Sixty-eighth bowl of soup (six)
As a disabled person in the cold palace, Yin Sunu knew that for the rest of her life, she could only die of old age here. She is not qualified to see the emperor, and the emperor will not come to pick her up again. It took her thirteen years to understand this.
But she will be entangled with him until death. So after digging out the emperor's bones, she also took out her own bones.
Starting from the leg, the pain was so piercing, desperate but sober, she trembled, and made a rough lute out of these bones. She also pulled out her own tendons to make strings—but such a pipa smelled like blood and could not play any sound, and then she died slowly holding the pipa.
What Yin Sunu did before her death was enough to shock the world. She killed the king and broke her bones. He himself didn't know why. When he realized it, he inexplicably came back to life, with his beloved Queen Zhou lying beside him.
Then he spent several months thinking about it, but in the end he still couldn't control the desire in his heart. He went to the cold palace to bring Yin Sunu out, gave her glory, and let her restore her status as a noble concubine, but—but he still didn't know why to do so.
Now that she is also reborn, the emperor doesn't understand why they are torturing each other.
After returning to Jucui Palace, Yin Sunu went to rest, and she still held her pipa during the rest. The emperor had seen the prototype of this pipa, but he didn't know how she made it so perfect. The bones above belonged to the two of them, which seemed to represent something in the dark.
Even if the pipa is perfect, how did she bring it to this life? There are many doubts in it, but the emperor really can't figure it out.
Of course he couldn't figure it out, he had never been to Nai He, nor jumped off the River of Forgetfulness, let alone experienced thousands of years of suffering, how could he understand
No one in the world understands.
People who don't feel it hurts enough and don't matter, they are not Yin Sunu. The one who is really stuck in pain and unable to break free is Yin Sunu, not anyone else. Whether she breaks free or falls, no one can save her, and no one is qualified to comment.
This is her choice, her destiny, a destiny bestowed by God, which cannot be rejected or resisted.
Do you think it’s enough to empathize with this kind of thing, just talk about it? If you have not experienced the same thing, what qualifications do you have to say that you are relieved
Whenever you are surrounded by suffering, you will be so painful that you will be shattered, and then you will understand that it is better to die than to live, and to be wiped out is better than the six realms of reincarnation.
Yin Sunu curled up on the bed, she didn't like lying down and sleeping, it made her feel very insecure. Pipa is also perched in her arms at this moment, quietly and without any movement. Even in a deep sleep, her hands were still unconsciously rubbing in the pipa. After death, she went to Naihe, and she jumped down the river of forgetfulness with the pipa. The pipa is not a living thing, and it is safe and sound in the river of forgetfulness. Weak, afraid of everything, but still desperate for the pipa.
It was only because that was the only connection she had with the emperor, and they were entwined with each other, so they had this pipa that had no sound. Later, she could never leave. Maybe one day she would not be able to let go of the pipa even if she put down the emperor.
She wanted to completely lock the emperor's soul into the pipa and make him stay with her forever.
Lock up his deceit and betrayal, lock up his ruthlessness and cruelty, lock up his excuses and feelings, all belong to her alone.
There will be no more Zhou Baolin and Queen Zhou, nor will there be any princes and princesses, just him and her, and each other's bones.
This is her persistent wish for thousands of years.
She doesn't need him to promise herself, and she doesn't believe in any vows of eternal love, she just needs to hold him firmly in her hands. Or maybe she doesn't even care whether he loves her or not, as long as she has him, Yin Sunu is satisfied.
Yin Sunu slept soundly, she doesn't have too strong desire for anything now, if she wants to get it, she knows that she will get it. Before that, she was wondering why the emperor didn't kill herself after rebirth, but now she doesn't care so much. Whether he kills her or not, that is the emperor's choice, and it is also his own brand new destiny.
But when she opened her eyes, the emperor was sleeping beside her.
So nice, so quiet, and no one around.
If she wants to kill him, she can start now. He is absolutely incapable of resisting the reborn Yin Su Nu. Most importantly, Yin Su Nu, who studied medicine in the second world, can now perfectly remove the The emperor's bones will not be damaged.
In this case, Pipa should become more perfect. Then she could claim the emperor's soul for herself so he would never leave her again.
But... At present, she can't get up the energy to do this. Yin Sunu didn't understand what was wrong with her. She looked at the emperor quietly and put her hand on his chest.
The chest under the palm is broad and strong, and the heartbeat is strong, beating again and again. But the dug out heart wouldn't beat anymore, even if she had quick hands, it could only keep beating for a moment, and then the pungent smell of blood remained.
How did that happen.
Yin Sunu touched and touched that piece of chest affectionately, until the emperor's joking voice came from above her head: "What is Susu doing?"
When she looked up, the emperor had a smile on his lips, and his eyebrows and eyes had no other meaning, as if it was really interesting because of her touch. Yin Sunu was a little puzzled, how could this happen? It stands to reason... the emperor should be terribly afraid of himself. Even if he was taken out of the cold palace for some reason, he shouldn't be so gentle, let alone sleep beside her so boldly.
Why did he do this
For Yin Su Nu, this is a difficult question to answer, but for the emperor, his focus is completely different from Yin Su Nu. If you really want to ask, he doesn't know why he is not afraid that this woman will kill him again, maybe he knows deep down in his heart. As long as he lives up to her, even if the whole world turns against him one day, she will stand by his side unswervingly and never leave him.
But precisely because the relationship is so deep and long-lasting, it is even more unbearable to betrayal and deceit.
He touched Yin Su's face, and said in a soft and low voice, "It was my mistake, I... will never do it again."
The warm palm caressed the cheek, which was very comfortable, like a feather fluttering gently, and the whole heart was comforted. Yin Sunu subconsciously rubbed her small face against the emperor's palm, and said after a while, "The Holy Majesty treats me badly."
Hypocrisy is the most hurtful thing.
"I will change it." The emperor said, bowing his head and kissing Yin Sunu's cheek, "Give me a chance, let's start from the beginning."
start from scratch
Yin Sunu thought about these four words a long time ago. But she has never succeeded. It is too easy to talk about it, but it is another matter to actually do it.
So everyone in the palace knew that the Holy Majesty and the imperial concubine had reconciled as before.
But Yin Sunu is very clear that reconciliation is reconciliation, but as before... not necessarily.
Regarding this situation, Queen Zhou, who had been quiet all along, was in a hurry. The Holy Majesty has not been to her Fengyi Palace for many days, and all stayed with the bitch in Jucui Palace, how could this happen? The Holy Majesty said that she is his wife! What is that bitch who has been sidelined for several years!
That's why she especially wanted to meet the emperor. The emperor didn't want to see her at first, but Empress Zhou relied on his past favor and rushed into the imperial study. What's wrong! Could it be that you just don't want to see your concubines!"
The emperor put down the cinnabar pen in his hand, stared at Queen Zhou twice, and said lightly, "I'm busy with government affairs these days..."
"Your Majesty is so busy, so busy that you don't even have time to have a meal with our three mothers!" Queen Zhou wiped her tears. She has a weak personality and likes to act like a baby, and Yin Su, who is strong and endures all the pain, swallows it in her stomach. Women are quite different. Normally, the Holy Majesty would feel distressed seeing her crying, but today she didn't react at all, and had to let Queen Zhou think that Yin Sunu said something behind her back.
If Yin Sunu is not that kind of person—a person who has been in the cold palace for three years and has tasted the warmth and coldness of the world, who can guarantee that she will remain the same
Therefore, Queen Zhou's mind was like a revolving lantern, and she just wanted to invite the emperor to her Fengyi Palace tonight, so there was no better excuse than a child. "Both children want to be the emperor, and the concubine... also wants to be the emperor."
She is as young and beautiful as a girl, and she even added a bit of coquettishness because of having a child. The emperor looked at her but was not moved by her, and asked her for a long time: "Zheng'er is also your child, you are too neglectful." him."
Empress Zhou's face froze, "The concubine is busy taking care of the other two young ones these days, but she has neglected Zheng'er a little bit, and the Holy One needs to take care of him. Zheng'er is too naughty, and the concubine won't listen to what he says. It is inseparable from what the Holy One taught."
The emperor sighed lightly, and didn't say that he would go at night, nor that he couldn't go, but said: "You step back, I'll talk about it when I'm done."
Empress Zhou has yet to say anything, the emperor has already devoted himself to the memorial. She knows the emperor well, in his heart nothing is more important than the country, even she dare not touch the emperor's scales.
When Empress Zhou stepped back, the emperor's expression became more and more obscure. The light shone in and sprinkled on the ground, forming a strange light, and casting an incomparably clear shadow on his face.
Empress Zhou and Concubine Yin conceived a dragon fetus together, but happened to be born prematurely at seven months, all because of the framing of other concubines in the harem. It's just that the endings of the two are different. Concubine Yin's child was born, while Empress Zhou's child died after his eyebrows had been formed.
The eldest prince is the child of Concubine Yin.