Although he participated in employee activities, with Cheng Qing's character and usual image, no one dared to strike up a conversation or talk to him. Everyone felt that he was a thousand miles away from others, so they didn't dare to approach him, and never thought about approaching him.
Because of this, Cheng Qing's existence was a little embarrassing. First, he couldn’t blend in with the employees and play barbecue with everyone. Second, when he was around, the employees couldn’t let go of the fun. They even talked and walked carefully. If they knew it was a picnic, if they didn’t know it, they thought it was an open-air meeting. Woolen cloth.
Even if Cheng Qing didn't feel embarrassed, he could still get the information from other people's actions that his presence made them very cautious. He frowned slightly. He didn't even drive the bus chartered by the company when he came to have a picnic today. Come on, it's not easy to hail a taxi here.
Originally, I wanted to be more friendly to the people, but I didn't expect it to become like this in the end.
Just when Cheng Qing was thinking about how to leave, Cindy came over. There were a few gray marks on her face, as dirty as a kitten. Every time Cheng Qing sees her, she can't help but feel soft-hearted, not because of anything else, but because of her eyes. Clean always reminded him of the cat he had raised. It's a pity that the kitten hadn't grown up when he left, so every time Cheng Qing stared at Cindy, Cheng Qing felt familiar.
Because of this, he is much gentler to her than others. Even after getting along for so long, the two can be regarded as very good friends.
Cindy is pretty and lively, optimistic and hearty, very popular with everyone. Although she is a newcomer, she knows how to do things and is considerate. Basically, she can’t find faults. There are many people who like her in the company, and there are also many suitors. It can be said that most of them The goddess of unmarried male employees.
No matter how many people followed her in pursuit, they were unmoved, but they just fell in love with the CEO of Big Ice Cube. This has to make people feel that the world is full of sadness: Generally speaking, it is just to look at the face. Sure enough, handsome men and beautiful women are a couple, and ugly people have to stand aside
Isn't the CEO and Cindy just in an ambiguous period? Every time I see the blushing face of the CEO, Cindy knows it. I make love bento every day, eat together at noon, and if I work overtime at night, the CEO will send Cindy home , isn't this boyfriend and girlfriend? It's just that the two of them seldom have intimate behaviors when there are outsiders, and I don't know if it's because Cindy is shy or the CEO is unwilling.
In short, it is hard to imagine that a person like the CEO will have a girlfriend, and it is surprising to think about it. But when I think about it carefully, I think it's very normal, and ordinary girls may not be good enough, but Cindy is especially good when standing with him. Therefore, for these two people, everyone has a blessing mentality.
Cindy held the grilled skewers in her hand and brought them over on a white paper plate. She squatted down next to Cheng Qing, then took a bite of a chicken wing, and said, "You don't like spicy food very much, so I only brushed a little chili sauce, after all, the barbecue is not delicious if it is not spicy, so try it, I grilled it myself."
Cheng Qing looked at the plate, reached out and took a mutton skewer, bit a piece, chewed it twice, looked a little strange, but didn't say anything, but silently finished the mutton skewer. Cindy stuck out her tongue after taking two bites by herself: "It doesn't seem very tasty, I'm not good at making this." She carefully observed Cheng Qing's expression. "Ah... isn't it delicious?"
"No." Cheng Qing shook his head. "Not bad." It's just that it's far worse than her usual cooking level, but it's not unpalatable, at least it's cooked.
Cindy stuck out her tongue: "I never had a chance to participate in a picnic before. This is my first time in the company, so I'm a little nervous." She smiled, scratched her head, and slowly grilled the plate with Cheng Qing All eaten up.
Cheng Qing looked at his watch and said, "It's half past eleven."
"Ah? So fast?" Cindy was stunned for a moment, and took out her phone to take a look. Cheng Qing noticed that there was a cute little pendant tied to her phone. The pendant was very delicate, which made her look very childish.
He was in a daze, and Cindy suggested: "Then why don't we go back first, you won't be able to find a place to call a taxi."
"It's fine for me to go back alone, you stay and play." Cheng Qing didn't want to bother her, it was a rare time to go out to play with a colleague, if it was because he went back home halfway, it would be really bad to say so.
Cindy didn't care: "It's okay, I've paid for the picnic this time, and I'm not the initiator, so it's okay even if I'm not here." She found her bag and carried it on her back, "You always take me home , let me give you a ride this time?"
Cheng Qing glanced at her quietly, with a slight smile on the corner of her mouth: "Okay."
After talking to the person in charge, Cindy took Cheng Qing and left. It's actually not far from this grassland to the place where there is a car, but it takes a detour, and Cheng Qing didn't remember the route when he came here, so now he can only follow behind Cindy.
After taking a taxi, Cheng Qing sat in the car and looked at the sky outside. Today's weather is very good, and the world is different from Wangchuanhe.
The Wangchuan River was pitch black, even if he climbed out of Wangchuan and walked up to Naihe, what greeted him was still pitch black. The past is dark, and the future has no five fingers, only the present, but how many people can grasp the present? How many people threw themselves into the River of Forgetfulness and never came out again, either completely losing their sanity and becoming insane, or being devoured by cruelty, not even soul fragments remained. All of this is different from now.
And alive, you can breathe fresh air, and you can meet many people, good people, bad people, men, women, people you like, people you hate...
Cheng Qing looked at Cindy beside her, and Cindy fell asleep, because she kept nodding in the car because of drowsiness, bit by bit like a chicken pecking at rice. The driver in front accidentally saw Cheng Qing's eyes in the rearview mirror, and saw him take off his coat and put it on his shoulder, and then let Cindy lean on it, jokingly said: "This gentleman really loves his girlfriend, My daughter is about the same age as this young lady, and she just made a boyfriend, alas."
"Why are you sighing?" Cheng Qing asked softly, and chatted with the driver very face-saving.
"Her boyfriend, he said he was a director of a company. He had a high salary and was good-looking. He seemed to have a good manner of speaking and everything, but he was not considerate." The driver continued to sigh. "Boys nowadays don't know what it means to be considerate. They play games every day after get off work, so I'm so worried about my old father-in-law."
Cheng Qing smiled: "I don't play games."
"It's good not to play games. Because of playing games, the young couple often quarreled."
Cheng Qing smiled and looked out of the window again. The road signs and pedestrians had faded back at a fast speed, but he didn't know what he saw.
It's like... seeing everything, but remembering nothing.
Why is this so
He didn't even know what he was thinking. So far in this world, he doesn't know what the real Cheng Qing wants, and while he can't do anything, he will toss and turn thinking, whether his current step-by-step life is considered a task in progress, he once tried to call the little friend Mo Ze in his heart , but the child who would always respond to him immediately refused to tell him what the real Cheng Qing wanted.
What can such hands grasp
What is there to be caught
Can his heart be redeemed even if he catches someone or something? Can his soul be freed by this? Cheng Qing didn't know, so he could only choose to move forward, complete the tasks in this world, return to his own life, and then—
then what to do
He doesn't know anymore.
Even if he met these wonderful people, he couldn't stay for them. Cheng Qing stroked his forehead and sighed. As a result, Cindy didn't wake up. The driver wanted to wake Cindy up, but was stopped by Cheng Qing: "Just stop here, and I will pay your fare according to the time."
This kind of good thing fell from the sky, and it is a fool not to take advantage of it, so the driver happily agreed, and Cheng Qing sat and waited until Cindy woke up.
When she woke up, there were traces on her face, strips, red, and Cindy herself noticed it, and felt embarrassing when she touched it. This time, she lost her face. I'm sorry to see Cheng Qing, Cheng Qing just smiled slightly: "Okay, let's get out of the car."
After getting out of the car, Cindy realized that this was her home. She was taken aback for a moment, and Cheng Qing told her, "Go home and clean up, take a shower, I should go back."
He turned around and took two steps, but Cindy grabbed his hand for some reason, Cheng Qing looked down, and then frowned slightly. Cindy also suddenly realized that she was too abrupt. After all, the two of them are just friends now. She bit her lip and asked, "You...you go back by yourself, is it okay?"
Cheng Qing thought it was strange for her to ask: "...what's the matter?"
"I just think you don't look very happy." Cindy looked straight into his eyes, "I don't know what you're worried about, but I want to tell you that everything will pass, just get through this time."
Cheng Qing felt that her words made sense, nodded and said, "Okay, I will remember."
After experiencing those worlds, he was willing to open his heart to beautiful people, so facing Cindy's kindness, he smiled, this smile was different from the previous ones, it was extraordinarily gentle. Cindy was shocked by the laughter, her hands clenched into fists nervously, she didn't know what to say to Cheng Qing, her little face was red. Fortunately, Cheng Qing didn't speak, but just got in the car to say goodbye to her.
"Good-bye."
Wave your hand and stand where you are until the taxi is out of sight.
When Cheng Qing returned home, he was the only one who was quiet in the big house. He was sitting in front of the study window, looking out from here was a blue sky.
The weather is great.
The wind is very fresh.
The white clouds are soft and the sun is warm.
But Cheng Qing just couldn't get up, he couldn't get up at all. I don't know how long it took, he sat until the night fell, and then the phone prompted a new message. Cheng Qing glanced down, it was Cindy reminding him to remember to eat dinner.
As if she knew he would forget. Cheng Qing smiled, feeling warm in her heart, got up and went to the kitchen, making lunch for herself like she did every night in the past. He seemed to have used up all the emotions in his heart in the first few worlds, obviously—thought he had learned to love again, but now he actually felt like he had been hollowed out. Not just love, but heart.
He thought that the love he had learned was continuous and would never stop, but now it seemed that it was a flash of light. He should have known that it is impossible for a ghost who has fallen into the river of forgetfulness to come back to life.
Even if you possess a human body, even if you have bodily functions, even if you look no different from ordinary people—but in fact, they are still different. The moment you choose to jump into the River of Forgetfulness, you are doomed, you will never be like a human again. Even in this body, it is not a normal human being.
Cheng Qing was a little at a loss. He couldn't remember the moment he jumped into the River of Forgetfulness, whether he was still willing to continue to be a human being, whether he had given up his desire for life, or whether he had the courage to throw everything at that moment, and with his pitiful crushed heart, jumped go down.
He will never forget the pain of that moment. The heart was cut open and cut into pieces piece by piece, so painful so painful. Torn apart in the River of Forgetfulness, reassembled, then torn apart, and reassembled again.
What supported him to keep this breath? He thought he should have really died long ago.
After dinner, Cheng Qing suddenly remembered that his office key card seemed to be forgotten by Cindy. He first called Cindy, but it showed that the other party was on the phone. After thinking about it, he still decided to get it now and go to Cindy when he got to work. Too many employees saw it, and the impact was not good.
So Cheng Qing drove to Cindy's house. Although he had never been to her house as a guest, he knew where her house was. He only found out after asking someone that Cindy's so-called room 506 on the fifth floor had been vacant for a long time and no one lived there.
Cheng Qing was standing at the door of 506, and the enthusiastic aunt came over and asked him, "Young man, who are you looking for?"
"I'm looking for a girl named Cindy, do you know her?"
"I've never heard of a girl named Cindy living here, young man, have you been cheated?" the aunt said pitifully. "506 used to be a young couple. They moved out later, and the house became empty. The landlord has been worrying about not being able to rent it out. If you don't believe me, take a look. Look at the lock, it's all covered in dust!"
"There should be nothing wrong, my friend will not lie to me."
"That's why you remember wrong? Maybe she doesn't live on the fifth floor at all?"
"It's the fifth floor, I'm sure."
"Definitely not, definitely not." The aunt waved her hand. "Tell me about what this girl looks like. As long as I live in this building, I will definitely have an impression!"
"Long hair, very beautiful, good personality, ah, her eyes are very, very clean." Seeing that the aunt was thinking hard, Cheng Qing emphasized it again. "The eyes are really clean and look like cats."
"Oh!" The aunt suddenly realized. "I see, you mean that strange girl? She goes down every time she reaches the fifth floor?!"
"Um?"
"There is a girl, I have seen it several times, always going up to the fifth floor and then going down, but she doesn't live here, I talked to her a few times, she said she came to find friends Come over to my house and drink a glass of water."
Cheng Qing suddenly asked: "Auntie, which number do you live in?"
"I live in 503."
"...Can you take me in and take a look?" Cheng Qing hurriedly took out his ID card, fearing that the other party would think he was a bad person. "I won't lie to you, I just want to see it."
"It doesn't matter, the young man is so good-looking, he must not be a liar. Look at your clothes, what does the aunt want you to do?" The aunt is also very bold, she agreed without saying a word, walked in front of Cheng Qing, and asked him to follow Own. Cheng Qing followed the aunt to her house and found a room, "Can I go in and have a look?"
Aunt said: "Yes."
Cheng Qing walked in, turned on the light in the room, and went to the window to look out. Sure enough, she could see her car clearly from here. He asked the aunt: "That girl... did she come only once?"
"A lot of times." The aunt scratched her head, thinking that these two people were really strange. "I said, what are you young people doing now? You all like this room in my house very much. Is my room so good?" When you come in, you must turn on the light first.
"... I see, thank you." Cheng Qing smiled at the aunt. The aunt followed behind him, feeling that the young man was a little out of his mind. "Young man, are you okay? You want to find that girl. When I see her in the future, can I help you talk to her?"
Cheng Qing shook her head and said, "No, thank you." He will never come again, and neither will the girl.
He returned to his car, first stared in a daze for a while, and then asked Mo Ze from the bottom of his heart: What's going on
But this time, Mo Ze didn't respond to him.
Cheng Qing returned home like this. When he called Cindy again, the other party got through, but when he said that he was going to get the room card, Cindy politely refused, saying that she had already showered and gone to bed, so why don't she come and give it to her tomorrow? he. Cheng Qing answered and hung up the phone, then lay down.
The next morning, cindy really came, holding a thermos pot in her hand, which contained red date porridge she had cooked early in the morning. This time the porridge was very delicious, and she seemed to have returned to her usual cooking. A bowl, said thank you to her, but looked at her perfect hands.
Those are really a pair of perfect hands. It can be said that there is no blemish, and even the pores are not visible. At first glance, they are hands that do not touch the spring water, do housework, and are often maintained. Cheng Qing is also considered a rich man. He occasionally cooks a meal by himself, but because of working all year round, his palms and fingertips have some thin calluses.
It is strange to say that it is said that Cindy, who has studied business management and worked for several years, is now a new employee in the company and often works overtime. Her hands are white and soft, but she can't see any calluses.
Cheng Qing realized that he was becoming less and less distracted. He didn't notice such an obvious thing at all. I just don't know, did he not notice, or the real Cheng Qing didn't want to notice? Or, I, who didn't get all of Cheng Qing's memories, is still following Cheng Qing's old path at this moment
If it wasn't for the accidental discovery last night, he should have always trusted this girl, right
What beautiful eyes, but they are full of lies.
Cheng Qing didn't speak, just sat on the chair after finishing the porridge, Cindy talked to him with a smile, Cheng Qing asked her: "Do you need to wash the lunch box?"
She froze for a moment and said, "It's okay, I'll take it home and wash it."
In the company before, every time after lunch, Cheng Qing took the initiative to wash the lunch box, but this time he asked her if she wanted to wash it.
Cindy's answer was expected by Cheng Qing, he was not surprised, but the smile on the corner of his mouth was unpredictable. "It's better to wash it at my house. After washing, put it in the dryer, otherwise it will not be convenient for you to carry it back."
"Uh..." Cindy hesitated a bit. "Oh well."
"I'm going to the living room."
As soon as Cheng Qing left, Cindy entered the kitchen with a lunch box. She looked back nervously, and was relieved when she found that Cheng Qing was not looking at her. She was a little tangled looking at the faucet, how did it work...
But she was afraid that she wouldn't be able to get away with it if she didn't wash it, so she rinsed it with water casually, and then wiped it with a rag. Before she finished wiping, Cheng Qing's voice suddenly came from behind: "Is it finished washing?"
"ah?!"
Cheng Qing took the lunch box in her hand, glanced at it, and said calmly: "Go to the living room, I'll wash it."
Cindy forced a smile: "I feel a little pain in my fingers, so..."
Cheng Qing looked at her with a half-smile, washed the lunch box in front of her, dried it with a rag, and handed it to her. Cindy quickly reached out to pick it up, but she let go before receiving Cheng Qing, and the lunch box fell to the ground with a crisp and loud sound. Cindy was startled: "What's wrong with you? Why did you throw it on the ground?" She squatted down to pick it up, but was grabbed by Cheng Qing.
She raised her head to look at him, but he didn't look at her. He looked straight ahead and asked her, "Is it fun?"
"What did you say?"
"Let me ask you, is it fun?" Cheng Qing let go of his hand, he always smiled at her, although most of the time the smile was very faint, but it was indeed a smile, Cindy had never seen such indifference like now . There are so many employees in the company, they always say that the CEO is not easy to get close to, the flower of Gaoling, what and what. Cindy always thought it was not like this, but she didn't know why others said that until now, if Cheng Qing she saw was like this, then she wouldn't want to get close to him.
Only now... She bit her lips tightly, still refusing to admit it: "I don't know what you're talking about."
"Don't you know?" Cheng Qing didn't want to admit that a feeling called disappointment was slowly rising in her heart. "Since you say you don't know, then you don't know."
He walked out of the kitchen, and Cindy followed him, Cheng Qing said: "You can go back."
Cindy didn't understand: "What did I do wrong? Even if you want me to leave, you have to give me a reason, right?" She looked at the man in disbelief. Didn't they be fine yesterday? One day, why did his attitude change so much that she couldn't even admit it.
But at the same time, her clean eyes began to dodge, and she felt guilty.