Shen Zhan is very clear that this matter will not end easily, and the situation will only be worse than at MIT. Now Lin Jiayin is sad like this, what about the future
He didn't want to see Lin Jiayin, who had been smiling all day long, become sad and shed tears whenever there was trouble.
After staying in a depressing and bad environment for a long time, even the most sunny people will become silent, gloomy and gloomy, and he is the same, let alone Lin Jiayin who is emotionally simple.
Lin Jiayin sniffed, raised her hand and wiped away her tears with her sleeves, choked up and said, "I, I won't cry, I won't stop crying."
"Don't think about anything," Shen Zhan smiled, "Let's go eat."
This smile is too dazzling, it is more blinding than the hot sun above the head.
Shen Zhan is such a person, he doesn't seem to care about anything, he sees everything indifferently, he doesn't like to talk, and he rarely shows it.
Lin Jiayin didn't dare to cry anymore, because he said that he was almost out of breath, and he gritted his teeth tightly, swallowing all the choking sounds back into his stomach.
"Eat." Lin Jiayin took a deep breath, afraid that if she said one more word, the gap between her teeth would break down and she would cry.
Shen Zhan looked across and asked her, "Is that one okay?"
"Okay." Lin Jiayin nodded vigorously.
The business of the small shop is not good, perhaps because it is too far away from the school compared to the food street, or it may be because the decoration is too simple.
Eight tables are crowded and displayed, and it is run by an old couple.
The guest was an old man sitting in the back, drinking soup from a bowl.
Seeing a customer coming in, the boss enthusiastically asked what to eat, but when he saw Lin Jiayin who had obviously been crying, he choked back in the middle of the sentence and silently handed them a menu.
It must be a quarrel between lovers, she thought.
"What do you want to eat?" Shen Zhan lowered his eyes, sliding his fingertips across the smooth glued menu.
Lin Jiayin sat face to face with him, and said in a muffled voice, "Whatever you want."
"You can't be casual." Shen Zhan frowned.
Lin Jiayin looked at the menu he pushed over, pointing casually, "This."
"What else?" Shen Zhan asked.
Lin Jiayin looked up at him, "I... I have no appetite."
Shen Zhan didn't speak, got up and took the menu to the vegetable outlet and stood waiting for their boss, and reported the names of several dishes, all of which Lin Jiayin usually likes to eat.
"I may not be able to eat it." Lin Jiayin said after he sat down.
Shen Zhan: "If you can't eat it, you have to eat it."
"Shall we go back and explain to them now?" Lin Jiayin said aggrievedly.
Shen Zhan sighed, and held her hand on the table, "Don't think about anything?"
"Not good." Lin Jiayin shook her head stubbornly.
Because there were few people, the food came out quickly.
Lin Jiayin held the chopsticks and didn't know where to start. She picked up a piece of ribs that she usually liked the most and put it in the bowl. She poked it twice with the chopsticks and stopped.
"Let's go back and explain, shall we?" Lin Jiayin put down her chopsticks and put them on the white porcelain bowl, feeling a little dazed and unsteady.
Both chopsticks fell to the ground, making two light bangs in succession.
Originally, the sound was not loud, but in the quiet and deserted small restaurant, it was infinitely stretched and amplified like an echo.
"Is the explanation useful?" Shen Zhan handed her his own chopsticks, feeling a little annoyed for some reason.
Lin Jiayin looked at him, "It is useful, it must be useful."
"Don't think about everything too simply." Shen Zhan lowered his voice, "Do you understand the feeling of powerlessness that no one believes in explaining, or that it doesn't help if you believe it?"
"I don't understand, but you can't just do nothing, right?" Lin Jiayin raised her voice a little bit. Why did Shen Zhan, who was so proud, become as gloomy as he is now, suppressed in her heart because of Shen Zhan's grievances? A little bit broke out, "So you don't refute a word? Just let them shout at the school gate that you killed Zhao Ye! I don't understand! I don't understand either! But I am wronged, Tao Mo framed me I'm not so wronged, I beg you, can you explain to them now? Okay!"
"Little Sun," Shen Zhan frowned, stretching out his hand to wrap her clenched fist because of excitement, "Don't be angry."
"I'm not angry," Lin Jiayin broke away from his hand, her voice trembling, "I'm just wronged."
"Grieved," Shen Zhan looked at her, "Do you think I'm not wronged anymore?"
"That's not what I meant." Lin Jiayin said.
"Eat first." Shen Zhan said after a moment of silence.
Lin Jiayin didn't take the chopsticks for a long time, "You will explain after eating, right?"
"Eat." Shen Zhan said again.
Lin Jiayin stared into his eyes for a long time, and finally said, "If you don't explain, I will help you."
She stood up as she spoke.
"Lin Jiayin!" Shen Zhan roared, stood up and grabbed her arm, "You want to tell them that I didn't open the door on purpose, right? Did you put on the earphones because you thought Zhao Ye lied to me again? He was at the door I didn't know if it was true during the half an hour I was calling for help!"
Shen Zhan had never yelled at her before, Lin Jiayin was taken aback for a moment, and she was a little confused by the yelling.
"I'm just asking if you are?" Shen Zhan's voice slowed down.
"Yes!" Lin Jiayin also roared.
"And then?" Shen Zhan took two steps to the side, looking directly into her turned eyes.
"What then?" Lin Jiayin asked.
"Everyone will say that I am right, Zhao Ye's death is none of my business," Shen Zhan continued to look at her, "You think so."
"Yes." Lin Jiayin nodded.
"You think that if you believe it, other people will believe it too, right?" Shen Zhan asked a little irritably.
"Yes!" Lin Jiayin turned her head and raised her voice.
Shen Zhan suddenly laughed when he thought of something.
"Dad doesn't believe it very much, will they believe it?"
"Why?" Lin Jiayin's voice trembled again. She always thought that the conflict between Shen Zhan and his father was due to forcing him to become a son at Zhao Ye's house.
"Why?" Shen Zhan looked at her and repeated in a low voice.
Lin Jiayin said: "He is your father, why doesn't he believe you."
"Because I've been indifferent since I was a child, I don't care about everything, and I don't have much affection for people or things." Shen Zhan's voice softened, "Except for you."
Although Dad didn't say it clearly, there are some things that can be seen at a glance, such as thinking that he hates Zhao Ye and deliberately doesn't open the door.
Lin Jiayin looked at him quietly.
"I see you happier, so I'm happier." Shen Zhan's voice was slightly choked, "Why do you have to explain to me? You know, I don't want to see you get hurt, I don't want to see Until you stand in public opinion surrounded by everyone, just like just now, understand?"
Lin Jiayin suddenly felt that she couldn't breathe. She wanted to say something, but her lips parted, but she couldn't speak.
Don't want to see you get hurt.
I don't want to see you standing in public opinion surrounded by everyone.
Has he ever been treated like this
She felt it when she saw him in front of Minghu.
The sense of powerlessness, the oppressive gloom, the incompatible shadow that shrouded the dazzling him, she can still recall that scene until now.
It was as if a hole had been blown out of the chest, and it was chilly.
"Don't think about it anymore, okay? Little Sun," Shen Zhan said softly, "I have to untie the shackles on my body by myself. No one else can do it, not even you. You just have to eat well, and every day Smile at me, I can feel better."
Lin Jiayin looked at him.
"I know you are wronged for me, and I am wronged, but I can't help it." Shen Zhan pulled her back to the seat and pressed her down, "You eat."
Lin Jiayin hesitated for a moment, picked up a piece of meat with the chopsticks on the dish in front of her, and moved her mouth as if chewing wax.
This was the first time she heard Shen Zhan say that there was no way. She never thought that these three words would come out of his mouth. He is so excellent, so powerful, and omnipotent.
Lin Jiayin's throat was blocked, she couldn't swallow what was in her mouth, and her chest felt tight. She regretted her actions just now.
She hadn't experienced it, so she couldn't empathize.
but…
She suddenly understood a problem. Shen Zhan, who had struggled once, did not dare to struggle a second time. He seemed to be afraid... Fear of the powerless feeling that swept through his body that no one would believe after explaining.
But there is always something to do.
"Then you don't do anything?" Lin Jiayin said after swallowing a whole piece of meat, "You can't do nothing."
"My dad can do it, and the school can do it." Shen Zhan said.
Lin Jiayin bit her lip, "What about you?"
"Me?" Shen Zhan thought for a while, "It depends on the situation."
Lin Jiayin let out a low voice.
As if hearing the disappointment in her tone, Shen Zhan took out his phone, swiped his finger on the screen a few times, and clicked on a forum, "Take a look."
Lin Jiayin took the phone suspiciously. It was a forum, all in English.
Although her grades were not good when she was studying, her English was not bad. After a quick scan, she couldn't breathe smoothly.
"This is the school forum of MIT." Shen Zhan said, "The username SZ is me."
Lin Jiayin bit her lower lip.
Shen Zhan replied almost on every floor, whether it was questioning or abusive.
The one-word reply was followed by more vicious ridicule.
Lin Jiayin held the phone, speechless.
"This incident is so coincidental. When I took the transcript, I also admitted that I heard his chest pain." Shen Zhan took the phone back, "If it wasn't for me, I wouldn't believe it."
"I believe it," Lin Jiayin looked at him, "I believe it."
"You believe everything I say." Shen Zhan smiled.
Lin Jiayin shook her head, "It's not because I like you, I know very well that if you knew that Zhao Ye's life was in danger, you would definitely open the door."
"That's not necessarily true." Shen Zhan tried his best to relax his tone, trying to break the gloomy atmosphere between the two of them.
"No," Lin Jiayin looked straight into his eyes, "You will, definitely."
"Yes, I will." Shen Zhan took a deep breath.
Although seventeen years old is immature, but no matter how much he hates a person, he will not make fun of his life.
Lin Jiayin wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say, and finally the phone rang.
"Your phone." Lin Jiayin said.
Shen Zhan turned off the sound, put the phone on the table, it vibrated silently, and the screen turned on.
"No answer?" Lin Jiayin was worried.
Shen Zhan said, "I'll pick you up later, let's eat first."
He seemed to be very obsessed with whether she ate or not, and eating seemed to mean that she would stop thinking about it and stop feeling sorry for him.
"Doesn't the counselor answer?" It was his mother who called before, but this time the caller ID has changed.
Shen Zhan grabbed the phone and turned it off.
The author has something to say: You all ran away, so leave me alone to code, and the second watch depends on the situation.