What is love
Qing Huan didn't know.
She really doesn't know. In fact, up to now, she has begun to doubt whether there is such a thing in the world, but facing the female ghost's sad eyes, Qing Huan calmly said: "You will naturally know about this question in the future."
"But, I want to know now." The female ghost's eyes were sad, but after a few seconds, she suddenly smiled again, "Oh, maybe it's best not to know. A result, how can I expect others to tell me?"
Qing Huan saw the sadness in her eyes. Ever since this female ghost appeared at the bridge, she was neither surprised nor happy, with a calm expression on her face, Qinghuan looked at her and sighed softly.
So trapped by love, why bother.
"Girl, how long have you been here?"
He was also the first person to talk to her and take the initiative to care about her. Qing Huan smiled slightly, and was very willing to talk with this female ghost who looked taciturn and had gentle eyes: "It's been too long, I don't remember anymore." She looked into the distance. "How long I have been here, how old I am, I don't remember."
"Wouldn't it be lonely?" the female ghost asked softly. "I often feel lonely. When His Majesty doesn't come, I'm lonely. When His Majesty comes, I'm still lonely. I'm very lonely even if he's by my side. He's so close to me, why, I feel, so far away? "
Qing Huan really doesn't have a say in love, she doesn't know what she can say about this female ghost. Advise her not to be obsessed, but to turn around? She who was once equally insane, what qualifications and confidence does she have to comfort others? The wound is not on his body, no one knows how painful it is. The first thing she learned was never to demand others by her own standards.
"Do you know, girl, my name is Ruolan, and His Majesty gave it to me." The female ghost Ruolan seemed to be lost in memory, with an indifferent and sweet smile on her lips, one can imagine how beautiful she was before she was alive. . "At that time, I was just a singing girl. Your Majesty paid a private visit in disguise. He took a fancy to me, so he took me back to the palace and made me a concubine."
The smile on her face was so sweet that Qing Huan couldn't bear to interrupt her, so she quietly let her continue talking.
"During those days, I was the happiest time. I had money to bury my parents, and I had a husband who treated me very well. It really was... like a dream." The smile on the corner of the female ghost Ruolan's mouth became softer. After a while, she seemed to think of something, and smiled again. "My natal name is Shang'er. Your Majesty changed my name for me, made me a Concubine Lan, and let me live in the Qilan Palace. There are many orchids living in the palace for me. I am so happy. I think I have the whole world. The world. Therefore, even if other concubines poison me, causing my unborn child to die, and it is difficult to have children from then on, I don't care. Because as long as there is His Majesty, as long as His Majesty can still watch me."
"He stayed in my palace for more than ten days a month. Except for the first half a year, he didn't touch me after that. I don't know why, but everyone thinks that I am the emperor's favorite woman "The female ghost Ruolan's tears fell drop by drop, her eyes contained the sourness and sweetness of memories, but they were also extremely empty. "Isn't it good to let me be deceived like this? Why do you want me to know the truth? Let me know... In fact, I am just such an unbearable existence."
"The emperor has long loved me. In the first six months, he favored me because I was a substitute, because he hadn't got that woman yet. Half a year later, he came to my palace but didn't touch me because he had already got her." That man was just trying to deceive others, so he used me as a cover, lest the queen and other concubines focus on that woman. Girl, look, I can't even smile, because His Majesty doesn't like to see me smile , I always thought it was because I didn't look good when I smiled, but it turned out that it was because I looked the least like her when I smiled."
"You are beautiful." Qing Huan said sincerely.
"What's the use of being beautiful? After all, His Majesty loves not me, but the queen of the enemy country." The female ghost Ruolan smiled lightly. Only then did Qing Huan realize that when she smiled, there was a playful little canine tooth on the corner of her mouth. There is a luscious pear swirl.
"Your Majesty made me a target. He knew that I was pregnant, but he still let me lose my child and break my health. It was just because the woman lost her temper with him, because he had promised her that in the harem, there would never be a child." I met another person. I was pregnant, and the woman became angry, so His Majesty pushed the boat along and asked the queen to drug me."
"I thought it was an extreme tragedy when things got here. But I didn't expect that His Majesty is more cruel than I imagined."
"He ordered people to ravage me and kill me, and send the body back to the enemy country, and let the queen of the enemy country take my place." The female ghost Ruolan smiled bleakly. "The Lan'er he keeps calling is not me. He is trying to save me, help me, and it's not for me. He has no affection for me. After I die, the enemy monarch recognizes that I am not his queen, so he kills me." He flogged the corpse and cut off its head, and hung it on the city wall for public display. But His Majesty always insisted that his Concubine Lan is in the palace, girl, tell me... can I blame him?"
"I never blamed him. Because he is His Majesty. He is hot and cold. I don't blame him. He didn't save the child. I don't blame him. He used me as a substitute. I don't blame him. He killed me. I still don't blame him, because I love him. That kind of love has been engraved into my soul, let me live and die for him. But I still feel sad, I still... still think of all the things in my life, and feel pain. I What did I do wrong? My family was poor since I was a child, and my parents loved and loved me, but once my family fell into poverty, I had no choice but to be a singer who sold and sang, but I didn’t steal or rob. ?”
Qing Huan looked at her quietly.
The female ghost Ruolan shed blood and tears, Qing Huan was secretly startled, but she had seen too many ghosts on the bridge, but it was the first time seeing a ghost like Ruolan who was so hard to escape after death.
After a while, she sighed softly, brushed her plain hand across the face of the female ghost Ruolan, and said in a low voice: "Then let's have a dream, since you want him to fall in love with you, I'll help you. But love in this world , how can there be so many people who love each other and are open and aboveboard?"
This love was too heavy, and it made Qing Huan feel depressed again.
She has lived in so many worlds, loved those worlds with great sincerity and enthusiasm, and believed in the beautiful feelings of those beautiful people, but she herself will never have love again. It's not that she fears or rejects it, but that she really doesn't need love anymore. Family and friendship also make her unable to let go. So far, what she misses the most is the practice of being a Taoist priest.
Fool, oh fool, there must be something in life sometimes, why bother to force it.
And she has already learned and enjoyed forgetting. No matter whether the memory is good or painful, it will eventually pass, and nothing beats time.
Qing Huan sighed again, she sent Mo Ze out, and the Naihe Bridge became much quieter in an instant. I don't know what's wrong with which world, maybe there is something wrong with the timing, let's wait until Mo Ze comes back safely.
When she closed her eyes and opened them again, Qing Huan felt a sharp pain. She subconsciously covered the painful part, sat up suddenly, and sat on the bed bent over, hugging her stomach tightly.
"Your Majesty, Your Majesty, are you awake?!" A round-faced little maid greeted her, expressing her worry with an excited expression, "Great, you are finally awake! The imperial doctor told you not to move around! Hurry up, Lie down!"
Qing Huan's brain hurts a bit. Her arrival has always been random, with no time limit, but it seems that it is not very reliable every time. Maybe in the next world, she should consider whether she should decide the timing by herself? It was obvious that Ruolan had a miscarriage right now, and the emperor had already obtained the so-called enemy queen.
That is to say, he will not kill Ruolan before he gets the queen's heart, but there is not much time, at most a year or so, when the queen is attracted to him and willing to be his concubine, then it will be Ruolan. Lan's death.
How cruel and cruel this man must be to come up with such a method and take advantage of a woman who loves him so much.
Qing Huan didn't want to think so much, because she was really in pain. I have endured all kinds of pain in the past, but now I am squeamish.
"Your Majesty..." the little maid called softly. "You, do you want to see His Majesty? Or, should Tuan Cui send someone to remind you?"
"No need." Qing Huan said weakly. "Your Majesty has a lot of work to do every day, why do you have time to come and see me, please step back."
What a ghost, he is hiding in his bedroom and using circles and forks to cultivate feelings with the enemy queen.
Qing Huan has met many people in these worlds, but among the men she chose to be company with, none of them are as disgusting and despicable as this emperor. Since she is not a fellow traveler, Qing Huan will naturally not be polite, she does not want to keep such a man by her side.
Tuan Cui looked at Qing Huan's pale face, her heart trembled, she responded, and retreated.
There was no one else in the hall, Qing Huan moved her fingers lightly, and the pain disappeared instantly. In a world where she has no intention to stay, it doesn't matter if the heart doesn't beat at all, because there won't be any emotion that can move her. Whether it is the cruel and ruthless emperor, the queen who betrayed her husband and threw herself into the arms of the enemy, or the king who ravaged the corpse of a weak woman, to Qing Huan, they are all the ultimate in disgust.
Therefore, the ability can be used without restriction.
Why not use the first one first. Qing Huan tilted her head and thought for a while, a sly smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.
Naturally, she will not use the ability that does not exist in this world on the feelings of the emperor and others. If feelings are not wholehearted, the wish will not be considered fulfilled. Qing Huan has no intention of bewitching others, but she has not said that she cannot in other respects. Use it.