"Look at what you look like. You're already in the third grade of junior high school and you're still not serious, don't you want to take the high school exam?!" The teacher jumped up on the podium, blowing his beard and staring with anger.
There was a lot of noise in the classroom, and everyone was doing their own things.
In the third grade classroom, there is no sense of tension, and the learning atmosphere is different from other classes.
This is the worst class in their middle school, the discipline is not very good, and there are many people chatting on mobile phones in class.
In such a noisy atmosphere, the boy in the last row slept extremely ecstatically.
The boy was wearing a black sweater, with a hat on his head, lying on the table, ignoring everything around him.
He is the quietest one, but also the one that others dare not mess with.
He fell out of the best class.
When I first entered junior high school, because of my outstanding appearance and excellent grades, I was loved by my teachers and classmates.
How dazzling that person was at the beginning, how embarrassing he is now.
After that incident, everyone began to respect him at a distance.
The voices of discussion, condemnation, incomprehension, and abuse never stopped.
Because his mother is a drug addict.
He's very likely to be like his mother!
The girls liked him but didn't dare to get close to him, they only dared to discuss in a low voice.
The teachers hated him for not living up to expectations.
He is obviously a good seedling, why would he want to degenerate and hang out with those bad students.
The get out of class bell rang.
Before the teacher said get out of class was over, the students could no longer hold back and rushed out of the classroom cheering.
The whole classroom became noisy.
The boy sitting in front of him turned around and patted him on the shoulder: "Brother Nan, why don't you go to the Internet cafe to play games after school today?"
The boy moved, and then he woke up, with a little tiredness in his brows and eyes, and sat up straight.
He always puts his hat on his head, half-blocking his eyebrows and eyes, with a few strands of messy hair looming down, his tall and straight nose looming, and his complexion is cold and pale.
"No."
The boy is always very indifferent to others, and there is a sense of distance that makes people dare not approach him.
But it is this kind of temperament that is more attractive to little girls.
Under the shy gazes of several little girls, Li Shunan walked out with his schoolbag on his shoulders.
After leaving the school, the boy was still following him just now, smoked a cigarette from the cigarette case and handed it to him: "Then where are you going after school today? Beiyu and the others went to KTV to sing, why don't you go find them?"
Li Shunan lowered his eyes, took the cigarette and bit it in his mouth.
When he was about to cross the road, he saw the figure not far away, and suddenly stopped in his footsteps.
The boy next to him noticed it and followed his gaze.
Ten meters away, on the other side of the school gate.
The girl was wearing a school uniform, tied a ponytail, and was carrying a schoolbag in her hand. She wore the simple school uniform with an extraordinarily beautiful temperament.
She looked around, as if waiting for a car.
The boy stared at the direction stupidly, and said casually: "It's the school belle, she's really pretty, isn't it Brother Nan?"
"I heard that the family is very rich, that's true. Judging by this temperament, the poor family should not be able to support it."
"I also heard that she can play the piano, dance, and has good academic performance. Many boys next door like her."
"Oh, I forgot, Brother Nan, you are face-blind, so you probably don't know her."
"..."
There was no response to what he said, and the boy looked back.
Li Shunan was still looking in those directions, but those peach blossom eyes were deep and deep, with some incomprehensible emotions.
He has always been face-blind, and he may not be able to remember any girls in his class for three years.
But he had seen that girl before.
But since that rainy night glance.
He just remembered that face.
Remember, when she bent down, those eyes seemed to be shining with light.
Very clear.
No fear, no loathing, no disgust.
Without any purpose, it was just an unintentional act of kindness.
Not knowing if she noticed something, the girl turned her head and looked over.
Li Shunan's fingers stopped, his heart tightened suddenly, and he looked away in a little embarrassment.
The people next to him were still talking, but he didn't listen any more. He strode across the street and disappeared from the girl's sight.
He didn't know if she still remembered him.
But that girl is too clean.
Clean enough to be completely different from him, completely a person from two worlds.
He didn't know why, such a shadow suddenly broke into his world.
He deliberately ignored it, trying to correct his world and return to the original track.
But it's strange, the more people want to avoid something, the reality will always make him unavoidable.
From that day on, he could always see her.
At the school gate, her family's driver will drive to pick her up and go home.
She never moved around, and went home obediently after school.
Her name is always heard at every recognition meeting.
She will speak on stage as an outstanding student representative.
She is a very good girl.
Liked by many people.
When she smiled, there were two pear holes on her lips, which were clean and pure.
For two years, the teacher had completely given up on him.
Others would walk away when they saw him.
They may not dare to say anything in front of him, but they will inevitably talk behind his back.
When passing the school bathroom that day, Li Shunan heard the conversation inside.
"Do you really think you are very good? No matter how powerful you are, you are still a drug addict. The one with the tattoo is still friends with him and stole our business. Yesterday, the police went to seal their store, saying it was suspected of violating the rules. I was the one who reported it, am I amazing?"
If he didn't hear it, he could pretend it never happened.
But if he heard it, he was never afraid of making trouble.
That night Li Shunan led people to smash up his shop.
Later, at the flag-raising ceremony on Monday, he was criticized by the school.
In front of the whole school.
That includes her too.
That day, when she spoke on stage as an outstanding student representative, she was standing not far from him five meters away.
And another girl with excellent grades.
The principal announced his evil deeds eloquently on the stage.
The young man had injuries on his face, but he didn't care, as if he was used to it.
In fact, he was just listening to her talk.
The girl next to her had obviously heard about his deeds, and her tone was a little disgusted: "A person like him really doesn't know why he still stays in school."
"I heard that he often fights and hangs out with the bastards outside. His mother is a drug addict. Why do you think there is such a person?"
Li Shunan never cared what other people thought.
But he cared about what she thought.
For the first time, I didn't want to appear beside her with such a face.
Distressed and rotten, like a beast stuck in the mud.
I feel dirty, even humbled to the dust.
But until he heard the girl's voice.
"The whole picture is unknown, no comment."
The girl's voice was light and soft, not loud, but exceptionally clear.
"You haven't gotten to know him, but you've only heard rumors from the outside world. Why do you want to define him?"
"Besides, you haven't seen his mother taking drugs with your own eyes, so don't spread rumors casually. Besides, if he is really like his mother, he can be tested by blood tests. The school will Don't you know? What are you worried about?"
Her tone was very calm, she was not defending him, she was just stating a fact.
When the girl said that, she immediately felt resentful and didn't speak any more.
The boy was completely stunned.
Suffering two years of malice, he heard it for the first time.
Unknown full picture, no comment.
Please don't speak casually without knowing the truth of the matter.
They think that what they see is the truth, so they use words unscrupulously to hurt others.
Sometimes they never realize how hurtful their words are.
Just such a simple sentence.
But it was already the greatest kindness he felt.
That is, on that day.
He finally stopped restraining himself and let himself sink into that gentle smile.
Although, she completely just treats him as a stranger.
Don't even remember him at all.
But he began to think of her frequently.
Even on the way out of school after school, he started to look for her figure, just to see her more.
Until that day, his brother called him and asked him to support the scene, so he skipped class and jumped over the wall to go out.
When he turned back from the wall, he saw the dance studio.
On that wall, you can just see the picture inside from the window of the dance classroom.
The girl is wearing a white tutu, and every spin and jump is beautiful and clean.
That was probably the most beautiful scenery he saw during that time.
Later, he would go over that wall whenever he had something to do, just to see the girl inside.
far distance.
I don't want to disturb her, just watch her from a distance.
It was a sunny day and the wind was gentle.
Li Shunan turned over the wall again, looking at the direction of the dance classroom from a distance.
The boy was dressed in black, with the hoodie buttoned on his head, revealing only half of his chiseled face.
He doesn't like to talk, always likes someone alone, and there is always a sense of alienation that makes people afraid to approach him.
I don't know many friends.
But there are so few brothers who have a very strong relationship.
Among them is Lin Beiyu.
That day, Lin Beiyu happened to pass by there.
Seeing him from a distance, he climbed up the wall and sat next to him: "Brother, I found that you like to come here very much recently."
"Is there any treasure here?" He asked very puzzled.
There are indeed treasures.
A treasure that does not want to be discovered by others.
Li Shunan's Adam's apple rolled down slowly, and the black hair on his forehead blocked the emotion in his eyes.
"Probably because it's suitable for smoking."
Lin Beiyu laughed twice: "Really, the dean here shouldn't be able to find out."
Lin Beiyu took out a cigarette case from his pocket, handed one over, looked at the dance classroom, and narrowed his eyes: "Tsk tsk, Ashu, you may not have noticed..."
"...See over there, the girl in the dance dress at ten o'clock, shit, when did our school have such a beautiful sister?"
"I'm going to chase her!"
Li Shunan froze slightly.
His treasure was still discovered.
But there was no way for him to say this as a matter of course like him.
I'm going after her...
Li Shunan and Lin Beiyu are well-known double school girls in their middle school.
Lin Beiyu has a good family background, good looks, and a good personality. He can talk to anyone.
There shouldn't be any girl he likes that he can't catch up with.
Li Shunan lowered his eyes, hiding the self-mockery in his eyes, feeling regretful for the first time.
If he hadn't made such a choice two years ago, after all that he had encountered, wouldn't he be qualified, qualified to say this sentence.
But now he is not qualified.
He's a bastard, hated by everyone.
She and she are completely in two worlds.
What qualifications do you have to say you like her.
Not long after, a few of their good brothers met in a bar.
Lin Beiyu took out a photo from his wallet and asked them to look at it one by one.
"It's pretty, I've been observing it for a few days, and it's really different from other girls."
"I heard her talking, and her voice was nice, but guess what, I was in front of her for a few days, and she didn't even remember my name."
Lin Beiyu sighed while drinking: "It's so cute..."
"..."
Several good brothers looked at the photos one by one.
"It's really beautiful..."
"I seem to have the impression that this girl can play the piano and dance. She has won many awards and her academic performance is very good! She is the beauty of their school."
Some boys lamented: "Such a girl is simply an unreachable star in the sky. Who will be so lucky to marry her in the future?"
Someone next to him echoed half-jokingly: "The stars in the sky, you can only wait for her to fall down, and you can wait for mortals to be worthy of it."
After finishing speaking, several people laughed "hahaha".
Li Shunan took a cigarette between his fingers and remained silent without speaking.
The stars in the sky are waiting for her to fall.
However, he didn't want to.
He didn't want to wait for the stars to fall.
He wants to become a star, the star that can stand shoulder to shoulder with her.
He didn't want to go on like this anymore.
It's easy to be bad, but hard to be good.
There are many things that are out of your control.
Especially, when other people bravely express their hearts, he can't do anything.
Or, when she sprained her foot while dancing, but he could only watch from a distance, but there was nothing he could do.
He regrets it.
He regretted making himself like this.
So when his father found him and offered to take him home, he agreed.
I don't want to approach her in such a capacity, I want to make myself better.
During those days of decay, life and death, he was muddled and without self.
He used to like to wear black clothes.
Because even if it bleeds, it can't be seen.
But from that day on, he changed back to the white shirt.
That little girl pulled him out of the dirty mud.
brought him light.
From then on, he had a dream, and for that dream, he made himself better.
He wants to give her the best and offer everything in this world with both hands.
He was never a nice guy.
But I want to be a good person for her.
Then on that day.
On the day he returned to that city, ready, to be close to her.
His star crashed into his arms.
—End of this chapter—
ps: The full text is ending, stay on 2020.10.21
This chapter is a bit long, more than 4,000 words!
I think it's a beautiful ending, what do you guys think? !
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