Holding Onto My Man

Chapter 36

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Fu Junli slowly opened the book with the word collection of poems written outside. On the white paper were beautiful ink marks.

The above are not amazing works, but some simple records of mood, no rhyme, no text and ink, just some ordinary words.

"... Today I finally saw the eldest young master. He is still so handsome and elegant. He is not cold and terrifying in the rumors, but very gentle. He even hugged me, such a warm embrace, so warm that I didn't dare to speak... "

"He praised me for my beautiful eyes. Many people said that I have beautiful eyes, but I have never been so happy. He also asked me if I like orchids, and I said yes... Actually, I don't like orchids, I just saw him. The yard is full of orchids. I guess he likes orchids and smells the fragrance of orchids. I wanted to talk to him, but I never had the chance. From the first day I saw him in the house, I thought about it..."

"The eldest young master actually let me stay in his yard to recuperate, and he also let me live in his yard. He said that I should call him Brother Junli, why is he so gentle to me?... No, he is not to me, It should be a person named 'Lianzhi', he seemed to be murmuring a name called Lianzhi that day..."

"...The weather is very good today. Brother Junli is in high spirits and asks someone to put the guqin in the yard. He is really a talented person. He is a brilliant Tsinghua University and has a peerless elegance... I gathered up the courage to invite him to play the qin and xiao with me. This picture I thought about it countless times in my dream, but I played the flute, but he didn't play the piano. Brother Junli looked at me, his eyes blurred again, as if he was looking at another person... His chest suddenly hurt, I'm leaving right now..."

"Who is that person named Lianzhi? Who is Brother Junli? Does he look like me? Why is Brother Junli always staring at me and whispering that name? Look at another person... Does he treat me well and be kind to me because he treats me like a lotus..."

"Brother Junli only regards me as a shadow, the shadow of Lianzhi. If it weren't for Lianzhi, he probably wouldn't even look at me in his life, but I'm Yunxi, I'm not Lianzhi, I'm Yunxi, I I like red clothes, Tanxiang, and Xiaosheng…”

"... Today, Brother Junli told me who Lian Zhi was. That was a peerless son, and he was a son who had a deep affection for Brother Junli. His clothes were getting wider and he never regretted it. He was haggard for Yixiao. Brother Junli has been thinking about that son for eight years..."

"Brother Junli asked me: Entering the door of my lovesickness, knowing that I am suffering from lovesickness, long-term lovesickness and long-term lovesickness, short lovesickness is infinite, Yunxi, do you understand?"

"I understand, I understand, I really understand... From the day I first saw Brother Junli, I understood. Brother Junli, Yunxi thought about you so shamelessly..."

"...Lian Zhi appeared. Today at the palace banquet, I saw that Lian Zhi was mentioned by brother Junli. He is really a peerless son. No wonder he misses brother Junli so much..."

"Brother Junli's eyes when looking at Master Lianzhi are so gentle and gentle, so full of the friendship I dreamed of. It's just that he loves Master Lianzhi, he loves Lianzhi, he loves Lianzhi... If only he could love me..."

"On the carriage, brother Jun Li looked very sad, yes, although he found Lian Zhi, but the son of Lian Zhi is the prince's person, the prince's status is noble, how can brother Jun Li have the opportunity to compete with the prince for beauty..."

"I want to persuade Brother Junli to give up, but I can't say it. Brother Junli is so affectionate to Young Master Lianzhi. He has been looking for Young Master Lianzhi for eight years. If he can't be with Young Master Lianzhi, is he right? I will continue to be unhappy, and I will continue to miss…”

"Maybe I can help him... At the banquet, the prince looked at me strangely. I guess he must have liked me. If I go to ask the prince, maybe Brother Junli and Prince Lianzhi will have a chance..."

"... Entering the palace today, I begged the crown prince to give Young Master Lianzhi a reward to Brother Junli, the prince agreed, but on the condition that I have to be his person... Then, I took off my clothes, it doesn't matter, as long as Brother Junli can get his wish That's good, he used to only think of me as the shadow of Young Master Lianzhi, but now the real Lianzhi is back, and the shadow doesn't need to be..."

"But I still couldn't help crying. I worked hard to endure it, but I couldn't help it. I really wanted to tell him that I'm not someone's shadow, don't think I'm a shadow, don't look at others through me, my name is Yunxi, brother Junli, do you know? Do you know that I am Yunxi... Yunxi is happy with you, but you don't know, and don't want to know, because you only love Lianzhi..."

"Brother Jun Li is getting more and more unhappy because of Young Master Lianzhi, don't worry, Young Master Jun Li, Young Master Lianzhi will be back soon, the prince promised me that he will give Young Master Lianzhi to you, and it will stop from now on. your lovesickness..."

"Acacia lovesickness... An Hongdou with exquisite dice, I don't know about lovesickness, brother Junli, you don't know, you don't know..."

Fu Junli looked at the ink on the poetry collection, and the image of a smiling young man appeared in his mind. He only felt that his heart was twisted by a knife, and the young man's appearance had never been clear in his heart.

He always thought that he regarded the young man as Lianzhi, but he was not, maybe at first, but not later.

The teenager and Lianzhi are different, even if they have the same color eyes, but the look inside is different.

But his long-standing obsession with Lianzhi made him unable to see his own heart. Every time he was attracted by the brilliance of the young man, his breath stopped, he always told himself that it was because the young man had the shadow of Lianzhi on his body.

But at this moment, Lian Zhi was by his side, but in his mind was the shadow of a young man.

"The exquisite dice is An Hongdou, I don't know if I miss you, hehehehe, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know..."

Fu Junli chewed this sentence repeatedly in his mouth, like crying or laughing, like anger and madness.

When the hidden truth surfaced, the word Yunxi was engraved on the tip of his heart...

Gu Bai never saw Fu Junli again.

Fu Junli had begged his aunt, Concubine Xian, to come to the palace to find him, and ran around the entire palace to find him at the risk of being disrespectful, but he didn't see Fu Junli, and Ji Changyin wouldn't let him see him either.

That man was as domineering and stubborn as ever, so he wished to hide him in the golden house and no one would look at him. Even Du Haitang, the man, ordered someone to summon him into the palace instead of letting him go out.

This kind of domineering and domineering really makes people laugh and cry, if others can't stand it, but he is happy.

Because he doesn't know when the next time he will see a man, and whether they will have to wait for thousands of years to meet in thousands of worlds.

As for Fu Junli, although he never saw him again, Gu Bai could still hear his news.

I heard that Fu Junli's whole person changed after returning from the palace, becoming more silent and colder.

He doesn't care about family affairs or business, he either locks himself in the study, or stands in the yard to play a chorus, often shutting and blowing for a whole day, and the melancholy and madness in his eyes is shocking.

But when he saw another young man named Lian Zhi, he calmed down again and stroked each other's eyes tenderly and lovingly.

But when the other party accidentally smashed an emerald jade flute that he was carrying with him, he went mad and let people beat the other party's board hard, and it didn't stop him until the other party gave up half his life.

From then on, Lianzhi dared not touch any of his things. Every day, he only dared to wear red clothes, smoke incense, play the jade flute, and listen to him touching his eyes and calling out the name of 'Yunxi'...

Gu Bai secretly went back to Fu Mansion without Ji Changyin.

He saw that Fu Junli's study was covered with picture scrolls, and the picture scrolls were all of a boy, that is what Du Yunxi looked like.

Above or panic, or smiling, or shy, or charming, or bewitching, each picture scroll is endless lingering, endless thoughts.

Until this moment, he felt that the emotion of the original owner in his chest finally disappeared without a trace.

Du Yunxi's wish was Fu Junli's deep love, a lingering love that he will always miss, and he finally got it. From then on, there was only the word 'yunxi' in that person's heart...

In this world, Gu Bai, like before, stayed by Ji Changyin's side and never left. In addition to the domineering of men, there was also his willingness.

After Ji Changyin ascended the throne, apart from his harem, there was no concubine who favored his concubine, and courtiers petitioned him to be included as a concubine to leave a heir, but he was always very stubborn, neither drafting, nor accepting concubines.

After being the emperor for a few years, he actually abdicated and became the regent. In this way, no one would continue to ask him to take his concubine and keep an heir, which made the courtiers secretly startled. This Lord really wants beauty and no country.

Gu Bai couldn't deny that even if this person was reincarnated, his shadow was engraved in his soul, which was enough to know his place in his heart.

Before Ji Changyin was dying, Gu Bai looked at the deep love in his eyes, and only felt that the heart in his chest was aching and aching like never before.

At this moment, he felt that he was no longer indifferent, he had a heart that could beat flesh and blood.

When Ji Changyin closed his eyes, he almost had the urge to go with him. He experienced the unforgettable heat in his heart. He didn't know what he used to insist on living, living without a heartbeat what meaning.

The mysterious master said that if he indulged in the world he would die.

Staring at Ji Changyin, who was no longer breathing, Gu Bai felt that his soul seemed to be getting lighter, and there was a feeling that it would dissipate at any time.

At this last moment, the surrounding space was distorted, his soul was pulled out from his body, wrapped by a powerful force and pulled back into the starry sky...