Xu Ran followed He Cheng into the ward.
In a single ward, the scene is exactly the same as in City C, except that the inpatient has changed, and the ward is deserted, with nothing but a bed and a table.
Lin Shen waited in the corridor with his arms folded, staring at He Cheng's movements through the glass window of the door.
He Cheng sat on the bed. He was badly beaten, with several dislocated shoulders and legs, and needed to rest.
Xu Ran kept a close distance from him, looked around, and asked politely, "When will you be discharged from the hospital?"
"February, after the year." He Cheng said hoarsely.
"That's a long time." Xu Ran said.
They fell silent, each thinking about his own business.
Xu Ran looked at the man in hospital gown in front of him. He has never seen He Cheng like this before, it seems that all the energy and energy in the past have been sucked away by a brain, and now He Cheng is more than a star thinner than before, and the stubble on his face has not been shaved. It's all black and blue.
It's been a while, how did you make it look like this.
Xu Ran wanted to sigh, but held back after thinking about it. He Cheng has a high spirit and cannot tolerate any sympathy or contempt for him.
"you… "
They spoke at the same time, Xu Ran paused, and said, "You speak first."
"… How are you?"
He Cheng glanced at Lin Shen who was staring at him outside the door, and asked in a low voice.
Xu Ran nodded and said, "Very good."
Apart from being unable to stand up, everything else is fine.
"I..." He Cheng paused, and stroked the stubble on his face, "I look pretty ugly, right?"
Xu Ran frowned. This is not what He Cheng can say.
But He Cheng acted as if he hadn't noticed, and said to himself, "I seem to have done a lot of things wrong, and I felt that I didn't do anything wrong in many things, but now there is nothing, I really..."
"He Cheng?" Xu Ran moved the wheelchair forward and asked worriedly, "Are you okay?"
He Cheng raised his eyes and smiled at him. Not a handsome smile at all, only empty tiredness and sentimentality.
"I'm fine..." He Cheng murmured, "I was just hurt a little."
Xu Ran looked down at his intertwined hands.
He said, "He Cheng, I can't help you."
He Cheng trembled slightly, and said with a wry smile, "I know."
I just want to talk to you.
Everything developed too fast, from Xu Ran's car accident, to his desperate investment in City D, to the end of the river, and now, because he missed the board meeting that day, he lost the last straw.
Lying in the ward, He Cheng always wondered why it happened like this.
How could his life, which was originally good, come to this point all of a sudden.
After much deliberation, the only reason is Xu Ran.
He should hate Xu Ran, hate him for disrupting his pace, hate him for letting himself be ridiculed by his parents, so that he took a risk and fell badly in the end.
He knew it, but he couldn't hate it.
Everything is gone. After he was discharged from the hospital, he could only go home and be a complete loser. He would endure the sneering words from his parents for a lifetime, so he didn't have the energy to hate someone.
He just wanted to talk to Xu Ran. After so many years, Xu Ran was the only one by his side, and Xu Ran should understand him.
Even if Xu Ran said, I'm sorry, I can't help you.
Being stared at by him, Xu Ran felt a little uncomfortable, stepped back a little, and asked, "You don't have any friends here, what do you need? I..."
He paused and said, "I can help you book private services online."
In other words, I will not come to serve you.
He Cheng looked at him for a long time before asking, "Are you afraid of me?"
Even being alone and talking are so unnatural, are you really so afraid of me
I am so afraid that I would rather die than fall into the arms of another man.
Xu Ran fell silent, and after a while, said, "I used to be afraid, but now I'm not afraid anymore."
"why?"
This is really a long story. Xu Ran thought for a long time, until Lin Shen who was waiting outside became a little anxious, and then said, "Maybe, it's because you were too ruthless before, and I was too affectionate."
"When I was in love with you, I was always afraid that you would hate me. Now," Xu Ran smiled, "It doesn't matter whether you hate me or not. Anyway, you and I don't care anymore."
When he smiled, it was easy, as if the whole world was rising with the corners of his mouth. He Cheng looked at him for a while, and suddenly felt sour in his eyes.
He hurriedly looked away and covered his forehead with his hand, preventing Xu Ran from seeing his red eyes.
"What's wrong?" Xu Ran was a little worried, "Is it uncomfortable?"
"It's fine." He Cheng whispered, "I'm fine."
He's still alive, he's still able to walk around, and he'll be healed after the surgery and paying for rehab. It's really, really low that he's going to make a man in a wheelchair care about his well-being now.
Xu Ran nodded blankly and said, "Well, I'm leaving."
Lin Shen was still waiting outside.
He Cheng suddenly raised his head, with a strange expression, neither fierce nor sad.
"Is he nice to you?" He Cheng asked. How do I treat you
Strange, he thought again, how did I treat this person well before
Give money, get a bed once in a while... and then what
Xu Ran hesitated for a moment, then said softly, "It's pretty good."
"Then...then..."
He Cheng didn't know how he felt. Let go of the heart, or completely lost the last thing that could be grasped.
Xu Ran wasn't sure what was wrong with him, there seemed to be something wrong, but he couldn't tell exactly what was going on. It seems that I was in a previous state, muddleheaded, unable to find a purpose in life.
But it's impossible, this person is He Cheng.
The most impossible thing for He Cheng is to lose something, he can always hold everything in his hands, only the things he doesn't want will be lost.
He lost him, and now, he has no ability to care about He Cheng's life.
He said softly to take care, and turned around to leave, when suddenly He Cheng called him and said, "Can you..."
Xu Ran turned around, saw He Cheng's blank expression, and stretched out his hand to him.
Xu Ran looked at the palm for a long time, then shook his head.
"No." He smiled wryly, "This is not something I can do."
From the very beginning, I couldn't be your reliance.
He Cheng's face darkened.
Xu Ran sighed softly, "He Cheng, are you too tired?"
Are you too tired
Andy's voice suddenly appeared in his mind, making his head explode.
No, I'm not tired. He Cheng closed his eyes and thought in pain, I can't fall down.
"Don't be like this." Xu Ran said softly, "You always set too high goals for yourself, and you feel that you can win everything, but you are not. No one's life is easy, you are just living a smooth life. There was a small somersault on the road, you don’t need me to pull you up, you will get over it by yourself.”
can you? He asked with his eyes.
Xu Ran smiled, "You are He Cheng."
The man I've loved all my life, who is tall, tough, and uncompromising.
When leaving, He Cheng asked, "Can I still go see you?"
Xu Ran hesitated for a moment, "It's best not to. We shouldn't be involved with each other in our future lives."
The two lines that were once distorted by young and ignorant love finally returned to the original point after being torn apart.
After leaving the ward, Lin Shen greeted him, "What did he tell you?"
"It's nothing, it's just a small matter." Xu Ran said lightly, "He has no friends here, and he might be a little confused when such a big thing happened."
"Him?" Lin Shen sneered, "I've seen a lot of people like him, and now he hasn't recovered, and when he recovers, he'll be the same again. Don't expect him to make any progress."
Xu Ran came to Lin Shen to block his way, "Lin Shen, why do you hate him so much?"
Under his gaze, Lin Shen sighed, "I don't hate him, I just..."
He rubbed his neck, a little embarrassed, "Let's not talk about this in the hospital, go home first, my mother is so anxious."
Speechless all the way, Xu Ran fiddled with the corner of the cotton-padded coat. The air conditioner in the car was fully turned on, and it was a bit stuffy.
He Cheng's vicissitudes appeared in front of his eyes. He closed his eyes and shook his head vigorously.
Seeing his movements from the rearview mirror, Lin Shen hesitated for a while, but finally did not speak.
Lin Shen's mother took good care of them since they were young, and Lin's father passed away early, and Aunt Lin supported the whole family by herself.
After the meal, Lin Shen talked to his mother and brought Xu Ran into his room.
He sat down in front of Xu Ran, reached out to help Xu Ran straighten his collar, and said softly, "I just don't want you to get hurt again."
Xu Ran reacted for a while before realizing that this was the last word in the hospital, and couldn't help but smile, "Of course I won't get hurt again."
No matter how injured, it is nothing more than death.
"I've died once," he said, "and know how hard it is."
Lin Shen touched his face distressedly. Xu Ran's cheeks were cold, and although his body gradually recovered after returning home, there was still no excess flesh on his face, and he felt very thin to the touch.
Xu Ran was taken aback by his intimate behavior.
"I know you are strong," Lin Shen said softly, "but this does not conflict with my worry about you."
"Forest… "
Xu Ran opened his mouth, suddenly not knowing what to say.
He realizes that some situations are beyond his control, but what should he say? The tenderness in Lin Shen's eyes almost overflowed, which made him flustered.
"Why do I worry about you, don't you know?"
The gentle and deep voice lingered in his ears like a spell.
Xu Ran couldn't look at Lin Shen's face, he wanted to escape inexplicably, out of the room full of Lin Shen's smell.
"Don't hide from me, okay?"
Lin Shen could naturally see his panic, and retracted his hand distressedly, with some imperceptible grievances in his voice, "If you don't like it, I won't say it."
"I… "
It's not that I don't like what I almost blurted out, but Xu Ran swallowed it back.
In this world, there are not only two options of liking and disliking, but if you don't want to delay the other person's life, don't give people hope easily.
This is what Xu Ran learned from He Cheng.
"I'm sorry." In the end, that was all he could say.
Lin Shen smiled and patted his head, "I know, you haven't adjusted well yet, so I shouldn't force you."
He got up, took a bag from the foot of the bed, and handed it to Xu Ran, "A present for you."
In the pocket is a doll of Mameshiba, sticking out its tongue foolishly, the same style as the wolf dog caught in the claw machine that day.
"I passed by before and saw it was fun, so I caught another one." Lin Shen touched the Shiba Inu's soft belly and said, "So they are a couple."
"This, I can't have it."
Xu Ran hurriedly wanted to push the doll back to him, but Lin Shen put on a straight face and said solemnly, "If I give it to you, I will give it to you. There is no reason to return it?"
"But I..."
"Okay. You take it." Lin Shen said, "I originally wanted to catch it for you."
Xu Ran looked up at him. Those clean eyes were full of happy light, as if the rejection just now had never happened.
He could only silently accept the doll.
"That's right." Lin Shen said with a smile.
He pushed Xu Ran out, and Aunt Lin prepared fruit for the two of them. He pushed Xu Ran to the dining table, pricked a piece of mango with a toothpick and handed it over.
"What I want to give you doesn't conflict with what you want." Lin Shen whispered in his ear, "But Xu Ran, you have to remember that once some things are given away, I don't ask you to return them." plan to come back."
Such as liking, such as sincerity.
The author has something to say: Thank you Jiang for the lovely mine
Going out to study tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, I can only update the chapter at 9 o'clock in the evening, please forgive me