After two busy days in New York, Guan Ti finally had time to ask Zhan Nanxian, "Why did you end up together with Yi Xin? To avenge Wen Nuan?"
Zhan Nanxian curled his lips lightly, "Yes. WWw、QUaNbEn-xIAoShUO、cOm"
That period... Whenever I think back on it, I feel scared.
The whole person fell into a desperate and crazy state, feeling extremely depressed and resentful. His self-esteem and self-confidence suffered a devastating blow. The outlook on life and ideas he had held for the past eighteen years completely fell apart and shattered like dust, unable to gather again in the long darkness. The soul, which had been separated from the emaciated body, was trapped in an abyss of endless pain.
There were many times when he wanted to die but couldn't.
"I suffered a lot during that time and almost went crazy."
"I remember not seeing you for a whole week, and I thought you were sick or something happened."
"I stayed at home, locking myself in my room every day... I knew I couldn't let go, but I didn't dare to look for her again. The remaining self-esteem and pride wouldn't allow me to do so. At the same time, I didn't have the confidence that I could withstand another rejection. I would definitely go crazy if I did that."
However, the heart-wrenching longing was so strong that he could not control it. He often ran to her house late at night, found a dark corner, and stared at the window of her room all night long.
Sometimes the window was completely pitch black, as dark as his heart which was completely devoid of light. Sometimes, there would be a faint light in the window lattice until two or three o'clock, as if the owner could not fall asleep. At that time, his heart would toss and turn, with unbearable pain, as he imagined whether she was missing him as much as he was.
It was like this every day. He would stay in the room during the day and not eat. He would go out to guard all night and then go home to sleep in the early hours of the morning.
When he was deeply hurt, frustrated and helpless, he could never have imagined that Bo Yixin would be by his side and could not be driven away.
Somehow, out of desperation, he accepted her.
"It was not easy for her to be with me despite all the rumors, because she was Wen Nuan's desk mate, and their classmates all knew that Wen Nuan and I were a couple, but we broke up for no apparent reason, and I got back together with her for no apparent reason."
It was not until then that Wen Nuan realized that all the actions of her deskmate, whom she had always trusted, were premeditated. Although their breakup had nothing to do with Bo Yixin, the relationship between her and Bo Yixin had ended irreversibly.
People who didn't know the inside story thought that Bo Yixin had stolen Wen Nuan's boyfriend. Since Wen Nuan had countless fans at school, she was completely isolated. Every day when she stepped into the classroom, she had to face all kinds of bad words and sarcasm, and she was often bullied.
"I feel very guilty towards Yixin. After all, all the grievances she suffered were caused by me. Later, I severely punished all those who teased her." A hint of bitterness quietly emerged on Zhan Nanxian's lips. "In their classroom, I warned Wen Nuan not to do things too drastically... She stood up from her seat on the spot and publicly said that she was the one who fell in love with someone else first, and everything had nothing to do with Yixin."
Guan Ti shook his head sympathetically. How could Zhan Nanxian feel when he heard this