When Xu Ran turned on his phone, several text messages popped up instantly.
They are all from He Chengfa. He found the first one, which said: Don't listen to Bai Jinming's nonsense, my situation is not that serious.
I went to the hospital to see that it was too much pressure, and I was a little tired in the entrepreneurial stage, but I will be fine in the future.
That's not why I came back to you, really.
…
Finally: When you see the message, give me a call back, I'll wait for you.
For some reason, Xu Ran wanted to laugh when he saw the helplessness and anxiety revealed in these few short sentences. He tried his best to straighten his face, and replied the text message: Xiao Hei knocked over the teacup, the phone was flooded, and he just turned it on.
Soon He Cheng called back. Xu Ran picked it up and heard him say eagerly, "That bastard Bai Jinming knows how to arrange me at random, don't trust him."
"...so you're really sick?"
Xu Ran didn't know what kind of expression he should put on his clothes. It is really unexpected that He Cheng would get this kind of disease.
He Cheng didn't speak, Xu Ran could hear his heavy breathing coming through the microphone, it seemed that he was really in a hurry.
He paused, and said solemnly, "That's not a serious illness. For modern medical treatment, male | dysfunction is very easy..."
"Wait!" He Cheng almost rushed over to cover his mouth following the signal, and said helplessly, "Forget what Bai Jinming said, okay? I'm really fine."
Your reaction doesn't look like it's okay. Xu Ran said silently in his heart.
The two of them were actually talking about He Cheng's function, which seemed weird no matter how you looked at it. Xu Ran wouldn't make fun of him with this kind of thing, he just felt surprised, as if an event with zero probability happened so clearly, anyone would find it novel.
Knowing how strong He Cheng's self-esteem is, Xu Ran restrained his smile, and wanted to seriously comfort him, but unexpectedly, He Cheng sighed suddenly, "Forget it, just laugh, this is also true."
Xu Ran thought he was angry, hesitated for a moment, and apologized in a low voice.
A deep smile came from next to my ear, "It's okay, it's my own problem. If Bai Jinming didn't trick me, I planned to find time to talk to you."
"At that time... did you have a hard time?"
Xu Ran didn't know what happened around He Cheng that year, he only vaguely heard Bai Jinming mention it, and based on what he saw at the time, he roughly guessed who He Cheng had messed with.
He wasn't sure whether he should ask, it involved He Cheng's privacy, and the two of them were not close enough to tell each other. But in any case, what happened in City D back then had He Cheng's own reasons, and it must have something to do with his attitude at that time.
He couldn't imagine what kind of mood He Cheng used to face those things at that time. The once proud man fell to the bottom and then stood up again. In the past three years, he has experienced ups and downs that ordinary people can't imagine.
This is a life that Xu Ran has never participated in, and it belongs to He Cheng completely, his own life.
There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, and He Cheng came to the window. He was used to looking at the distant scenery when recalling the past.
"It was hard work," he said, "but it wasn't that hard."
"I used to think that I was so powerful that I could do anything. I never imagined that I would be defeated so easily. There are many things in this world that don't make sense. If I didn't go to the bar to drink, feel depressed, and accept chatting, everything Naturally it will be different.”
He sat down and told the story of Andy from the beginning.
"The driving force behind him is Mai Xing, but Mai Xing can't control his behavior. The family knows that I was beaten, and my father's method will definitely not make it easier for the Mai family, but, how to say, it was also that time, we I feel like I was woken up. No matter how I fix it afterwards, I can’t erase the fact that I was beaten. It’s like making a mistake, and no matter how I make up for it, I can’t go back to the past. At that time, I was sitting in the hospital and I thought of you.”
He smiled slightly, "It's ridiculous. This kind of awakening actually happened after experiencing the pain, as if I even made the atonement for myself. I wanted to come to you two years ago, but then I thought about it. , Speaking of that disease, anyone will think that I have no choice but to turn back. I'm afraid it will hurt you even more."
"Then why now?" Xu Ran asked.
"Because I feel that since I have chosen to spend my whole life to compensate you, I have to take the first step." He Cheng said, "And only when I really get close to you can I realize why I turned back. Maybe it's because Self-blame, remorse and restlessness, for the sake of my conscience, but more because I realized that I can only have one lover in my life, and that person is you."
"I can't fall in love with others anymore. You occupy all my senses and emotions. In all the decisions I have made in the past three years, the first person that comes to mind is you. It's not that I have no choice, but, just Could be you."
"What about you?" He asked nervously, "Do you understand what I mean?"
Xu Ran sighed softly, "Ask me if I understand... He Cheng, do you still remember what I told you before? Why didn't you believe me when I said 'it can only be you'?"
He Cheng paused, "I... I was too ignorant at that time, really, I'm sorry."
Xu Ran sniffled, "This is not something that can be solved by being sorry, and you don't have to make up for my whole life. I understand what you mean, give me some time, I want to think alone."
He Cheng naturally agreed a hundred times. God knows how afraid he is that Xu Ran thinks that he is looking for him because he can't sleep with others. Since the misunderstanding is solved, everything is easy to talk about.
Turning around, he asked Bai Jinming to settle the score, and Bai Jinming said unhurriedly, "If you want to get along with him, he will have to know sooner or later. If I don't tell you, how long do you want to delay? You have to thank me, do you know?"
"Thank you bastard!" He Cheng was so angry that he wanted to curse, "Who said I was impotent? I cured it long ago!"
"Really?" Bai Jinming frowned, not believing it at all, "Then why do you keep seeing the doctor?"
"I...!" He Cheng gritted his teeth, "I just have feelings for a certain person..."
"... You can only be hard on him? Then you haven't seen each other in the past three years, and you just imagine yourself...?"
He Cheng closed his eyes and nodded.
Bai Jinming was shocked. He pinched the nib of the pen with his fingers and did not react even though his hand was stained with black ink.
He opened his mouth, "You are amazing."
Knowing that he had caused trouble, Bai Jinming hurriedly used the excuse of a meeting to hang up the phone, leaving He Cheng alone, his teeth itching with anger, and he could only swallow what he had to say.
Forget it, there is a saying that Bai Jinming said is right, if you want to go on with the two of you, you will have to know these things sooner or later. He Cheng didn't want to hide it from him. Together with myself from the past to the present, I don't want to hide all the good and bad emotions from him.
There will be no more deceit and violence, He Cheng heartily handed the little blood on the tip of his heart to Xu Ran, wanting him to see if he has changed.
Xu Ran said that he wanted to think alone, so he didn't dare to call again, and the frequency of sending text messages also decreased. While he was busy with the company's work, he waited for a response.
He had a hunch that Xu Ran's answer this time would completely affect the future.
He Cheng waited day after day in fear, but Xu Ran did not reply for a long time.
It's not that he dragged it on purpose, it's just that he has obviously felt some discomfort in his legs recently, and he can't say exactly what it feels like. I went to the hospital for an examination, and it was said that the injured spinal nerves had recovered a lot compared to the last examination, which may be a sign of standing up.
The doctor said it tactfully, and Xu Ran also knew that the truth couldn't be so optimistic. He has been paralyzed for three years, and the muscles of his legs have begun to atrophy, showing an unhealthy state. Even if his nerves recover under such circumstances, there is still a long way to go before he can stand up again.
To be honest, he has long been prepared to be paralyzed for the rest of his life, but occasionally an inexplicable expectation arises from the depths of his heart, thinking that if God favors him and allows him to walk again, it would be great.
Holding the checklist, Xu Ran sat in the corridor of the hospital, staring blankly at the words on it.
The doctor's words echoed in my ears, "According to the current trend, it is possible for your nervous system to recover completely. If the results of the next examination are better than now, you can start preparing for recovery. But I want to remind you that recovery The training process will be very long, and there is no guarantee that they will be able to fully recover. Many patients cannot accept the frustration of repeated failures in the recovery process, and their emotions collapsed. It will be a tough battle, and it may be more difficult than surgery .”
He looked into Xu Ran's eyes, as if he wanted to see him through, "Do you have the confidence to persevere to the end?"
Xu Ran didn't answer.
Are you confident? He doesn't know either.
The doctor was right that it was going to be a tough fight, probably worse than all the pain I had suffered in the past. He may not be able to survive alone, or he may be able to survive, who knows.
For a moment, he even hoped that his body would not recover so well, but then he reacted and smiled wryly at himself.
What are you running from? Wouldn't it be nice to be able to stand up? ,
He rocked the wheelchair and walked slowly in the corridor of the hospital, thinking, there are better options right in front of him, why would he hesitate? He should be happy. If he can stand up, he can completely get rid of the haze of the past.
Unless you still want to continue to entangle with memories.
coward. He scolded himself like that.
Apart from telling his parents and Xiao Hei about the inspection, Xu Ran sent He Cheng a short message without much thought. The content is written very concisely, only saying that there is a possibility of recovery.
Will he be happy? Xu Ran thought uncertainly, He Cheng's handsome and hearty smile appeared in front of his eyes, and the corners of his lips curled up unconsciously.
He Cheng quickly called back, "Are you serious? The doctor really said it can be cured?"
"It's just possible." Xu Ran said with a straight face, "Not so sure."
He Cheng didn't speak for a long time, and when he spoke again, there was unconcealable excitement in his voice, "Really? That's great!"
“…I’ve heard that recovery is hard.”
"Are you afraid?"
He Cheng restrained his smile, and said softly, "I know it might not be my turn to say this, but Xu Ran, we have to try. This is related to your whole life."
"What if you can't recover after doing rehabilitation?"
Not without such precedent.
He Cheng said almost without hesitation, "I will support you."
Xu Ran snorted and laughed.
He Chengcai felt relieved when he heard him laugh, "When is the next inspection?"
"In two weeks."
"That's just right, I'm going to go home recently, and I'm scheduled to come back in two weeks, and I'll go with you when the time comes." He Cheng said, "No matter what the result is, I will stay with you."
Xu Ran asked casually, "Go home?"
He Cheng hesitated for a moment, but still said, "Well, go back and see my dad. He's sick."
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