Seventy-ninth bowl of soup (2)
"got used to."
Liang Ze said these three words very naturally, and then started busying himself. The floor needs to be mopped, the dishes need to be brushed, and many things need to be tidied up. Qing Huan had no appetite, couldn't eat, watched him busy around, went to stop him: "Don't be busy."
Liang Ze was surprised, she slowly considered the words, thinking about how to maintain a strange state between two people: "You don't need to do this for me, I have already called the housekeeping company. I heard the hospital The nurse said, you have been taking care of me for the past few months, I woke up and went home without telling you, I am really sorry."
She was so calm, Liang Ze didn't dare to recognize her. He was used to the arrogant and willful Qing Huan, and seeing her suddenly change, he couldn't believe what he saw. "What's wrong with you? Is there any discomfort?"
"I found the old photo albums and some statuses on the Internet, and I know what our relationship used to be, but now that we broke up, I just forgot, so don't remind me of it." Qing Huan said lightly , she really can't remember what happened, but she can still see clues from the past items. It was nothing more than her unreasonable unreasonableness that made Liang Ze feel tired and unacceptable, so he proposed to break up.
He couldn't bear it anymore, but even so, he still couldn't help taking care of her, probably because of the habit he developed since childhood. The Liang family treated her very well, but it was because of this that Qing Huan felt that she should not blame Liang Ze for breaking up with her before she lost her memory. But she can only look at it clearly and calmly if she doesn't remember anything. If she still remembers, maybe she will still mess around and refuse to let go.
Maybe Liang Ze still likes her, but she is just too much to bear.
"Qing Huan..." It was impossible for Liang Ze to rest assured that she would be alone, they grew up together, even if they couldn't be together, the affection between them couldn't be cut off.
But Qing Huan was very insistent: "I don't want to see you again in a short time, and you don't want to come to me either. I'm sorry about the past, but I will trouble you not to bother me about my life in the future. On the contrary, I don't want to Will go back to you. About you and your family... I appreciate you guys being so good to me and raising me, but I don't remember it now so I have no desire to go back. Can you see what I mean ?”
In other words, she is a complete stranger now, and has nothing to do with the Liang family. Qing Huan thought, if others knew, they would feel that she was heartless. But this is what she thinks now, in order not to hurt herself, she chooses to push these people away—she prefers to live alone.
Seeing those photos would make her feel sad, if she lived with Liang Ze again, she would watch him find his lover again, maybe get married and have children until he grows old, so how embarrassing would she have to be
Liang Ze felt that he didn't know Qing Huan after waking up at all. She was not the same as before, as if she was a completely different person, so strange that he thought he had never understood her before. That capricious Qing Huan who would be jealous and angry every time he said anything to a woman seemed to have completely disappeared just like that.
There was relief in his heart, but there was also loss.
Qing Huan didn't give Liang Ze a chance to speak, she pushed him out and closed the door in front of him. Then she turned around and touched her face. She didn't know when tears had flowed down her cheeks, and she was very embarrassed. She obviously doesn't remember anything, but she is still sad like this. What did she go through before she lost her memory? What else does she not know? Is there anything else she hasn't found from the scattered past that she pieced together from the photo album and the Internet
However, it's fine if you don't get it back. If you get it back, you should be even more unhappy.
She slid down with her back against the door panel, her hands hugging her knees, sobbing softly.
So sad, so sad that I want to die again.
Seeing Liang Ze, she couldn't hide the sadness, the strong sadness surged in her heart, making her seem to be trapped in a huge cage. But she doesn't know the reason or the result, she only has one locked present. If she doesn't escape quickly, she will die again.
It took Qing Huan a long time to get up from the ground, she looked at the empty living room, she felt that she needs to start a new life quickly, she can't be doing nothing like this, can't always think about Liang Ze, she and him are over.
Whether it's a lover, brother or sister, or a friend, don't do these anymore. It's best not to meet again in this life, so she will feel happy.
Because she wanted to get rid of the past she couldn't remember, Qing Huan quickly found someone to redecorate the house, but it cost several times the price. The pink princess style has completely disappeared, and the new style presented is a minimalist cool color system. The dolls and dolls are not willing to be thrown away, and she gave them to the children in the nearest orphanage, as well as those beautiful and immature Loli Tower wind skirt—has she been living in a dream in the past
If so, Qing Huan can imagine, for the princess who has been living in ivory towers and dreams, suddenly one day the dream collapses and the reality is cruelly torn apart, what it means to her.
Liang Ze is that reality. He didn't want her anymore, and he wanted to break up, which was the last straw that broke her.
Qing Huan sat in the office and lit a cigarette. I don't know when I contracted this problem. It may be that I was really upset at home a few days after I was discharged from the hospital. I happened to see an unopened box of women's cigarettes in the drawer. I tried it at that time and found that it worked wonders.
She is really different from before, which can be seen from the eyes of many people.
The studio at home was converted into a gym, and Qing Huan never painted again, because she had no inspiration at all when she was faced with a blank canvas. When she picked up the paintbrush, all kinds of Liang Ze were in her mind. For me before amnesia, Huahua and Liang Ze were the whole of life, now her left hand is basically useless, Liang Ze also broke up with her, the past is equivalent to a complete collapse, so she doesn't want it anymore.
Perhaps it was in her heart that she felt that the self before amnesia and the present self were not the same person at all. She just inherited her thoughts and emotions before she lost her memory, not her soul. Otherwise, why was she able to let go of the paintings and people she once loved
It must be so.
She is the new her and should not be bound by the past.
So when her left hand was almost healed, she came to work at the company. In order to hide the injury of her left hand, she used to wrap a bandage on her wrist, but when people saw that the bandage was not good, she bought a very beautiful agate bracelet. Wearing it, occasionally revealing red marks under the bracelet that cannot fade away, like old wounds in my heart. It doesn't hurt anymore, but it's still there, and always will be.
She sat quietly in the office and learned how to manage a company well. She studied art in college, and Qing Huan knew nothing about it, so now her agent is giving her extra lessons, and she is studying crazily every day, because there is no time. Not enough, so the frequency of thinking about Liang Ze is gradually decreasing.
The agent who taught her was the person who has been managing the company for so many years. He is probably not young. Qing Huan never asked. The other party still looks young, but the temperament and calmness accumulated over the years are by no means age. A light boy can have it. Qing Huan once observed the other party to see if there were any fine lines in the corners of his eyes. After all, he was in charge as long as she could remember, but it seemed that the other party was very elegant and had a perfect posture when he occasionally smiled.
"Uncle Kong, I still don't quite understand this." She pointed to a certain definition in the book and asked.
Although I am a novice in terms of business management, this kind of serious learning attitude is very popular. Kong Hanri looked at it and explained it to her slowly. His voice is beautiful, deep and magnetic, and he is very dignified. Otherwise, it would be impossible for the company to stand upright for so many years, and even the Liang family could not catch up.
Kong Hanri is an excellent teacher, and Qing Huan is a very hard-working student and very smart. One is comfortable teaching, the other is happy to learn, and they get along well. When he learned that Qing Huan lost his memory and was about to take over the family business, Kong Hanri was surprised. This girl was always dazzled by love in the past, but this time she suddenly became enlightened. It seems that losing her memory once in a while is not a good thing at all. of.
He was good friends with Qing Huan's father who had passed away. After his friend passed away, he thought about adopting Qing Huan, but after thinking about it, he took over the position of agent and raised another little girl. It might not be nice to say it. It just so happened that the Liang family also requested to take care of Qing Huan, and Qing Huan himself was unwilling to be with him at the time, so Kong Hanri did not force it. However, almost twenty years have passed, and the relationship between him and Qing Huan has become much estranged. They don't see each other several times throughout the year, and they only greet each other during the New Year and holidays.
Originally, Kong Hanri was happy to see the matter between her and Liang Ze come to fruition. He knew and trusted the behavior of the old Liang family. They must have raised the little girl as their own daughter, but Qing Huan's character was indeed a big problem. Let's just say, Kong Hanri, who has such a good temper, can't stand it. It was a matter of time before the young couple broke up, but he never thought that Qing Huan would commit suicide.
After she committed suicide, Liang Ze didn't dare to talk about the breakup anymore, but at this moment, the little girl forgot everything!
I don't know whether it is good or bad.
It has been more than a month since she was discharged from the hospital, and it seems that there is nothing serious. Liang Ze has come to her many times and she refuses to see her.