From the looks of it, Chen Xinghuo was absolutely perfect. He is very good-looking, and his year-round immersion in books and ink gives him a bookish atmosphere that ordinary people don't have. Perhaps because he was lonely since he was a child, he yearns for the companionship of his soul more than the cuddling of his body. The quiet and peaceful life is far more attractive to him than the open sea and the sky and the willful youth.
When he met Qingdong Shishi, he was not tempted. It's just that as time passed, Qingdong's stalking courtship made Chen Xinghuo gradually feel moved. He realized that he fell in love with the same sex, and he never hesitated or flinched, but Qingdong, who once wanted to tell the world, took the initiative to ask to hide this relationship.
He didn't understand it before, but later he realized that in many cases, the effort and gain are often not directly proportional.
He lost a lot, and finally understood it.
Some people are born with rough life and never get true love in their whole life. Some people enjoy the wealth and prosperity, play with other people's sincerity, and still live happily.
He had a good life until he met Qingdong, and while experiencing love, he also experienced heartbreak and pain. This torment made him restless even after death. He had no way to get rid of everything and go to the afterlife, so he could only choose to jump off the river of forgetfulness.
After a thousand years of struggle and torment, he no longer loves this person, but the wound in his heart has never healed for a moment.
It was the first time in thousands of years that he met Qing Dong again. He once wanted to grow old with this person, to become a better person for this person, to stand with this person and face the world hand in hand. But in the end he stood alone across the world, crushed to pieces.
In Qingdong's mind, he hadn't seen Chen Xinghuo for just a few days, but now that he saw him, he felt something was wrong. Leaving aside the house, Chen Xinghuo's attitude is worse than when they first met. At that time, he was completely repulsed by people thousands of miles away, and his indifference could be seen with the naked eye, but the indifference at this moment made people feel flustered, as if standing in front of Chen Xinghuo, he was no longer the lover who made Chen Xinghuo desperate for himself, but He is an ordinary member of this world.
If Chen Xinghuo didn't know the truth, then he should be happy to see him. If Chen Xinghuo knew the truth, he should be angry or questioned, but Qingdong fantasized many times, but he never imagined that it would end like this.
He looked at him, just within reach of him, but so far away.
"What are you doing here?"
Even their voices were extraordinarily cold, and it felt like they had never had a heart-to-heart intimacy, but were strangers from the very beginning.
Qingdong was spoiled, no one had ever dared to talk to him like that, even if he was as cold as Chen Xinghuo, wouldn't he pamper him after being chased by him? Usually he plays with his temper, no matter how he behaves, Chen Xinghuo will not say a bad word about him. Normally, Qingdong lost his temper early, but for some reason today, looking at Chen Xinghuo, he couldn't say anything.
Chen Xinghuo really doesn't care about this, he doesn't care how much Qingdong makes troubles, he doesn't want to continue to entangle with this person when he returns to his own world - even though he doesn't know what he really wants.
Qingdong's facial expression was dull, Chen Xinghuo was taller than him, he looked like he had just got off work, because he was still carrying some fresh seasonal vegetables in his hand, which looked full of fireworks. Qingdong suddenly remembered what Chen Xinghuo once said that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, like ordinary people, happy and simple, it doesn't matter if he doesn't have children, it doesn't matter if he can't make it public, as long as the two of them are together.
But now he doesn't want to be with him anymore, right
At this time, Chen Xinghuo's goodness is particularly obvious. He is gentle and considerate, full of gentlemanly demeanor, compared with Gu Feng who always hangs on Qingdong's appetite and likes to play domineering and crazy, Chen Xinghuo respects him from the bottom of his heart, and loves him seriously and piously.
Everyone has only one copy of that kind of love.
Seeing that Qingdong didn't answer, Chen Xinghuo casually put down the fruits and vegetables and said, "It's getting late, you should go back."
His tone was still calm and gentle, without the anger or resentment that Qingdong imagined, which made Qingdong not know how to react, so he walked slowly towards the door in Chen Xinghuo's sight, and then looked at the door helplessly. After being locked, he realized that he didn't have time to say a word from the beginning to the end.
I don't know if I didn't have time to say it, or I couldn't say it.
Those eyes were still as beautiful as ever, but they no longer had the tenderness and affection of the past. Qingdong stood at the door for a long time, not knowing what he wanted to do, until the phone rang and it was Gu Feng.
Oddly enough, he didn't pick up. At the door of Chen Xinghuo's house, he didn't have the courage to answer the call.
After standing there for an unknown amount of time, Qingdong finally raised his hand and knocked on the door, but he was disappointed. Chen Xinghuo had no intention of answering him at all, let alone opened the door, and he didn't even ask anyone.
There was nothing to struggle with. At this point, even a fool would know why Chen Xinghuo did this. Just thinking that even so, that person didn't say hurtful words in front of him, Qingdong felt mixed feelings. He remembered what he saw on TV, Chen Xinghuo said calmly that he fell in love with a man, and he didn't think he was at fault, but the man he fell in love with was not worth it.
not worth it.
A man who once regarded himself as a treasure thought he was not worth it.
Qingdong returned to his apartment in a daze, now Gu Feng often comes to live with him. Gu Feng is not like Chen Xinghuo who knows everything. Every time they come, the two of them will have crazy sex, and then Gu Feng will ask him how to treat Chen Xinghuo, so that Chen Xinghuo will fall from that position so that he can replace him.
It was the first time Qingdong felt that he was being used. He felt that Gu Feng liked him quite a lot, but what if he didn't
Just allow him to deceive others with love, so others can't deceive him with love
But when he entered the door and saw Gu Feng coming out of the bathroom after taking a shower, Qingdong felt that this was not the case again.
Compared with the elegant and cold Chen Xinghuo, Gu Fengdao is more like a fire, handsome and strong, full of submissive masculinity.
Gu Feng didn't wipe off the water drops on his body, so he pulled Qing Dong into his arms and kissed him. After exchanging a kiss fiercely, he asked him: "What's the matter, you're depressed."
Of course he really likes Qingdong, why doesn't he like it? This young man is good-looking and has a good family background. He can help him in many places. If he wants to achieve his goal, he cannot rely on himself alone.
When Qingdong was kissed by Gu Feng, Chen Xinghuo's face appeared strangely in his mind. That cold and indifferent face, as if he didn't care about anything, looked at him from a distance.
"...It's nothing." Qing Dong pushed Gu Feng away, walked to the sofa and sat down, and said, "Do we have to treat Chen Xinghuo like that? He has always been nice to me, I don't want to..."
"Don't you still like him?" Gu Feng's face darkened immediately, he strode over, pushed Qingdong down on the sofa, and approached him: "Didn't I tell you that you are not allowed to like me any more?" outsiders?"
"I didn't!" Qing Dong subconsciously denied it, but somehow felt guilty and dared not look directly into Gu Feng's eyes. "I just don't want to hurt him!"
"How can this be called harming him? If you win, you lose. Could it be that your Qing family has survived in the Galaxy for so many years because of your methods being so upright?!" Gu Feng stared fiercely at Qingdong. "I and Chen Xinghuo, you can only choose one!"
Qingdong was flustered, he knew in his heart that Chen Xinghuo would never turn back, but because of Gu Feng's words, he had hope, could he make a choice? These two equally outstanding men, he can choose arbitrarily
But before he had time to think clearly, Gu Feng sealed all his consciousness and immersed himself in the ocean of lust.
Chen Xinghuo works step by step every day, going home, cooking, and sleeping. Just like every day he used to live, he worked hard to find something for himself to do, such as doing volunteer work, doing charity... He kept himself busy every day, and he would also go climbing in his spare time, watching See the scenery and taste the food.
He did everything within his power, but he still couldn't hope for the world from the bottom of his heart.
He felt that everything was terrible.
Because of bravely expressing his sexuality, Chen Xinghuo's status in the hearts of the people has risen to a higher level. Although there are some radicals who hate and oppose him, he is still the best in this country and the most eye-catching in the Galactic Federation. diplomat. Everyone believed that, given time, this man would lead the country to another glory.
He can do it, he has the ability, the courage, and the determination.
The more proud Chen Xinghuo was, the harder it was for Gu Feng to bear his jealousy. In all fairness, he is equally good, he doesn't think he has a place to lose to Chen Xinghuo, even the person Chen Xinghuo loves most has switched to his arms, doesn't he? But even so, Chen Xinghuo was still standing on a mountain in front of Gu Feng.
He is a few years younger than Chen Xinghuo, so he has become a so-called junior. In a country that pays attention to etiquette, he has the habit of bowing to Chen Xinghuo when he sees Chen Xinghuo. When he is working, he often hears questions such as how good, how powerful, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good, how good is Chen Diplomat Anyway, it seems that no matter how hard you try, you can't succeed.
Just because someone stood in front of me forever.
If it cannot be crossed, it will be destroyed.
In fact, Chen Xinghuo and Gu Feng knew each other well, but they would still cooperate in their work, and would still greet each other politely when they met—on the surface they were so calm, but under the skin there was an undercurrent.
I'm afraid no one would have imagined that these two equally outstanding diplomats, on the surface, have a close personal relationship, but in fact they are incompatible
It's just to see who can't hold their breath first.