Sixty-sixth bowl of soup (five)
After hearing Liuli's words, the pipa moved twice, lazily, as if she wanted to say something, but Liuli was in a trance and didn't pay attention.
Ren Wusi slept for three full days. He hasn't had a good night's sleep for a long time. On weekdays, whenever he sleeps, he will dream. The dreams are all sad and tormenting scenes, so he tries to avoid going to bed. Sleeping, so the whole person is sleepy, the eyes are always surrounded by a faint black circle, at first glance, it looks like a dead person crawling out of the grave.
When he woke up, the weather was fine, the sun was bright, shining on the floor of the house, fine dust particles floated in the air, it looked very beautiful, and sitting beside his bed was a girl who was staring at him.
That's his girl.
Liuli didn't intend to let him see that she remembered everything, but just smiled at him, and then reached out to touch the center of his frowning brow. This man was burdened with too many things, his soul was extremely heavy, and Pipa was clamoring to devour him.
This kind of sadness is enough for Pipa to eat, and he will not eat for a long time.
But she doesn't allow Pipa to act rashly, how can the soul infected with despair be washed clean? Restored and reborn, clean as a newborn baby, in that case, you can start from scratch and forget everything.
"You're awake." She said softly, lowered her head and rubbed Ren Wusi's face with her small face, the dark circles on his face faded a lot, and the whole person looked as gentle as jade, just with a whisper The yin qi that can't be released, the depression for many years can't be changed in a short time.
Ren Wusi also rubbed her back. He is clumsy in expressing emotions, which is strange to say. When he was concealing his true identity, he could be said to be eloquent when he was in love with Liuli, but now he is so clumsy that he can't say anything, let alone go. Please her.
"You've been sleeping for a long time, it's time to get up." Liuli held his face, "Let's go out to bask in the sun."
Ren Wusi was supposed to be going to court, but he didn't go for three whole days. The palace sent someone to ask, and after learning that Lord Yushi was "seriously ill and comatose", he went back to report. The emperor took pity on him and gave him extra sick leave. I want him to recover before going to court. Originally, there was an imperial physician, but the imperial physician came and took the pulse, but he couldn’t diagnose the cause—of course he couldn’t, and it would be expensive if he could be diagnosed, because he was sleepy.
Liuli's words made Ren Wusi a little dazed, but he quickly realized that these three days and three nights were the first time in so many years that he hadn't dreamed of his father covered in blood, and hadn't had the poisonous oath ringing in his ears. He even felt very happy when he woke up, as if he had been reborn.
Or maybe it wasn't so appropriate. To be more precise, he let go a little bit, figured it out a little bit, and became desperate a little bit.
It doesn't matter what happens, he wants to spend the rest of the time with Liuli, and no one can stop him.
So he held Liuli's hand instead, put it on his lips and kissed it lightly: "Does Liuli miss your brother?"
She smiled obediently: "I think about it, brother, get up quickly, let's go out to bask in the sun."
After speaking, he ran over to fetch his clothes. Ren Wusi put on the scholar's robe, washed his hair, and looked much more refreshed. He was no longer gloomy like before. This is how he can truly be the handsome young man in the hearts of all the noble ladies in the capital.
Even Liuli has to admit that Ren Wusi is good-looking. If there is no such grievance, he must be extremely outstanding, and he will not become what he is now.
But good fortune makes people, God never cares whether you are innocent or wronged. He gives you pain, and you have to bear it, maybe your pain is ten times or a hundred times that of ordinary people, but so what, if you can't resist, you can only bear it.
Boil it.
to die.
Because this is fate.
Liuli gradually realizes the reality of fate. It is said that God is fair, but she knows that he is actually the most unfair. He treats the good people more and more badly, and treats the bad people more and more kindly. He said that it is not that he will not report.
If you don't want to be entangled by hostility, you can only accept your fate.
Ren Wusi took her hand and strolled around the mansion. Yushi Mansion is too big, with unique scenery of rockery and flowing water. Now that the weather is getting warmer, the koi in the pond are no longer as lazy and slow as in deep winter. Under the sun, the water surface is shimmering, and the golden koi is shining. Occasionally, a drop of water will burst out of the lake, and Liuli will pick up the stone and throw it.
It's a pity that her accuracy was not enough, so Ren Wusi held her hand and taught her, and the two laughed together in the pavilion.
In fact, only Liuli smiled at the beginning, Ren Wusi just hooked his lips slightly, he really didn’t look very good-looking when he smiled, and didn’t want Liuli to be afraid, but Liuli poked the corners of his mouth with his fingers and grimaced. children.
Laughing is something you can learn without a teacher. Later, Ren Wusi didn't notice that he was laughing. Anyway, he was happy, so why bother to care about whether it looks good or not.
He held her in his arms, and felt that this was the life he dreamed of. The wish that he had longed for countless times in his dreams but could not get it had now come true, which made Ren Wusi a little unbelievable. He hugged Liuli tightly, fearing that she was fake and that he would be in an illusion. When he woke up, all these beauties would be broken like soap bubbles, and what was left to him was still a dark abyss.
But... "Why are you still holding it?"
Holding Liuli and Ren Wusi is of course willing and willing, but this pipa...why is it so ignorant of current affairs to stand between the two
Liuli hugged the pipa as carefully as a treasure protector: "I like it, I want to take it with me."
What she likes, Ren Wusi is reluctant to say anything, so he has no choice but to hug her... and Pipa.
In fact, Pipa is very disgusted in her heart, and she is not willing to be hugged by such a mortal at all. It's a pity that it is under the control of others now, and Liuli finally remembered that it was not controlled by drugs, otherwise it would still be a dead thing, unable to even move.
This feeling is really terrible. When will it be free? !
Liuli didn't pay attention to what Pipa was thinking, she leaned back into Ren Wusi's arms, "Brother..."
Ren Wusi hummed.
Although she remembered everything, Liuli didn't know what the host really wanted. It is absolutely impossible to kill Ren Wusi. What makes the host suffer is knowing that he is right or wrong, but still loves this person deeply, so he can't do it; it is impossible to say that he is with Ren Wusi well. However, the real Liuli died when she gave birth to a stillborn baby, and Ren Wusi killed himself after learning about it when he came back. The situation that is developing now is different from the memories she got, which have never appeared before.
It was also because Liuli couldn't judge what the host wanted.
Are you getting along well with Ren Wusi
If it is possible, why do the two struggle endlessly like this? The hatred between them is too deep, even if they are unwilling to hate each other, but the psychological torture is not less day and night.
There is no way to be together.
I can't bear to kill him, and I can't be with him. Could it be that... I want to have another child
Liuli recalled the scene of being coaxed and overwhelmed by Ren Wusi when he had no memory before. He seemed to have an obsession, and that obsession was to form a happy and happy family with Liuli. And it is not enough for a family to have only husband and wife, children are also needed.
Maybe... the host's wish is also the same
Liuli thought about it, and thought it was very possible, but she was not sure, and she didn't have a definite answer. Everything she could do was to keep the status quo and follow the rhythm of Ren Wusi, even though this person was already crazy. It made her unable to understand.
Of course Ren Wusi is a lunatic, but his reason suppressed this madness. But eating the second child and getting Liuli with no past memory made him no longer restrain himself.
At first, he restrained himself for revenge, and later, he restrained himself to prevent himself from loving her. What else does he need to restrain now
Does he still want to climb up
forget about it. No matter how big an official is, it doesn't make any sense, riches, money and power are all things that Ren Wusi disdains, what he wants is Liuli.
Then don't live so cautiously again, maybe he can be reckless once, don't care about anything, don't think about anything, if the flames of hell greet him at the end, he is also willing to be burned to death.
What's the use of keeping the hands that ruined all of Liuli? He just wants to get that little bit of warmth, and it doesn't matter what happens after that.
"I want to be a bride."
Ren Wusi was taken aback when he heard this, and Liuli looked at him eagerly after speaking innocently, looking very longing.
He said that he owed her a wedding, maybe this is what the host regretted.
But Ren Wusi didn't reply for a while, Liuli began to worry whether he forgot, or maybe she was too obvious, so she said aggrievedly: "Brother, don't you want to play house wine with Liuli?"
Of course, Ren Wusi thought that his greatest wish in this life was to marry his beloved Liuli back home in an upright manner, but the identities of the two of them doomed this marriage to nothing, and neither of them had a marriage blessed by their parents. is the best they can get.
"Do you want some house wine?"
Liuli's eyes sparkled: "Play!"
Ren Wusi chuckled. "Then give brother some time, how about making beautiful Fengguanxiapei for Liuli?"
"How long will I have to wait? I really want to play now..." She was so wronged.
Ren Wusi kissed her face, "Soon, it won't be long."
He owed her too much and wanted to give her too much. This wedding should have been held when she was sixteen years old, but it was so long late.
He wanted to be more refined and more grand in preparation.