Fifty-first bowl of soup (ten)
"How is this going?"
"General! General, you are back!" The housekeeper saw Chi Jing from a distance, and hurried forward to greet him. Chi Jing, riding on the horse, frowned slightly when he saw the father and daughter who were squatting outside the general's mansion and wailing, causing the crowd to watch Qi Qi: "Are they here to find Madam?"
"Exactly. They said they were asking Madam for help. Madam refused to see them, so they started arguing outside the door. The servant wanted to keep them away, but he was worried that he would be accused of bullying..."
Chi Jing dismounted, took off his cloak and handed it to the guards. Miss Tan raised her head and stared at it, realizing for the first time that such a masculine man was much more handsome than those white-faced scholars. She had been fortunate enough to see the general and Tan Youling getting along several times. Such a tall and strong man, but in front of Tan Youling, he was as tender as water. Although there was no expression on his face, how could his eyes be concealed from others.
She thought Chi Jing got off his horse and was walking towards her, so she sorted herself out and prepared her words, but she saw Chi Jing passing by and directly entered the gate of the general's mansion, and at the same time told the guards: "It is disrespectful to the general's wife to openly break into the general's mansion. They threw it to Jingzhao Mansion and punished it as a crime."
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Chi Jing didn't care at all what the people would think of him, or how he would evaluate his ruthless behavior to his father-in-law's family.
He didn't care long ago.
Tan Youling was reading in the room, when she heard that the general was returning home, she quickly put down the book and went out to greet her, when Chi Jing walked into the yard, she flew into his arms like a cheerful bird, and asked with her small face up: "The general is back ?”
The voice was soft and sweet, and Chi Jing's eyes couldn't help softening, he hummed, hugged her and walked into the room. She started to tell him what she did and what books she read when he was not around, and asked him if he was hungry or tired, Chi Jing answered them one by one, and told her where she went today, What errand did the emperor entrust to him? After the errand was finished, he could rest for a few days, and where would he take her to play, etc.
In the evening when the clouds and rains first rested, Tan Youling lay on Chi Jing's chest, sighing in happiness and in a daze: "I never thought that one day I would be able to live a life like this. If I can be with my husband, no matter how hard I suffer Also willing."
Chi Jing didn't respond, and stroked her long hair with his big hand again and again, how could he talk to her about the sadness in his heart. After a moment of silence, Fang said: "If I walk ahead of you, you don't have to observe festivals for me, and live the life you want to live."
"What nonsense is the general talking about?" Tan Youling was a little angry, she frowned, "Is that why the general wants me to remarry?"
"Of course I don't mean that. It's just... you are young and have no children to worry about. If you can find a good husband, wouldn't it be better than staying in this cold general's mansion?"
"Is the general so sure that I will go first?" Tan Youling's nose soured, and he couldn't tell if he was angry or sad.
Chi Jing sighed softly: "Ling'er, I'm in my thirties, and I'm nearly twenty years older than you. I have fought in the battlefield and suffered countless injuries. It is God's mercy that I can live to this day." , he was silent for a while before continuing, "I'm afraid I don't have the good fortune to grow old with you."
Tan Youling couldn't see what he said, so she hugged him tightly, pressed against his chest, and whispered: "So what, the general is alive, I am the general's wife, and if the general is dead, I will not live alone."
"Don't say childish things." Chi Jing's voice was soft, as if coaxing a willful child who lost his temper.
"No, you have to wait for me on the Naihe Bridge. If I die first, I will wait for you there too."
After hearing this, Chi Jing felt mixed feelings. How did he tell her that not everyone will cross the bridge of Naihe, most people go directly to reincarnation after death, as for a person like him... jumping off the river of forgetfulness, even the soul is no longer complete, how can we see her goodbye Woolen cloth? Whether there is an afterlife is a question, how dare you promise something that will last from life to life until death.
"My fate with you is only in this life. In the next life, you will be clean and you won't remember anything." He smiled lightly at her love like an elder, "I can't force it."
I can't force it.
Tan Youling didn't understand why no matter how happy they were, his eyes were still so sad, and she didn't understand why she couldn't dispel the loneliness and alienation in him even though she tried her best. She didn't know what she could do to save this situation. Man, because she has no idea why he's upset.
He said nothing to her.
Even as his wife, even in the arms of this man, even if he respects her, loves her and takes care of her, he still doesn't tell her anything.
"I like my husband." Tan Youling said with her eyes closed. "I like it very much. I like it so much that if I can, I am willing to bear all the pain for my husband. I don't know what is in my husband's heart, and I don't want to know. But I will always be with you, no matter what the future is, no matter what happened in the past, I All with me."
"I don't force it, but if you can hold it in your hands, who is willing to give it up?"
Chi Jing was shocked.
"I will never leave you, and I will never fall in love with others again." After she said this, Chi Jing felt hot on his bare chest.
Those were Tan Youling's tears.
Then she hugged him and fell into a deep sleep without speaking again, leaving Chi Jing alone all night.
Waking up the next morning, Tan Youling was still the same as before, living every day happily and earnestly. It's just that she may have been frightened by Chi Jing, as long as he is in the mansion, she always likes to follow him, and she will follow him wherever he goes.
Seven or eight years have passed since their happy life. Tan Youling, who is in her twenties, is still beautiful. Never been able to have a child from beginning to end.
For Chi Jing, there is no concern if there is no child.
In recent days, Tan Youling found that her husband, who had always been indifferent, seemed to have adjusted his personal settings with him, and began to cling to her. When she went to the palace to talk to the empress, he also followed. It was inconvenient for him to listen to women's topics, so he waited outside, unwilling to leave her for a second anyway.
At first, Tan Youling thought it was very sweet. She really rarely saw Chi Jing like this, but she didn't realize until Chi Jing fell down that he knew that his time was approaching, so he refused to leave her and wanted to spend more time with her. a little more.
In the past six months, he has stopped helping the emperor with affairs, and stayed by her side all day long, obeying her in everything, and she agreed to everything she said.
Now Tan Youling finally knew why.
Chi Rui's illness was so severe that even the imperial physician couldn't diagnose what the illness was. He only knew that his body was gradually declining, and he was facing death without warning.
Compared with the sadness of the emperor and others, Tan Youling was very calm.
On the night when Chi Jing left, no one was with him except Tan Youling. He gazed tenderly at the girl who had been with him for so many years, and wanted to raise his hand to wipe away her tears, but he had no strength.
Tan Youling finally couldn't hold back her tears, she tremblingly kissed Chi Jing's lips and forehead, and asked him: "Are you leaving?"
Chi Jing said, "Yes."
"I can't bear you." Her tears fell more urgently and fiercely, with a heart-wrenching feeling.
"Don't cry." He touched her face with difficulty with his bony hands. "I will feel bad."
Tan Youling rubbed his small face against his hand with attachment, and took a deep breath: "It's a pity, this life can only be with you for ten years. If there is an afterlife..."
If there is an afterlife.
It would be nice to have an afterlife.
Chi Jing didn't tell her anything about herself. From the beginning to the end, Tan Youling didn't know who the person she loved for so many years was, and she didn't even know her lover's name.
Even Chi Jing himself couldn't remember it.
He said nothing, looked at her, and closed his eyes.
Tan Youling snuggled up to his chest, as if they had slept together every night for ten years. She promised in her heart that she would not be too sad and would not follow him, but how could such a good person meet a second one
After Chi Jing's death, the emperor and queen were very worried about Tan Youling's emotions. After all, they could see how loving these two were, but Tan Youling still lived quietly every day, but would spend a long time in a daze.
According to Chi Jing's wishes, everything in the funeral was kept simple, and Tan Youling seemed to have seen Ye Qianlu in the crowd when he was carrying his coffin. She wasn't sure if she read it wrong, but it didn't matter anymore, the general was no longer in this world, and those loves and hatreds were not important anymore.
Ye Qianlu is still married to her cousin in the previous life, but her life is not good, she hides in the crowd and watches the coffin being lifted, and there lies the man she owed her all her life, but he doesn't want him in this life she is gone. His wife is so beautiful and noble, and he has long been excluded from his life.
She came to see him for the last time, but she didn't know why.
Without Chi Jing, Tan Youling still has to live on, but the longer he lives, the more he misses her.
No one hugged her late at night, no one whispered softly in her ear, and she would never see that person again. This kind of sad mood made Tan Youling unable to control herself. She wanted to follow Chi Jing more than once, but she held back.
She promised him that she would let him go alone without looking for him.
Because even if he goes, there is no way to find out where he is.
This day, Tan Youling tossed and turned on the bed for a long time and couldn't fall asleep. She changed the big bed in the bedroom, because there would no longer be a general holding her in his arms from behind. She would think of him every night, but she missed him too much pain.
I don't know how long it took, she seemed to be asleep, but she didn't seem to. In the dream, a white and tender little dumpling ran up to her happily, hugged her calf and looked up at her, smiling.
Tan Youling didn't have children, but liked children very much, so she bent down and asked, "Who are you, and what's your name?"
Xiaotuanzi smiled and rolled his big eyes: "My name is Moze."