These words were spoken. In an instant, not only Yan Ningshuang herself but also An Chengfeng were stunned.
Not daring to meet An Chengfeng's clear eyes, Yan Ningshuang almost ran away. This was the first time that she felt so embarrassed and confused that she did not dare to look into An Chengfeng's eyes.
This incident eventually became a big deal, and An Chengfeng was forced to separate from Shao Lexue. And because of the An family, Shao Lexue went through the transfer procedures the next day.
"Chengfeng, you are no longer a child, you must do things in a measured way!"
"Your marriage to Shuangshuang was arranged by Mr. Yan and I when you were children. Since Shuangshuang still remembers it, it will naturally count, so get married when you finish your studies!"
"marry?"
An Chengfeng was only a half-grown child at that time, but he knew how important marriage was. "That was just a joke you had when you were young. Why should I obey when you say we're going to get married?"
"You have to listen or not. You are lucky to marry a girl like Shuangshuang. Don't be ignorant of good and evil!"
Don’t know what is good and what is bad
An Chengfeng smiled. This was the first time that he hated hearing Yan Ningshuang's name, and he also hated his family so much. The rebellion in his heart was wanton, and he began to fight against his family.
Stay safe and be a good student? No, he just skipped classes, fought, and played around every day.
Should we treat Yan Ningshuang well and marry her in the future? No, since he couldn't resist, he decided to ruin his reputation by playing games among various girls and carrying the reputation of being a playboy.
His relationship with Yan Ningshuang was broken. It had been broken since he watched Shao Lexue crying and leaving in front of him. At that time, he also heard that Yan Ningshuang confessed to him from behind. She said: She likes him. .
"like me?"
An Chengfeng sneered, his eyes filled with disgust and rejection when facing Yan Ningshuang. He suppressed the anger in his heart and roared in a low voice. "Yan Ningshuang, let me tell you, I will never fall in love with you in this life!"
"Not only will I not like you, from today on, I will only hate you even more."
"I hate you every day you appear in front of me!"
“…”
If Shao Lexue initiated An Chengfeng's desire for love, then Chen Wanwan became the only salvation in his heart. During the long darkness that An Chengfeng experienced, it was Chen Wanwan who stayed with him, held his hand, and told him that she would always be with him.
"Wanwan, do you know? I passed by my grandfather's study today and I heard him telling my father that An's financial chain was broken, but the Yan family will definitely help."
"This is a thankless thing. Why would the Yan family help? It's not because Yan Ningshuang likes me, or because I am the An family's bargaining chip."
An Chengfeng used to be confident and optimistic. He did whatever he wanted and never took anything seriously. But that night, Chen Wanwan stayed with him all night and watched him cry all night.
"Wanwan, you won't change, right?"
Chen Wanwan nodded and said. "I won't change, I will always be with you."
“…”
An Chengfeng was serious enough about Chen Wanwan, so serious that he tried his best to protect her from harm and fulfilled all her fantasies as a girl.
"Yan Ningshuang studies really well. She ranks among the top three in every test. I wish I were as good as her."
"Okay, if Wanwan wants to be a top student, then I will help you with your homework every day from today on." In fact, what he did was not only help her with her homework, but also deliberately placed himself behind her in every exam. In order to let her get the first place in grade and make her happy.
"I heard that the senior year of high school is going to be divided into classes. I'm so happy. Then I can be assigned to the same class as you, but Yan Ningshuang..."
"It doesn't matter. I won't let her get close to me. At the same time, I will stay far away from you to prevent her from seeing our relationship."
"But... you will get married eventually. When the time comes, will you abandon me?"
"No, I will not marry her, nor will I abandon you. No matter what, I will be with you."
Yeah, anyway…
Later, the affair between An Chengfeng and Chen Wanwan was discovered by Yan Ningshuang. She said that she had given up on him. She said that she would give up on him voluntarily, but what
Mr. An finally found out about the two of them. Just as An Chengfeng promised Chen Wanwan at that time, he did not bow his head or abandon her. He was even willing to be kicked out of the An family for her.
They were already in college at that time, and the two of them lived in a crowded room every day, living in poverty and embarrassment, but An Chengfeng never regretted it.
What is glory and wealth? You are happiest when you can be with the person you love most.
An Chengfeng went to school and worked part-time at the same time. This kind of life lasted for almost a year. Their lives never improved, and Chen Wanwan finally couldn't bear it anymore.
"Chengfeng, let's go back!" She has had enough of this kind of poverty and hardship, especially when faced with the bright clothes her classmates wear every day, she feels that she can't hold her head up in front of them.
"Wanwan, going back is equivalent to bowing your head. Don't you want to be with me?"
"But I've had enough of living without money. I want cosmetics and nice-looking clothes. Have you given these to me now?"
"Be good, I will work hard to make money to buy it for you."
An Chengfeng used to be a wealthy young man who never touched the good news, but now he works several jobs every day for Chen Wanwan. When Yan Ningshuang, who is far abroad, heard the news, her heart was about to freeze.
Later, when she returned to China, she found the place where An Chengfeng worked every day through Jingrong. She watched him there from a distance for a long time, until night fell, and he returned to the dirty road carrying his dinner with a tired look on his face. Dark alley.
He didn't see how embarrassed Yan Ningshuang was crying behind him.
“…”
An Chengfeng was not a fool. At this time, he knew how fragile his relationship with Chen Wanwan was. He carefully managed this relationship, but gradually, he began to fail.
Chen Wanwan used to like him, but she liked not only his person, but also his family background. She had thought about living her whole life with this man who was good to her. She tried, but she lost to poverty.
An Chengfeng has tried hard to make money for her to buy cosmetics and clothes, but what Chen Wanwan wants is not cheap cosmetics or street clothes. Her appetite is getting bigger and bigger, and she encourages him to go back and admit his mistake to Grandpa An again and again, and then find a way to let her go. He left himself in Anzhai.
"Wanwan, if I never go back to Anjia and remain so poor forever, will you still stay with me like this?"
This time, Chen Wanwan did not answer immediately, she began to hesitate.
"Wanwan."
An Chengfeng's eyes became broken. He touched Chen Wanwan's cheek with trembling hands and said. "Don't make me stop loving you, okay?"
She was the only one he had. He didn't want to prove that he was useless, and he didn't want every relationship he had to go to waste, but he still failed.
"Wanwan, let's break up." After running in again and again, he tolerated everything, and in the end, Chen Wanwan still polished off her love for An Chengfeng.
He returned to Anjia, he bowed his head, but he would never like Chen Wanwan again, nor... would ever like anyone.
Waking up in the dark night, he got up from the bed and opened the window to let in the cold wind all night long. All the past events flashed through his mind, and he suddenly discovered that all his unhappiness stemmed from the breakdown of his relationship with Yan Ningshuang.
Because of the cold war with Yan Ningshuang, he was emotionally hurt and developed a crush on Shao Lexue. Because his relationship with Yan Ningshuang completely broke down, their relationship became strangers. He felt lonely and painful, so he had Chen Wanwan by his side.
What does it feel like to be sober and intoxicated
It's probably like An Chengfeng. After falling in love with Chen Wanwan, he knew that she was not a good girl, but he still refused to give up.
Time and time again he tries to prove that he can find true love, and then... time and time again makes love fall apart.
…
An Chengfeng and Chen Wanwan had broken up for a long time. He had been deliberately hiding it, but he still let Yan Ningshuang know about it.
Things began to get out of control. Yan Ningshuang, who had gradually become indifferent to him, suddenly reappeared in front of him. She began to smile at him and play tricks on him. This long-lost feeling from childhood made him feel dazed.
"Hey, I lost my car keys. Can you give me a ride?"
"Ask your driver to pick you up."
"No, I just want you to give it away. If you dare not to give it away to me, you won't be able to leave today."
“…”
"I heard that Su Tang's family is holding a New Year's Eve party today. Let's go together!"
"I don't want to go with you."
"If you go, you have to go with me. If you don't go, you have to go with me. Hurry up, put on your clothes and go out with me!"
“…”
"Ah, my ankle is sprained, it hurts..."
"I… "
"Don't refuse me, help me go to a place with few people and rub it."
“…”
Dong Dong—
The clock struck twelve o'clock, and An Chengfeng stared at the old clock on the wall in a daze. The new year has arrived, and today, the person accompanying him turned out to be Yan Ningshuang.
The two drank a lot of wine that night, and most of the time they were silent to each other, but the atmosphere was particularly harmonious.
An Chengfeng was the first one to get drunk. Yan Ningshuang helped him stumble all the way to the lounge. His tall body was pressed against her, and his eyes were half closed, as if he was trying to sleep.
Yan Ningshuang thought he was unconscious enough, so she leaned forward and kissed his lips. Her hands were shaking all the time, and she wanted to help him take off his coat. She had just unbuttoned one button for him, but was stopped by a pair of big hands.
"Frost."
This was the first time An Chengfeng called her like this after so many years, but what he said to her was: No.
"why not?"
Yan Ningshuang stubbornly tugged on his clothes and refused to let go. Even though her whole body was shaking due to nervousness, she still raised her head proudly, like a noble white swan. "It's just a night's sleep, what's the big deal?"
"Can't."
This time there was a touch of anger in An Chengfeng's tone. He pushed Yan Ningshuang away, staggered several steps away from her, and said over and over again while holding his forehead. "We can't, we can't."
"Shuangshuang, give up on me. I said before that I don't like you, and it still stands today."
"Then you once said you would hate me forever, does that count?"
Yan Ningshuang sneered. "If you really hate me, you shouldn't have rejected me just now. You got me and abandoned me, gave me hope and broke me. Wouldn't you be happier?"
"do not talk."
"I have to say it!"
Not knowing where she got the courage, Yan Ningshuang rushed in front of him, stood up on tiptoes and hugged his neck. She kissed his lips fiercely, as if she had exhausted all her strength.
"An Chengfeng, I don't believe you have no feelings for me! Even if you don't love me, is it so difficult to admit that you have feelings for me?!"
“…”
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An Chengfeng didn't know that after what happened with Shao Lexue and Chen Wanwan, his definition of love had become blurred.
But no matter what, Yan Ningshuang will always be a special existence in his heart. What is so special about it? Even he couldn't explain it himself, and he couldn't even tell whether he was more interested in Yan Ningshuang now, the friendship he wanted to make up for when he was a child, or the love he regretted until later.
'I once said that we should hold hands and never be separated, so I paranoidly believed that this is the so-called life. '
'I remember all your goodness and covet all your warmth, so I became arrogant and vicious and lost all my mind. '
'If, if this world really had so much trust without hesitation, maybe it wouldn't be so bad. '
'If, if I had cherished it and not been so selfish, we wouldn't have been so embarrassed in the end. '
Since that night, An Chengfeng and Yan Ningshuang have not seen each other for a long time. The two of them have a tacit understanding that neither one bothers the other, but they always bump into each other inadvertently. Just like tonight, he passed by a private room. , and saw Yan Ningshuang sitting alone on the floor singing.
Although he didn't know what song Yan Ningshuang was singing, An Chengfeng stood outside the door but listened to the lyrics and felt heartbroken. In a daze, he remembered the past between the two of them.
In fact, many things in childhood, if both of them could take a step back, might not be as bad as they are now.
They are all wrong.
An Chengfeng's mistake was that he never got to know Yan Ningshuang well. He obviously wanted to do her best but never thought of getting into her heart to understand what she really wanted.
Yan Ningshuang's mistake was even more outrageous. She should not have relied on An Chengfeng's favor to be confident. She wanted to possess him domineeringly but never opened her heart. She waited for An Chengfeng to come to her in person, but never reflected on herself. .
Today, everything in the past has disappeared, and neither of them can blame the other, but they cannot return to their original intimacy.
"Brother Chengfeng."
"No matter how others think of me in the future, you have to stand by my side, okay?"
Recalling the words she never let him hear when she was a child, Yan Ningshuang still couldn't hold back her tears. She regretted it, completely regretted it. As the lyrics sing: If this world really had so much trust without hesitation, maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
If, if she really let An Chengfeng hear what she said, then An Chengfeng would definitely have nodded in agreement, and maybe he would really stand by her side no matter what, and never give up on her... .
"Brother Chengfeng." But it's too late to say anything now.
Yan Ningshuang saw An Chengfeng at the door. She wiped away her tears and walked out. She smiled at him and called him a long-lost name.
"Let's make a bet. Let's give each other two years. During this period, no one should contact the other, and we can each carry our own luggage and travel around the world..."
"The world is such a big place, maybe we will all meet someone we like. If that day comes, I won't pester you anymore, and you don't have to suffer. Can we give each other relief?"
"Okay." An Chengfeng closed his eyes and pretended to smile indifferently. "The world is such a big place, I hope we can find salvation for each other."
"Yeah, the world is so big, so what if we meet one day within two years?"
An Chengfeng sneered. "How can this be?"
"But if we can really meet within two years, and neither of us has found true love, maybe this is destiny..."
"What is destiny?"
"We are destined to be together."
“…”
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