After a while, small snow particles that seemed to be floating began to float again.
Under the dim light, the night is endless, and the fragrance of wintersweet spreads faintly in the cold air.
The bench they sat on was surrounded by a few trees, and an off-road vehicle was parked in front of it. The location was very hidden, and occasionally people who came and went could not see inside.
Xie Ci sat next to her, eyes slightly lowered, looking at the spoon against his lips.
After a while, he opened his mouth obediently.
The dumplings were not hot, just warm, the same temperature as her body.
Xu You fed him and didn't speak. Seeing his cheeks puff up, he chewed one dumpling and swallowed it, then put the next dumpling to his lips.
Later, the bottom of the lunch box was empty, and there was nothing left to eat. Xu You changed her sitting position, lowered her head to put the spoon away, and picked up one side of the lid to cover the lunch box.
"Are you full?" she asked.
"full."
"oh... .."
Xie Ci's eyes were pitch black, and a sporadic layer of hoarfrost was sprinkled on his thin coat, which was unmelted snow.
Then it was quiet again.
After a while of silence, she turned her face, glanced at him and said, "Are you angry with me?"
Xie Ci didn't know if he was deliberately avoiding her gaze.
This awkward feeling is actually hard to explain clearly. After thinking about it, the two of them seemed to have no conflicts that could be said, and there was no reason, but they knew that there was something separated, and the boredom was fermenting in the bottom of their hearts, but they didn't know where to start.
Just dragging and torturing each other.
On a windy and light snowy night, the cold wind is howling, and the bones of the people on the frozen ground ache.
"No."
He unconsciously turned the lighter with his right hand, responded perfunctorily, lowered his head and took out a cigarette, ready to light it.
I don't know why, but when I saw Xie Ci's indifferent appearance, Xu You felt powerless irritability in his heart for a moment, and he didn't know what to do. She doesn't like to lose her temper with others, and she can't say anything serious.
She didn't understand why Xie Ci suddenly behaved like this. She guessed that maybe he was tired of this relationship with her...
Xu You was in a mess... thinking of what Song Yifan said. Then another word came to mind.
Love the new and dislike the old
perhaps... ..
Sit quietly on the bench for a few seconds, then get up. After walking a few steps, Xu You stopped, turned her back to him and said, "Then go home early." Then she walked forward without looking back.
The pace is light and slow. The sky was dark in the distance, and the snowflakes fell over the lamp tip little by little.
The lighter was thrown onto the bench, rolled down twice, and hit the dirt on the ground with a muffled sound.
Xie Ci embraced her from behind, wrapping his arms around her.
Xu You was startled, struggled for a while, and then hugged him tighter.
She blinked, the scene in front of her eyes was a little blurry.
"Don't go."
As soon as Xie Ci spoke, his voice was hoarse like a piece of sandpaper.
Xu You breathed softly, and the tense strings in her heart loosened a little. Belonging to a teenager, the clean and thin body is tightly pressed together.
Unknowingly, his and her fingers seamlessly gripped each other, sticking together.
"I'm sorry." Xie Ci apologized.
I don't know why, but I just saw her back gradually walking away. For the first time, he actually felt a sense of panic. The unspeakable unwillingness, grievance and anger in his heart all disappeared, leaving only his heart as if it was tightly clenched.
Anyway, there was only one thought left in my mind, and she couldn't be allowed to leave like this.
Xu You felt a pain in her heart, she turned her head and looked into his eyes, "You didn't apologize to me, I just want to know what's wrong with you."
Xie Ci was about to open his mouth to answer.
The phone in his pocket rang. Xu You interrupted him, hurriedly freed one hand, and took out her mobile phone: "Hello?"
"Ah Kai, why haven't you come back yet?"
In the middle of the night, Chen Xiuyun couldn't help but worry after watching her go down for a long time.
"Mother."
Xu You's hand was still being pulled, she felt guilty for a moment, and quickly said in dialect: "My classmate is alone, I will accompany 'her' for a walk, it is nearby, and I will be back later."
Chen Xiuyun disagreed, "It's so late, what are the two girls going shopping, it's too unsafe, you bring your classmate home."
"No." Xu You was also choked, paused, and then made up a reason: "'She' is in a bad mood, and she has something to tell me, mom, don't worry, I brought the keys and the phone Come on, I'll be back later."
"Where are you now?" Chen Xiuyun asked again.
"Near... the school..." Hearing the question, Xu You secretly had a headache.
She didn't dare to say that she was in the community, lest Chen Xiuyun directly ask her to go up or come down to find her.
"School?"
Xu You was anxious, walking back and forth in place, her hands were grabbed. She raised her eyes and glanced at Xie Ci, who was also looking at her.
"There are other students who just contacted... ."
After hesitating for a long time over there, he ordered: "Don't do it too late."
Xu You agreed, then remembered again, "Where's Dad? Is Auntie gone?"
Chen Xiuyun said: "I drank some wine just now, and now I am sleeping. Auntie just came home."
"Okay, I see. If you have anything to do, call me."
"By the way, there are boys among your classmates?"
Xu You pretended to be calm: "There are no boys, all girls."
Chen Xiuyun seemed to be relieved, and said 'hmm'.
After hanging up the phone, Xu You realized that there was Xie Ci by her side, and she was suddenly embarrassed. Then he realized that Xie Ci probably couldn't understand what she said, so he let out a sigh of relief.
The night was getting colder, but a thin layer of sweat appeared on her back.
"Do you want to come with me?" Xu You put away her phone and asked with her head raised.
----
The snow melted on the road and it was a little slippery.
Xu You left the thermos in the security room and left the community with Xie.
They were wandering on the side of the street pressing the road.
At this time, there were very few pedestrians on the road, only the street lamps were shining lonely.
She wanted to say something, but still didn't know how to speak properly.
I don't know how a person's emotions can be so capricious. Just now, he was obviously ignorant of answers, but now he held her hand and refused to let go.
Xu You was a little uncomfortable. When we were together before, he always talked a lot, but now he doesn't talk, and the two of them seem to have nothing to talk about.
Passing by a 24-hour convenience supermarket, he stopped.
Xu You looked up at him.
Xie Ci said: "I want to buy cigarettes."
"How old are you, why can't you leave your cigarettes?"
Xu You frowned, grabbed his arm and hurried forward a few steps, "Don't buy it."
He stared at her back and smiled silently.
After walking a short distance, Xu You didn't notice, she didn't know what Xie Ci was thinking at all, and continued to mutter, "My father also liked to smoke when he was young, but later he was in poor health, and my mother always told me to quit. Lost... ... "
"You don't care about me." Xie Ci said calmly, expressionless.
Xu You stopped talking and looked back at him. After a pause of two seconds, he realized that he was short of words.
"I think you're getting weirder now," she said.
Xie Ci lowered his gaze and looked at the hands of the two holding hands together, "What's so strange."
"What's the matter with you, can you tell me directly? I didn't ignore you, nor did I ignore you. I called you, but you didn't answer. I thought you had something to do, and then I didn't call."
After listening to her long speech, Xie Ci frowned, "When did you call me? You obviously took the initiative once today."
At this time, a tentative male voice behind him called tentatively: "Xu You?"
The two looked back at the same time.
After confirming that it was Xu You, Shen Yang smiled and waved to her, "It's really you, what a coincidence, why are you here?"
As he got closer, he realized that there was still a boy standing beside Xu You. Shen Yang was stunned, and his eyes turned around on Xie Ci's face.
this is not... ...
Xu You didn't recognize his face, and had no impression of the person in front of him. Searching carefully in my mind, I barely remembered that he seemed to be a classmate in the new class. Out of politeness, she smiled at him and asked casually, "Why are you outside?"
"Just went shopping."
Shen Yang turned his eyes to the side and asked hesitantly, "This is your brother?"
"Huh?" Xu You was stunned.
Xie Ci was tall, and stood on the steps, looking down at Shen Yang, his eyes became more and more indifferent. He stretched out his hand, put his arm around Xu You's shoulder, and asked with a half-smile, "Who are you?"
Xu You looked at Xie Ci, feeling that something was wrong with him, but she didn't think much about it.
Shen Yang, who was standing not far away, no matter how unresponsive he was, at this moment he understood that the relationship between the two was unusual. He smiled and said to Xu You: "Then I'll go first, see you back at school."
Seeing Shen Yang walking away, Xu You cleared her throat, turned her head and explained to Xie Ci, "He is my classmate...he just got into class..."
"—I know." He turned his face away and interrupted her calmly.
Xu You felt that he was back to the very beginning, that emotional state was extremely unstable and extremely awkward.
It was quite normal just now, but now I don't know who to sulk with.
"You have a good relationship with him?"
After a while, Xie Ci couldn't help asking in a low voice.
Xu You didn't answer. Because she was still thinking about why he was angry, she was distracted for a while, and didn't hear clearly what he asked.
In the eyes of Xie Ci, this appearance was acquiesced, and he was even more annoyed, "Because he has good grades?"
"What are you talking about?" Xu You recalled, "Who do I have a good relationship with?"
"That man just now."
Now she finally came to her senses and hurriedly waved her hands, "I don't know him well."
"You go home together every day," he said.
Xu You got the point, "Go home together?" She was speechless, with a strange expression on her face, "When will I go home with him?"
It was another half day of silence.
Seeing that he didn't speak for a while, she asked again, "Did you misunderstand something?"
Now, Xie Ci was finally willing to speak, "I'll pick you up from school, you walk with him every day."
----
After the classification results came out, Xie Ci was indeed the last one to know that Xu You had gone to the rocket class. This was actually expected, but he didn't know why, and he was inexplicably irritable. This kind of anxiety reached its peak in an instant when he went to wait for Xu You to leave school and saw a talking and laughing boy next to her. He put it in his pocket, leaned against the wall without making a sound, and silently watched them go away.
It was like this for several days.
He didn't want to ask, as if he had taken the wrong medicine, he deliberately tortured himself. Every time I waited in that position, watching Xu You and that boy leave the school gate, and then walked away.
Later, Song Yifan and the others asked him out to play. In the bar, Xie Ci was half drunk and leaned heavily on the back of his chair.
The people next to him saw it, and Li Jieyi asked: "Who is Ah Ci having trouble with? This is it."
Song Yifan didn't know either, he was confused for a while, and tentatively said: "Isn't the relationship falling apart?"
Probably.
Li Jieyi thought for a while, then turned his head and said goodbye to Xie: "Dude, don't be disgusted and lovelorn, this is too shameful."
"However, having said that." Li Jieyi and Xie Ci have been together for so many years, and they have already spoken out, "Your girl is so good, you don't seem to have any other advantages besides being handsome, think about it carefully, Oh yes, there is still some money, but it still feels a little unworthy... "
The words are not finished.
"Fuck. Are you?" Xie Ci casually took an object and threw it at him.
Li Jieyi reacted quickly and tilted his head to hide.
After reacting for a few seconds, he patted his chest with lingering fear, "Damn it, you're angry from embarrassment."
Obviously, Xie Ci's current state cannot poke the pain. Li Jieyi was still stupid and did not hesitate to hit the gun.
Song Yifan silently moved his butt to the side.
Damn it, Li Jieyi is a fool. I don't know if he lost his mind or ate shit.
----
Now Xu You was really confused. She knew that Xie Ci had misunderstood, she thought for a long time but didn't know what to say, where to start.
"He and I have a very ordinary classmate relationship. I don't even know his name, but sometimes he will ask me questions and like to argue with me during self-study at night. You may have seen it." Xu You is honest Honestly, "But I don't know why you think I go home with him every day."
She was standing on a higher step, her eyes were just at his level.
This is a slightly brighter position, and she realized that Xie Ci's cheeks were flushed, and his dark eyes seemed to be shining with water. He was already fair, so it was more obvious.
"Why are you so red?" Xu You frowned.
"Angry." He replied, eyelashes drooping uncomfortably.
“……………”
"Obviously you misunderstood yourself." She said softly.
"I know." Suddenly remembering what he had just said, Xie Ci asked, "When did you call me? When did I stop answering."
Xu You said quietly: "It was the night of my vacation."
He frowned, observing her expression carefully, it seemed that he just couldn't remember.
"You're on vacation..." Xie Ci thought for a while, "The day of the Class Ninth reunion?"
"right."
"Fuck." Xie Ci had an impression now, and he reacted instantly, "I was drunk that day, and someone took my phone away...."
"Um... .."
Xu You was absent-minded, obviously not wanting to continue entangled in this issue. She took another step up.
Xie Ci still wanted to explain, but was suddenly taken aback.
"Squat down a little bit," she said.
Then she stood on tiptoe slightly, held his face with both hands, pressed her chin against his forehead, and muttered to herself, "It seems a little hot..."