For Natalie, who came to China for the first time, the experience of these two days is a rare experience, which can be regarded as an eye-opener. Saw so many people! Especially when it was the weekend yesterday, the number of people on the street is probably only as high as the annual Greenwich Village Halloween Parade in New York.
In addition, what China has shown is very different from what is known in the literature and the media, especially those classical cultures that make girls curious, not to mention Angela, a China-savvy person, who is very good around. She translated it in detail, so after hearing that Hangzhou had been the capital of China for more than a hundred years in history, I naturally agreed without thinking.
But what puzzled her was that Angela had never been to China, so why did she know so much about it? Just because grandma is half Chinese? Natalie had also asked her, but she always smiled triumphantly and didn't answer. After a few times, she didn't bother to ask any more.
The car was speeding on the highway, the 6-seater station wagon was rented from Shanghai, and there was also a Chinese driver, about forty years old, very talkative, often there was no ride and the co-pilot Pu Guanshui was talking. It was rare that he could speak English, but it was very lame. Simple communication was no problem. If he talked too much and too complicated, he could not understand it. Natalie wanted to chat with him. Finally gave up.
"Angie, can you tell me more about Hangzhou?" Looking at the scenery outside the car window, Natalie asked suddenly, but she didn't get an answer for a long time. She turned her head and found that Angela, who was sitting beside her, was still looking ahead. , but his eyes were out of focus, and he seemed to be in a daze again.
The reason why I said it again is because since she decided to go to Hangzhou, Angela began to be in a daze occasionally and asked her what was wrong, but she always smiled and said it was okay.
"You're in a daze again, Angie." Natalie frowned and pushed the girl.
"What?" Angela finally reacted, looking at Natalie in confusion.
"You're in a daze again!" Natalie repeated in a serious tone, then raised her arms and looked at her seriously: "What's wrong with you? What's on your mind? A normal person won't be in a daze for no reason!"
"Then treat me as not a normal person." Angela shrugged and spread her hands.
"Angie!" Natalie rolled her eyes, "Don't keep talking like this!"
"Okay. I was actually thinking about it." The girl glanced at the two bodyguards in front of her, and suddenly put an ambiguous touch to her ear, "How about we take a shower together and sleep in the same bed tonight?"
Natalie's face suddenly flashed a blush, she glared at Angela, and the other party shook her hand with a smile: "Okay, I'm joking, I heard your question, don't worry, wait until Hangzhou. I’ll explain it to you while I’m visiting, some things can only be realized by seeing the real thing.”
Glancing at the girl again, Natalie closed her mouth and stopped talking. The atmosphere suddenly became a little dull. She couldn't help but secretly glanced again. Angela had put away her smile at this time, still absent-minded and unfocused. Looking forward, although she concealed it well, Natalie still saw her gloomy expression, and those words just wanted to divert her attention.
What the hell is wrong with you, Angie? Natalie thought silently, a feeling of anxiety that she had never felt in her heart.
Before noon, the group finally arrived in Hangzhou. After staying at the West Lake State Guest House for a while, Angela couldn't wait to go somewhere else. And the destination is neither a scenic spot nor a famous place, but a small town in Xiaoshan District, Pulin Town!
"One of my grandmother's Chinese friends was born there. When I was learning Chinese with my grandmother, I listened to her a lot about the situation there. There are still relatives living there now, so I think that since I have the opportunity, I can go and see it. Not bad." The girl explained her decision.
"Is there? Does the old lady have any friends who were born in Hangzhou?" Pu Guanshui asked, he might just say it casually, but Angela, who heard this, put her hands on her waist and shouted with her eyebrows upside down: " I know what you want to say, yes, I promised my father that I would only travel in China for a few days, but I didn't say that it was only within Shanghai. If I go back to Shanghai and leave by plane at the specified time, even my father can't say What am I!"
In this regard, Pu Guanshui can only raise his hands high and dare not speak again. Although Natalie, who has a panoramic view, is amused by Angela's behavior, she feels that she is making a fuss. What's the matter
There is a rented car, and it is very convenient to go everywhere. Besides, Xiaoshan District is not far from West Lake, but it is only a few dozen minutes away, but the closer it is to Pulin Town, the more uneasy Angela seems to be, not only is she often in a daze , At the same time, the unconscious little movements have not stopped, such as now she is repeatedly pinching her fingers.
Natalie, who has been observing her carefully, can't help frowning slightly. From a psychological point of view, this seems to be called unconscious anxiety disorder? But how could this happen to Angela? Is there anything here that makes her anxious? The girl suddenly wanted to laugh. She felt like she thought too much. You can become a psychologist without reading two psychology books.
At this time, Angela shouted something in Chinese, followed the driver and turned the steering wheel to a street. Following the girl's command, the car finally stopped at the side of an quaint street after turning around the town a few times. down.
As soon as I got off the car, the sun shone down on the hot rays of light, and with the thick clouds, the ground was sultry like a steamer. This neighborhood is a mixture of ancient and modern, but it gives people a very harmonious feeling, perhaps because the town Few foreigners come, and they must be seen a few more times.
But Natalie's attention was all on Angela at this time. She didn't understand why she was directing the car to move forward as if she knew the way, and now she was not happy at all when she reached the destination, but with a daze Looking around, and hiding in front of it was panic, as if seeing something terrible. If Natalie hadn't been caring about her all the time, I'm afraid she wouldn't have seen it at all.
"Angie, what happened?" The girl pulled Angela and asked in a low voice, the inexplicable anxiety in her heart became more and more intense, as if she would lose her if she was not careful.
"It's nothing, I'm just here to see what kind of place the old lady said about Pulin Town. If possible, I would like to see what her relative is like." Angela was smiling, but why? It looks reluctant.
Before she could ask any more questions, the girl had already strode forward, and Natalie could only hurry to keep up. The two bodyguards were still at the end. Along the way, Angela's anxiety and fear hidden in the calm became heavier and heavier. After walking back and forth on the street of just over 100 meters, she began to breathe slightly, her hands tightly clenched into fists, and her joints were numb. Some of them turned pale, and they muttered something from time to time, but unfortunately it was all in Chinese, and Natalie couldn't understand it at all. When asked what she was going to do, she always answered when the time came, so the girl was worried, but she didn't know what to do. Can't do it either.
When they turned back to this street for the fourth time, a middle-aged woman who had been observing for a long time and looked a little wealthy finally stopped them, and after saying a few words to the other party, Anji's eyes lit up, and she suddenly became energetic and quickly. When talking to the other party, the previous anxiety and depression were almost swept away, it was like... grabbed a life-saving straw! The middle-aged woman was startled at first. She probably didn't expect that the other party's Chinese was so fluent, but after a few words, she became very enthusiastic. She pointed at the buildings on the street, which I am most familiar with.
But Natalie still can't understand a word. She has never been so annoyed. She is not bad when it comes to language talent, not to mention French, she can communicate smoothly even in Hebrew. But Chinese is not good, not to mention the strange patterns that make people look big, just listen to the same thing and hear several different pronunciations - she doesn't know how many dialects there are in China.
Natalie didn't want to eavesdrop on anything, she was just worried about Angela, she just wanted to help her, the thought was so strong that she was surprised that she didn't know what to do with herself and Angela before this. .
Are they friends? of course! But who would half force and half seduce their same-sex friend to have sex? Do you hate her that much? of course not! She is the smartest girl she has ever met and knows herself best, and she lives up to her word!
Contradiction but not conflict, right? Why am I always like this to her? Natalie suddenly felt that it was quite appropriate to describe herself as "unceasingly cutting, but still chaotic" that Angela explained to her a few days ago. He frowned and his eyes lit up. He was also Chinese, and he spoke Chinese well. The girl immediately pulled him: "Ryan, Anji, what are they talking about?"
"Oh? Oh! The lady is asking the lady if there is a family surnamed Zhang living at No. 71 on this street." Pu Guanshui translated for her in a low voice, "The lady said no... Miss please She thought about it, she said that she was a clerk in the sub-district office-probably meant that there was no family with the surname Zhang on this street, and the surname Zhang lived in the south... She also said that the surname Zhang was a common surname, and she would not I remember wrong... She added that there is no 71 on this street for a long time, and the houses over there were leveled more than ten years ago..."
Natalie had no time to think about why Angela asked these questions and what it had to do with her previous deeds. She only saw that because of these words, Angela's thumb had already pinched her index finger deeply, hiding the fear. The sense of unease seems to be gradually increasing, and the appearance of calm that has been maintained is about to collapse. Under the big sun, her face is getting paler and her body is swaying gently, giving the illusion that she is slowly heading towards despair. .
Finally the girl said thank you—the only few simple Chinese words Natalie understood—and walked back.
"It looks like there's no one I'm looking for here, maybe I remembered it wrong, so let's go back." Angela said with a smile, quite calm, it didn't seem to be a big deal.
Without waiting for everyone to speak, she turned and walked towards the car. Natalie quickly followed, determined to ask something out, but Angela's body suddenly swayed and she almost fell. Fortunately, the girl hold her up.
"Sorry, the sun is too big, it makes people a little dizzy." Angela held her steady, a self-deprecating smile appeared on her pale face, ignoring that the sun had shrunk into the clouds at this time.
"It's nothing." Natalie shook her head gently, looking at her broken eyes, she felt uncomfortable for a while, and she swallowed the words that were on her lips.
The car started again, and she was dispatched to the town. After returning to the car, Angela seemed to have lost all her strength. She slumped on the seat and leaned softly on Natalie's body, her eyes closed and she did not hide herself.
Natalie patted her shoulder lightly and said nothing. There was a rumbling sound of thunder outside, and the sky that had become gloomy seemed to be about to rain...
When the pouring rain really fell, it was already night. The raindrops hit the lake and made a crackling sound. In the muffled thunder, bolts of lightning ripped apart the night sky, eclipsed the brightly lit Hangzhou city.
In the hot bathroom, Angela closed her eyes and raised her head to face the nozzle, still relying on the hot water to sprinkle on her perfect carcass.
The girl pulled the curtains and was about to get the bath towel when her eyes suddenly fell on the glass mirror in front of the sink.
Angela walked over slowly, put her hand on the mirror surface, and then wiped it a few times, a beautiful white girl was quickly revealed in the mirror, with wet golden brown hair hanging down softly, and her delicate face was inexhaustible. Picky, plump breasts, slender waists, and round buttocks are simply the masterpiece of God. Such stunners are enough to drive every man crazy, but those bright and emerald eyes that have always glittered with allure, Now it was dead ashes, like green spots on a corpse.
The girl looked at the self in the mirror, staring blankly, the place where the palm of the hand overlapped with the palm of the mirror was cold, and then, without warning, tears flowed down.
She covered her mouth fiercely, refusing to let herself make a sound, holding the sink and trembling desperately, her beautiful back arched into a distressing arc, but tears gushed out like a bursting river, The backs of the cheeks and hands rolled down, landing on the skin as hot as magma.
Angela slowly slumped on the cold floor, holding her legs and still raging with tears, the hand covering her mouth was never taken away no matter how much she choked.
"God! Angie, what's wrong with you!" Natalie, who heard the movement breaking into the bathroom, exclaimed in shock, and hurriedly went to help her, but Angela couldn't get up, instead she wrapped Natalie around her. Her slender waist, buried her head in her chest, and choked loudly.
"Okay, Angie, I'm here, don't worry, I'm here, we're all here." Natalie hugged Angela sadly, patted her back and pulled the towel to put it on her.
Finally, after her tears wet her chest, she finally stopped sobbing, and then she went to the room with Natalie's support. As soon as she sat on the sofa, the girl curled up, as if a little sense of security nothing.
"What happened?" Natalie looked at her with pity. Angela, who was one year older than her and one head taller than her, looked so weak and helpless, even in New York four years ago. , In the bathroom of the police station, she is not so vulnerable, like a deer lost in the black forest.
The girl didn't answer, just shook her head slightly.
"If you have something on your mind, you can tell me, I won't tell anyone else."
But she still just shook her head, Natalie sighed, she didn't know what to do for a while, if she could tell all her thoughts, I believe it would be much better, but now she...
"Nat, can I be alone?" Angela said softly suddenly. She buried her head between her legs, unable to see her expression, but her tone was full of exhaustion.
Natalie bit her lip and finally nodded: "Okay, then I'll take a shower first and come back soon."
After standing up, he immediately added: "Don't do stupid things!"
The girl still didn't respond, Natalie smiled wryly, glanced at her again, and went into the bathroom.
At this time, Angela raised her head, and after a moment of silence, she got off the sofa and came to the floor-to-ceiling window to open the curtains. The rainstorm outside kept pounding on the window, dripping watermarks one after another. The girl gently pressed her face to the glass, and it was cold. Although the dense raindrops did not hit her, the scenes during the day had already hit her heart, and she was riddled with holes. Think of the final result will be like this.
"Angie!" Natalie's voice sounded beside her. She came out so quickly, obviously not worried about her.
"You know what, Nat," she said slowly and lowly.
"what?"
"I can't remember how many years it was, 20 years? Or 30? When my parents and I came here to play, and now, the environment of the West Lake has not been damaged too much, the sky and the lake are in contrast, everything is It's so beautiful..." Unconsciously, the corners of her mouth curled up.
“Angie…”
"Shh, don't interrupt me, let me think, let me think again," she closed her eyes, "I have put these things in the deepest memory, I thought I had forgotten them, but now they appear in My eyes are so clear that I even remember the details of the fishing, as if it happened yesterday... But... what's the use of that?"
Angela opened her eyes suddenly, turned around and looked at Natalie with frightening eyes: "I remember very clearly, my family, my parents, my everything, including my life here, The move in 1998, the car accident after that, staying at home, staying at home for 8 years, everything is so clear, but what's the use! What the fuck is there! Did this really exist?!"
The girl waved her hands frantically and walked around the room hysterically: "No! Nothing! No trace at all! Nothing at all! Why! Why!"
"Calm down, Angie!" Natalie stepped forward to grab her.
"Don't touch me!" the girl screamed, slapping her hand aside, "Who the fuck am I! Zhang Dongliang?! Angela Mason?! Chinese?! American?! Man?! Woman? !"
"Angie! Listen to me!" Natalie stood carefully in front of her with raised hands, "No matter what happened to you, no matter what you encountered, please believe that there is always a solution, if you want, you can I will discuss and there will be a way!"
Angela was gasping for breath, she stared at her in a daze, the anxiety and worry on her face were so conspicuous, tears suddenly poured out again, the girl covered her face fiercely, and sobbed: "This is just a dream, Right, I just had a dream, right, just a dream…”
Natalie took her into her arms sadly. Although she didn't know why she did this, the pain and helplessness the girl showed made her feel as if a knife had been inserted into her heart.
"Don't worry, it will be fine, I promise, you will be fine." She could only comfort her like this.
Suddenly, Angela picked Natalie up and pressed her to the ground before she could react.
"Angie!" Natalie grabbed the girl's shoulders in panic, trying to push her away, but Angela's kisses had already rained down on her face and neck.
"Don't reject me, okay? Nat? Please, don't reject me, please." That low cry with a cry made Natalie unable to think of rejection anyway, and finally sighed in her heart , then relaxed her body, and then, Angela kissed her lips!