Walking out of the garage a few tens of meters away, Xu You looked up at the sky. The dark clouds weighed on the top, this place is close to the highway intersection, there are not many buildings, and it looks a bit desolate. The nearby branches were slanted by the wind. She took a deep breath, and her feet seemed to be filled with lead.
The more I wanted to calm down, the more I felt powerless.
Xu You took out her mobile phone, lowered her head, and made a call while standing by the side of the road.
The surroundings are quiet, and the wind is whistling secretly. Gradually, raindrops fell from the leaves into the mud. Tick tock.
Suddenly, a sky-shaking roar passed by. Her eardrums were buzzing, her head was extremely low, and the hair on both sides of her cheeks was even blown up by the wind.
Subconsciously looked up.
I saw a car speeding past, followed by a sharp brake sound. Then it backed up on the spot until it stopped beside her.
Once there is a beginning, the rain can no longer be stopped, and it will crackle underground.
Caught off guard.
A few strands of Xu You's hair stuck to her cheeks. She has a slender frame, just standing in the pouring rain, drenched all over.
The door was opened without warning. Xie Ci got out of the car from the left side, circled around, and quickly ran to Xu You's side.
She just stood there quietly.
But when he was still a few meters away, he suddenly stopped and didn't dare to go forward.
The two looked at each other in the rain and fog. No one speaks.
The rain was getting heavier and heavier until the vision was almost blurred. Xu You asked calmly, "What are you doing?"
Her voice was so small that she was almost drowned in the rain.
After a short pause of thanks, he blurted out for some reason: "—I want to help you fix the car."
"..."
Xu You stared at him, "My car didn't drive away."
"... Oh." Xie Ci hesitated.
"Don't bother you." She thanked politely, turned and left with a tired face. Walking fast, like running away.
Xie Ci hung his hands by his sides, slowly clenched them, and looked at Xu Youyuan's back as he walked farther and farther away. The heart that started to be excited and excited slowly sank, but the reason gradually lost control.
"—you don't go."
Xu You was taken aback, she lowered her head. Look at the sudden extra pair of arms around the waist.
The people behind held her tightly, and her bones were aching from being strangled. The two stuck together tightly. His head buried in her neck, the rain slid from the fever.
She reacted for two seconds, and started to break free, so she grabbed his hand.
The disparity in strength was obvious, and he remained steadfast. Xu You was in a hurry and went to break his fingers.
There is a distinct scar on the back of his hand, which is uneven. Before she had time to think about it, a cold foreign body slid across her fingertips.
Xu You's body trembled, and her feet couldn't stop going weak. She stared at it blankly, as if her breathing was stagnant.
— Xie Ci had a plain ring on his ring finger.
"Thank you, can you stop being so selfish." At that moment, Xu You seemed to be in a daze.
Hearing this sentence, Xie Ci's body froze. As soon as he let go of his hand, she immediately broke free. Before he ran two steps, his wrist was grabbed again.
"...Xu You, I'm sorry." His voice was hoarse and depressed.
sorry
sorry for what.
There was a soreness in Xu You's throat. She took a deep breath and said, "Okay...so be it."
After sorting out her emotions, she forced a forced smile and said copiously, "I have something to do later, I have time to have a meal later."
Xie Ci looked at her fixedly.
He who does not speak, appears lonely and silent.
There is no happiness, no sadness, only vulnerability.
The two have been separated for so long, but he doesn't seem to have changed at all, and he doesn't know how to control his emotions. Smile when happy, frown when angry. Even the unhappy appearance is exactly the same.
But Xu You is no longer the original Xu You. She is no longer the girl who only knew how to study. She also grew up, came into contact with the society, and worked hard to adapt. Even every day, take a lot of time to communicate with others.
Time tolerated him, but not her.
It was raining heavily.
He stared at the small stream of water gathering on the ground, and asked softly, "You...have been doing well these past few years, I know."
Xu You hummed, "Very good."
Try to forget him, forget everything about being in that city, and almost cut off contact with all my classmates in high school.
There are not many courses in the university, so she fills up all her spare time and does not allow herself to rest. Apart from eating and sleeping, she only has to study.
She also had the most difficult days. She even planned to accept other people's feelings and saw a psychiatrist. I have tried and tried many times. Until one night, Fu Xueli called her and told her that she was going abroad, and asked her if she would go back.
Before Fu Xueli hung up the phone, she finally said that thank you also came.
She had just returned to her dormitory after studying in the library that day. After hanging up the phone, she sat on the flower bed next to the building. There was no light, and I stayed in the dark for a long time, and the lights in the dormitory building in the distance dimmed one by one.
Even the aunt in the dormitory building is urging that the dormitory will be closed.
Xu You just came back to her senses, tears had already flowed all over her face unconsciously.
Then, she suddenly realized.
It turned out that no matter how hard she tried, she still couldn't do it. Even if you lie to yourself that you are doing well, it won't work.
She felt distressed even hearing about everything related to him. She is too stupid. Love in this world is not so simple.
The matter between her and Xie Ci always felt that it was very early. As early as the memory is covered with a layer of dust, I can't remember clearly.
Always thought I forgot. But he went to the boiling water room with a thermos, occasionally passed by the basketball court, and even sat in the breakfast shop, finishing his meal quietly by himself. Passed by a boy in a white jersey. In these countless unimportant moments, he is always remembered.
As long as there is a thought in my mind, it will spread uncontrollably.
Sometimes I think about those days that I can't let go of. But if you think about it too much, you will feel uncomfortable, and then you will force yourself not to think about it.
Until the fourth year when I didn't meet him, Xu You graduated from university, and she stood on the blue sky, white clouds and green grass.
The sun was just right that day.
Only then did she know that he was like the summer of the third year of high school.
If you leave, you will never come back.
No matter whether she is doing well or not, whether she has forgotten him or not, Xie Ci will never come back.
From the very beginning, she shouldn't have had unrealistic ideas.
She shouldn't, shouldn't have been true to herself for so many years.
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This rain suddenly fell so heavily that it swept the entire world. They seem to be the only ones left.
But there is no sudden sadness, in fact, it is always in my heart.
"I'm not having a good time."
As Xie Ci said, his voice was choked up to the point of being indistinct, "Xu You...I'm not having a good time."
Just seeing her was like a fuse, igniting all the feelings that had been suppressed for so many years, and there was no way to restrain it anymore.
Xu You did not speak, pretending not to hear.
"Xu You." He called out again.
"I'm sorry.....I'm getting worse." Xie Ci's voice faded and his eyes lowered.
In front of him, he was extremely embarrassed by the wet rain.
From teenager to man. The contour becomes deeper, the bridge of the nose is defined, and the jaw line is thinner.
Xu You held the phone in her hand, she didn't know whether it was tears or rain, it fell on her face and slid down.
A car stopped for a long time in the distance. It belongs to Zhang Lili.
Xu You looked at it for a long time. Then he turned his head and told him calmly, "Thank you, don't fall."
After finishing speaking, she walked around him and left without looking back.
Only Xie Ci stayed in place alone.
Everyone gets tired and sad. But no one can bear the grief for you.
So don't fall down.
Because it doesn't matter whether you are dead or alive.
Poor or rich.
Sick or healthy.
Sad or happy.
Since then, it has nothing to do with me.