Lao Tian cried for a long time - it can be said that when a man, a man like Lao Tian, cries bitterly, wailing like a wounded beast, it is really sad to the extreme.
The sky had darkened, and Lao Tian had been kneeling there for more than two hours. His tears fell to the ground and soon melted into the soil. His fingers were dug deeply into the soil, and his fingertips were clenched tightly. The handful of soil and several stones that were originally held in his hand were now crushed into pieces in his palm.
When the wailing gradually subsided, Lao Tian finally raised his head and gently wiped his tears. He didn't seem to care about the dirt smearing on his face. He just stood up and reached out to touch the wall of the small room again. His movements were very slow and meticulous, and even gave people the illusion that what he was touching at this moment was not a dilapidated brick wall, but a delicate brick wall. Caress your lover carefully.
Finally, with a faint sigh, Lao Tian did not look back, but whispered: "You... have seen it all?"
There seemed to be no one around, but following Lao Tian's words, a figure appeared from behind a big tree in the distance, it was Phoenix.
"...I've seen it all." Phoenix's voice was a little cold.
"How long have you been here?" Lao Tian looked down at his hands and the black mud between his fingers.
"It won't be too long." Phoenix took a few steps forward and leaned against the big tree, staring at Lao Tian quietly: "Just when you shed your first tear."
Lao Tian seemed to smile, but his smile was covered with tears and had a sad taste: "You... must think it's funny... I cried so miserably just now."
After a pause, he finally turned around and looked straight into Phoenix's eyes. His tone became a little strange and difficult to understand: "Actually... I know that you must hate me in your heart."
A smile appeared on the corner of Phoenix's mouth, but there was a bit of mockery in this smile: "Why do you say that?"
"Because... it has always been like this." Lao Tian shook his head. He raised his head and looked at the sky in the gaps between the leaves above his head: "It has always been like this! Back then, after Mingyue died, I took her daughter Xiao Nianyue with me. That was it. She later He hated me very much, and then, Nian Yue died, and I took Nian Yue’s children with me, and Nian Yue’s children also hated me... "
His fingers clenched again: "I know, although I hate that guy and hate him for hurting Mingyue back then... But in fact, in the end, I was the one who killed Mingyue. If I had promised Mingyue back then, promised to be with Mingyue, When she is together, she will regain her life. But after I rejected her, she really lost all hope, and then... she withered and died."
"I've heard a lot of your stories." Phoenix shook his head: "That's why I never understood... why you rejected her back then. Aren't you supposed to love her very much?"
Lao Tian was silent. He did not answer this question. This was a secret in his heart.
Phoenix looked at Lao Tian, and after a while, she shook her head: "Uncle Tian, I don't hate you. After all, although I am a descendant of Mingyue, I don't know her and have never seen her. So, I don't hate you... But, I must admit, I have always looked down on you. Because of your cowardice. When happiness fell in front of you, you actually gave up. I have never understood this. You I once loved her so much, stayed by her side, and accompanied her through the most painful years, but when she really accepted you, you backed down. This makes me despise you. Maybe. You have a special reason, but I think you should fight for it instead of giving up right away."
Lao Tian didn't speak, he was smiling bitterly.
Fight for? try
Yes, it seems that all sufferings can be overcome. Even if the person Mingyue fell in love with back then was not me, but him... I would still be willing to wait with a glimmer of hope.
But... can blood relationship be changed
Unless, unless this person has never existed! Unless time is turned back! unless…
Unless I don’t have such a damn long life! ! !
Me, why do I have to live so long! Why! !
But Lao Tian would not tell Phoenix this.
He chose to avoid it and just smiled slightly, hiding the bitterness in his heart with a smile.
"If you despise it, just despise it. Even I despise myself." Lao Tian shook his head and looked around: "Here, this forest was cut down by Mingyue and I together. There used to be a wooden house here, which we also worked on together. I lived here for a few months and stayed with her. Sometimes, do you know what my biggest trouble is now? "
"What?" Phoenix asked.
"It's time." Lao Tian's tone was a little unclear, and his eyes were a little distracted. He was slightly lost in thought, and said softly: "Time can erase all traces. But I am alive! After passing After so many years, I am still alive. I miss her like crazy. Whenever I miss her, I can't help but want to look for some traces we left together. Yes... there should be many of these traces a lot of…
Back then, I accompanied her around to relax. We watched the rain by the West Lake in Hangzhou, sat on the Lei Feng Tower and drank. I accompanied her to the desert, the grassland, outside the customs, the south, Japan, and many, many places. place. In these places, we have left traces and memories.
However, too much time has passed.
Most of the traces we left behind back then no longer exist. Trees were cut down, hillsides were flattened, buildings were demolished... Even the West Lake is no longer what it was back then.
Sometimes I think that in a few decades, I may still be alive. At that time, when I miss her, I am afraid that I will never find anyone who can remind me of the time I spent with her. place.
For example, right now, here, in this place. This house was originally supposed to be a wooden house, which we built with our own hands back then.
But many years later, the house was demolished and rebuilt. The current brick house was built by later generations. It is no longer the wooden house that belonged to me and Mingyue.
I am now finding more and more a place where we have left traces. Most of those places no longer exist.
There is a saying: With time, everything will pass. "
Having said this, Lao Tian glanced at Phoenix. At this moment, his face still looked like a middle-aged man, but his expression showed age: "Do you believe this?"
Phoenix was stunned for a moment, then shook his head: "I don't know."
"I don't believe it." Lao Tian quickly came to a conclusion, and then he smiled again, and his smile became even more astringent.
"In this world, some things will pass... and some things will never go away!"
After hearing this, Fenghuang's body suddenly trembled and he looked at Lao Tian with complicated eyes.
Lao Tian walked over slowly and walked in front of Fenghuang. He looked at Fenghuang's young and beautiful face, and then smiled, with a kind smile.
He stretched out his hand, pinched Phoenix's nose, and then gently scraped her delicate face: "You, and all the descendants of Mingyue, are as if they are my children. Little Phoenix, in fact, I have always been I'm caring about you.
I know, in fact, you secretly come to the Xiao family every year to see the Xiao family town, to see the family of your ancestors.
Every time when the Xiao family held an ancestral hall or a sect meeting, you got the news. No matter what you were doing, you would find a way to throw it away, then run back, hide in the dark, and secretly watch the Xiao family.
I feel sorry for you. Because... I only sent Xiao Qing back, but not you... Please forgive me, this is not my decision, but your mother's. Therefore, Xiao Qing can return to her 'home', but you don't have a 'home'. "
Phoenix's expression changed. On her beautiful face, her cheeks twitched. There was a hint of gloom in her eyes, but then she smiled: "So what?"
She tried her best to smile, but her smile was very forced: "These are all fate's arrangements! They are destined! The fireworks told me!"
"Fuck fate, fuck destiny!"
Lao Tian suddenly cursed, and his expression became very annoyed.
Phoenix suddenly changed his color and stared at Lao Tian in surprise: "What did you say!"
"I said fuck fate!" Lao Tian shouted: "We always think that fate is destined! That's because we believe it! But if we don't believe it, we don't have to worry about so much! Live your life well, Fuck everything else!”
Lao Tian laughed wildly a few times, laughing so hard that he shed tears again: "Unfortunately, I have only begun to understand this truth recently. If I had understood these truths decades earlier... maybe everything would be different! Even if Mingyue and I will still be separated in the end , but at least, I can enjoy some quality time with her. Listen to my words, Phoenix."
Lao Tian's hand fell on Phoenix's head and gently stroked her hair: "When you think something is impossible, it's because you have already admitted defeat in your heart, and you have first decided that it is impossible. It's possible. But if you don't have this determination in your heart, then... everything is possible!"
Amidst the laughter, Lao Tian drifted away and walked more than ten meters away. He suddenly stopped, turned around and said, "Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. Maybe you don't know, the news hasn't spread yet. … Fireworks, the guy who kept telling us that our fate is doomed, she died. She died on what she thought was the so-called 'destined fate'! Because she believed in fate, she died."
…
When Lao Tian returned to the inn, Shi Gaofei finally turned off the TV and got out of bed. The TV had been dismantled into a pile of parts. On the table was a small detector that had begun to take shape.
Fatty stood aside and followed Shi Gaofei's instructions to assemble the small parts one by one.
When he saw Lao Tian come back, the fat man was a little surprised when he saw the black dirt stains on Lao Tian's face and the tears in the corners of his eyes. He wanted to ask something, but Lao Tian had already quickly walked into the bathroom.
"Shhh."
Shi Gaofei grabbed the fat man's arm and stopped his intention to speak.
"Don't ask, and don't provoke him." Shi Gaofei lowered his voice and smiled: "Little fat man, you are still young, you don't understand. When a man sheds tears, it is usually when he is at his lowest mood. At this time, like a wounded beast, it’s best not to provoke him!”
After taking a look at the fat man who was still a little confused, Shi Gaofei patted him on the shoulder and said, "Let's go get something to eat. The man named Tian has been out for a long time and must not have eaten anything."
The fat man walked out in a daze, and when Lao Tian came out of the bathroom, the black mud and tears on his face had been washed away. He saw that only Shi Gaofei was left in the room, and Lao Tian came over. Sitting opposite Shi Gaofei.
"Just right. There are only two of us now, and I have something to say to you."
Lao Tian's expression gradually became fierce, and he stared into Shi Gaofei's eyes. There was even a hint of murderous intent in his eyes at this moment!
"I don't know how you found out about that matter! I don't know how you learned about my secret." Lao Tian's tone was cold: "But I hope you'd better keep this secret! You'd better take care of it. Your mouth! I don’t want this matter to leak out of your mouth. Otherwise... We have known each other for a long time, and I never like to kill the acquaintances I know! Because I have lived too long and have known each other in this world. We don’t have many old acquaintances left—so don’t make me do anything I don’t want to do, got it?”
Shi Gaofei looked directly into Lao Tian's eyes. Although he was shrouded in a strong murderous aura, the old madman did not have the slightest fear. He even smiled, very easily. But he still stood up, nodded, and said with a smile: "Okay, as you wish, General Tian."
"...Thank you." Lao Tian said lightly.
Then, Lao Tian suddenly frowned and turned his head to listen to the noise outside.
After a while, I heard messy footsteps coming from outside, and the door was pushed open. The fat man walked in front with a strange expression, and following the fat man in, were Zhu Rong Gonggong and his wife, and Xu Ershao, Baicai, Yaya, and that old madman Prince.
"Why are you here too?" Lao Tian frowned and stood up.
"Do you still need to ask?" Shi Gaofei leaned there and stretched: "This question can be figured out by thinking about it with your buttocks. Although we didn't inform them, our little fat guy has a secret crush on that person. Of course the little blue-blooded girl secretly tipped off the news. Alas... "
Zhu Rong and Gonggong gave Lao Tian a warm hug when they came in. Lao Tian looked a little helpless, but Zhu Rong had already carelessly gone to bed, while several young juniors stood aside with some restraint.
"Except for Champagne and Lin San who stayed in Shanghai and were responsible for taking care of the peacock who wanted to commit suicide... everyone came." Zhu Rong laughed.