Seventy-third bowl of soup (5)
In his previous life, Zhong Lang had a close eye on her, and he didn't like her leaving his sight, and he didn't like her staring at others. Therefore, Zhong Lang hated the job of an actor. He hated Qing Huan's affectionate appearance in front of other men, especially her good acting skills, which always made him feel that she really loved him, so he felt that this job was even more unpleasant. Later, because of the rising conflict between the two, he simply locked her up and prevented her from appearing in front of the world again.
He wished that no one in this world would remember her any more, and let her completely become something that only belonged to him.
So when Zhong Lang in this life put several carefully selected scripts in front of Qing Huan, her first reaction was that this man thought of some way to lie to her. In his previous life, he pretended to be magnanimous and told her that he was going to give her freedom, but when she really wanted to leave, he would immediately turn his back on him—such a moody guy.
So Qing Huan stared at the script for a second, without reaching out to touch it, but said: "I don't want to act anymore."
"Why?"
How can there be so many whys, what does he have to ask, others don't know, doesn't he know why? Qing Huan pursed her lips, she didn't believe what Zhong Lang said to her from the beginning to the end, this person is too good at deceiving, didn't she just be deceived in her previous life? She can't take the risk of trusting him, otherwise she doesn't know what serious consequences it will bring to herself. "... I just think it's quite boring. I've photographed it in my previous life, and I don't want to do it again in this life."
She lied, she obviously liked it very much. Zhong Lang frowned. He didn't understand why Qing Huan refused such a good opportunity. He certainly didn't want her to show up and be known, but he resisted the urge to hide her, but she told him Say she doesn't like it anymore? Zhong Lang didn't bring a word of letter. He knew that this woman was related to her every frown and smile or even an ordinary little gesture. She clearly wanted to go, so why not
He will never be able to understand, this is a naturally missing emotion for him, he can only see Qing Huan's duplicity, so he snorted coldly: "Give you an hour, pick one you like from here, otherwise …”
He didn't need to say those threatening words, an unfinished sentence was enough to make Qing Huan's hair stand on end. Seeing her grabbing the script and looking at it seriously, Zhong Lang got up and left with a strange look on his face.
Qing Huan was afraid that he would torment herself again, so she read the script seriously without paying attention, Zhong Lang went back to the room and went to the bathroom, looked left and right in the mirror—is there any problem? He is obviously handsome, and she also said that she has never seen anyone more beautiful than him, so why is she not happy at all? Didn't he give her what she liked? Why did she still look unhappy when she got it
For the first time in Zhong Lang's life, he had this kind of question: what kind of image is he in her heart
But counting the things he did in his previous life, Zhong Lang didn't think it was too much at all. He likes her and doesn't want her to be nice to others, but she doesn't listen to him and insists on breaking up with him. He persuades her not to listen with good words, so what's wrong with him locking her up? He would get angry again and again if he wanted to escape after being locked up, so what's wrong with teaching her a lesson? He didn't beat her or scold her, he just had sex between men and women, until he realized he couldn't quite control her, so he chose drugs - what's wrong with that
Oh... Zhong Lang suddenly realized when he saw himself in the mirror, maybe she thought that courtesy should be reciprocated.
The script in Qing Huan's hand was taken away before she finished reading it, and when she saw Zhong Lang's serious expression, she immediately sat up straight, thinking that Zhong Lang was going to say something threatening, but who knew he just opened his mouth: "You can do that to me too. I."
… What
She was confused and obviously didn't understand, so Zhong Lang repeated: "Treat me as I treat you."
Qing Huan: "..."
"You're upset because of this, right? Do you think I bullied you?" Zhong Lang recalled his previous life and didn't feel that he had done anything wrong. The only regret for him was that he didn't lock her up and hide her for safety. , so that she would not run away in collusion with others, let alone die in a dark alley. He still remembers how he put her together. The pain made him understand that if Qing Huan can be brought back to life and see him in real life again, he can give in.
After saying this sentence, he left again. Qing Huan could never keep up with his unconstrained thinking. A few minutes later, Zhong Lang came back and said, "It's done."
alright? What's up
Not long after, someone respectfully delivered a large box of things, Zhong Lang opened it in front of Qing Huan, and said to her, "You can use these on me, too."
Qing Huan's face turned red immediately, she was very familiar with those things inside, Zhong Lang liked to use all kinds of tools to torture her in her previous life, but now...
"Anything is fine." Zhong Lang shrugged. In his previous life, he had been thinking about why she left him. Now he realized that it might be because she thought it was unfair. He was the only one who played with her. So this time, for the sake of fairness, he also Let her play with him. "Lock me up, whip me, rape me, and sexually abuse me. If you still don't think it's enough, I'll build a separate basement for you. When the time comes—"
Qing Huan interrupted him very quickly: "I don't!" She would never do that kind of thing that tramples human dignity under her feet!
"Why?" Zhong Lang asked her strangely, "Aren't you just dissatisfied with my treatment of you?"
She simply didn't know how to tell him that his brain circuits were different from ordinary people, and this was the first time Qing Huan knew about it.
"Oh." Zhong Lang suddenly understood again, "Or do you want me to smoke it too? Then stop it. I used to smoke it when I was a teenager. It felt boring, so I quit."
To say that detoxification is as difficult as going to heaven is like taking a bath, the unforgivable pain to Qing Huan is nothing to Zhong Lang, it is either the rest of his play, or a harmless game in his cognition ——Qing Huan really wanted to cut open this person's brain to see what kind of structure it was inside. "I don't!"
"Then what do you want?" Zhong Lang was even more distressed. "I don't want to be angry, and I don't want to make you angry." He has tried very hard to restrain himself, not to scare her or do anything to her, the most proud thing is that he doesn't use his favorite one when doing it at night Posture, everything depends on her needs, why is she still not satisfied
"I, you..." Qing Huan spoke incoherently, Zhong Lang was not afraid of torture and revenge at all, he was simply a lunatic!
Zhong Lang stared at her for a while, then looked at the assortment of boxes: "Are you sure you don't want it?" There seemed to be pity in his tone, Qing Huan shook his head violently: "No!"
But Zhong Lang likes these things, so he is reluctant to throw them away, "Then I will ask someone to put them away first, so they will be needed in the future."
Hearing what he said was horrifying, what do you mean it will be useful in the future? Who can use it? how to use? Qing Huan didn't want to ask any further, she held the script in her hand, and felt the gloom and frustration for the first time, she didn't even know Zhong Lang was such a person, the script was about to be torn apart by her, and it took a while before she could speak: " I, I don't want you to control me!"
Zhong Lang pinched her face, it was soft and smooth, whiter than milk, he leaned forward and kissed her before slowly asking: "That's not okay."
"you… "
"In my previous life, you didn't like the way I treated you. It took me many years to understand this." Zhong Lang was distressed, "I worked hard to change it, but I couldn't bear it when you refused me and didn't listen to me. Live in Huoda, look, it was not my intention to threaten you in the car the first two times, if you are willing to obediently accompany me, nothing will happen." Not only will nothing happen, you can even ride on his head act wildly.
Zhong Lang is a very strange person. He is not a patriarch, nor is he machismo, and he does not even possess normal values and outlook on life. This is related to his innate personality and inseparable from his acquired environment. There are no normal people in the Zhong family, and normal people cannot survive in the Zhong family, Qing Huan can't understand this. The more he rebounded, the stronger his suppression and the more cruel his methods, but when you questioned him, he thought it was a normal method he adopted—or else? Watching her leave? disappear? Say goodbye
Everyone has weaknesses, he can always keep her by his side for the rest of his life, it doesn't matter if he is afraid or willing.
If it wasn't for the death of Qing Huan in the previous life, if it wasn't for the remaining decades of the previous life that made Zhong Lang vaguely feel what she hated, he would never have changed.
Although this so-called change... didn't really change much, but at least it wasn't the same as in the previous life, going to the basement if there was a disagreement.
What dignity is, what respect is, Zhong Lang doesn't understand, neither does he. If the price for Qing Huan to stay at ease and never leave is to whip him, train him or repeat what he has done to her, he doesn't care. For such a person, physical revenge is not worth mentioning, spiritually. It was even more difficult because he was not afraid of anything and he didn't care about anything. Things like self-esteem are probably not as important as the breath you exhale.
But now Zhong Lang wants to keep a person who is completely at odds with his own ideas, as if living in two worlds, but the ending seems to have been predestined, either you die, or I die.
Even if he could do it all over again, even if there were countless reasons to explain it, it would be useless, because Qing Huan would never love him again.