Seventy-ninth bowl of soup (seven)
Liang Ze had always wanted to meet Qing Huan, but Uncle Kong was too strict to find the opportunity. His calls to her in the past were always unanswered, until one day, Qing Huan contacted him on his own initiative, and I made an appointment with him at a milk tea shop that I used to like very much, and asked him to go there alone without telling anyone.
It's been a long time... Liang Ze didn't feel this nervousness anymore. It's probably because his personality became very calm after puberty. He was obviously going to meet his ex-girlfriend who had broken up with him, but he was as excited as A young man who has just fallen in love, looking back and forth between the suits in the closet, doesn't know which suit to wear to look better.
When the parents and younger sister found out, they all came over to help pick them out, and even ordered him to dress up to see if he could coax the little girl home with her beauty—after so many years, they have long been a family, and the family No one can do without.
With everyone's help, Liang Ze changed his clothes and was ready to go out.
Qing Huan arrived earlier than the agreed time, she sat in the corner by the window, ordered a cup of caramel milk tea and drank it for a long time, Liang Ze arrived half an hour earlier, but she seemed to have been sitting here for quite a while up.
He nervously wiped his sweaty palms on his pants: "Qing Huan..."
"Sit down, what do you want to drink?"
"I, I can drink anything."
Qing Huan smiled, and ordered a glass of orange juice for him. This milk tea shop is not big, and most of them are places for couples. Liang Ze is handsome in a suit and leather shoes. He looks like a successful person at first glance, and he is simply out of tune with milk tea. "It's been a long time since I've been here. I found a diary in the past. It said that the two of us used to come here often, but that was many years ago. Although it is still a milk tea shop, the decoration inside has completely changed. The boss has also changed."
Liang Ze felt that there was something in her words, that she was still the same on the outside, but different on the inside, as if she was saying that she after amnesia was not the same person as she was before. "What’s wrong with you?"
"Do you think I'm okay now?"
She asked a question without thinking, but Liang Ze thought for a while and answered seriously: "Okay."
"I think so." Qing Huan smiled, "In the past, I was too selfish and self-willed, loved to act coquettish and cry, and had a bad temper. Whenever things went wrong, I would make a lot of noise. If you insist on listening to me, I would make trouble unreasonably. Thinking about it now, even I myself can’t stand that kind of personality, and you’ll think it’s perfectly normal to break up.” Thinking about it in another way, if she had a boyfriend with the same personality as herself, she would also Mental breakdown wants to break up every day.
Liang Ze didn't know what she wanted to express, so he could only listen quietly.
"Whether it's in the diary, on the Internet, or in the photos, apart from the two of us, that woman named Wan Di has always been with us."
"You are very good friends, Wandi and I are also friends..."
"Really?" Qing Huan laughed even happier, "Did Wandi tell you that she took me to see a psychiatrist?"
"What?"
"No." Her smile slowly disappeared. "I thought it was my own paranoia, the lipstick marks on your shirt, the woman's perfume in your pocket, and the occasional long hair on your body... The quarrels during that time must have been terrible, but unfortunately I can't remember, Only the diary still remembers it."
Of course Liang Ze also remembered that he was exhausted physically and mentally by Qing Huan's persecution, no matter how she explained it, she would not believe it, insisting on his confession, the world was turned upside down.
"Wan Di said that men love to cheat, and they will never admit it. You must force him, otherwise he will never tell the truth; Wan Di said that Liang Ze is very popular with female subordinates in the company, and there are many female subordinates. Wanting to chase him, she couldn't stand it for me; Wan Di said, Liang Ze is the most afraid of clinging, you are his girlfriend, you don't need to be reasonable, if he doesn't let you, he just doesn't love you... Look, this diary In the past, there were so many Wan Di said. Now that I have become an outsider without memory, I realized that it was Wan Di who ran through our relationship from beginning to end." Qing Huan felt that she was stupid before amnesia, "Now think about it, who else is easier to produce the so-called evidence of infidelity than Wan Di, who is your assistant?"
"Wait a minute, you just said that the psychiatrist..."
At this time, Liang Ze still cares most about Qing Huan's body and spirit. He really loves her and cares about her, but so what? Qing Huan looked at him, took the file bag from the seat next to him, and pushed it in front of Liang Ze. "You can choose to watch it or not."
Liang Ze opened the file bag. There were not many things in Qing Huan, and her diary was also inside, "The quarrel made me feel bad. Wan Di suggested that he knew a very good psychiatrist who could help me. Getting out of the trough can also help us solve our emotional crisis. I went there and believed it. The doctor told me that I was suffering from depression and prescribed some medicines, but after taking those medicines, my mood became worse and worse."
"I stopped taking the medicine for a while, and there were signs of cheating on your body again, and we had another big fight—the fight was so fierce, I know you are tired, and you want to break up with me, it is clearly written in the diary , at that moment, I thought about suicide."
Qing Huan's smile became a little mocking, "A few days ago I had a whim, and I asked Uncle Kong to help me find out, only to find out that the psychiatrist and Wan Di were not only friends, but also a spare tire for her infatuation. These days, some Doctors have no medical ethics, you know that, right?"
She had never suffered from any depression, but she was doted on by Uncle Liang, Aunt Liang and Liang Ze. She was just a little willful and coquettish, but after having Wan Di as a friend, she gradually became domineering and arrogant. This has nothing to do with the Liang family, but has something to do with her "good friend" who is very ambitious and cares about face. Wan Di deliberately guides the simple Qing Huan, making her gradually become unrecognizable, all for the sake of Liang Ze.
Until she went to see the psychiatrist, took a bunch of messy medicines, and took ailments that she didn't have. After a long time, her mental state couldn't bear it, and she completely collapsed.
"Now speaking, I should be thankful for this suicide, otherwise I won't wake up, and I won't get better." Qing Huan took a sip of the milk tea—it was already cold, but the taste was still very sweet. She looked at Liang Ze, watching him read the documents, his handsome face changed from disbelief to sternness little by little. "So we can't get back together."
Hearing this, Liang Ze raised his head to look at her, with many emotions in his eyes, but Qing Huan didn't want to look at her anymore, she was afraid that her heart would soften, and she was also afraid that she would not be persistent enough. "I'm not a very good girlfriend, I'm always too childish, too fond of being coquettish, crying and having a bad temper, I like you to be with me all the time, around me, don't have anyone else in my life except me - you used to say that I am the most Lovely, I hope I will always be that naive, then you spoiled me, and then told me that I am not mature enough, not gentle enough, not enough to stand behind you to support you. Now I am gentle and sensible, would you like Me, but if we are together, you will soon feel that I am boring and boring, but no matter how much you miss, the pure and self-willed me will never come back.
The me now is not the me of yesterday, who knows the me of tomorrow
I'm not a very good girlfriend, the last time we broke up, it was forever.
If we are together again and I do something wrong again in the future, you will never teach me why I am wrong, where I am wrong, and how to correct and remedy it.
Just treat me coldly again.
Such a thing, as long as you think about it, you will feel extremely terrible.
Let's not be together anymore.
You don't come to me anymore. "
She read the diary, from beginning to end. Every time he quarrels, Liang Ze never speaks harshly to her, the worst thing he ever did was turn around and leave, slamming the door hard. When he appears next time, it will still be the Liang Ze who is very gentle to her and loves her very much. This made the former Qing Huan feel that Liang Ze would love her no matter what.
But every time she used such a cold war, she became extremely insecure. Liang Ze would never tell her what she did wrong, nor teach her how to correct it, he would just turn around silently, and return to her side silently.
They have been together since they were teenagers, and it has been ten years since Liang Ze finally proposed to break up.
Well, after reconciling this time, when he returns to her, maybe she will soon recover her memory, maybe she will soon return to her former self, what will Liang Ze say at that time
I thought you changed, but you haven't changed at all.
I am so disappointed in you.
let's break up.
And then did she kill herself again
No, she won't. She is alive now, she is lucky, she can't bury herself for love again.
So the best way is not to meet again, let alone think about being together, so that you won't be sad and won't have any problems. Wan Di has never been the main issue between them, the two of them are fundamentally not suitable for being together. Even if she has changed now, who can guarantee that she won't become worse, willful and unbearable
Liang Ze was pinching the document bag in his hand, and Qing Huan saw that it was gradually smeared with water vapor. She turned her head away, pretending she didn't see anything. She still likes this person, really, another voice in her heart has been longing to reconcile with him as before.
It might be possible to reconcile, but how could it be possible as before.
They will always remember what happened this time, and in the future, it will become an old wound, buried in the bottom of their hearts, and once they are dug out, it will be painful.
It won't be good.
Not good at all.
No one will get better.