Sometimes you can't catch it, even if you don't let go, don't give up, you still can't catch it.
Chi Junyan was lying on the bed, quietly looking up at the ceiling, his hand slowly raised up, and made a gesture of pinching his face. At this moment, what appeared in front of his eyes was the little girl he brought up with one hand, holding her arm. His arms called him daddy, the girl who gave him a sweet smile.
But that was also late. No matter which one is Chilu, it is Chilu. He has no way to heal the wound in Chi Lu's heart, because as long as he exists, as long as he appears in front of her, she will recall the bad past life over and over again in her heart.
And his Lulu might never come back again. Chi Junyan's raised hand stayed in mid-air for a long time, and finally lowered it slowly, covering his eyes.
He refused to admit that the fluid flowing from his eye sockets was called tears.
It is an emotion that only human beings have. Only when human beings have love can they feel sad and sad, but the difference between evil spirits and human beings is that evil spirits cannot cry. Their eyes were not made for tears, they can never forget despair and pain, but without tears the pain will not fade.
After a long, long time, the dim light of the morning sun had penetrated the window without the curtains, Chi Junyan let go of his hand covering his eyes, for a moment he didn't know what he was going to do, usually at this time he would get up first, put the After breakfast is ready, he will knock on the door of Chi Lu's room, have breakfast, and then the father and daughter will go for a morning run together, but now... He is a little at a loss.
He reached out to touch the phone, but there was no text message or missed call. Chi Junyan sat cross-legged on the bed with his head lowered. The morning sun shone in and refracted on his face, but it happened to cover his eyebrows and eyes. The lower half of his face shows his mood.
Then he got up as usual, made breakfast, and ran in the morning. Passers-by met a familiar uncle and asked why Lulu didn't come. Chi Junyan smiled and explained that Lulu went to a friend's house to play. He didn't know why he was so sad, since the current Chi Lu didn't want to kill him, it meant that she saw the difference between him and Chi Junyan in the previous life, but even so, he still—
Chi Junyan sat down on a chair in the park and wiped his sweat with a towel. Today, he ran farther than usual, and even arrived at a strange park. He rested for a few minutes, stood up and was about to go when he heard a faint meow. Chi Junyan stood still, and after a few seconds, he walked over slowly, pushed aside the bushes, and saw a kitten that was so dirty that its original color could not be seen.
When the kitten noticed someone, it raised its little head, which was not as big as Chi Junyan's palm, and let out a soft cry. Its two little paws fiddled with the bushes around it, as if they were stuck.
Looking at it, Chi Junyan suddenly seemed to see the little girl hiding under the coffee table a long time ago, looking at him timidly. He smiled slightly, gently pushed aside the grass, and took out the kitten stuck between the branches. Then he found that one of the kitten's hind limbs was bloody and bloody, and he didn't know how long it had been stuck there. Chi Junyan looked around and found no trace of the mother cat, but the kitten was obviously just born. He thought about it and thought that it was probably abandoned by the mother cat, so he held it in his palm and went to a pet hospital along the way .
After the examination, the doctor said it was a skin trauma, and I could take it home after a few days in the hospital. Chi Junyan stroked it with his hand across the cage, and the little guy purred slightly, so fragile and so touching.
He told the doctor that he wanted to keep it, and then with the help of the doctor, he made up a lot of knowledge about raising cats. After swiping the card, he touched the kitten. It was too small. After cleaning and wiping the wound, it could be seen that it was A yellow and white garden cat. The doctor repeatedly confirmed what Chi Junyan meant. All cats were very cute when they were young. However, when they grow up, some of them will lose their original appearance when they were young. There is no guarantee of what a cute kitty will look like in the future.
It is for these reasons that most people abandon their pets.
From this day on, Chi Junyan would come to the pet hospital to see the kittens every day, and never called Chi Lu again. He gave what he could, and no matter what the end result was, he accepted it.
Even if Chi Lu was brought back, it was no longer the little Chi Lu who had lived with him all these years. There is a lot of love in her heart, and there is also a lot of hatred. Chi Junyan doesn't want Chi Lu to be at home. Looking at his familiar face every day, I don't know how much I hate it.
Why bother to torture each other, the child has grown up and full-fledged, and there are many people who don't stay at home to live, not to mention it is still summer vacation, she can go wherever she wants, as long as she is safe.
A week later, the doctor said that the kitten was almost healed and could be taken home, just be careful. So Chi Junyan carefully returned home with a milk cat wearing a shame mask. This week, he specially cleaned out a room as a cat house, and bought climbing frames, cat food, cat litter, and cat toilets—in short, everything a cat needs Yes, he's all set.
The kitten has a very well-behaved personality. It never stretches its paws in Chi Junyan's arms. Even after following Chi Junyan home, it follows him wherever he goes. Chi Junyan must take it with him when he sleeps at night, otherwise it will It would keep meowing, but this made Chi Junyan dare not turn over, for fear of accidentally crushing the little guy who didn't know where he was sleeping.
After eating the soaked cat food for a few days, Chi Junyan found that the kitten had soft stools and the smell was unusually strong. He checked it online and decided to change his mind. meal.
In order to balance the nutrition and match it properly, he also used the computer to strictly formulate the meals for seven days a week, not only to cook, but also to cook delicately.
This kind of thing that ordinary people would find troublesome, but he did it happily. He put all his energy and painstaking effort into this cat, and then he discovered that it turns out that only animals will never be betrayed or disliked.
Even if he is from Wangchuan, even if he is not human, as long as he is willing to give, the animal will respond.
Chi Junyan named the kitten Xiaochengzi, because it has orange-yellow fur, with white patterns on its head and belly. The kitten grows much faster than a human. Chi Junyan took pictures of it every day, and found that the kitten was growing up at a speed visible to the naked eye.
During this period, he never called Chi Lu again, as if there was no such person in his life anymore. But he bought a lot of things and sent them to Guan's family, including Chi Lu's favorite teddy bear at home, which was the first toy he bought for her. After so many years, she bought a newer and better one, the one she likes the most.
At the same time, in order to express his gratitude to the Guan family, Chi Junyan also prepared gifts for their family. It's just that he doesn't take the initiative to come to the door anymore, and he doesn't take the initiative to greet him anymore.
This family is quite big, but with Xiao Chengzi, he also feels very happy.
When holding Xiao Chengzi in the palm of your hand, it seems that the whole world has become softer. Fans on the Internet were surprised to find that after the male god raised a cat, the little loli fell out of favor! And under the feeding of Chi Junyan, Xiao Chengzi grew up day by day. Fortunately, its appearance did not degenerate because of growing up, on the contrary, the longer it grew, the cuter it became.
Chi Junyan spends his spare time with Xiao Chengzi every day.
But maybe, it was Xiao Chengzi who was with him.
Sometimes he just lies in the cat house for an entire afternoon without any entertainment, even if he just watches Xiao Chengzi sleep, he feels happy.
It is a long-lost, tenderness and love rising from the depths of my heart. He felt that he was becoming more and more like a "person". Although the pain would be more intense after having love, he still felt beautiful.
So I don't want to let go, I don't want to let go.
Who would want to let go? What a wonderful thing it is to be alive. He struggled in the Wangchuan River for thousands of years because of an obsession. Chi Junyan wanted to go back, but he understood that if he wanted to go back, he didn't have to take revenge on those who had betrayed and deceived him. Maybe, he went back, just I want to tell my former self: You didn't do anything wrong, you don't need to feel ashamed.
The meat ball made no sound when it stepped on the ground, but when Xiaochengzi drank water, he used his paws to scoop it up, so when he ran again, small footprints would be printed on the floor one after another. The lovely Chi Junyan's heart was about to melt, he called out to Xiao Chengzi, and the little milk cat ran towards him wagging.
The injury on the hind limbs is almost healed, but when he ran, he still staggered a little. As soon as the sun shone in, the fine and soft fluff on Xiao Chengzi's body could be clearly seen. Chi Junyan hugged it, gently scratching his chin and ears, and Xiao Chengzi purred. Noisy, licked Chi Junyan's hand, meow meow.
Chi Junyan couldn't help showing a smile.
But Chi Lu, who spends every day with the person she likes, gradually becomes silent. Guan Zong would take her out to play every day, even if he didn't go out, he would always be with her. In the first few days, she was indeed very happy, as if she made up for all the regrets of her previous life, she held his hand all the time and never let go.
You don't have to worry about him doing stupid things for you, you don't need to worry about not being good enough for him, and you don't need to worry that your father will suddenly appear in front of you, bringing all the dark and unspeakable sunlight into the sun.
No one would look at her with disdainful and disgusting eyes, no one pointed at her when she walked on the street, she was cared for and loved like a little princess, even the wind that blows in every day is sweet and beautiful.
Guan's father, Guan's mother likes her very much. She can live in Guan's house from now on. Guan loves her. She hugs him and acts like a baby every day. The oath, white hair together, grow old together.
But why did she feel sad in her heart
is this her
When dreaming at night, she would always dream of the seven years before this. The man in the dream had exactly the same face as the person she hated the most, but his temperament was completely different. He was so gentle, so loving, and always pampered He looked at her with wide eyes, stroked her head warmly with his big hand, and then pinched her face down.
He never paid any attention to her, but she would pretend to scream pain, then throw herself into his arms, and make some willful little requests, he would frown and hesitate, but in the end he would always agree.
That person's name is Chi Junyan.
It's her dad.
Chi Lu was sitting in the yard blankly, her house was her own, the yard was full of flowers and plants, and now it happened to be blooming in summer, and she could smell the fragrance every day.
She raised her head to look at the sky, the sun was about to set again, it was not too hot outside, there was no cloud in the sky, and occasionally a bird flew by.
The sun was so bright that it shone on the fence covered with green vines. Chi Lu swayed her feet. She didn't know why she liked sitting here all of a sudden, but if she sat here, she could see the intersection from afar. When someone or a car drives in, she will see it immediately.
She just sits here and looks out every day when she has nothing to do, but she doesn't know why she does this.
After sitting for an unknown amount of time, someone suddenly patted her on the shoulder. Chi Lu, who was in a trance with her head down, subconsciously turned around in surprise: "Dad!"
It's Guan Zong.
She knew that her expression must be ugly now, half a smile was not a smile, and a half cry was not a cry. Guan Zong looked at her, pinched her soft face with both hands: "Smile, why is your face so sad, it's not cute at all."
"... Anyway, I'm not cute at all." In her previous life, Chi Lu was gloomy and introverted, and she didn't have anything to do with cuteness at all. Only after meeting Guan Zong did she know what laughter is.
Guan Zong also jumped onto the railing and sat down, following Chi Lu's gaze and looking into the distance: "Miss Dad?"
"No."
Guan Zong was not angry at her stubborn denial, but just smiled lightly: "When I was young, my parents took me back to my grandparents' house in the countryside. I met many friends there, and I had so much fun every day. They refused to come back with them. They had no choice but to keep me and promised to pick me up after half a month."
"...Why are you telling me this." In fact, she probably knew what he wanted to say, but she still asked.
"I played happily until the evening. There are many children at my grandparents' house, but it's strange to say that I couldn't sleep that night, and couldn't help crying. I was arguing to go home the next day."
"That's when I realized that I miss my parents so much, even if it's just for one night, even if I'm already in junior high school, I still don't want to be separated from them." Guan Zong said, turned his head and smiled at Chi Lu, and rubbed Her hair is limp. "You know, some things can never be ignored. Some feelings accumulate over time, and you don't feel it when you don't pay attention, but once you leave, you will know how precious he is."
Chi Lu bowed her head and said nothing.
"Sooner or later, we will have to live away from our parents. So when we can still be with them, we must learn to cherish them, because you don't know when you will lose them."