The mobile phone was confiscated, turned off and placed on the coffee table in the living room.
After taking a bath at night, Xu You sat on the window sill with her knees hugged, and was in a daze for a long time.
The light from the street lamps was drowsy, blurring the surrounding weeds and trees.
The sparse and dim stars can't illuminate the dark road in the distance at all.
Going to school on Monday, the shadows under Xu You's eyes are heavy.
After finishing the self-study, Yu Yi asked Xu You what's wrong, and she didn't look very well.
Xu Youqiang cheered up and shook his head, "I'm fine."
She packed up her things and left the classroom to go to Class Seven.
Xu You was waiting outside the classroom, and the girl sitting by the window poked her head out and said, "Thank you for not coming to school."
"Not here?" Xu You was taken aback. She lowered her eyes and thought for a while, then asked, "Is Song Yifan here?"
The girl glanced back again, patrolling around, "I didn't come."
"... ... .good."
She shuffled back to her classroom.
The second day, the third day, the fourth day...
Xie Ci never came to school. Song Yifan was nowhere to be seen.
Xu You went again in the afternoon and ran into Xu Xiaocheng. He happened to leave the classroom, turned around, saw Xu You standing in the corridor, and was taken aback for a moment.
He still didn't move, but Xu You walked over.
She and Xu Xiaocheng haven't spoken a few words, but she knows that he has a good relationship with Xie Ci, "Student, do you know where Xie Ci has been these past few days?"
"Ah?" Xu Xiaocheng smiled, with a relaxed tone: "Ah Ci, he was addicted to a game recently, so he skipped class and went to an Internet cafe. He really can't change his shit, sister-in-law, don't be angry, we will scold him for you .”
"Did you have a thank you call?"
Xu You looked into his eyes, her expression unchanged.
Xu Xiaocheng gradually stopped smiling. Slowly, he shook his head.
"Give me your phone, and I'll just talk to him." Her tone was calm.
"It's not... it's just..." He felt more and more guilty.
"—I can't find him."
These words successfully killed Xu Xiaocheng's words. He didn't say anything for a long time.
After a while, Xu Xiaocheng sighed and handed out the phone.
Holding the phone in both hands, Xu You dialed several times, but still no one answered, and then the busy signal. She didn't believe in evil, and pressed redial again and again.
"Xu You, stop hitting." Xu Xiaocheng said.
As if she didn't hear it, she mechanically repeated the movements on her hands.
"I won't accept a thank you," he said.
Xu You still didn't listen, and remained the same, without moving a muscle.
"Really, stop hitting, it's useless..."
Xu Xiaocheng couldn't bear to look at her expression, and said slowly: "Thank you, he is hospitalized."
This sentence was like thunder on the ground, and she was instantly stunned.
Hospitalized
Thank you for being hospitalized
Seeing that Xu You was in a trance and unable to speak, Xu Xiaocheng couldn't hide it anymore, so he said to her with a little hesitation: "I'll take you there..."
Leave school, take a taxi, and go to the hospital.
She didn't say a word all the way. It began to rain outside again, covering the sky of the entire city darkly, with countless drops of water pouring down and colliding. When they got out of the car, neither of them had an umbrella, and they were drenched to the ground.
In fact, Xu You wanted to say goodbye to Xie Ci before.
Her mobile phone was confiscated, and she may not be able to talk to him every day in the future.
She wanted to tell him that she hoped he would be more patient.
She won't restrain him, but if he is willing to wait, they can still be together after the college entrance examination.
She would tell him that Xie Ci had asked her for an answer before hanging up that night.
She wants to tell him personally that she will not look down on him, and she never dislikes everything related to him.
She wanted to help him become better, even if he could only take three exams in the end, he still had to learn to live hard.
She is a person who takes her relationship very seriously. She always remembers his kindness to her.
She worried that when she saw him, she wouldn't be able to tell him what she really wanted to say.
She thought that he might lose his temper, thought of his cold war with her again, thought of his stern face and refusal, thought of him... .
But she didn't expect that it would appear in front of her in the end.
It was him lying on the hospital bed, so fragile that he would be torn apart in a second.
Xu You covered her mouth with both hands, and for a moment, she was so painful that she didn't dare to breathe.
She tried her best to comfort herself, don't think about anything, don't think about anything, don't think about it...
Xie Ci was still in a daze, wearing an oxygen inhalation tube, with a needle inserted into the back of his hand, and there was a beeping instrument with wires wrapped around him.
She walked over slowly, her calves trembling, and approached him.
Xie Ci didn't move at all, and he didn't see her happy face again. Crisp and thin pale complexion. He closed his eyes, shadowed under his eyelashes, as if he had fallen asleep.
Xu You's heart was in severe pain, and she felt dizzy, her feet softened, and she squatted down beside his bed.
Someone seemed to walk in behind him.
She really couldn't bear this, her voice almost collapsed, and she called out, "Thank you..."
"His life is not in danger."
Zeng Qilin stood behind her, bent down, and said softly, "You can't stay here for too long, go out first."
On the bench in the corridor of the hospital, I sat blankly all afternoon.
Zeng Qilin was next to Xu You, with his legs spread apart, his head resting on his hands, talking to her intermittently.
"Our school had conflicts with No. 2 Middle School... last weekend there was a little dispute, and then it got a little big. One of them called people from the society..."
"It was a bit chaotic at the time. Before everyone could react, a yellow-haired man stabbed Xie Ci in the stomach with a knife in his hand."
Having said that, Zeng Qilin closed his eyes, as if he didn't want to recall the scene of that day. He ran his hands through his hair.
The crowd screamed with red blood.
The appearance of Xie Ci falling to the ground at the end.
"I'm sorry for him..." Zeng Qilin murmured.
Xu You's spirit seemed to be numb. She said nothing, and put her hands on her knees.
After the people around her finished speaking, she asked softly, "Has that person entered the police station yet?"
"..." Zeng Qilin was taken aback for a moment and asked, "What?"
"The one with the knife."
Xu You was very calm, she focused on the ground and repeated her words, "Has he entered the police station yet?"
She was soaked through, her hair was sticking to the sides of her cheeks, and the cold was rising from the soles of her feet.
"Come in." He replied.
After a while, she nodded, "OK."
Then the two stopped talking.
I don't know how long it has been.
The light outside the window gradually dimmed, and the incandescent lamp above the head lit up, pale and pale.
There are different people coming in and out, coming and going. Xu You didn't know how she got there in the end.
My memory of that day is too vague.
I just remember raining on my body, it was so cold.
Mentally and physically tired, yet surprisingly peaceful.
Like the silence after a heavy snowfall.
——
It didn't take long for this story to spread everywhere in the school. There are many versions that have been circulated. As long as it is gossip, everyone is too lazy to check the truth of the story.
After Xu You went to the hospital that day, she never went to Class Seven again. She sat in her seat after class, didn't go anywhere, and went home directly after school. Some classmates around talked about it, and she left silently, neither listening nor saying anything.
Sometimes when walking on the road, you will receive looking eyes from all walks of life.
In fact, Xu You found that she was quite strong, at least she could maintain her original appearance in front of her classmates, teachers, and parents, but her words became a little less.
After a few days like this, during the break between classes, Xu Xiaocheng came to her and said that the consciousness of thanking him had recovered.
Going to the hospital again, Xie Ci has been transferred from the intensive care unit to the general ward.
He was wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, with one hand wrapped in white gauze, half leaning on the side of the bed.
When Xu You entered the ward, the moment the two of them met their eyes, they were stunned for a few seconds at the same time.
She took a few steps forward, "Thank you, are you feeling better?"
After a few steps away, Xie Ci spoke, his voice sounded like it had been polished by sandpaper.
He didn't dare to look at her, his eyes fell elsewhere, and he said, "Xu You, let's go."
She froze, her footsteps stopped.
Xu You clenched the strap of her schoolbag tightly.
Xu Xiaocheng was behind him, his eyes widened, his mouth opened and closed again.
"... Thank you?"
After a while, she finally found her voice.
Xie Ci's eyes looked out of the window, although his complexion was pale, but still without any ups and downs.
"Let's go." He repeated again, his voice was weak but clear, word by word reached her ears.
"—I won't go to school."
The people next to him didn't react for a while, and the ward was quiet.
Xu You looked at him in disbelief.
Others heard this sentence, Xu Xiaocheng couldn't help but said, and stepped forward: "Thank you, are you crazy?!"
Xu You froze in place, not knowing what to say, and it took a long time to find her voice, "No matter what happened to you, before you say these words, you should think carefully, I'm leaving first."
After she finished speaking, she turned to leave.
"Xu Yo."
Xie Ci called her name from behind, and asked after half a second, "Are you disappointed in me?"
He was actually very weak, even his voice could be heard, and he was weak.
For a moment, Xu You was really, really sad. The heart seemed to fall straight down like this.
"I'm not disappointed, thank you."
Xu You knew that she hadn't shed tears yet, so she turned around and looked into his eyes.
He wanted to speak but suddenly choked up, "No one has the right to be disappointed in you except yourself."
After she finished speaking, she paused for a while, then lowered her head and unloaded her schoolbag from her shoulders.
Xu You held a math paper full of processes in his hand, and gently placed it on the table next to his bed, "Things you left behind."
"Thank you, don't make decisions lightly on many things. When you really think about it, send me a text message to tell me."
The door was closed.
He lay back on the bed. His eyes stared straight ahead, and the wound began to hurt deeply again.
The wind came in through the window, and the math papers that were pressed down were rattling.
There seemed to be another person standing behind him.
Not knowing what to expect, Xie Ci's heart suddenly tightened. After persisting for a long time, he still couldn't help turning his head away.
Zeng Qilin looked at him quietly, looking a little unbearable.
The distance between the two of them was so close that Zeng Qilin could even clearly see the disappointment flashing in Xie Ci's eyes.
He asked, "Why are you crying?"
Xie Ci turned his back, put down his phone, and wiped away the tears from his eyes with his palm.
"What did the doctor tell you?"
After a long silence, Xie Ci remained motionless, staring intently at what Xu You left behind.
——
In the evening self-study, Xu You asked for leave. She was exposed to the rain a few days ago, and she has been coughing, and she has a complete fever today.
In the office, Wang Xiadong saw that her cheeks were flushed, and when she touched her forehead, it was terribly hot, so she immediately issued a request for leave.
"Can you go back by yourself? Do you want your classmates to send you off, or call your parents."
Xu You took the leave slip with both hands, and bowed to Wang Xiadong, "No, thank you teacher."
"That's fine." Wang Xiadong put down the pen in his hand, "Be careful when you go back alone."
There is no one in the family.
The living room was dark and the curtains were drawn. The room was pitch black, and Xu You walked to the sofa and sat down step by step.
The light had no strength to turn on, and she just sat there quietly. After an unknown amount of time, her eyelashes trembled, she leaned out, and picked up the mobile phone that was on the coffee table.
boot.
The fluorescent blue light of the mobile phone screen illuminates a small area, and there is still the last ten percent of the battery. Time to read the last text message.
She pushed it open with her thumb.
—
[Xu You, let's break up.]
"Hey, help me with a physics homework."
"You did it on purpose. You poured it into my arms twice a day."
"Tsk tsk, you're still angry, didn't you just call me brother?"
"You want to bribe me with just one candy?"
"Hey, your face is quite soft, I didn't bite it, didn't I just sip it..."
"Don't be afraid."
"No, I just want to ask you a question, when will you be my girlfriend?"
"I have no temper because I like you, you know?"
"After waiting for a whole day without eating, it's snowing in the afternoon, and I'm going to freeze to death. You still can't get down?"
"Are you looking down on me and my friends, dislike our poor grades, and think that our lives are extravagant and our tastes are vulgar?"
"Xu You, do you not like me?"
"The cold war is fine, but I will never agree to break up."
"Xu You, don't I look good in my school uniform..."
"Are you happy to have a handsome boyfriend like me?"
"To be honest, I will give you a piece of life advice, that is, stay with me well."
...
Xie Ci made the choice he felt was right. So Xu You respected him.
Her hands were shaking as she typed that word.
-good.
Thank you, I promise you.
After that, you'll be fine on your own.
——
In the days that followed, there seemed to be nothing. Xu You seemed like nothing had happened, and lived every day peacefully.
The mobile phone was locked in the cabinet, a very deep place, and there was no expectation.
You can still occasionally meet Song Yifan and the others on campus, but he is no longer there.
Only occasionally one day, after doing exercises. A few girls bought yogurt and snacks, passed by her, chatting as they walked.
"Oh, it seems like I haven't seen the thank you for a long time...."
A person whispered: "He dropped out of high school just after his sophomore year... You don't know..."
"Yes, such a big thing happened...."
They walked farther and farther, until they couldn't even see their shadows, and Xu You was still standing there.
The third year of high school passed too fast, and everyone was very busy. At the door of the classroom, on the stairs, there are red inspirational quotes posted everywhere. From the unified examination to the 100-day swearing-in meeting, one model, two models and three models.
Xu You talked less and less, and her grades became more and more top-notch. She listened to her parents and teachers, and did not go to the competition again.
She told herself, don't look back, don't think about it. Be strong no matter what difficulties you encounter.
At that time, every night was quiet.
In the last week, only the bright red 7 remained on the countdown board. The classroom in the third year of high school was used as the examination room for the college entrance examination. When the examination room was arranged, everything on the walls was pasted with white paper.
The teacher left someone to clean up. The classroom was full of dust. Some people were accidentally choked and coughed up tears.
The students in the first and second grades were on vacation, and they moved to the newly built teaching building in the first and second grades, which was on the other side of the playground.
There is a river in front of the classroom corridor, and a newly grown grass on the opposite side.
The corridors of the stairs on each floor are crowded with high school students. White origami cranes folded from book pages fly all over the sky, some of them land in the river and float away. Someone shouted into the distance, causing a building to laugh.
Xu You walked through the crowd, carried her schoolbag into the classroom, found a new seat and sat down. This is the position by the window, where the last bit of sunlight can fall in.
The class was noisy and noisy, she lowered her head to pack her books, when suddenly someone stood beside her.
Xu You looked up and saw Qiu Qingqing holding a classmate book in her hand. She shook her hand and asked playfully, "Can you write one for me?"
Qiu Qingqing put the paper on Xu You's desk.
"Ah, good." Xu You agreed in a low voice.
Qiu Qingqing was standing beside her, waiting for her to finish writing.
"Xu You, I actually envy you." Qiu Qingqing burst out laughing as if thinking of something suddenly.
"What?"
"Thank you." Qiu Qingqing's voice was relaxed, as if she had let go, "I was actually quite uncomfortable before."
“…………”
Xu You grasped the pen tightly in an instant, and all the blood on her face faded away.
Qiu Qingqing stared at Xu You's dazed appearance, her voice was very low.
"It wasn't until later, when I saw Xie Ci and you in love, that I realized that he had never liked me."
——
The classroom in the afternoon before the college entrance examination was empty. Books are piled messily on the desk, and there are water glasses. Someone scrawled a line of lyrics in chalk on the blackboard.
You always say that graduation is nowhere in sight,
In a blink of an eye, they went their separate ways.
Happy Graduation.
June 7th, June 8th. flashed by.
The bell rang when the English test was over, and all the candidates poured out of each test room, everyone had a relaxed look on their faces.
After 12 years of hard study, I was finally relieved at this moment.
Carrying a bottle of water and stationery, Xu You followed the flow of people out of the school.
it's all over.
When the results came out, the teacher was the first to call to congratulate. The two tied science champions in Linshi are both in Class 0, Grade 3, No. 1 Middle School.
Xu You is one of them.
At that time, she was packing up her things in the bedroom, when Chen Xiuyun came in holding the phone and told Xu You the news with a happy face. It didn't take long for relatives to know about it and congratulate them one after another. Chen Xiuyun and Dad Xu sat in the living room, dialing the phone one by one. The atmosphere at home hadn't been so harmonious and happy for a long time.
What happened afterwards, Xu You couldn't remember clearly. She was very tired that day, she took a shower and went straight to sleep, lying on the bed, not thinking about anything, her head was also empty, she slept until almost noon the next day.
Chen Xiuyun saw her get up, put down the work in hand, and asked with a smile: "What do you want to eat, can I take you out to eat?"
"Mom, I'm going to the kitchen to order dumplings, and then I have something to do in the afternoon," she said.
Chen Xiuyun frowned, "You finally finished the exam, eat something good, what are you eating dumplings for?"
Xu You said, "Suddenly I want to eat."
The dumplings were placed in an insulated box, and Xu You took them out of the gate of the community, and boarded a bus around the city.
The car was very bumpy, her head rested on the glass window, her eyes looked at every corner of the city.
An old man next to him asked, "Little girl, what's wrong with you?"
"Ah, I'm fine, I just lost something." Halfway through Xu You's words, tears fell first, and she hurriedly wiped them off with the back of her hand.
The old man chuckled, "Oh... I lost it all, so don't cry, maybe I can get it back in the future."
The car staggered through the streets and alleys, there were laughing children in shorts running past, there were vendors selling things, and the hot summer wind was blowing on everyone. The sun shines through the brown branches, reflecting the green branches and leaves, the crushed ice cubes in the milk tea shop, and the boy riding a bicycle with his shirt bulging by the wind.
Xu You sat on the seat, lowered her head, scooped up the dumplings one by one with a spoon, and put them in her mouth to eat.
I choked up while eating.
She bowed her head, weeping and eating.
Wait for the bus to the finish line. She should have finished eating, so she forgot. 54