised, "You want to catch this?"
"Yeah." Lin Shen measured the distance of the doll with his eyes while tossing the coin, and responded without looking back.
"I can't catch it." Xu Ran looked helplessly at this boyish man, "The claws of the claw machine are very loose."
"How do you know if you don't try it?" Lin Shen asked confidently.
Xu Ran had nothing to say, so he could only shake the wheelchair and come to him.
Unexpectedly, a few minutes later, Lin Shen took out the silly wolfhound from the delivery port, and threw it to him with a smile.
"...you are really good." Xu Ran stroked the doll's soft fur and said happily, "I must have played with it a lot when I was young."
"Don't blame me, I'm a good boy."
Lin Shen put in the last few coins, but he was not as lucky as before.
"One is enough." Xu Ran patted his hands, motioning him to look around.
In front of the claw machine, apart from the parents with their children, there are also young people who want to make their girlfriends happy. Two men like them are very conspicuous when they come together. Xu Ran grasped the doll's fingers slightly, and pulled the wolf dog's paw out of a small hole.
Lin Shen looked around at the people who were peeking at them, stretched his waist, "Stop playing, stop playing, lest you question my ability again."
"What are you talking about?" Xu Ran glared at him.
"The ability to catch dolls," Lin Shen looked at him with a smile, "What do you think it is?"
Xu Ran couldn't help but turn around and leave.
Lin Shen caught up with him in two or three steps, and followed behind in a good voice, "Hey, don't ignore me, I was wrong."
After walking for a while, Xu Ran suddenly turned around and looked at him with a frown.
Lin Shen pursed his lips, stepped forward and patted his forehead, "What are you thinking?"
"... I was wondering why electric wheelchairs don't have the function of drag racing," Xu Ran gritted his teeth and tried to speak harshly, but made himself laugh and shook his head, "You are really..."
He couldn't think of an adjective for a long time, so he simply gave up and said, "Let's take a rest in a quiet place."
In the same coffee shop, Lin Shen ordered tea for him and adjusted the table to the height suitable for Xu Ran's wheelchair.
"Thank you." Xu Ran said softly.
He looked out the window. There used to be cars parked on the side of the road outside the window, maybe today is a working day, there are very few cars on the road, and the parking spaces that were originally occupied are also empty.
He stared at the diagonal position in a daze. Lin Shen raised his hand and waved in front of his eyes, "Hey, I've recovered."
"Huh?" Xu Ran was taken aback, lowered his head and picked up the teacup, but his tongue was scalded by the hot water.
"... What's wrong with you?" Lin Shen reluctantly went to get a glass of cold water to cool him down.
Xu Ran didn't know how to speak, he thought for a long time before asking, "He Chengta, is something wrong?"
Lin Shen paused while drinking coffee, and said after a long time, "Did you see it?"
Xu Ran shook his head, "Of course you can't see it from such a distance, but you block it... Besides him, I can't think of another person that you would block me from knowing."
"..."
Lin Shen suddenly had a feeling of shooting himself in the foot with a rock.
Xu Ran played with the piece of paper hanging from the tea bag outside the cup, and asked seemingly unintentionally, "What happened to him?"
"...what else do you care about him?" Lin Shen frowned, "did he care about you when something happened to you?"
"That's different."
"What's the difference? Aren't they all sick and hospitalized?" Lin Shen said, "If it wasn't for him, you would have to suffer so much? He only suffered this once when he was in debt and repaying the money. Don't tell me You'll be relieved now."
Xu Ran looked at Lin Shen's clean eyebrows and shook his head.
"I won't be soft-hearted." He said lightly, "but I won't be happy because something happened to him either."
"..."
Xu Ran took a sip of hot tea and said slowly, "I hope that I will be well, and I hope he will be well, and nothing will happen to anyone. He will live the life he wants, and find someone he really likes. In my life again. That's enough."
Seeing Lin Shen's breathless expression, Xu Ran smiled, "Can I still chase him to the ends of the earth with a knife? I don't have that ability, nor do I have the mental strength. It's not easy to live, so there's no need to destroy me for him. the rest of my life."
"Then what do you mean," Lin Shen paused, "you won't come back to him again?"
Xu Ran shook his head.
"Unless he changes it... But his temper can't be changed in the next life." Xu Ran said with a smile, "No matter what, he won't like me, so why should I go to war for him."
He took the tea bag out of the cup and put it on the lid, "When I'm with him, I want to die."
Lin Shen froze.
"Don't worry, that's already in the past." Xu Ran comforted me, "I was very tired at that time, and I couldn't figure out why he always refused to look at me. Then I thought, if he died, he would Recalling my kindness, I will still regret it when I am seventy or eighty, why didn't I treat me better before."
"But then I found out that he doesn't feel guilty because of my leaving. He just feels that he has lost a convenient nanny. After all, I was rushing to serve him before. A person like him will never To cherish an object you don't love."
Lin Shen took his hand, clasped his palm firmly, and said softly, "It's all over."
Xu Ran grinned, but it was tragic. He opened his mouth, his lips trembling slightly.
"Every night I dream of someone hugging me and falling asleep with me. I hope that when I wake up the next day, I can see him smiling at me, but I don't want to wake up myself. Before going to bed, I always think , It’s fine if I can’t wake up the next day, and when it’s dawn, I’ll think again, how did I live another day.”
"Then I get up and make him breakfast. He doesn't eat it, and he probably throws it away. But I have to do it anyway. If I don't, I won't be worth staying there."
I'm so tired.
Sometimes looking back on the past, Xu Ran felt tired from the bottom of his heart. He overdrawn all the love in his future life to He Cheng, but He Cheng thought it was due, and casually left it behind.
He showed He Cheng his sincerity, but He Cheng dismissed it.
Why didn't I learn to be good at that time.
He took his hand out of Lin Shen's palm, wiped the corners of his red eyes, and smiled embarrassedly, "I'm sorry, I don't know why, I..."
"Okay, it's okay." Lin Shen said softly, "You haven't said these things to others before, but now you say it, you can feel better."
Xu Ran took several deep breaths and asked again, "What happened to him?"
"Why haven't you forgotten this?" Lin Shen smiled wryly.
"The bar called me before and said he was drunk, so I didn't go to pick it up." Xu Ran hesitated, "He used to drink so much that his stomach was perforated, maybe I didn't go this time, and he had problems drinking again, I ... don't want to hurt him."
Lin Shen looked at this man who was afraid of doing something wrong with embarrassment. Xu Ran is good in everything, but his temper is too soft, even for He Cheng, he doesn't want to cause indirect harm to him.
But this time he really didn't have to worry so much.
"It's not stomach perforation." Lin Shen shook the coffee cup and said, "He was beaten."
"Beating? You mean..."
"Who knows who he provoked." Lin Shen said dissatisfiedly, "Don't worry about it, be careful to involve yourself in it."
After a long silence, Xu Ran said softly, "I don't care."
"That's right." Lin Shen smiled and took out the wolf dog doll from his arms, and put it on the table, "This is fun, shall I catch another one for you?"
At the end of December, when the new and old years are changing, the footsteps of pedestrians on the road on the eve of New Year's Day are much more hurried, as if they are rushing to go to work to finish the work, so that they can go home for a reunion. Xu Ran tried his best to look out from the window in the corridor of the hospital, and saw the foggy sky, with occasional sunshine, carrying a kind of inexplicable coldness.
"The forecast says there will be snow," Xu Ran said regretfully, "It seems that it won't fall."
"Want to see snow? Go to the north," Lin Shen pulled his hand off the window sill, stuffed a cup of hot water, "Go further north, it's snowing and it's hard to walk there. I'll see you abroad Once, the door was really blocked by heavy snow."
Xu Ran shook his head, "I can't go again. Let's wait until later, when you have enough money, let's go north."
"On the 21st," the doctor called from the room, "come in and get the report."
"I'll get it, you wait for me here." Lin Shen got up and said to him, "It's too cold here because of the heating."
Lin Shen's back disappeared behind the door, Xu Ran looked at the half-open door for a long time.
A figure walked slowly from the corner.
Xu Ran instinctively turned his head to take a look, the water in the glass almost spilled on the ground.
It's He Cheng.
He Cheng was wearing a loose hospital gown, his face was not shaved, his face was blue, and he exuded a decadent air from inside to outside.
He Cheng also glanced at him, and the steps he had taken before were abruptly stopped in place.
"Of course, the doctor said no problem, let's pack up and go..."
Lin Shen's joking title hit the hearts of the two of them hard. Xu Ran looked into He Cheng's eyes and found that the light that had suddenly brightened in his eyes dimmed in an instant.
Following Xu Ran's gaze, Lin Shen also saw He Cheng, cursed secretly, and stepped forward to block between the two.
"Let's go." Lin Shen said forcefully, "My mother is waiting for us to go home for dinner."
He bit the word "go home" very hard, and raised his hand to push Xu Ran's wheelchair towards the elevator.
Stumbling footsteps sounded behind him, He Cheng took two steps while supporting the wall, and called out in a hoarse voice, "Xu Ran."
The voice was not loud, but it was like a sad curse, revealing a deep and tragic pain. Lin Shen couldn't help but pause, Xu Ran patted him and turned around.
"Why haven't you been discharged from the hospital yet?" Xu Ran asked.
He Cheng stared at him blankly, "I was injured and my stomach is not feeling well."
His stomach, which was nearly collapsed due to drinking, almost collapsed after being beaten by Andy's group. It took several operations to barely save his life. Only then did he realize that his body was more fragile than he imagined.
Xu Ran looked up at Lin Shen, as if asking for his opinion.
Lin Shen clicked his tongue, took a step back and folded his arms, and said to He Cheng coldly, "I only give you ten minutes, talk quickly if you have something to say."
The author has something to say: Thank you Lin Zikui. mines