Xiao Hei recovered quickly, and before the third physical examination, he was able to pick the Elizabeth ring and cause trouble everywhere.
Xu Ran hid its snacks in the cabinet, and said helplessly, "You haven't recovered yet, so don't eat too many snacks, be good."
Xiao Hei murmured twice in dissatisfaction, then turned his head and was quickly attracted by the smell of canned food in the food bowl.
Watching it gobble it up, Xu Ran had a gentle smile in his eyes, but it was fleeting.
He was literally terrified that night, he couldn't turn his head, he could almost hear the gears rattling in his brain. Although he reluctantly sent Xiao Hei to the pet hospital immediately, Xu Ran was still terrified. He always felt that if the hospital got off work later, or he didn't react, then Xiao Hei would have already...
He shook his head, not allowing himself to continue thinking.
It is a terrible thing for a person to think wildly. He couldn't help replaying everything that happened that day in his mind, reliving the feeling of the moment of cardiac arrest over and over again, and the coolness that quickly climbed up the spine stimulated him repeatedly. nerve.
He is not a person who likes to abuse himself, but when he thinks that Xiao Hei may be injured or even lose his life because of his mistake, he has to use this way to warn himself not to make the same mistake again.
Maybe I like to dig into a dead end. Xu Ran sighed softly, stroking Xiao Hei's little head, his habit is hard to change.
After that day, He Cheng asked about Xiao Hei's situation in a text message. No matter how unpleasant the two of them had been in the past, He Cheng was really kind to Xiao Hei, Xu Ran didn't want to hide it from him, and told the truth about the situation.
Soon, He Cheng came back: Don't think about it yourself, it's not your fault, you don't need to blame yourself.
Xu Ran always feels that He Cheng can see through his own thoughts, which is simply two extremes compared to three years ago. In the past, He Cheng regarded all his emotions as nothing, but now he can clearly understand what he is thinking with just one movement and one look.
This made Xu Ran very confused and a little scared. He always felt that He Cheng's change would affect something, and he couldn't figure out why one person could produce such a huge change in three years. But he couldn't ask He Cheng himself, that guy's enthusiasm for pushing his nose and face didn't change at all, Xu Ran didn't want to make trouble for himself at this time.
In order to take care of Xiao Hei, Xu Ran opened the store a few days later than expected. He didn't tell anyone, and lived a boring life leisurely. If you want to move around, take Xiao Hei to the store, anyway, there are not many customers, so it doesn't matter what time you come.
On the other hand, when the noodle shop uncle saw him, he almost wept with joy and said, "Xiao Xu, are you back?"
Xu Ran looked funny, "What's wrong with you, it's not like I won't be back."
The uncle patted his head, "It's okay, it's okay if you don't go, you just stay here. Come to me for noodles at noon, uncle's treat!"
The uncle wanted to treat guests because his daughter-in-law had given birth to a baby. He was so happy that he invited the whole street to dinner, but Xu Ran was the only one who was not there. He thought Xu Ran was kicked out by the school, but the store didn't look deserted, so he didn't dare to ask, so he lived in fear for several days.
Xu Ran felt a little embarrassed and comforted him for a while.
The uncle was emotional for a while, then suddenly asked in a low voice, "Well, Xiao Xu, you and Xiao He later..."
The boy from the noodle shop quietly came over to hear gossip, so he was beaten by the uncle.
Xu Ran held the shredded cucumber calmly and said, "That's it, nothing happened afterwards. What he said at that time was all true."
About their liking for men, about the relationship between two people.
The uncle let out a cry, and grinned, "It's nothing real or fake. Uncle doesn't say anything, as long as you two have a good time. Hey, I've been a rough man all my life, and I'm too straightforward in speaking and doing things. Don't forget to take it to heart. "
Xu Ran smiled at him, "You want to ask him where he went, to be honest, I don't know either."
He could see that the uncle was thinking about He Cheng. He Cheng is shrewd in his work, facing the veterans in the business world all day long, it is not a problem to win the favor of the noodle shop uncle.
The uncle sighed with some regret, "Before he said that my daughter-in-law would definitely come to eat noodles after giving birth, but now I don't know where she went."
"... Are you talking about this with him?" Xu Ran was a little surprised. He Cheng didn't like to chat about family affairs with others.
The uncle chuckled, "Xiao He is very interesting and knows a lot. When he comes, someone talks to me about it. That day my guy even said that since Xiao He didn't come, the store has become deserted."
He hesitated for a moment and asked, "Then after Xiaohe, will you really not come here again?"
Xu Ran put down his chopsticks and nodded.
"He will never go back on what he said." Xu Ran said, "He hasn't changed this since thirteen years ago."
"Thirteen years, so long?" The uncle was taken aback, "Then you have been well for thirteen years?"
As if thinking of something, Xu Ran suddenly smiled and denied, "No, we are not having a good time."
Strictly speaking, those ten years were not considered "together". It's just his painful unrequited love, a single arrow in bold and capitalized that is sealed in his memory.
Seeing that the uncle still wanted to ask something, Xu Ran smiled, "This is a very long story, I will tell you slowly when I have a chance in the future."
Now is not the time.
Uncle Noodles for lunch didn't ask for money, so Xu Ran picked out a few popsicles and sent them over as a courtesy. The sophistication of people in the shopping street is like this. In many cases, you come and go, and you don't need to use money to measure it.
Life on the street without students passed very slowly. Xu Ran sat at the door, and occasionally he could hear someone talking in the distance, word by word floating into his ears intermittently. Xiao Hei on the knee yawned and kept grabbing Xu Ran's hand to touch it.
Since the accident, it has behaved a lot, and it no longer runs out casually, and spends most of the time by Xu Ran's side, like a clingy little man.
The doctor said it was because it was scared. Cats can't speak, so they can only express their fear and grievance in such a shameless way.
Xu Ran gently fiddled with Xiao Hei's ears, there were a few light white hairs on the tip of the big soft ears, Xu Ran thought it was interesting, so he fiddled with it a few more times, but Xiao Hei avoided him in disgust.
"Look at you, it's really troublesome to be allowed to be touched for a while and not allowed to be touched for a while." Xu Ran laughed at it.
Xiao Hei doesn't care about that. It just wants to be happy for itself, and it will forget after a while when it gets angry, and it will stick to it again, snoring and coquettish.
Xu Ran has nothing to do with it. Xiao Hei reminded him of He Cheng, who realized how important it was to live only after something happened. Xu Ran wanted to preach a few words, but he didn't know how to speak when the words came to his lips.
Some things, people and cats are not the same. He couldn't bear to complain about Xiao Hei, so he could only joke a few words, which were full of distress. But for He Cheng, he couldn't just laugh it off.
Both of them had been injured, more or less, sooner or later. Xu Ran didn't know where He Cheng came to his senses, he even doubted the authenticity of the current He Cheng. It wasn't that he wanted revenge, but that he couldn't believe that a person who was so ruthless in the past would turn into the kind man he is now.
What He Cheng is doing now is called redemption, but in fact, how could Xu Ran not know what he wants.
Wanting him to go back, He Cheng didn't dare to say this sentence, and couldn't say it.
After Xiao Hei's accident, the communication between the two of them became much more frequent. Although He Cheng was still talking to himself most of the time, but in view of his good performance, Xu Ran would occasionally send a recent photo of Xiao Hei at his request. A cat and two people can chat for a long time, and He Cheng has fully utilized his business talents to find topics.
It was only recently that Xu Ran realized that late at night can really mobilize people's innermost emotions. Sometimes I can't sleep, looking at the string of tireless words on the phone, Xu Ran will feel that this person is quite pitiful. I didn't understand love in the past, but now I understand it, but I am entangled with a person who can no longer love him.
But this is He Cheng's choice, just like his past self, others cannot persuade him.
Parents were not at home, and the silent night reminded Xu Ran of many long-forgotten details. For example, the nights when I was alone in my vacant room, the festivals when I was sent pigeons, and those days when I was in a trance and stayed up all night.
Compared to the current loneliness, Xu Ran suddenly got tired of going around in circles.
He asked He Cheng: If someone else left you, would you become like this too
He waited patiently for an answer. After a long time, when he was about to fall asleep, He Cheng returned a call.
The phone rang for a while before Xu Ran picked it up.
On the other end was a man's deep and hoarse voice, which looked particularly seductive under the night.
"No." He said, "Only you can spend ten years digging a hole in my heart, and you are the only one who can fill it. No one else can replace it, and there is no way to replace it."
He asked back, "What about you, if at the age of eighteen, the person you fell in love with wasn't me..."
He didn't finish the question.
Xu Ran was silent. He wanted to answer "Then I should be living happily now", but couldn't say it. He knew he was trying to be brave.
The only man who can make him stumble after so many years is He Cheng, it cannot be someone else.
Even if they live a new life, as long as they can meet, Xu Ran knows that he will still fall in love with this man.
There is no reason, this is emotion and reality.
Hearing the voice makes it difficult to think, so Xu Ran hung up the phone and sent him a text message: Maybe we will just be entangled like this for the rest of our lives.
Until he compromises first, or He Cheng gives up first.
He Cheng came back quickly: It's okay, a lifetime is very long, you can think about it slowly. I'm waiting for you.
He said "I'll wait for you" so many times that Xu Ran almost believed it.
But he still chose not to continue to reply.
As if knowing what he was thinking, He Cheng sent another message: It's late, go to sleep. Good night, my little hedgehog.
Xu Ran didn't know how he looked like a hedgehog, he had nothing in common with that timid animal. But He Cheng still likes to say that, but when Xu Ran thinks of that silly hedgehog pillow next to He Cheng's bed, he always feels annoyed.
There are only a few ways to get to know He Cheng, so Xu Ran chose to ask his co-founder and partner directly.
Xu Ran's question was simple and straightforward: How did he become what he is now
Bai Jinming stretched his arms. He had to answer this question carefully, carefully choosing his words, so as not to embarrass his friends.
He flicked his fingers and typed on the screen: He is impotent, and he is a buddha.
…
Xu Ran couldn't laugh or cry: When did it happen
— In the year when you had an accident, he chased you to City D, and many accidents happened later. I went to the hospital for investigation and said it was due to mental stress.
—Then he still...
— I don’t know, you can ask yourself. Remember to be tactful, you know he has a good face.
After typing the last word, Bai Jinming took a sip of tea in satisfaction, picked up his mobile phone and called He Cheng.
"I told Xu Ran about you."
He Cheng who was dealing with work in the office was taken aback, "What's the matter?"
"Just what you are, um, you know."
He Cheng reacted for a while, then suddenly jumped up, "What did you say?!"
Bai Jinming ignored him and hung up the phone with a flick of his finger.
Heh, after listening to your regretful confessions for several years, now it's finally my turn to join you.
He turned his chair around and admired the scenery outside through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the high-rise office building, thinking so in a good mood.
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Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of Xiaoruofeng, 5 bottles of pretend°, and 3 bottles of Jiajia